Killer of Men.
by CHRISTIAN CAMERON.
It may seem odd to you, thugater thugater, who has only known me as an old man, and an aristocrat, that I was once young and poor. And indeed, when the singers rise to sing of our ancestors, and men say that we are descended from Heracles and Zeus, I always laugh in my gut, because when I was young the smell of sheep dung was more common in our house than the smell of incense, and my mother"s hands were red and hard, despite her high birth and constant complaints.
But you, who have soft hands and whose only work is the loom, should know that those days were happy days too. And that it is worth knowing that a man can live as happily on a farm in Boeotia as in a city in Asia. Life is not all rose water and porphyry.
Listen then. And may the Muses aid me I am old, and my memory may lose the furrow where the plough should go. I pour this libation to Heracles, my ancestor, who endured the twelve labours, and to all the jealous G.o.ds, who gave me this good life, despite famine and peril, and a long war.
Part I
The Lovely Bloom of Youth.
As long as some mortal has the lovely bloom of youth, he plans with a light heart many things that are never to be fulfilled. As long as some mortal has the lovely bloom of youth, he plans with a light heart many things that are never to be fulfilled.
Simonides, fr. 20
1.
The thing that I remember best and maybe it"s my first memory, too is the forge. My father, the smith aye, he farmed too, because every free man in Boeotia counted his wealth in farmland but Pater was the bronze-smith, the best in our village, the best in Plataea, and women said that he had the touch of the G.o.d upon him, because he had a battle wound that made him lame in his left foot, and because his pots never leaked. We were simple folk in Boeotia, not fancy boys like Athenians or joyless killers like the men of Sparta we valued a man who made a pot that didn"t leak. When Pater pounded out a seam, that seam held. And he liked to add more he was always a man to give more than he got, so that a housewife who paid him ten hard-won drachmas and a bowl of potted rabbit might find that Pater had put a carefully tooled likeness of Demeter or Hecate beneath the rim of the pot, or worked her name into the handle of the cauldron or tripod.
Pater did good work and he was fair. What"s more, he had stood his ground twice in the storm of bronze, so that every man knew his measure. And for all that, he was always ready to share a cup of wine, so the front of the smithy had become a gathering place for all the men of our little village on a fair day when the ploughing was done and sometimes even a singer or a minstrel, a rhapsode rhapsode. The smithy itself was like a lord"s hall, as men brought Pater their quarrels all except his own b.l.o.o.d.y family, and more of that later or came to tell him their little triumphs.
He was not much as a father. Not that he hit me more than a dozen times, and every one deserved, as I still remember. I once used my father"s name to buy a knife in the polis polis a foolish thing, but I wanted that knife. It broke in my hand later yet another tale, la.s.s but I meant no harm. When Pater learned that I had pledged his name for a simple blade he"d have made me himself, he struck me with the whole weight of his fist. I cried for a day from the shame. a foolish thing, but I wanted that knife. It broke in my hand later yet another tale, la.s.s but I meant no harm. When Pater learned that I had pledged his name for a simple blade he"d have made me himself, he struck me with the whole weight of his fist. I cried for a day from the shame.
He had the raising of us all to himself, you see. My mother was drunk from the time I first remember her drinking away the forge, Pater would say when the darkness was on him. She"s your grandmother, la.s.s I shouldn"t speak ill of her, and I"ll try to tell her true, but it"s not pretty.
She was the daughter of a lord, a real lord, a basileus basileus from down the valley in Thespiae. They met at the Great Daidala in the year of the Olympics, and the rumour of my youth had it that she was the wildest and the most beautiful of all the daughters of Apollo, and that Pater swept her up in his great arms and carried her off in the old way, and that the basileus swore a curse on their marriage. from down the valley in Thespiae. They met at the Great Daidala in the year of the Olympics, and the rumour of my youth had it that she was the wildest and the most beautiful of all the daughters of Apollo, and that Pater swept her up in his great arms and carried her off in the old way, and that the basileus swore a curse on their marriage.
