Paranoia : Split Self

"You are mad?" she said with a teasing voice.

"Ah, seriously, hmmm… what"s my name going to be, hmmm… since you love latin so much even though you don"t understand a singe thing about it what about Sui Findo, yeah I think that"s right you once Go*gled it" Sui said happily.

Then I turned around but I saw no one even though I continued to hear voices, I don"t really know if what she said earlier is the truth or she is just some ghost who can read my entire mind but just by hearing voices like this is making Gooseb.u.mps appearing on my skins.

"Huh… you really are a scaredy cat and such a kid, perhaps you think that everyone deep inside is still a child too but at least we know that you are more childish than them. Hah…" Sui continued to complain but this part of me, the one being childish is the one that I strangely never felt inferior about, I most of the like this part of me.

"Yeah, yeah just keep monologing and forgot that I am here and I can hear you talking inside your mind."

Then I flipped facing the celling with my eyes closed and spoke since she can hear what I said in my mind "How can you do all of that, Sui?"

"See how easy you accept this, it was because deep inside you already accepted it, just like how you slowly admit the reason you hate Futanari is because you are s.e.xist, alright, I don"t really know whenever it"s really scientific or not but the most scientific explanation that I am here is I am your split personality, and you may not really remember it but you once read an article about how in theory, THEORY! I stress, your brain can completely control your body within its limit, that"s how I can smack you in the head because you have been smacked in the head before so if you want me to do you some s.e.xual favour, hire some prost.i.tute first." Sui said.

Then I went back to in front of the mirror and saw Sui with an annoyed face reflected on the mirror "So I actually approve giving my first to prost.i.tute."

Sui then messed up my hair, I felt that and the image on the mirror too but I looked up and my hair is still normal "I know that I actually didn"t think that anyone will ever fall in love with me, even so I have hope too you know."

Sui then stopped messing with my hair and patted it back "I know but most of the time you hope remained hope doesn"t it."

"Also, where did you get all this appearance and voice?" I asked curiously.

"Most of this voice, appearance is actually spliced from all your crush from your kindergarten until now, there Is some from unknown girl that you saw but this face and voice is mostly taken from your high school crush, seriously just how much do you like her for me to be this influence, no wait stop there actually I know I just want to say that" Sui said still hanging on my back, putting a stop sign on top of my head. "Turn your body sideways."

I meekly obeyed but I continued to look at the mirror since I couldn"t see Sui otherwise and while floating down to in front of me, Sui said "Don"t worry as far as I know I will be visible for you anywhere with some more time since your brain is still accepting my existence."

So, admit you are an external being!

"No! I already said that." Sui said as she held my hand and lifted it.

Suddenly she placed it on top of her chest and I was stunned because I could felt that beyond the fabric there is a suppleness even though it"s small.

"Kukuku… you remember when you are at 6th grade, you accidentally squeezed ping-ping"s breast." Sui said before she moved her hand to my d.i.c.k. "This is from your masturbation." Suddenly I felt a stimulation from my d.i.c.k.

"But I won"t stroke you off." She said after getting me hard.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and huffed it out several times before my hard on dissipated.

Eventually I took a chair and sat in front of the mirror and talked, argued, laughed, discussed things with Sui, without me noticing it I have been bullied by and bullying Sui for hours and its already night.

Then after noticing the time, I looked at the mirror and looked at Sui who is all pretty, perfect, and seems smart and I looked at myself who is a little fat, face full of b.u.mps because I couldn"t hold myself back, my bigger than normal nipple, yeah after all I am still ug-

Suddenly Sui strike my head and while I am closing my eyes in pain, I felt someone is stroking my head again before she said "Dummy, I already said you are just lacking in confidence, you know that, we know that, you already searched for comparison in internet, in real life, amongst all the fact you are categorized as handsome why do you make your own life so hard, be more confidence, be more social, and there will be someone who will fall for you."

I opened my eyes and looked at sui who is cradling my head while stroking it, leaning her head against mine closing her eyes, perhaps to me this is a perfect girl friend or …Wife, someone who have the same hobby as me, understand me, can be mad at me, I can be mad at her, someone who will encourage me, someone who-

Interrupting my thought Sui said while still cradling my head "Of course, that"s what I am after all."

"Alright time to take the bath, I won"t allow you to skip bathing just because you are lazy." Sui said while kicking my b.u.t.t, Ah! Yes I remember that while in Taekwondo I was once literary had my a.s.s kicked.

While taking the bath on the Swimming Poll"s Bathroom since the one there have hot water unlike the one on every floor where there is only cold water.

The whole time I was bathing, Sui teased me endlessly by appearing suddenly wet and naked, literally wet as If she had taken a bath, I wonder where have I seen something like this, Ah! Yes, p.o.r.n. Then sometimes she stroked my d.i.c.k in the middle of me washing myself, the whole time I was bathing I was cursing, screaming, and so but it"s not that weird considering that I have once heard someone openly watching p.o.r.n behind that bath stall and openly listening to Anime Music out loud, very loud I have to mention, in consideration me screaming, cursing, is not as rare as both of them.

Getting back to my room I turned on the AC. Although I know the electricity quote for my room is still a lot but I can"t help but to want to save some electricity unlike some of my neighbour who turned it on all day.

Soon at 10 p.m. I laid on the bed warped in my bed cover, warping my legs and arms on a bolster. As soon as I close my eyes the bolster suddenly felt warm and I felt someone warping her arms around me then i heard someone said "Good Night, Michael." Of course, I know this is Sui.

"Good Night too Sui." I replied with smile spreading on my face.

All the sudden I heard Sui"s voice again.

"Shi… shang zhi you ma ma~" I jolted lightly as I remembered this song, the song that I heard from ca.s.sette and the one that my mom sang for me when I was about to sleep.

I smiled as Sui continued to sing, gradually I fell asleep.