"My own boy," she murmured, "why shouldn"t I kneel? You have opened the gates of heaven for me."
After he had left the room she stood at the window, and watched until he reappeared on the broad pavement below.
People were walking, riding, spinning along in motor-cars; gulls hovered above the beach on lazy wings; pebbles, boat gunwales, lamp-posts, every smooth hard surface, flashed in the sunlight; the gentle breeze smelt deliciously fresh and clean;--all was bright and gay and splendid, because so full of pulsing life. But the most splendid thing in sight was her husband. The man out there--that glorious creature, with his hat c.o.c.ked and his stick twirling as he swaggered across the broad roadway--was her handsome, splendid husband.
The sun shone on her face, and the love shone out of it to meet the genial vivifying rays. "My husband;" and she murmured the words aloud.
"My own darling boy. My strong, kind, n.o.ble husband."
It was a real marriage.
XII
The abnormally bright weather continued in an unbroken spell, and it seemed to her a part of the miracle that had been granted to her prayers--as if nature had suddenly abrogated all laws, and when giving her back love and youth, had given warmth and sunshine to the whole world.
One afternoon, as they were sauntering home to the hotel, he asked her if there was not some special name for this s.n.a.t.c.h of unseasonable autumn brightness.
"It"s more than we had a right to expect, Janey, so late in the year.
Here we are in the first week of November, and I"ll swear to-day has been as warm as May or June."
"Yes, hasn"t it?"
"But what do they call it when the weather plays tricks at this time of year? You know--not the Hunter"s moon, but some name like that."
"Oh, yes, I know what you mean--St. Martin"s summer."
"That"s right--learned old girl! St. Martin"s Summer."
Then they turned to the shop windows, and considered the window-dressing art as displayed by these Brighton tradesmen. All through their honeymoon the King"s Road shops provided a source of unfailing entertainment.
"I don"t see that they know much," he said patronisingly. "I think I could open their eyes. You wait, old girl, till we get back to Mallingbridge, and I"ll astonish you. I"m bubbling over with ideas....
Halloa! That"s rather tasty."
They were looking into a jeweller"s window, and his eye had been caught by a cigarette case.
"Now I wonder, Janey, what they"d have the cheek to ask for that."
"Let us go in and enquire."
"Oh, no. It"s not worth while. Why, the gold alone, without the gems, would cost fifteen quid; and if the stones are as good as they look, I daresay this chap would expect a hundred guineas for it."
"Well, we might enquire."
"No, I mustn"t think about it. Come on, old girl, or my mouth will begin to water for it;" and, laughing, he linked his arm in hers, and led her away from this too tempting shop. "Let "em keep it till they can catch a millionaire."
They ordered tea in the great noisy hall of the hotel, which he preferred to the quiet grandeur of the private sitting-room; and she, pretending that she wished to go upstairs, hurried past the lift door, dodged round by a crowd of new arrivals, ran down the steps, and left the building.
She was hot and red and breathless when, after twenty minutes, she came bustling into the hall again. The tea-tray stood waiting for them; but he had moved away to another table, and was drinking a whisky and soda with some hotel acquaintances. These were a loud vulgar man and two over-dressed, giggling, free-and-easy daughters. Marsden for a little time did not see his wife: he was laughing and talking vivaciously; and the young women contorted themselves in shrill merriment, ogled and leered, and made chaffing, unbecomingly familiar interjections.
"That fellow," said Marsden presently, when he had returned to his wife"s table, "is in a very big way of business--and he might be useful to us some day or other. That"s why I do the civil to him."
"Yes," said Mrs. Marsden.
"But where the d.i.c.kens did you slip away to? Your tea must be cold.
Shall I order a fresh pot?"
"Oh, no, this is quite right, thank you."
She drank a little of her tepid tea; and then, fumblingly, with fingers that were slightly trembling, she brought the little parcel out of her pocket and put it in his hand.
"What on earth is this?"
"Can"t you guess?"
"No--I can"t imagine--unless"-- He was slowly unfolding the layers of tissue paper; and until the precious metal discovered itself, he did not raise his eyes. "Oh, I _say_! Janey! But you shouldn"t have done it--you really shouldn"t. It"s too bad--altogether too bad of you."
"d.i.c.k!"
"Come upstairs and let me kiss you--or I shall have to kiss you here, with everybody looking at us."
Then Mrs. Marsden was well content with her little act of extravagance.
The culmination of the glorious weather came on Sunday. In the morning, when she emerged from the dim church where she had been pouring out her fervent grat.i.tude for so much happiness, the glare of the sea-front almost blinded her. All the wide lawns by the sea were densely thronged with people, and amongst the moving crowd she searched in vain for her husband. He had said he would meet her for this church parade.
But at the hotel there was a note to explain his absence. "My friends,"
she read, "insist on carrying me off for a long run in their car. Shall try to be back for dinner. But don"t wait."
While she was kneeling in the church, thanking G.o.d for having given him to her, he was rolling fast away--with that loud man and the two shrill young women.
It was late in the afternoon--the close of the brilliant sun-lit day, and the Hove lawns were still crowded. The sky preserved its clear blue, unspoilt by the faint white stains of cloud; the sea sparkled; and the shadows thrown by the green chairs and the iron railings crept imperceptibly across the gra.s.s. Behind the railings the long facades of the white houses stretched westward like a perspective-drawing; and down the broad road a motor fizzed past every moment, changed to a black speck, and vanished. The gaiety and life of the hours was lasting bravely. Coloured flags floated above the pier; and from the monstrous protuberance at its far end, the gla.s.s and iron castle of the tourist mob, light flashed as though striking mirrors; a band was playing at a distance; and the Worthing steamboat, as it hurriedly approached, made a rhythmic beating on the water.
Mrs. Marsden, in possession of a penny chair, sat alone, and watched the crowd that had been walking all day long. She felt absolutely lost in the crowd; and it seemed to her, coming from her quiet country town, that the world could not contain so many people.
She watched them with tired eyes. All sorts: fine ladies and gentlemen; visitors and residents--down the scale to mere shopgirls and housemaids; pale men who toiled indoors, bronzed men who lived in the open air; Jews and Jewesses; smiling matrons, sour-visaged spinsters; girls with powdered faces and immense hats--whom she cla.s.sed as actresses, and judged to be no better than they ought to be,--lounging and simpering beside sawny cavaliers.
She watched the various couples--boys and girls, men and women, young and old; and she saw that every couple was of corresponding, _suitable_ age: tottering old men and white-haired wrinkled dames--thinking of their golden weddings; fat paunchy men in the prime of life with gorgeous mature consorts; lithe and athletic men with long-legged, striding, game-playing mates; and so on, like with like, or each the normal complement of the other.
It happened that, while she watched with a growing intentness, there pa.s.sed no Mays and Decembers. An old man and his daughter--or just possibly his wife! But no young man with a middle-aged woman. Not even a son escorting his mother. Age has no claim on youth.
Then she saw the roaming solitary men who were seeking love or adventure; saw how they stared at the girls,--stopped and turned,--with their eyes wistfully followed the graceful gracious forms.
And no man in all the vast crowd looked at her. Not even the purple-cheeked veterans. None gave her the aldermanic approving glance that might seem to say, "There"s a well-preserved woman--not yet quite devoid of charm." Not even a glance of curiosity. It was as if for a penny the chair had rendered her invisible.
A cold air came off the sea, and she shivered. Looking round, she saw that the sun had just dipped behind the long white cornice of the stately houses. The wide lawn was in shadow.