Turn me out?--she"d go down on her knees here before you all to get me back to her!"
Unwilling to be involved in the brawl, the more sober of the party had begun to seek out their hats and to slink away. A little group round Schilsky blarneyed and expostulated. Why should the whole sport of the evening be spoilt in this fashion? What did it matter what the d.a.m.ned cranky Englishman said? Let him be left to his swilling. They would clear out, and wind up the night at the BAUER; and at four, when that shut, they would go on to the BAYRISCHE BAHNHOF, where they could not only get coffee, but could also see Schilsky off by a train soon after five. These persuasions prevailed, and, still swearing, and threatening, and promising, by all that was holy, to bring Lulu there, by the hair of her head if necessary, to show whether or no he had the power over her he boasted of, Schilsky finally allowed himself to be dragged off, and those who were left lurched out in his wake.
With their exit an abrupt silence fell, and Maurice sank into a heavy sleep, in which he saw flowery meadows and heard a gently trickling brook....
"Now then, up with you!--get along!" some one was shouting in his ear, and, bit by bit, a pasty-faced waiter entered his field of view. "It"s past time, anyhow," and yawning loudly, the waiter turned out all the gas-jets but one. "Don"t yer hear? Up with you! You"ll have to look after the other--now, d.a.m.n me, if there isn"t another of you as well!"
and, from under the table, he drew out a rec.u.mbent body.
Maurice then saw that he was still in the company of Dove, who sat staring into s.p.a.ce--like a dead man. Krafft, propped on a chair, hung his head far back, and the collarless shirt exposed the whole of his white throat.
The waiter hustled them about. Maurice was comparatively steady on his legs; and it was found that Dove could walk. But over Krafft, the man scratched his head and called a comrade. At the mention of a droschke, however, Maurice all but wept anew with ire and emotion: this was his dearest friend, the friend of his bosom; he was ready at any time to stake his life for him, and now he was not to be allowed even to see him home.
A difficulty arose about Maurice"s hat: he was convinced that the one the waiter jammed so rudely on his head did not belong to him; and it seemed as if nothing in the world had ever mattered so much to him as now getting back his own hat. But he had not sufficient fluency to explain all he meant; before he had finished, the man lost patience; and suddenly, without any transition, the three of them were in the street. The raw night air gave them a shock; they gasped and choked a little. Then the wall of a house rose appositely and met them. They leaned against it, and Maurice threw the hat from him and trampled on it, chuckling at the idea that he was revenging himself on the waiter.
It was a journey of difficulties; not only was he unclear what locality they were in, but innumerable lifeless things confronted them and formed obstacles to their progress; they had to charge an advertis.e.m.e.nt-column two or three times before they could get round it.
Maurice grew excessively angry, especially with Dove. For while Heinz let himself be lugged this way and that, Dove, grown loud and wilful, had ideas of his own, and, in addition to this, sang the whole time with drunken gravity:
Sez the ragman, to the bagman, I"ll do yees no harm.
"Stop it, you oaf!" cried Maurice, goaded to desperation. "You beastly, blathering, drunken idiot!"
Then, for a street-length, he himself lapsed into semi-consciousness, and when he wakened, Dove was gone. He chuckled anew at the thought that somehow or other they had managed to outwit him.
His intention had been to make for home, but the door before which they ultimately found themselves was Krafft"s. Maurice propped his companion against the wall, and searched his own pockets for a key. When he had found one, he could not find the door, and when this was secured, the key would not fit. The perspiration stood out on his forehead; he tried again and again, thought the keyhole was dodging him, and a.s.serted the fact so violently that a window in the first storey was opened and a head thrust out.
"What in the name of Heaven are you doing down there?" it cried. "You drunken SCHWEIN, can"t you see the door"s open?"
In the sitting-room, both fell heavily over a chair; after that, with infinite labour, he got Heinz on the sofa. He did not attempt to make a light; enough came in from a street-lamp for him to see what he was doing.
