Like me.
At first there was nothing. The house was not boarded up, the lawn was not overgrown - heaven forbid! - the water in the pool was doubtless clean and chlorinated. But there was a look of emptiness and disuse all the same - shades pulled against the summer sun, no cars in the central turnaround, no one to use the pool that a young man with a ponytail cleaned every other morning.
I became convinced it was a bust. Yet I stayed, wishing and hoping for the final vector.
On the 29th of June, when I had almost consigned myself to another year of watching and waiting and exercising and driving a front-end loader in the summer for Harvey Blocker (if he would have me again, that was) a blue car marked LOS ANGELES SECURITY SERVICES pulled up at the gate of Dolan"s house. A man in a uniform got out and used a key to open the gate. He drove his car in and around the corner. A few moments later he came back on foot , closed the gate, and relocked it.
This was at least a break in the routine. I felt a dim flicker of hope.
I drove off, managed to make myself stay away for nearly two hours, and then drove back, parking at the head of the block instead of the foot this time. Fifteen minutes later a blue van pulled up in front of Dolan"s house. Written on the side were the words BIG JOE"S CLEANING SERVICE. My heart leaped up in my chest. I was watching in the rear-view mirror, and I remember how my hands clamped down on the steering wheel of the rental car.
Four women got out of the van, two white, one black, one Chicana. They were dressed in white, like waitresses, but they were not waitresses, of course; they were cleaning women.
The security guard answered when one of them buzzed at the gate, and unlocked it. The five of them talked and laughed together. The security guard attempted to goose one of the women and she slapped his hand aside, still laughing.
One of the women went back to the van and drove it into the turnaround. The others walked up, talking among themselves as the guard closed the gate and locked it again.
Sweat was pouring down my face; it felt like grease. My heart was triphammering.
They were out of my field of vision in the rear-view mirror. 1 took a chance and looked around.
I saw the back doors of the van swing open.
One of them carried a neat stack of sheets; another had towels; another had a pair of vacuum cleaners.
They trooped up to the door and the guard let them inside.
I drove away, shaking so badly I could hardly steer the car.
They were opening the house. He was coming.
Dolan did not trade in his Cadillac every year, or even every two - the gray Sedan DeVille he was driving as that June neared its end was three years old. I knew its dimensions exactly. I had written the GM company for them, pretending to be a research writer. They had sent me an operator"s manual and spec sheet for that year"s model. They even returned the stamped, selfaddressed envelope I had enclosed. Big companies apparently maintain their courtesy even when they"re running in the red.
I had then taken three figures - the Cadillac"s width at its widest point, height at its tallest, and length at its longest - to a friend of mine who teaches mathematics at Las Vegas High School. I have told you, I think, that I had prepared for this, and not all my preparation was physical. Most a.s.suredly not.
I presented my problem as a purely hypothetical one. I was trying to write a science fiction story, I said, and I wanted to have my figures exactly right. I even made up a few plausible plot fragments - my own inventiveness rather I astonished me.
My friend wanted to know how fast this alien scout vehicle of mine would be going. It was a question I had not expected, and I asked him if it mattered.
"Of course it matters," he said. "It matters a lot. If you want the scout vehicle in your story to fall directly into your trap, the trap has to be exactly the right size. Now this figure you"ve given me is seventeen feet by five feet."
I opened my mouth to say that wasn"t exactly right, but he was already holding up his hand.
"Just an approximation," he said. "Makes it easier to figure the arc."
"The what?"
"The arc of descent," he repeated, and I cooled off. That was a phrase with which a man bent on revenge could fall in love. It had a dark, smoothly portentous sound. The arc of descent.
I"d taken it for granted that if I dug the grave so that the Cadillac could fit, it would fit. It took this friend of mine to make me see that before it could serve its purpose as a grave, it had to work as a trap.
The shape itself was important, he said. The sort of slit-trench I had been envisioning might not work - in fact, the odds of its not working were greater than the odds that it would. "If the vehicle doesn"t hit the start of the trench dead-on," he said, "it may not go all the way in at all. It would just slide along on an angle for awhile and when it stopped all the aliens would climb out the pa.s.senger door and zap your heroes." The answer, he said, was to widen the entrance end, giving the whole excavation a funnel-shape.
Then there was this problem of speed.
If Dolan"s Cadillac was going too fast and the hole was too short, it would fly across, sinking a bit as it went, and either the frame or the tires would strike the lip of the hole on the far side. It would flip over on its roof - but without falling in the hole at all. On the other hand, if the Cadillac was going too slowly and the hole was too long, it might land at the bottom on its nose instead of its wheels, and that would never do. You couldn"t bury a Cadillac with the last two feet of its trunk and its rear b.u.mper sticking out of the ground any more than you could bury a man with his legs sticking up.
"So how fast will your scout vehicle be going?"
I calculated quickly. On the open highway, Dolan"s driver kept it pegged between sixty and sixty-five. He would probably be driving a little slower than that where I planned to make my try. I could take away the detour signs, but I couldn"t hide the road machinery or erase all the signs of construction.
