XVII.
MORRIS.
"What I aspired to be comforts me."--_Browning_.
It was late one evening in November; Prue had kissed them both good-night and ran laughing up the broad staircase to bed; Miss Prudence had finished her evening"s work and evening"s pleasure, and was now sitting opposite Marjorie, near the register in the back parlor. A round table had been rolled up between them upon which the shaded, bronze lamp was burning, gas not having yet been introduced into old-fashioned Maple Street. The table was somewhat littered and in confusion, Prue"s stereoscope was there with the new views of the Yosemite at which she had been looking that evening and asking Aunt Prue numerous questions, among which was "Shall we go and see them some day? Shall we go everywhere some day?" Aunt Prue had satisfied her with "Perhaps so, darling," and then had fallen silently to wondering why she and Prue might not travel some day, a year in Europe had always been one of her postponed intentions, and, by and by, how her child would enjoy it. Marjorie"s books and writing desk were on the table also, for she had studied mental philosophy and chemistry after she had copied her composition and written a long letter to her mother. Short letters were as truly an impossibility to Marjorie as short addresses are to some public speeches; still Marjorie always stopped when she found she had nothing to say. To her mother, school and Miss Prudence and Prue"s sayings and doings were an endless theme of delight. Not only did she take Marjoire"s letters to her old father and mother, but she more than a few times carried them in her pocket when she visited Mrs. Rheid, that she might read them aloud to her. Miss Prudence"s work was also on the table, pretty sewing for Prue and her writing materials, for it was the night for her weekly letter to John Holmes. Mr. Holmes did not parade his letters before the neighbors, but none the less did he pore over them and ponder them. For whom had he in all the world to love save little Prue and Aunt Prue?
Marjorie had closed the chemistry with a sigh, reserving astronomy for the fresher hour of the morning. With the burden of the unlearned lesson on her mind she opened her Bible for her usual evening reading, shrinking from it with a distaste that she had felt several times of late and that she had fought against and prayed about. Last evening she had compelled herself to read an extra chapter to see if she might not read herself into a comfortable frame of mind, and then she had closed the book with a sigh of relief, feeling that this last task of the day was done. To-night she fixed her eyes upon the page awhile and then dropped the book into her lap with a weary gesture that was not unnoticed by the eyes that never lost anything where Marjorie was concerned. It was something new to see a fretful or fretted expression upon Marjorie"s lips, but it was certainly there to-night and Miss Prudence saw it; it might be also in her eyes, but, if it were, the uneasy eyelids were at this moment concealing it. "The child is very weary to-night," Miss Prudence thought, and wondered if she were allowing her, in her ambition, to take too much upon herself. Music, with the two hours a day practicing that she resolutely never omitted, all the school lessons, reading and letters, and the conscientious preparation of her lesson for Bible cla.s.s, was most a.s.suredly sufficient to tax her mental and physical strength, and there was the daily walk of a mile to and from school, and other things numberless to push themselves in for her comfort and Prue"s. But her step was elastic, her color as pretty as when she worked in the kitchen at home, and when she came in from school she was always ready for a romp with Prue before she sat down to practice.
When summer came the garden and trips to the islands would be good for both her children. Miss Prudence advocated the higher education for girls, but if Marjorie"s color had faded or her spirits flagged she would have taken her out of school and set her to household tasks and to walks and drives. Had she not taken Linnet home after her three years course with the country color fresh in her cheeks and her step as light upon the stair as when she left home?
The weariness had crept into Marjorie"s face since she closed her books; it was not when she opened the Bible. Was the child enduring any spiritual conflicts again? Linnet had never had spiritual conflicts; what should she do with this too introspective Marjorie? Would Prue grow up to ask questions and need just such comforting, too? Miss Prudence"s own evening"s work had begun with her Bible reading, she read and meditated all the hour and a quarter that Marjorie was writing her letter (they had supper so early that their evenings began at half-past six), she had read with eagerness and a sense of deep enjoyment and appreciation.
"It is so good," she had exclaimed as she laid the Bible aside, and Marjorie had raised her head at the exclamation and asked what was so good. "Peter"s two letters to the Church and to me."