I respect the G.o.ds I"ve seen them. But I"m not one to believe that Hera comes to curse a woman"s womb, nor Ares to push a spear aside. The G.o.ds love them that love themselves Mater said that, so she wasn"t a total failure as a mother, I reckon. But she never did aught to love herself, and her curse was her looks and her birth.
She had three children for Pater. I was the middle one my older brother came first by a year, and he should have had the smithy and maybe the farm besides, but I never faulted him for it. He had red hair and we called him "Chalkidis", the copper boy. He was big and brave and all a boy could want in an older brother.
I had a sister, too still do, unless Artemis put an arrow into her. My mother gave her the name of Penelope, and the G.o.ds must have been listening.
I know nothing of those first years, when Pater was as handsome as a G.o.d, and Mater loved him, and she sang in the forge. Men say they were like G.o.ds, but men say a great many things when an event is safely in the past they tell a lot of lies. I"ll no doubt tell you a few myself. Old man"s prerogative. I gathered that they were happy, though.
But nothing ended as my mother expected. I think she wanted something greater from my father, or from herself, or perhaps from the G.o.ds. She began to go up in the hills with the maenads and ran wild with other women, and there were words in the forge. And then came the first of the Theban years when the men of Thebes came against us.
What do you know of Thebes? It is a name in legend to you. To us, it was the curse of our lives poor Plataea, so far from the G.o.ds, so close to Thebes. Thebes was a city that could muster fifteen thousand hoplites, while we could, in an emergency and freeing and arming our most trustworthy slaves, muster fifteen hundred good men. And this is before we made the Great Alliance with Athens. So we were a lonely little polis with no friends, like a man whose plough is broken and none of his neighbours have a plough to loan.
They came at us just after the grain harvest, and the men went off to war. Whenever I hear the Iliad Iliad, thugater, I weep when I hear of mighty Hector"s son being afraid of his father"s shining helmet. How well I remember it, and Pater standing there in his panoply, the image of Ares. He had a bronze-faced shield and a splendid helmet he had forged himself from one piece of bronze. His horsehair plume was black and red for the smith G.o.d. He wore a breastplate of solid bronze, again of his own making, and thigh guards and arm guards of a kind you scarcely see any more aye, they were better men. He carried two spears in the old way, and long greaves on his legs, and when he stood in the courtyard with the whole panoply he gleamed like gold.
Mater was drunk when she poured the libation. I can see it in my head she came out in a white chiton chiton, like a kore kore going to sacrifice, but the chiton had purple stains. When she went to bless his shield she stumbled and poured wine down his leg, and the slaves murmured. And she wept, and ran inside. going to sacrifice, but the chiton had purple stains. When she went to bless his shield she stumbled and poured wine down his leg, and the slaves murmured. And she wept, and ran inside.
So Pater went off to fight Thebes, and he came back carried by two men on his chlamys chlamys and his spears, and his shield was gone. We lost. And Pater lost most of the use of his left leg, where Mater spilled the wine, and after that there was nothing between them but silence. and his spears, and his shield was gone. We lost. And Pater lost most of the use of his left leg, where Mater spilled the wine, and after that there was nothing between them but silence.
I suppose I was five. Chalkidis was six, and we lay in the loft of the barn and he whispered to me about Pater"s part in the battle and about our cousins the grandsons of Pater"s father"s brother. Aye, thugater, we count such relations close in Boeotia. Pater had no brothers his father must have read Hesiod one too many times and this batch of surly cousins were the nearest relations I had on Pater"s side. On Mater"s side they scarcely allowed that we were kin until later, and that"s another tale, but a happier one.
My brother said that Pater was a hero, that he"d stood his ground when other men ran, and he saved many lives and that when the Thebans took him, they hadn"t stripped him, but ransomed him like a lord. I was young and I knew nothing of ransom, only that Pater, who towered over me like a G.o.d, was unable to walk and his mood was dark.
