LiMingHu walked slowly toward TianTian"s room,... he was thinking, "If she knows about ShuShu...she might hate me now...is it a right time to let her go?"
But his heart didn"t agree,...he didn"t want to let her go. TianTian was the first woman who made him felt a pa.s.sion...everything about her like a drug that makes him addicted. Once he sees her, he suddenly can forget anything and just be with her make him happy the most...This intense game to get TianTian to be his....made him felt alive than usual...
Now he arrived in front of TianTian"s door, he didn"t knock, he just opened it slowly and then he saw the back of TianTian who laid on the bed, although he didn"t see the face...he suddenly realizes how often he saw that sad figure of TianTian...maybe all this time, he really being selfish to TianTian...
All this time, the beast tried to conquer his little rabbit...he almost success, but just in that moment...he finally saw how scared the little rabbit was and the beast didn"t have heart to see it.
LiMingHu slowly approached the bed, TianTian who didn"t sleep noticed his coming and she didn"t want to welcome him at all, but she didn"t have energy to cast him away...too tired...so she just covered herself with blanket.
The beast kept come closer and when he sat close to TianTian"s side, he reached his right hand, want to open the blanket but stopped when he heard TianTian from inside the blanket...
"Don"t come closer...go away...I want to sleep"
"You don"t want to see me at all?" asked the beast, not in anger...but in soft voice that TianTian surprised to hear...there is a sadness in it. What kind of face he made now? TianTian finally peeked from her blanket and she startled because LiMingHu was looking at her... the wounds on his lip still not yet be treated and the smell of alcohol was very strong...
"Is it still hurt?" TianTian instantly felt worried again...
The King smiles a little, he felt happy to see how TianTian worried about him, he closing his face to her,
"It"s nothing...don"t worry..."
TianTian back to realize that she was angry to him, so the tone was change sharply and sunk into her blanket again
"I don"t worry about you..just go away..."
Although he felt sad but LiMingHu kept smiled to see how cute the reaction of TianTian when she was upset. This kind of moment, TianTian"s warmth and cuteness made him unwilling to let her go...he wanted to touch and kiss her more...
" ... It seems I have made you very angry today..." LiMingHu paused, "...no...maybe since beginning, I have been so...so...wrong to you..."
"What happened to this beast? Is he showing regret about how he treated me all this time?"
TianTian kept silent but listening,
Almost in entire his experience in business, he, LiMingHu, the King never shows any repentance for his mistakes, either in destroying other man"s business or even make others losing their life. He kept all in his heart and wore a beast mask, who never looks weak to anyone, even in front of President Sam, his superior. It was his motto..."Like in the law of wild animals, the weak will be destroyed..."
But now, he felt weak in front of this woman...he doesn"t want to hurt her anymore...so he pressed his ego deeply,
"....I am....I am sorry...for everything..." in a very small tone, but still could be heard by TianTian,
"Finally...for the 1st time...he can say sorry to me...maybe he was really drunk right now" Somehow TianTian felt satisfied, although she was actually no longer upset about the way beast acted...but then she remembers about ShuShu,...
"Yes...he should felt sorry for what he did to me and to his fiancee..."
"You should say it to your fiancee...not to me" TianTian spoke her mind...she could kept it more.
"My fiancee...ShuShu, she has been in coma since 10 years ago...But the engagement happened because I promised to her Grandfather, if she could wake up, I will make her to be my legal wife...its my debt to her..She,..being in coma because of me" It"s strange to tell all about it to TianTian, but somehow that night, the beast started to open his heart and told TianTian about his past... Maybe because deep in his heart, the king wanted TianTian to understand his condition, about why he stayed to keep the promise to ShuShu but also understand that he didn"t have any feeling to ShuShu like what he had toward TianTian...and maybe he could do this because kicked by the alcohol"s effect.
"And...that"s why I still kept the promise until now...but you know TianTian... she never wake up...never..." LiMingHu slowly closed his eyes...and when he paused, TianTian was curious, so she opened her blanket and saw LiMingHu lost his balance, TianTian instantly caught him, which made the beast now laid on her embrace...Now, TianTian sure that LiMingHu was really drunk, but she could accept that he just slept like that,
so TianTian clapped LiMingHu"s cheeks softly to wake him up,
"Hey...wake up...you can"t sleep here!!"
The King reacted, he opened his eyes and just straight looked at TianTian"s eyes that looked swelling a little because of crying. LiMingHu raised his hand, touch gently TianTian"s cheek,
"I have make you crying a lot....I am sorry...TianTian...I really really sorry...can you forgive me...? Please don"t hate me..."
"Didn"t expect this beast can become a cute kitten when he drunk..." TianTian kept her mind clear, she took off the beast"s hand from her cheek and tried to wake up, moving the beast from the bed,
"LiMingHu, go back to your room....you are drunk right now!!"
But LiMingHu was too strong for her, when he fought back, somehow the beast managed to lay TianTian back on the bed with him on her, so close, and thrn LiMingHu was suddenly laying his head on TianTian"s chest.
"No...I won"t go till you forgive me..."
TianTian felt she was talking to a child right now, she also knew it was useless to make sense with a drunken, so she tried to follow what the Beast said, to lure him back to his room,
"Ok...ok...I forgive you...now...let"s stand up...and let"s go to your room okay...it"s already night and you need to sleep"
"But...I want to sleep with you..." LiMingHu raised his head again and when their eyes meet together, LiMingHu can"t hold any longer and giving a soft kiss to TianTian"s lip...more and more intense. In a moment TianTian like bewitched by the beast"s kiss. She could think clearly,...in her mind, she mumbles...
"He is cute, the kiss is good...I like him... but does he like me??? How about ShuShu...his promise...???" And by then TianTian back to her consciousness, right when LiMingHu started to embrace her more intensely, kissing her neck.
"STOP...!!.. I don"t want this!!!". As her hand was free, TianTian immediately slapped LiMingHu"s face strongly to awake him...
Because of pain, the beast stopped...
he looked surprised, angried, hurted..but then he dropped his face right beside TianTian"s face...whispered in her ear,
"Please don"t hate me...don"t go... I...love you, Tian....Tian..." In the next second, the beast didn"t move at all, TianTian figured out that he had been knocked down. With all her strength, TianTian successfully pushed LiMingHu to her side, and TianTian herself laid down again at another side of bed.
"Why does his body need to be so heavy?...If you drunk, you supposed to back and sleep in your own room!!!" TianTian knew her protest couldn"t be heard anymore by LiMingHu who already in deep sleep. TianTian once again turned to look at LiMingHu"s face beside her. Her finger softly touched LiMingHu"s eyesbrows...and then it"s exploring to his nose, and lips... she remembered the soft kiss she had just now and her face was flushed.
"It is dangerous...I think I really have fallen on you...what do you think I should do now, hey the King of Beast?" TianTian chuckles about the nickname that she made secretly for LiMingHu... Suddenly occured what her GrandPa said in the past..."You can"t solve the problem when you are tired....Take enough sleep and when you"re awake, you can start to find the solution of your problem..."
And she decided to follow that advice...
"It"s enough for today...let us just sleep tonight and see what we can do tomorrow..." TianTian slowly closed her eyes and fall asleep. Both of them didn"t realize that their sleeping positions, each was bending their bodies toward each other, and it looked like a heart shape they made with their bodies.
*In the present,
Inside the memory...TianTian whispers to herself,
"If this is a dream, I don"t want to wake up again....I really wishes that I can always sleep by his side every night...Please don"t wake me up from this dream...I am scared to remember what happens next..."