Without replying Marjorie had dipped her pen again and written: "Miss Prudence is more and more of a saint every day."
"Marjorie, it"s a snow storm."
"Yes," said Marjorie, not opening her eyes.
Miss Prudence looked at the bronze clock on the mantel; it was ten o"clock. Marjorie should have been asleep an hour ago.
Miss Prudence"s fur-trimmed slippers touched the toe of Marjorie"s b.u.t.toned boot, they were both resting on the register.
"Marjorie, I don"t know what I am thinking of to let you sit up so late; I shall have to send you upstairs with Prue after this. Linnet"s hour was nine o"clock when she was studying, and look at her and Nannie Rheid."
"But I"m not getting through to be married, as Linnet was."
"How do you know?" asked Miss Prudence.
"Not intentionally, then," smiled Marjorie, opening her eyes this time.
"I"m not the old maid that eschews matrimony; all I want is to choose for you and Prue."
"Not yet, please," said Marjorie, lifting her hands in protest.
"What is it that tires you so to-night? School?
"No," answered Marjorie, sitting upright; "school sits as lightly on my shoulders as that black lace scarf you gave me yesterday; it is because I grow more and more wicked every night. I am worse than I was last night.
I tried to read in the Bible just now and I did not care for it one bit, or understand it one bit; I began to think I never should find anything to do me good in Malachi, or in any of the old prophets."
"Suppose you read to me awhile--not in the Bible, but in your Sunday-school book. You told Prue that it was fascinating. "History of the Reformation," isn"t it?"
"To-night? O, Aunt Prue, I"m too tired."
"Well, then, a chapter of Walter Scott, that will rest you."
"No, it won"t; I wouldn"t understand a word."
""The Minister"s Wooing" then; you admire Mrs. Stowe so greatly."
"I don"t admire her to-night, I"m afraid. Aunt Prue, even a startling ring at the door bell will not wake me up."
"Suppose I play for you," suggested Miss Prudence, gravely.
"I thought you wanted me to go to bed," said Marjorie, suppressing her annoyance as well as she could.
"Just see, child; you are too worn out for all and any of these things that you usually take pleasure in, and yet you take up the Bible and expect to feel devotional and be greatly edified, even to find that Malachi has a special message for you. And you berate yourself for hardheartedness and coldheartedness. When you are so weary, don"t you see that your brain refuses to think?"
"Do you mean that I ought to read only one verse and think that enough?
Oh, if I might."
"Have you taken more time than that would require for other things to-day?"
"Why, yes," said Marjorie, looking surprised.
"Then why should you give G.o.d"s book just half a minute, or not so long, and Wayland and Legendre and every body else just as much time as the length of your lesson claims? Could you make anything of your astronomy now?"
"No, I knew I could not, and that is why I am leaving it till morning."
"Suppose you do not study it at all and tell Mr. McCosh that you were too tired to-night."
"He would not accept such an excuse. He would ask why I deferred it so long. He would think I was making fun of him to give him such an excuse.
I wouldn"t dare."
"But you go to G.o.d and offer him your evening sacrifice with eyes so blind that they cannot see his words, and brain so tired that it can find no meaning in them. Will he accept an excuse that you are ashamed to give your teacher?"
"No," said Marjorie, looking startled. "I will read, and perhaps I can think now."
But Miss Prudence was bending towards her and taking the Bible from her lap.
"Let me find something for you in Malachi."
"And help me understand," said Marjorie.
After a moment Miss Prudence read aloud:
""And if ye offer the blind for sacrifice, is it not evil? And if ye offer the lame and sick, is it not evil? Offer it now unto thy governor; will he be pleased with thee, or accept thy person? saith the Lord of hosts.""
Closing the book she returned it to Marjorie"s lap.
"You mean that G.o.d will not accept my excuse for not feeling like reading to-night?"
"You said that Mr. McCosh would not accept such an excuse for your astronomy."
"Miss Prudence!" Marjorie was wide awake now. "You mean that I should read early in the evening as you do! Is _that_ why you always read before you do anything else in the evening?"