"About twenty rull," I said.
He smiled. "Translation, please?"
"Say fifty earth-miles an hour."
"Ah-hah." He set to work at once with his slip-stick while I sat beside him, bright-eyed and smiling, thinking about that wonderful phrase: arc of descent.
He looked up almost at once. "You know," he said, "you might want to think about changing the dimensions of the vehicle, buddy."
"Oh? Why do you say that?"
"Seventeen by five is pretty big for a scout vehicle." He laughed. "That"s d.a.m.n near the size of a Lincoln Mark IV."
I laughed, too. We laughed together.
After I saw the women going into the house with the sheets and towels, I flew back to Las Vegas.
I unlocked my house, went into the living room, and picked up the telephone. My hand trembled a little. For nine years I had waited and watched like a spider in the eaves or a mouse behind a baseboard. I had tried never to give Dolan the slightest clue that Elizabeth"s husband was still interested in him - the totally empty look he had given me that day as I pa.s.sed his disabled Cadillac on the way back to Vegas, furious as it had made me at the time, was my just reward.
But now I would have to take a risk. I would have to take it because I could not be in two places at the same time and it was imperative that I know if Dolan was coming, and when to make the detour temporarily disappear.
I had figured out a plan coming home on the plane. I thought it would work. I would make it work.
I dialed Los Angeles directory a.s.sistance and asked for the number of Big Joe"s Cleaning Service. I got it and dialed it.
"This is Bill at Rennie"s Catering," I said. "We got a party Sat.u.r.day night at 1121 Aster Drive in Hollywood Hills. I wanted to know if one of your girls would check for Mr Dolan"s big punch-bowl in the cabinet over the stove. Could you do that for me?"
I was asked to hold on. I did, somehow, although with the pa.s.sing of each endless second I became more and more sure that he had smelled a rat and was calling the phone company on one line while I held on the other.
At last - at long, long last - he came back on. He sounded upset, but that was all right. That was just how I wanted him to sound.
"Sat.u.r.day night?"
"Yes, that"s right. But I don"t have a punch-bowl as big as they"re going to want unless I call across town, and my impression was that he already has one. I"d just like to be sure."
"Look, mister, my call-sheet says Mr Dolan ain"t expected in until three P.M. Sunday afternoon. I"ll be glad to have one of my girls check out your punch-bowl, but I want to straighten this other business out first. Mr Dolan is not a man to f.u.c.k around with, if you"ll pardon my French - "
"I couldn"t agree with you more," I said.
" - and if he"s going to show up a day early, I got to send some more girls out there right away."
"Let me double-check," I said. The third-grade reading textbook I use, Roads to Everywhere, was on the table beside me. I picked it up and riffled some of the pages close to the phone.
"Oh, boy," I said. "It"s my mistake. He"s having people in Sunday night. I"m really sorry. You going to hit me?"
"Nah. Listen, let me put you on hold - I"ll get one of the girls and have her check on the - "
"No need, if it"s Sunday," I said. "My big punch-bowl"s coming back from a wedding reception in Glendale Sunday morning."
"Okay. Take it easy." Comfortable. Unsuspicious. The voice of a man who wasn"t going to think twice.
I hoped.
I hung up and sat still, working it out in my head as carefully as I could. To get to LA by three, he would be leaving Vegas about ten o"clock Sunday morning. And he would arrive in the vicinity of the detour between eleven-fifteen and eleven-thirty, when traffic was apt to be almost non-existent anyway.
I decided it was time to stop dreaming and start acting.
I looked through the want ads, made - some telephone calls, and then went out to look at five used vehicles that were within my financial reach. I settled for a battered Ford van that had rolled off the a.s.sembly line the same year Elizabeth was killed. I paid cash. I was left with only two hundred and fifty-seven dollars in my savings account, but this did not disturb me in the slightest. On my way home I stopped at a rental place the size of a discount department store and rented a portable air compressor, using my MasterCard as collateral.
Late Friday afternoon I loaded the van: picks, shovels, compressor, a hand-dolly, a toolbox, binoculars, and a borrowed Highway Department Jackhammer with an a.s.sortment of arrowhead-shaped attachments made for slicing through asphalt. A large square piece of sand-colored canvas, plus a long roll of canvas - this latter had been a special project of mine last summer - and twenty-one thin wooden struts, each five feet long. Last but not least, a big industrial stapler.
On the edge of the desert I stopped at a shopping center and stole a pair of license plates and put them on my van.
Seventy-six miles west of Vegas, I saw the first orange sign: CONSTRUCTION AHEAD Pa.s.s AT YOUR OWN RISK. Then, a mile or so beyond that, I saw the sign I had been waiting for since . . . well, ever since Elizabeth died, I suppose, although I hadn"t always known it.
DETOUR AHEAD 6 MILES.
Dusk was deepening toward dark as I arrived and surveyed the situation. It could have been better if I"d planned it, but not much.
The detour was a right turn between two rises. It looked like an old fence-line road which the Highway Department had smoothed and widened to temporarily accommodate the heavier traffic flow. It was marked by a flashing arrow powered by a buzzing battery in a padlocked steel box.
