"It would certainly be difficult to describe," said Edith.
They had tried every name they had ever heard of, and Dilly declared it had answered to them all, if answering meant jumping rather wildly round them and barking as if in the very highest spirits, it certainly had.
"It"ll be fun to see my name in the paper," said Archie thoughtfully.
"Indeed you won"t see your name in the paper."
"Well, I found it," said Archie rather sulkily.
"Yes; but you had no right to find it, and still less to bring it home.
I don"t know what your father will say."
Bruce at once said that it must be taken to Scotland Yard. Dilly cried bitterly, and said she wanted it to eat out of her hand, and save her life in a snowstorm.
"It"s not a St Bernard, you utter little fool," said her brother.
"Well, it might save me from drowning," said Dilly.
She had once seen a picture, which she longed to realise, of a dog swimming, holding a child in its mouth. She thought it ought to be called Faithful or Rover.
All these romantic visions had to be given up. Madame Frabelle said the only thing to do was to take it at once to the Battersea Dogs" Home, where it would be "happy with companions of its own age". Immediately after dinner her suggestion was carried out, to the great relief of most of the household. The nurse said when it had gone that she had "known all along it was mad, but didn"t like to say so."
"But it took such a fancy to me," said Archie.
"Perhaps that was why," said Dilly.
The children were separated by force.
CHAPTER XIV
For a woman who was warm-hearted, sensitive and thoughtful, Edith had a singularly happy disposition. First, she was good-tempered; not touchy, not easily offended about trifles. Such vanity as she had was not in an uneasy condition; she cared very little for general admiration, and had no feeling for compet.i.tion. She was without ambition to be superior to others. Then, though she saw more deeply into things than the generality of women, she was not fond of dwelling on the sad side of life. Very small things pleased her, while trifles did not annoy her. Hers was not the placidity of the stupid, fat, contented person who never troubles about other people.
She was rather of a philosophical turn, and her philosophy tended to seeing the brighter side. Where she was singularly fortunate was that though she felt pleasure deeply--a temperament that feels pain in proportion--her suffering, though acute, seldom lasted long. There was an elasticity in her disposition that made her rebound quickly from a blow.
Her affections were intense, but she did not suffer the usual penalty of love--a continual dread of losing the loved object. If she adored her children and was thankful for their health and beauty, she was not exactly what is called an anxious mother. She thought much about them, and was very determined to have her own way in anything concerning them.
That, indeed, was a subject on which she would give way to no-one. But as she had so far succeeded in directing them according to her own ideas, she was satisfied. And she was very hopeful. She could look forward to happiness, but troubles she dealt with as they arose.
Certainly, after the first few months of their marriage, Bruce had turned out a disappointment. But now that she knew him, knew the worst of him, she did not think bad. He had an irritating personality. But most people had to live with someone who was a little irritating; and she was so accustomed to his various ways and weaknesses that she could deal with them unmoved, almost mechanically. She did not take him seriously. She would greatly have preferred, of course, that he should understand her, that she could look up to him and lean on him. But as this was not so, she made the best of it, and managed to be contented enough. Three years ago she had not even known she could be deeply in love.
She had loved Aylmer Ross. But even at that time, when Bruce gave her the opportunity, by his wild escapade with Miss Argles, to free herself and marry Aylmer--her ideal of divine happiness at the time--somehow she could not do it. She had a curious sense of responsibility towards Bruce, which came in the way.
Often since then she had had regrets; she had even felt it had been a mistake to throw away such a chance. But she reflected that she would have regrets anyhow. It would have worried her to know that Bruce needed her. For all that, she knew he did, if unconsciously. So she had made up her mind to content herself with a life which, though peaceful, was certainly, to her temperament, decidedly incomplete.
Edith had other sources of happiness more acute than that of the average. She took an intense and keen enjoyment in life itself.
Everything interested her, amused her. She was never bored. She so much enjoyed the mere spectacle of life that she never required to be the central figure. When she had to play the part of a mere spectator it didn"t depress her; she could delight in society and in character as if at a theatre. On the other hand, as she had a good deal of initiative and a strong personality, she could also revel in action, in playing a princ.i.p.al part. Under a quiet manner her courage was daring and her spirit high. Unless someone or something was actively tormenting her, to an extent quite insupportable, she was contented, even gay.
Her past romance with Aylmer had naturally opened to her a source of delight that she knew nothing of before.
Since she had seen him again she scarcely knew how she felt about it.