Lying on his face, Krafft groaned a little, and Maurice suddenly grasped that he was taken ill. Heinz was ill, Heinz, his best friend, and he was doing nothing to help him! Shedding tears, he poured out a gla.s.s of water. He believed he was putting the carafe safely back on the table, but it dropped with a crash to the floor. He was afraid Frau Schulz would come in, and said in a loud voice: "It"s that fellow there, he"s dead drunk, beastly drunk!" Krafft would not drink the water, and in the attempt to force him, it was spilled over him. He stirred uneasily, put up his arms and dragged Maurice down, so that the latter fell on his knees beside the sofa. He made a few ineffectual efforts to free himself; but one arm held him like a vice; and in this uncomfortable position, he went to sleep.
Part II
O viva morte, e dilettoso male!
PETRARCH.
I.
The following morning, towards twelve o"clock, a note from Madeleine was handed to Maurice. In it, she begged him to account to Schwarz for her absence from the rehearsal of a trio, which was to have taken place at two.
GO AND EXPLAIN THAT IT IS QUITE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO COME, she wrote.
LOUISE IS VERY ILL; THE DOCTOR IS AFRAID OF BRAIN FEVER. I AM RUSHING, OFF THIS MOMENT TO SEE ABOUT A NURSE--AND SHALL STAY TILL ONE COMES.
He read the words mechanically, without taking in their meaning. From the paper, his eyes roved round the room; he saw the tumbled, unopened bed, from which he had just risen, the traces of his boots on the coverings. He could not remember how he had come there; his last recollection was of being turned out of Krafft"s room, in what seemed to be still the middle of the night. Since getting home, he must have slept a dead sleep.
"Ill? Brain fever?" he repeated to himself, and his mind strove to pierce the significance of the words. What had happened? Why should she be ill? A racking uneasiness seized him and would not let him rest. His inclination was to lay his aching head on the pillow again; but this was out of the question; and so, though he seldom braved Frau Krause, he now boldly went to her with a request to warm up his coffee.
When he had drunk it, and bathed his head, he felt considerably better.
But he still could not call to mind what had occurred. The previous evening was blurred in its details; he only had a sense of oppression when he thought of it, as of something that had threatened, and still did. He was glad to have a definite task before him, and went out at once, in order to catch Schwarz before he left the Conservatorium; but it was too late; the master"s door was locked. It was a bright, cold day with strong sunlight; Maurice"s eyes ached, and he shrank from the wind at every corner. Instead of going home, he went to Madeleine"s room and sat down to wait for her. She had evidently been away since early morning; the piano was dusty and unopened; the blind at the head of it had not been drawn up. It was a pleasant dusk; he put his arms on the table, his head on his arms, and, in spite of his anxiety, fell into a sound sleep.
He was wakened by Madeleine"s entrance. It was three o"clock. She came bustling in, took off her hat, laid it on the piano, and at once drew up the blind. She was not surprised to find him there, but exclaimed at his appearance.
"Good gracious, Maurice, how dreadful you look! Are you ill?"
He hastened to rea.s.sure her, and she was a little put out at her wasted sympathy.
"Well, no wonder, I"m sure, after the doings there were last night. A pretty way to behave! And that you should have mixed yourself up in it as you did!--I wouldn"t have believed it of you. How I know? My dear boy, it"s the talk of the place."
Her words called up to him a more lucid remembrance of the past evening than he had yet been capable of. In his eagerness to recollect everything, he changed colour and looked away. Madeleine put his confusion down to another cause.
"Never mind, it"s over now, and we won"t say any more about it. Sit still, and I"ll make you some tea. That will do your head good--for you have a splitting headache, haven"t you? I shall be glad of some myself, too, after all the running about I"ve had this morning. I"m quite worn out."