Just beyond the detour, as the highway rose toward the crest of that second rise, the road was blocked off by a double line of road cones. Beyond them (if one was so extraordinarily stupid as to have, first, missed the flashing arrow and, second, run over the road cones without realizing it - I suppose some drivers were) was an orange sign almost as big as a billboard, reading ROAD CLOSED USE DETOUR.
Yet the reason for the detour was not visible from here, and that was good. I didn"t want Dolan to have the slightest chance of smelling the trap before he fell into it.
Moving quickly - I didn"t want to be seen at this - I got out of the van and quickly stacked up some dozen of the road cones, creating a lane wide enough for the van. I dragged the ROAD CLOSED Sign to the right, then ran back to the van, got in, and drove through the gap.
Now I could hear an approaching motor.
I grabbed the cones again, replacing them as fast as I could. Two of them spilled out of my hands and rolled down into the gully. I chased after them, panting. I tripped over a rock in the dark, fell sprawling, and got up quickly with dust on my face and blood dripping from one palm. The car was closer now; soon it would appear over the last rise before the detour-junction and in the glow thrown by his high beams the driver would see a man in jeans and a tee-shirt trying to replace road cones while his van stood idling where no vehicle that didn"t belong to the Nevada State Highway Department was supposed to be. I got the last cone in place and ran back to the sign. I tugged too hard. It swayed and almost fell over.
As the approaching car"s headlights began to brighten on the rise to the east, I suddenly became convinced it was a Nevada State Trooper.
The sign was back where it had been - and if it wasn"t, it was close enough. I sprinted for the van, got in, and drove over the next rise. just as I cleared it, I saw headlights splash over the rise behind me.
Had he seen me in the dark, with my own lights out?
I didn"t think so.
I sat back against the seat, eyes closed, waiting for my heart to slow down. At last, as the sound of the car bouncing and bucketing its way down the detour faded out, it did.
I was here - safe behind the detour.
It was time to get to work.
Beyond the rise, the road descended to a long, straight flat. Two-thirds of the way along this straight stretch the road simply ceased to exist - it was replaced by piles of dirt and a long, wide stretch of crushed gravel.
Would they see that and stop? Turn around? Or would they keep on going, confident that there must be an approved way through since they had not seen any detour signs?
Too late to worry about it now.
I picked a spot about twenty yards into the flat, but still a quarter of a mile short of the place where the road dissolved. I pulled over to the side of the road, worked my way into the back of the van, and opened the back doors. I slid out a couple of boards and muscled the equipment. Then I rested and looked up at the cold desert stars.
"Here we go, Elizabeth," I whispered to them.
It seemed I felt a cold hand stroke the back of my neck.
The compressor made a racket and the jackhammer was even worse, but there was no help for it - the best I could hope for was to be done with the first stage of the work before midnight. If it went on much longer than that I was going to be in trouble anyway, because I had only a limited quant.i.ty of gasoline for the compressor.
Never mind. Don"t think of who might be listening and wondering what fool would be running a jackhammer in the middle of the night; think about Dolan. Think about the gray Sedan DeVille.
Think about the arc of descent.
I marked off the dimensions of the grave first, using white chalk, the tape measure from my toolbox, and the figures my mathematician friend had worked out. When I was done, a rough rectangle not quite five feet wide by forty-two feet long glimmered in the dark. At the nearer end it flared wide. In the gloom that flare did not look so much like a funnel as it had on the graph paper where my mathematician friend first sketched it. In the gloom it looked like a gaping mouth at the end of the long, straight windpipe. All the better to eat you with, my dear, I thought, and smiled in the dark.
I drew twenty more lines across the box, making stripes two feet wide. Last, I drew a single vertical line down the middle, creating a grid of forty-two near-squares, two feet by two and a half. The forty-third segment was the shovel-shaped flare at the end.
Then I rolled up my sleeves, pull-started the compressor, and went back to square one.
The work went faster than I had any right to hope, but not as fast as I had dared to dream - does it ever? It would have been better if I could have used the heavy equipment, but that would come later. The first thing was to carve up the squares of paving. I was not done by midnight and not by three in the morning, when the compressor ran out of gas. I had antic.i.p.ated this might happen, and was equipped with a siphon for the van"s gas tank. I got as far as uns.c.r.e.w.i.n.g the gas-cap, but when the smell of the gasoline hit me, I simply screwed the cap back on and lay down flat in the back of the van.
No more, not tonight. I couldn"t. In spite of the work-gloves I had worn, my hands were covered with big blisters, many of them now weeping. My whole body seemed to vibrate from the steady, punishing beat of the jackhammer, and my arms felt like tuning forks gone mad. My head ached. My teeth ached. My back tormented me; my spine felt as if it had been filled with ground gla.s.s.
I had cut my way through twenty-eight squares.
Twenty-eight.
Fourteen to go.
And that was only the start.
Never, Ithought. It"s impossible. Can"t be done.
That cold hand again.
Yes, my darling. Yes.