"Never again, my own son!" He lay back on his pillow with a breath of relief, but she kept her arms about him.
"Because you don"t know how a boy feels about his own mother!" he a.s.sured her. Kneeling there, Martie wondered how she had come to forget his rights, forget his point of view for so long! He would always seem a baby to her, but he was a person now, and he had his part in, and his influence upon, her life. Suppose she had left him to cry out this secret hunger of his uncomforted; suppose, while she thought him contentedly playing with Billy and "Lizabeth, he had been judging and blaming his mother?
While she knelt, thinking, he went to sleep. But Lydia wondered what was keeping Martie awake. The light in Martie"s room was turned up, and fell in a yellow oblong across the gravel; Lydia dozed and awakened, but the light was always there.
Morning broke softly in a fog which did not lift as the hours went by.
Malcolm was at home until after lunch, to which meal Teddy and Martie came downstairs unusually well dressed, Martie observing that she had errands down town. Teddy kissed Grandpa good-bye as usual, and his mother kissed Grandpa, too, which was not quite usual, and clung with her white hands to his lapel.
"Teddy and I have shopping to do down town, Pa, and I"ve written Cliff a note!" she said. Her father brightened.
"I"m glad you"re inclined to act sensibly, my dear!" he said, departing. "I thought we"d hear a different story this morning!"
"What are you going down town for?" asked Lydia. "I ought to have some rubber rings from Mallon"s."
"I"m taking a lot of things down--I have to pa.s.s the cleaner"s anyway,"
answered Martie. "I"ll get them, and send them."
"Oh, bring them; they"ll go in your pocket," Lydia said. "Well, Ted, what"ll you do when these measles are over, and you have to go back to school? You"ve put an awful good suit on him, Mart, just to play in."
"He"ll change before he plays," Martie answered, nervously smiling.
"Come, dear!"
"Don"t forget your things for the cleaner"s!" Lydia said, handing her her suitcase. Martie surprised the older sister with a sudden kiss.
"Thanks, Lyd, dear!" she said. "Good-bye! Come, Ted!"
They went down through the quiet village, shabby after the burning of the summer. Fog lay in wet, dark patches on the yellow gra.s.s, and in the thinning air was the good smell of wood fires. Grapes were piled outside the fruit stores and pasted at a slant on Bonestell"s window was a neatly printed paper slip, "Chop Suey Sundae, 15c." Up on the brown hills the fog was rising.
They went to see Dr. Ben in his old offices opposite the Town Hall, and he gave Teddy a pink "sucker pill," as he had given Martie years ago.
At the grocery they met Sally, with all four children, and two small children more, and Aunt Mart had her usual kisses. Sally was afraid that Grace"s baby boy had the measles, she confided to her sister, and had taken the twins for a time.
"Martie, how smart you look, and Ted all dressed up!" said Sally. "And look at my tramps in their old clothes! Mart, do go past Mason and White"s and see the linen dress patterns in the window; there"s a blue-and-tan there, and an all-white--they"re too lovely!"
"Why don"t you let me send you one, Sally?" Martie asked affectionately. "I"m rich! I drew my two hundred and eleven dollars"
bank account yesterday, and cashed a check from my editor, and Cousin Allie"s wedding check!" Sally flamed into immediate protest.
"Martie, I"ll be wild if you do--you mustn"t! I never would have spoken of it--"
Martie laughed as she kissed her sister, and presently Sally wheeled Mary"s carriage away. But Teddy and his mother went into Mason and White"s, nevertheless, and both the tan-and-blue and the all-white dress were taken out of the window and duly paid for and sent away.
Teddy shouted to his mother when they were in the street again that there was Uncle Joe in the car, and he could have taken the dresses to Aunt Sally.
No, his mother told him, that was to be a surprise! But she crossed the street to talk in a low tone to Uncle Joe. Uncle Joe said more than once, "I"m with you--I think you"re right!" and finally kissed Teddy, and suddenly kissed his mother, before he drove away.
Teddy was bursting with the thought of the surprise. But this afternoon was full of surprises. They were strolling along, peacefully enough, when suddenly his mother took his small arm and guided him into the station where they had arrived in Monroe nearly two years before.
A big train came thundering to a stop now as then, and Teddy"s mother said to him quickly and urgently: "Climb in, Love. That"s my boy! Get in, dear; mother"ll explain to you later!"
She took a ticket from her bag, and showed it to the coloured porter, and they went down the little pa.s.sage past the dressing room, and came to the big velvet seats which he remembered perfectly. His mother was breathing nervously, and she was quite pale as she discussed the question of Teddy"s berth with the man who had letters on his cap.
She would not let Teddy look out of the windows until the train started, but it started in perhaps two minutes, and then she took off his hat and her own, and smoothed back his hair, and laughed delightfully like a little girl.
"Where are we goin"?" asked Teddy, charmed and excited.
"We"re going to New York, Loveliness! We"re going to make a new start!"
she said.
