"Did not sleep at all during night. Face set and eyes staring, but complains of no pain. Refused milk at eleven and three."
Carlotta Harrison, back from her vacation, reported for duty the next morning, and was a.s.signed to E ward, which was Sidney"s. She gave Sidney a curt little nod, and proceeded to change the entire routine with the thoroughness of a Central American revolutionary president. Sidney, who had yet to learn that with some people authority can only a.s.sert itself by change, found herself confused, at sea, half resentful.
Once she ventured a protest:--
"I"ve been taught to do it that way, Miss Harrison. If my method is wrong, show me what you want, and I"ll do my best."
"I am not responsible for what you have been taught. And you will not speak back when you are spoken to."
Small as the incident was, it marked a change in Sidney"s position in the ward. She got the worst off-duty of the day, or none. Small humiliations were hers: late meals, disagreeable duties, endless and often unnecessary tasks. Even Miss Grange, now reduced to second place, remonstrated with her senior.
"I think a certain amount of severity is good for a probationer," she said, "but you are brutal, Miss Harrison."
"She"s stupid."
"She"s not at all stupid. She"s going to be one of the best nurses in the house."
"Report me, then. Tell the Head I"m abusing Dr. Wilson"s pet probationer, that I don"t always say "please" when I ask her to change a bed or take a temperature."
Miss Grange was not lacking in keenness. She died not go to the Head, which is unethical under any circ.u.mstances; but gradually there spread through the training-school a story that Carlotta Harrison was jealous of the new Page girl, Dr. Wilson"s protegee. Things were still highly unpleasant in the ward, but they grew much better when Sidney was off duty. She was asked to join a small cla.s.s that was studying French at night. As ignorant of the cause of her popularity as of the reason of her persecution, she went steadily on her way.
And she was gaining every day. Her mind was forming. She was learning to think for herself. For the first time, she was facing problems and demanding an answer. Why must there be Grace Irvings in the world? Why must the healthy babies of the obstetric ward go out to the slums and come back, in months or years, crippled for the great fight by the handicap of their environment, rickety, tuberculous, twisted? Why need the huge mills feed the hospitals daily with injured men?
And there were other things that she thought of. Every night, on her knees in the nurses" parlor at prayers, she promised, if she were accepted as a nurse, to try never to become calloused, never to regard her patients as "cases," never to allow the cleanliness and routine of her ward to delay a cup of water to the thirsty, or her arms to a sick child.
On the whole, the world was good, she found. And, of all the good things in it, the best was service. True, there were hot days and restless nights, weary feet, and now and then a heartache. There was Miss Harrison, too. But to offset these there was the sound of Dr. Max"s step in the corridor, and his smiling nod from the door; there was a "G.o.d bless you" now and then for the comfort she gave; there were wonderful nights on the roof under the stars, until K."s little watch warned her to bed.
While Sidney watched the stars from her hospital roof, while all around her the slum children, on other roofs, fought for the very breath of life, others who knew and loved her watched the stars, too. K. was having his own troubles in those days. Late at night, when Anna and Harriet had retired, he sat on the balcony and thought of many things.
Anna Page was not well. He had noticed that her lips were rather blue, and had called in Dr. Ed. It was valvular heart disease. Anna was not to be told, or Sidney. It was Harriet"s ruling.
"Sidney can"t help any," said Harriet, "and for Heaven"s sake let her have her chance. Anna may live for years. You know her as well as I do.
If you tell her anything at all, she"ll have Sidney here, waiting on her hand and foot."
And Le Moyne, fearful of urging too much because his own heart was crying out to have the girl back, a.s.sented.
Then, K. was anxious about Joe. The boy did not seem to get over the thing the way he should. Now and then Le Moyne, resuming his old habit of wearying himself into sleep, would walk out into the country. On one such night he had overtaken Joe, tramping along with his head down.
Joe had not wanted his company, had plainly sulked. But Le Moyne had persisted.
