Paranoia : Split Self

"You are not ugly you are just lacking in confidence."

Perhaps you are right.

"Now touch the mirror."

The voice sounded out; I don"t know this… thing Is ghost, demon or any supernatural being or just a pigment of my imagination but in my daze I followed the order.

I reached out and placed my palm fully on the mirror, a second pa.s.sed nothing happened except some mark seeped out from the heat of my body into the mirror and the mirror rippled. The mirror rippled?

I questioned and focused again, in my panic I tried to pull my hand and it felt as if it stuck there. In fear I starred at the rippling mirror. There slowly, ever slowly I saw a figure materializing around me starting from her black hair to a feminine face to her arms that is cradling my head as she continued to stroke my head and I felt that and… it felt nice, next is her body that seems to press itself against my back, then finally the leg that is warped around my waist, even trough the rippling mirror I can see that she is beautiful.

Finally, the mirror stopped rippling and the woman, no the girl smiled and spoked "Does it feels good?"

Instinctively I nodded, because even thought I always acted offended when someone messed with my head, actually I want them to genteelly caress it as if I am a boy especially if the one to do that is a beautiful girl or woman.

Then the girl"s smile widened before she snorted and slapped my head, wincing in pain I was knocked out from my daze and I hurriedly looked behind me into another mirror but behind me I see no one but on that mirror the girl is still there.

I jumped back in horror and slammed my back into the mirror on the right but the girl still cling to my back as I shouted "Gho…Ghost!"

"Seriously, I mean I know you are a scaredy cat but still I am not a ghost I am you." She spoke with no small amount of amus.e.m.e.nt.

"Then what are you?" I asked in small voice.

"Are you stupid? Hmm… well you are not stupid, maybe dumb since you are a bit slow sometimes, I already said it I am you." The girl said in irritation as he slapped repeatedly at my head.

I looked up even thought I felt the pain I saw no one there. "What do you mean by that?"

"Ah, yes. My word can be very vague considering we are an otaku, huh. Perhaps did you think I am some kind of demon that reside on us, or perhaps you think I am something like the Hollow inside Ichigo Kurosaki, well I am something like that but to be more exacts it"s nothing that powerful, I am just your split personality, If I am not wrong." The girl explained while nodding in the pose that I usually made when I am alone.

"What…?"

"Well, for the explanation. Clap Clap. Dramatic Music on." Then form out of nowhere the dramatic music sounded on so loud that I worry my neighbour will come to complain about the noise.

"Now, look at me. Michael." I suddenly focused on her, even trough the loud music her voice still pierced toward me.

Now I am focused on her, I could truly appreciate her figure, she have a pet.i.te stature with white long legs and perky b.u.t.ts that seems so bubbly, gentle looking face as if she will never hurt anything and hair that is just past her shoulder and that brought my attention to her chest, her chest is as flat as-

My thought was stopped because I suddenly felt a pain in my head and the reflection on the mirror reflected that the girl who said she is my personality had her fist on my head.

"You are complaining I am flat when you are the one that made me." She said in huffingly.

And the dramatic environment she had built was destroyed in that second. "Wait, you could read my mind!"

Then as if nothing happened she continued with a cough as if her dramatic sensation haven"t been shattered. "Now, Michael, you always fear many things, but one of the things you fear the most is having relationship."

Since she is going to continue, I just sat there on the floor and listened.

"You always wanted someone who will always be at your side until you die or even after that, don"t you?"

"Yes." I answered.

"You wanted someone who will never betray you no matter what unlike the one in the fictional world or real world, yes?"

"Yes!" I agreed with vigor.

"You also want someone who is gentle looking, pet.i.te, yet having a perky a.s.s, don"t you?"

"… … yes" I said with a low voice, as I looked over her figure again.

"You want someone who despite looking gentle and mild most of the time to be someone who can pull you out from your comfort zone or maybe motivate you to do more useful thing, someone who you can fully trust with all you might, someone who can read your mind and you trust them to do the best for you. Someone who can you pour all your love without the fear of being hurt. Someone who could pamper you and also you could pamper. Someone who will be at your side no matter how bad or good the situation is. Someone who can comfort you when you face your fear. Someone… Someone who can accept all your bad parts and loved your good one, isn"t it." she said as she resumed stroking my head.

Then I close my eyes for a few seconds, just for a few seconds that"s all I need for now. In that seconds I felt her gentle stroking, I remembered the feeling I felt when I accidentally read those NTR hentai manga as I imagined myself as him, I remembered those jealousy that I felt when I saw those couples yet along with the weirdness I felt as those couples broke up and got a new one in matter of days, the curiosity of that relationship along with the fear that I will be just like them.

"Yes." I answered with the steadiest tone I could muster.

"Kukuku… Although I am made by you technically and all the knowledge I have you will have too technically, I am strangely freed from your bias, although you just want someone or perhaps if possible more than just someone to be just be with you from start to the end, it"s impossible, well some lucky couples maybe succeed on that like your crush from high school." The girl said as she warped her hands around me to hug me, even after confirming that she isn"t there I felt the warmness from her as if she really is there to hug me.

"Also, the ideal girl you want is not realistic at all, how could someone like that exist, at least according to our knowledge but I think most of the time many man or woman have someone they ideally want but those figures is not realistic, very rarely there is someone like that." She whispered into my ear as she rested her head on my shoulder.

"Oh yeah, you also want someone who can sate your l.u.s.t right" her gentle voice whispered into my ear and I froze.