"The other Corvaxae were the first to run," Chalkidis whispered. "They ran and left Pater"s side open to the spears, and now they slink through the town and fear what Pater will say."
We were the Corvaxae the men of the Raven. Apollo"s raven. Look up, la.s.s there"s the black bird on my aspis aspis, and may the G.o.ds send I never feel it on my arm again! You know what the sage says count no man happy until he is dead. I pour a libation in his memory may his shade taste the wine.
The black bird is also on our sails and on our house. I was five I knew little of this, except that I knew that Pater told me it was a good omen when a raven landed on the roof of the smithy. And our women were Corvaxae, too black-haired and pale-skinned, and clannish. No man in our valley wanted to cross my mother, or my sister, in their day. They were Ravens of Apollo.
And the truth is that my story starts in that fight. It is from that day that the other Corvaxae turned against Pater, and then against me. And from that day that the men of Plataea decided to find a new way of keeping their little town free of Thebes.
It took Pater almost a year to get to his feet. Before that year, I reckon we were rich, as peasants in Boeotia measured riches. We had a yoke of oxen and two ploughs, a house built of stone with a tower, a barn that stood all weather and the smithy. Pater wore the full panoply when the muster was called, like a lord. We ate meat on feast days and we had wine all year.
But I was old enough to understand that at the end of that year we were not rich. Mater"s gold pin went, and all our metal cups. And my first bad memory my first memory of fear is from that year.
Simonalkes the eldest of the other branch of the Corvaxae, a big, strong man with a dark face came to our house. Pater had to walk with a crutch, but he rose as fast as he could, cursing the slaves who helped him. My brother was in the andron andron the men"s room pouring wine for Simon like a proper boy. Simon put his feet up on a bench. the men"s room pouring wine for Simon like a proper boy. Simon put his feet up on a bench.
"You"ll be needing money," Simon said to Pater. Not even a greeting.
Pater"s face grew red, but he bowed his head. "Are you offering me aid, cousin?"
Simon shook his head. "You need no charity. I"ll offer you a loan against the farm."
Pater shook his head. "No," he said. If Pater thought that he was hiding his anger, he was wrong.
"Still too proud, smith?" Simon said, and his lip curled.
"Proud enough to stand my ground," Pater said, and Simon"s face changed colour. He got up.
"Is this the famous hospitality of the Corvaxae?" Simon said. "Or has your wh.o.r.e of a wife debased you, too?" He looked at me. "Neither of these boys has your look, cousin."
"Leave my house," Pater said.
"I came to tender help," Simon said, "but I"m met by accusations and insults."
"Leave my house," Pater said.
Simon hooked his fingers in his belt and planted his feet. He looked around. "Is it your your house, cousin?" He smiled grimly. "Our grandfather built this house. Why is it house, cousin?" He smiled grimly. "Our grandfather built this house. Why is it yours yours?" Simon sneered he was always good at sneering and snapped his fingers. "Perhaps you"ll marry again and get an heir."
"My sons are my heirs," Pater said carefully, as if speaking a foreign language.
"Your sons are the children of some strangers on the hillside," our cousin said.
Pater looked as angry as I"d ever known him, and I"d never seen two grown men take this tone the tone of hate. I"d heard it from Mater in the women"s quarters, but I"d never heard it rise to conflict. I was afraid. And what was I hearing? It was as if cousin Simon was saying that I was not my father"s son.
"Bion!" Pater shouted, and his biggest slave came running. Bion was a strong man, a trustworthy man with a wife and children who knew he"d be freed as soon as the money came back, and he was loyal. That"s right, thugater. Melissa is Bion"s granddaughter, and now she"s your handmaiden. She"s never been a slave, but Bion was once. As was I, la.s.s, so don"t you wrinkle your nose.