This day she was to see him again alone, because he wished it, and because Dulcie Clay had begged her to gratify the wish.
Why was it, she asked herself, that the little nurse desired they should be alone together? It was perfectly clear, to a woman with Edith"s penetration, that Dulcie was in love with Aylmer. Also, she was equally sure that the girl believed Aylmer to be devoted to her, Edith. Then it must be the purest unselfishness. Dulcie probably, she thought, loved him with a kind of hopeless worship. She had seen him ill and weak, she pitied him, she wanted him to be happy. In return for this generosity Edith felt a generous kindness for her, a sympathy that she would never have believed she could feel at seeing such a beautiful girl on those rather intimate terms with Aylmer.
It must mean, simply, that Edith knew Aylmer cared for her still. A look was enough to convince her that at least he still took a great and deep interest in her. And she wanted to come to an understanding with him, or she could have avoided a _tete-a-tete_.
During the three years he had been away the feeling had calmed down, but the ideal was still there, and the memory. Whenever Bruce was maddening--which was fairly often--when she heard music, when she saw beautiful scenery, when she was reading a romantic book, when any other man admired her, Aylmer was always in her thoughts.
When Edith saw him again she was not sure that she had not worn out her pa.s.sion by dwelling on it. But that might easily be caused by the mere _gene_ of the first two or three meetings. There is a shyness, a sort of coldness, in meeting again a person one has pa.s.sionately loved. To see the dream in flesh and blood, the thought made concrete, once more brings poetry down to prose. Then the terms they met on now were changed. He was playing such a different part. Instead of the strong, determined man who had voluntarily left her, refusing to know her as a friend, and reproaching her bitterly for playing with him, as he called it, here was a broken invalid, a pathetic figure who appealed to entirely different sentiments. There is naturally something maternal in a woman"s feeling to a sick man. There was also the halo that surrounds the wounded hero. He was not ill through weakness, but through strength and courage.
She found herself thinking of him day and night, but it was in a different way. It might be because he had not yet referred to their past love affair.
Edith dressed with unusual care to go and see him today. Even if a woman wishes to discourage or to break off all relations with a man, she doesn"t, after all, wish to leave a disagreeable impression.
Her prettiness and charm--of which she was modestly but confidently aware, by her experience of its effect--was a great satisfaction. It was remarkably noticeable today. In front of the gla.s.s Edith hesitated between her favourite plain sailor hat and a new black velvet toque, which shaded her eyes, contrasting with the fair hair of which very little showed, and giving her an aspect of dashing yet discreet coquetry. She looked younger in the other sailor hat (so she decided when she put it on again) and more as she used to look. Which was the more attractive? She decided on novelty, and went out, finally, in the toque.
Of course only another woman could have appreciated the remarkable fact that she could wear at thirty-five such a small hat and yet look fresh.
Certainly a brim was more flattering to most women of her age, but the contour of Edith"s face was still as youthful as ever; she had one of those clearly shaped oval faces that are not disposed to growing thick and broad, or to haggardness. The oval might be a shade wider than it was three years ago; that was all the more becoming; did it not make the features look smaller?
As she went out she laughed at herself for giving so much thought to her appearance. It was as though she believed she was going to play an important part in the chief scene of a play.
Once dressed, as usual she lost all self-consciousness, and thought of outside things.
Miss Clay was out, as she had told Edith she would be, and the servant showed her in.
She saw at once that Aylmer, also, had been looking forward to this moment with some excitement. He, too, had dressed with special care; and she knew, without being told, that orders had been given to receive no other visitors.
He was sitting in an arm-chair, with the bandaged leg on the other chair, a small table by his side laid for tea. Even a kettle was boiling (no doubt to avoid interruption). It was his old brown library, where she had occasionally seen him with others in the old days. But this was literally the first time she had seen him in his own house alone.
It was essentially a man"s room. Comfortable, but not exactly luxurious; very little was sacrificed to decoration.
There were a few very old dark pictures on the walls. The room was crammed with books in long, low bookcases. On the mantelpiece was a pewter vase of cerise-coloured carnations.
An uncut _English Review_ was in his hand, but he threw it on the floor with a characteristic gesture as she came in.
"You look very comfortable," said Edith, as she took her seat in the arm-chair placed for her.
He answered gravely, speaking in his direct, quick way, with his sincere manner:
"It was very good of you to come."
"Shall I pour out your tea?"