"I"ll not talk," he said; "but, since we"re going the same way, we might as well walk together."
But after a time Joe had talked, after all. It was not much at first--a feverish complaint about the heat, and that if there was trouble in Mexico he thought he"d go.
"Wait until fall, if you"re thinking of it," K. advised. "This is tepid compared with what you"ll get down there."
"I"ve got to get away from here."
K. nodded understandingly. Since the scene at the White Springs Hotel, both knew that no explanation was necessary.
"It isn"t so much that I mind her turning me down," Joe said, after a silence. "A girl can"t marry all the men who want her. But I don"t like this hospital idea. I don"t understand it. She didn"t have to go.
Sometimes"--he turned bloodshot eyes on Le Moyne--"I think she went because she was crazy about somebody there."
"She went because she wanted to be useful."
"She could be useful at home."
For almost twenty minutes they tramped on without speech. They had made a circle, and the lights of the city were close again. K. stopped and put a kindly hand on Joe"s shoulder.
"A man"s got to stand up under a thing like this, you know. I mean, it mustn"t be a knockout. Keeping busy is a darned good method."
Joe shook himself free, but without resentment. "I"ll tell you what"s eating me up," he exploded. "It"s Max Wilson. Don"t talk to me about her going to the hospital to be useful. She"s crazy about him, and he"s as crooked as a dog"s hind leg."
"Perhaps. But it"s always up to the girl. You know that."
He felt immeasurably old beside Joe"s boyish bl.u.s.tering--old and rather helpless.
"I"m watching him. Some of these days I"ll get something on him. Then she"ll know what to think of her hero!"
"That"s not quite square, is it?"
"He"s not square."
Joe had left him then, wheeling abruptly off into the shadows. K. had gone home alone, rather uneasy. There seemed to be mischief in the very air.
CHAPTER XII
Tillie was gone.
Oddly enough, the last person to see her before she left was Harriet Kennedy. On the third day after Mr. Schwitter"s visit, Harriet"s colored maid had announced a visitor.
Harriet"s business instinct had been good. She had taken expensive rooms in a good location, and furnished them with the a.s.sistance of a decor store. Then she arranged with a New York house to sell her models on commission.
Her short excursion to New York had marked for Harriet the beginning of a new heaven and a new earth. Here, at last, she found people speaking her own language. She ventured a suggestion to a manufacturer, and found it greeted, not, after the manner of the Street, with scorn, but with approval and some surprise.
"About once in ten years," said Mr. Arthurs, "we have a woman from out of town bring us a suggestion that is both novel and practical. When we find people like that, we watch them. They climb, madame,--climb."
Harriet"s climbing was not so rapid as to make her dizzy; but business was coming. The first time she made a price of seventy-five dollars for an evening gown, she went out immediately after and took a drink of water. Her throat was parched.
She began to learn little quips of the feminine mind: that a woman who can pay seventy-five will pay double that sum; that it is not considered good form to show surprise at a dressmaker"s prices, no matter how high they may be; that long mirrors and artificial light help sales--no woman over thirty but was grateful for her pink-and-gray room with its soft lights. And Harriet herself conformed to the picture. She took a lesson from the New York modistes, and wore trailing black gowns. She strapped her thin figure into the best corset she could get, and had her black hair marcelled and dressed high. And, because she was a lady by birth and instinct, the result was not incongruous, but refined and rather impressive.
She took her business home with her at night, lay awake scheming, and wakened at dawn to find fresh color combinations in the early sky. She wakened early because she kept her head tied up in a towel, so that her hair need be done only three times a week. That and the corset were the penalties she paid. Her high-heeled shoes were a torment, too; but in the work-room she kicked them off.
To this new Harriet, then, came Tillie in her distress. Tillie was rather overwhelmed at first. The Street had always considered Harriet "proud." But Tillie"s urgency was great, her methods direct.
"Why, Tillie!" said Harriet.