When she heard that he had had no dinner, she sent for bread and sausage, and was so busy and unsettled that only when she sat down, with her cup before her, did he get a chance to say: "What is it, Madeleine? Is she very ill?"
Madeleine shrugged her shoulders. "Yes, she is ill enough. It"s not easy to say what the matter is, though. The doctor is to see her again this evening. And I found a nurse."
"Then she is not going away?" He did not mean to say the words aloud; they escaped him against his will.
His companion raised her eyebrows, filling her forehead with wrinkles.
"Going away?" she echoed. "I should say not. My dear Maurice, what is more, it turns out she hadn"t an idea he was going either. What do you say to that?" She flushed with sincere indignation. "Not an idea--until yesterday. My lord had the intention of sneaking off without a word, and of leaving her to find it out for herself. Oh, it"s an abominable affair altogether!--and has been from beginning to end. There"s much about Louise, as you know, that I don"t approve of, and I think she has behaved weakly--not to call it by a harder name--all through. But now, she has my entire sympathy. The poor girl is in a pitiable state."
"Is she ... dangerously ill?"
"Well, I don"t think she"ll die of it, exactly--though it might be better for her if she did. NA!... let me fill up your cup. And eat something more. Oh, he is ... no words are bad enough for him; though honestly speaking, I think we might have been prepared for something of this kind, all along. It seems he made his arrangements for going on the quiet. Frau Schaefele advanced him the money; for of course he has nothing of his own. But what condition do you think the old wretch made? That he should break with Louise. Furst has told me all about it.
I went to him at once this morning. She was always jealous of Louise--though to him she only talked of the holiness of art and the artist"s calling, and the danger of letting domestic ties entangle you, and rubbish of that kind. I believe she was at the bottom of it that he didn"t marry Louise long ago. Well, however that may be, he now let himself be persuaded easily enough. He was hearing on all sides that he had been here too long; and candidly, I think he was beginning to feel Louise a drag on him. I know of late they were not getting on well together. But to be such a coward and a weakling! To slink off in this fashion! Of course, when it came to the last, he was simply afraid of her, and of the scene she would make him. Bravery has as little room in his soul as honesty or manliness. He would always prefer a back-door exit. Such things excite a man, don"t you know?--and ruffle the necessary artistic composure." She laughed scornfully. "However, I"m glad to say, he didn"t escape scot-free after all. Everything went well till yesterday afternoon, when Louise, who was as unsuspecting as a child, heard of it from some one--they say it was Krafft. Without thinking twice--you know her ... or rather you don"t--she went straight to Schilsky and confronted him. I can"t tell you what took place between them, but I can imagine something of it, for when Louise lets herself go, she knows no bounds, and this was a matter of life and death to her."
Madeleine rose, blew out the flame of the spirit-lamp, and refilled the teapot.
"Fraulein Grunhut, her landlady, heard her go out yesterday afternoon, but didn"t hear her come in, so it must have been late in the evening.
Louise hates to be pried on, and the old woman is lazy, so she didn"t go to her room till about half-past eight this morning, when she took in the hot water. Then she found Louise stretched on the floor, just as she had come in last night, her hat lying beside her. She was conscious, and her eyes were open, but she was stiff and cold, and wouldn"t speak or move. Grunhut couldn"t do anything with her, and was mortally afraid. She sent for me; and between us we got her to bed, and I went for a doctor. That was at nine, and I have been on my feet ever since."
"It"s awfully good of you."
"No, she won"t die," continued Madeleine meditatively, stirring her tea. "She"s too robust a nature for that. But I shouldn"t wonder if it affected her mind. As I say, she knows no bounds, and has never learnt self-restraint. It has always been all or nothing with her. And this I must say: however foolish and wrong the whole thing was, she was devoted to Schilsky, and sacrificed everything--work, money and friends--to her infatuation. She lived only for him, and this is a moral judgment on her. Excess of any kind brings its own punishment with it."
She rose and smoothed her hair before the mirror.