A great surge of contradiction and defiance rose within me; but I choked it down again. It was there if I should need it. The effort held me steady and balanced.
"Do you hear me, sir?"
"Yes, Sir," said I.
"Well--what have you to say?"
He glanced past me towards the door; and I thought again that the guards were in his mind.
"Sir; I have a very great deal to say. But I fear I should offend Your Majesty."
The King jerked his head impatiently.
"It is of the nature of a defence?"
"Certainly, Sir."
"Say it then. You need one."
I raised my eyes and looked him in the face. He was frowning; and his lips were moving. Evidently he was very angry; and yet he was perplexed, too.
"Sir, this is precisely what took place. I returned from France last night, where, as Your Majesty was good enough to remark, I was able to be of some little service. Upon my return I heard from Mr. Chiffinch that my "pretty cousin" as he was kind enough to call her, was in Whitehall, as one of Her Majesty"s ladies. I went to see my cousin, perhaps a little precipitately, but I went peaceably, first inquiring of one of Your Majesty"s guards where her lodgings were. I knocked, peaceably, upon the door. An old woman opened to me, and would give me no intelligible answer to my--peaceable--inquiry as to whether my cousin were there. I prevented her closing the door in my face, but peaceably; then a fellow ran out, and asked me who the devil I was.
Again, peaceably, I inquired for my cousin. I even sat down upon the stairs. Then he made at me; and in self-defence I struck him once, with my hand. My cousin looked out of a door, and I went up into what I understood was her parlour. When the guard came, she sent them away, telling them I was her cousin. The serjeant was impertinent to her; and she shut the door in his face. I remained five minutes, or six, with my cousin, and then went peaceably away, and to my lodgings. That is the entire truth, Sir, from beginning to end."
The King laughed, very short and harsh.
"You put it admirably," he said. "You are a diplomat, indeed."
"That is my defence to Your Majesty; and it is perfectly true--neither less nor more than the truth. But I am not only a diplomat."
He did not fully understand me, I think, for he looked at me sharply.
"Well?" he said. "What else?"
"I have another defence for the public--Sir--not so courteous to Your Majesty."
He remained rigid an instant.
"Then for the public," he said, "you do not think the truth enough?"
"No, Sir; it is for Your Majesty that I think the truth too much."
"I will have it!" cried the King. "This moment!"
Interiorly I licked my lips, as a dog when he sees a bone. His Majesty should have the truth now, with a vengeance. All was falling out exactly as I had designed. He should not have kept me waiting so long; or I might not have thought of it.
"Well, Sir," said I, "you will remember I should not have dared to say it to Your Majesty, had I not been commanded."
He said nothing. Then, once more, I ruffled my growling dog"s ears, so that he snarled.
"First, Sir; to the public I should say: If this is counted brawling, what of other scenes in Whitehall on which no charge was made? What of the sun-dial, smashed all to fragments one night, in the Privy Garden, by certain of the King"s Gentlemen whom I could name? What of the broken door-knockers--not only in the City, but upon certain doors in Whitehall itself--broken, again by certain of the King"s Gentlemen whom I could name? What of a scene I viewed myself in the Banqueting Hall last Christmastide in Your Majesty"s presence, when a Spanish gentleman received full in his face a bunch of raisins, from--"
"Ah!" snarled the King. "And you would say that to the public?"
"Sir--that is only the exordium "--(my voice was raised a little, I think, for indeed I was raging again by now). "Next, I would observe that Mistress Jermyn is my own cousin, and that the hour was eight o"clock in the evening--not nine, if I may so far correct Your Majesty; whereas very different hours are kept by some members of the Court, and the ladies are not their cousins at all."
I had never seen the King so angry. He was unable to speak for fury. His face paled to parchment-colour under his sallow skin, and his eyes burned like coals. This time I lashed my anger, deliberately, instead of tickling it merely.
"Sir; that is not nearly all; but I will miss out a few points, and come to my peroration. My peroration would be after this fashion. Such, I would say, is the charge against one who has been of service to His Majesty; and such is the Court (as I have described) of that same King.
There is not a Court in Europe that has a Prince so n.o.ble as our own can be, of better parts, or of higher ambitions, or of so pure a blood. And there is no Prince who is served so poorly; no Court that so stinks in the nostrils of G.o.d and man, as does his. He is capable," I cried (for by now I was lost to all consideration for myself; my loyalty and love for him had come to the aid of my anger; and I saw that never again should I have such an opportunity of speaking my mind), "He is capable of as great achievements, as any Prince that has gone before him; for he has already won back the throne which his fathers lost. Would it be of service, I would say, to such a Prince as this, to punish a man who would lay down his life for him to give him even a moment"s pleasure; and to let go scot-free men and women who have never done anything but injure him?"
I ceased; breathless, yet triumphing; for I knew that I had held His Majesty with my words. How he would take it, when he recovered, I did not know: nor did I greatly care. I had spoken my mind to him at last; and what I had said was no more than my conviction. That blessed gift of anger had done the rest: and, having done its work, retired again to chaos; and left me clear-headed and master of myself.
When I looked at him he was motionless. He was still very pale, but the terrible brightness of his eyes was gone.
Then he roused himself to sneer; but I did not care for that; for there was no other way for him just then, consonant with his own dignity.
"Very admirably preached!" said he; "even if a trifle treasonous."
"I am pleased Your Majesty is satisfied," I said, with a little bow.
Then he broke down altogether, in the only way that he could; he gave a great spirt of laughter; then he leaned back and laughed till the tears ran down. Presently he was quieter.
"Oddsfish!" he cried, "this is a turning of tables indeed! I sent for you, Mr. Mallock--"
The door opened softly behind me; and a man put his head in.
"Go away! go away!" cried the King. "Cannot you see I am being preached to?"
The door closed again.
"I sent for you, Mr. Mallock, to reprimand you very severely. And instead of that it is you who have held the whip. Little Ken is nothing to it: you should have been a Bishop, Mr. Mallock."
Again he spirted with laughter. Then he drew himself up in his chair a little; and became more grave.
"This is all very well," he said. "But I think I must get in my reprimand, for all that. You will not be sent to the guard-room, or the Green Cloth--(or whatever it is that would meet your case)--this time, Mr. Mallock; I will deal with you myself. But it is a very serious business, and your distinctions would not serve you in law. A sundial is not so important as a Christian lady; and a bunch of raisins is not, legally, a blow in the face. Still less are all the sundials and Spaniards in the world, equal to one of Her Majesty"s Maids of Honour.
You understand that?"
I bowed again; reminding myself that I was not done with him, even yet.
"Yes, Sir."
"Consider yourself reprimanded severely, Mr. Mallock."
I bowed; but I stood still.
"You have my leave--Oh! by the way, Mr. Mallock; there are just ten words I must have with you on the French affairs."
He motioned to a seat.