"You"ll be even poorer if I have to kill your slave," Simon said.
Pater thumped one crutch-step closer and his heavy staff shot out and caught Simon in the shin. Simon went down and then Pater hit him in the groin, so that he screamed like a woman in childbirth I knew that sound well enough, because Bion"s wife provided him with a child every year.
Pater wasn"t done. He stood over Simon with his staff raised. "You think I"m afraid of you, you coward!" he said. "You think I don"t know why I"m lame? You ran. You left me in the bronze storm. And now you come here and your mouth pours out filth." He was panting and I was more afraid, because Simon was wheezing, down on the floor, and Pater had hurt him. It was not like two boys behind the barn. It was real real.
Simon got himself up and he pushed against Bion. "Let go, slave!" he croaked. "Or I"ll come back for you." He leaned against the doorway, but Bion ignored him, linked an arm under his chin despite his size and dragged him from the room.
All the oikia oikia the household, slaves and free followed the action into the courtyard. Simon wouldn"t stop he cursed us, and he cursed the whole oikia, and he promised that when he came into his own he"d sell all the slaves and burn their houses. Now I know it for what it was the bl.u.s.terings of an impotent but angry man. But at the time it sounded like the death curse of some fallen hero, and I feared him. I feared that everything he said would come to pa.s.s. the household, slaves and free followed the action into the courtyard. Simon wouldn"t stop he cursed us, and he cursed the whole oikia, and he promised that when he came into his own he"d sell all the slaves and burn their houses. Now I know it for what it was the bl.u.s.terings of an impotent but angry man. But at the time it sounded like the death curse of some fallen hero, and I feared him. I feared that everything he said would come to pa.s.s.
He said that he"d lain with our mother in the hills, and he said that Pater was a fool who had risked all their lives in the battle and who sought death rather than face his wife"s infidelity. He shouted that we were all b.a.s.t.a.r.ds, and he shouted that the basileus, the local aristocrat, would come for the farm because he was jealous of Pater.
And all the time Bion dragged him from the yard.
It was ugly.
And when he was gone, Pater wept. And that made me even more afraid.
It seemed as if the roof had fallen in on our lives, but it was not many weeks later when Pater brought the priest to the forge, all the way from Thebes. He rebuilt the fire and the priest of Hephaestus took his silver drachma and made a thorough job of it; he used good incense from the east and he poured a libation from a proper cup, although made of clay and not metal as we expected. Because Chalkidis and I were old enough to help in the forge, he made us initiates. Bion was already an initiate Hephaestus cares nothing for slave and free, but only that a craftsman gives unstintingly to his craft and he advanced a degree. It was very holy and it helped to make me feel that my world was going to be restored. We swept the forge from top to bottom and Pater made a joke the only one I can remember.
"I must have the only clean forge in all h.e.l.las," he said to the priest.
The priest laughed. "You took that wound fighting us last year," he said. He pointed at Pater"s leg.
"Aye," Pater allowed. He was not a man given to long speeches.
"Front rank?" the priest asked.
Pater pulled his beard. "You were there?"
The priest nodded. "I close the first file for my tribe," he said. It was a position of real honour the priest was a man who knew his battles.
"I"m the centre man in the front rank," Pater said. He shrugged. "Or I was."
"You held us a good long time," the Theban said. "And to be honest, I knew your device the raven. Apollo"s raven for a smith?"
My father grinned. He liked the priest a small miracle in itself and that smile made my life better. "We"re sons of Heracles here. I serve Hephaestus and we"ve had the raven on our house since my grandfather"s grandfather came here." He kept grinning, and just for a moment he was a much younger man. "My father always said that the G.o.ds were sufficiently capricious that we needed to serve a couple at a time."
That was Pater"s longest sentence in a year.
The priest laughed. "I should be getting back," he said. "It"ll be dark by the time I see the gates of Thebes."