CHAPTER VIII
From that hour Martie knew the joy of living. She emerged from the hard school in which she had been stumbling and blundering so long; she was a person, an individuality, she was alive and she loved life.
Her heart fairly sang as she paid for Teddy"s supper, the lovely brown hills of California slipping past the windows of the dining car. The waiter was solicitous; would the lady have just a salad? No, said the lady, she did not feel hungry. She and Teddy went out to breathe the glorious air of the mountains from the observation car, and to flash and clatter through the snow sheds.
And what a delight it was to be young and free and to have this splendid child all for her own, thought Martie, her heart swelling with a wonderful peace. Everybody liked Teddy, and Teddy"s touching happiness at being alone with his adored mother opened her eyes to the feeling that had been hidden under a child"s inarticulateness all these months.
The two hundred dollars between her and dest.i.tution might have been two million; she was rich. She could treat the troubled, pale little mother and the two children from the next section to lemonades every afternoon, and when they reached Chicago, hot and sunshiny at last, she and Teddy spent the day loitering through a big department store. Here Teddy was given a Boy Scout suit, and Martie bought herself a cake of perfumed soap whose odour, whenever she caught it in after times, brought back the enchanting emotion of these first days of independence.
Tired, dirty, they were sitting together late in the afternoon of the fifth day, when she felt a sudden tug at her heart. Outside the car window, slipping steadily by, were smoke-stained brick factories, and little ca.n.a.ls and backwaters soiled with oil and soot, and heaps of slag and sc.r.a.p iron and clinkers. Then villages swept by--flat, orderly villages with fences enclosing summer gardens. Then factories again--villages--factories--no more of the flat, bare fields: the fields were all of the West.
But suddenly above this monotonous scene Martie noticed a dull glow that grew rosier and steadier as the early evening deepened. Up against the first early stars the lights of New York climbed in a wide bar of pink and gold, flung a quivering bar of red.
She was back again! Back in the great city. She belonged once more to the seething crowds in the Ghetto, to the cool arcades between the great office buildings, to Broadway with its pushing crowds of shoppers, to the Bronx teeming with tiny shops and swung with the signs of a thousand apartments to let. The hotels, with their uniformed starters, the middle Forties, with their theatrical boarding-houses, the tiny experimental art shops and tea shops and gift shops that continually appear and disappear among the bas.e.m.e.nts of old brown-stone houses--she was back among them all!
Tears of joy and excitement came to her eyes. She pressed her face eagerly beside the child"s face at the window.
"Look down, Ted, that"s the East Side, dear, with all the children playing; do you remember? And see all the darling awnings flapping!"
"I shouldn"t wonder if we should have an electric storm!" said Teddy, finding the old phrase easily, his warm little cheek against hers.
"We"re back in New York, Teddy! We"re home again!" She was gathering her things together. A thought smote her, and she paused with suddenly colouring cheeks. This might so easily have been her wedding-trip; she and Clifford might have been together now.
Poor Clifford, with his stiffly moving brain and his plat.i.tudes! She hoped he would marry some more grateful woman some day. What a Paradise opening for Lydia if he could ever fancy her again! Martie spent a moment in wonder as to what the story given Monroe would be. She had mailed a letter to Lydia, and one to Clifford, during that last, quiet, foggy morning--letters written after the packing had been done on that last night. She had suggested that Monroe be given a hint that business had taken Mrs. Bannister suddenly eastward. It would be a nine days"
wonder; in six months Monroe would only vaguely remember it. Gossips might suspect the truth: they would never know it. Clifford himself, in another year, would be placidly implying that there never had been anything in the rumour of an engagement. Rose would dimple and shake her head; Martie was always just a little ODD. Lydia would confide to Sally that she was just sick for fear that Dryden man--and Sally, sternly inspecting Jimmy"s little back for signs of measles, would quote Joe. Joe ALWAYS thought Martie would make good, and Joe wasn"t one bit sorry she had done as she had. Dr. Ben would defend her, too, for on that sudden impulsive call she had let her full heart thank him for all his fatherly goodness to her beloved Sally, and had told him what she was doing.
"Mark ye, if you was engaged to me, ye wouldn"t jump the traces like this!" the old man had a.s.sured her.
"Dr. Ben, I wouldn"t want to!" she had answered gaily. "You"re older than Cliff; I know that. But you"re broad, Dr. Ben, and you"re simple, and you aren"t narrow! You"ve grown older the way I want to, just smiling and listening. And you know more in your little finger than--than some people know in their whole bodies!" And she put her arms about his neck, and gave him a daughter"s laughing kiss.
"Looky here," said the old man, warming, "a man"s got to be dead before he can stand for a thing like this! You haven"t got a waiting-list, I suppose, Miss Martie?"
"No, sir!" she answered positively. "But if ever I do I"ll let you know!"
She and Teddy ate their first meal at Childs". Little signs bearing the single word "strawberries" were pasted on the window; Martie felt a real thrill of affection for the place as she went in. After a while "Old Southern Corn Cakes" would take the place of the strawberries, and then grape-fruit "In Season Now."