Pater shook his head. "Let me relight the fire," he said. "I"ll make you a gift and that will please the G.o.d. Then you can eat in my house and sleep on a good couch, and go back to Thebes rested."
The priest bowed. "Who can refuse a gift?" he said.
But Pater"s face darkened. "Wait," he said, "and see what it is. The lame G.o.d may not return my skill to me. It has been too long."
The fire was laid. The priest went out into the sunshine and took from his girdle a piece of crystal a beautiful thing, as clear as a maiden"s eye, and he held it in the sun. He called my brother and I followed him, as younger brothers follow older brothers, and he laughed. "Two for the price of one, eh?" he said.
"Is it magic, lord?" my brother asked.
The priest shook his head. "There are charlatans who would tell you so," he said. "But I love the new philosophy as much as I love my crafty G.o.d. This is a thing of making. Men made this. It is called a lens, and a craftsman made it from rock crystal in a town in Syria. It takes the rays of the sun and it burnishes them the way your father burnishes bronze, and makes them into fire. Watch."
He placed a little pile of shavings of dry willow on the ground, then he held the lens just so. And before we were fidgeting, the little pile began to smoke.
"Run and get me some tow from your mother and her maidens," the priest said to me, and I ran I didn"t want to miss a moment of this philosophy philosophy.
I hurried up the steps to the exhedra exhedra and my sister opened the door. She was five, blonde and chubby and forthright. "What?" she asked me. and my sister opened the door. She was five, blonde and chubby and forthright. "What?" she asked me.
"I need a handful of tow," I said.
"What for?" she asked.
We were never adversaries, Penelope and I. So I told her, and she got the tow and carried it to the priest herself, and he was tolerant, flicking her a smile and accepting the tow with a bow as if she were some lord"s kore serving at his altar. And all the time his left hand, holding the lens, never moved.
The light fell in a tiny pinpoint too bright to watch, and the willow shavings smoked and smoked.
"I could blow on it," I said.
The priest looked at me strangely. Then he nodded. "Go ahead," he said.
So I lay down in the dust and blew on the shavings very gently. At first nothing happened, and then I almost blew them all over the yard. My brother punched me in the arm. The priest laughed.
Quickly, I ran into the shop, where Pater stood by his cold forge with a distant look on his face, and I took the tube we used for controlling the heat of the forge a bronze tube. I ran back into the yard, put the end of the tube near the pinpoint of light and gave a puff, and before my heart beat ten times, I had fire.
The priest wasn"t laughing any more. He lifted the tow, put the flames in the midst and caught the tow, so that he seemed to have a handful of fire, and then he walked into the forge at a dignified pace, and we followed him. He laid the fire in the forge under the sc.r.a.ps and the bark and the good dry oak, and the night-black charcoal from mighty Cithaeron"s flanks. The fire of the sun, brought down from the sky by his lens, lit the forge.
Pater was not a man easily moved, but he watched the fire with a look on his face like hunger in a slave. Then he busied himself managing the fire the hearth had been cold for a long time, and he needed coals to accomplish even the slightest work. So my brother and I carried wood and charcoal, and the priest sang a long hymn to the smith G.o.d, and the fire leaped and burned through the afternoon, and before long there was a good bed of coals.
Pater took down a leather bag full of sand from his bench, and he had Bion cut him a circle of bronze as big as a man"s hand. Then, with that hungry look, he took the bronze in his great hand and set the edge to the leather bag. and after a brief pause his rounded hammer fell on the bronze in a series of strokes almost too fast to see.
That"s another sight I"ll never forget Pater, almost blind with his l.u.s.t to do his work, and the hammer falling, the strokes precise as his left hand turned the bronze strike, turn, strike, turn.
It was the bowl of a cup before I needed ten breaths. Not a priest"s holy cup, but the kind of cup a man likes to have on a trip, to show he"s no slave the cup you use to drink wine in a strange place, that reminds you of home.