"Don"t say that, Ernest," Berkeley answered gently. "Think of Mrs. Le Breton and the baby. The luxury of starvation for the sake of a cause is one you might venture to allow yourself if you were alone in the world as I am, but not one which you ought to force unwillingly upon your wife and children. You"ve been getting a trifle more practical of late under the spur of necessity; don"t go and turn impossible again at the supreme moment. Whatever happens, it"s your plain duty to go on writing for the "Morning Intelligence."
You say with your own hand only what you think and believe yourself: the editor alone is responsible for the final policy of the paper."
Ernest only muttered slowly to himself,--"Never, never, never!"
Still, though the first attempt had failed, Ernest did not wholly give up his hopes of doing something towards the release of Herr Max from that unutterable imprisonment. He drew up a form of pet.i.tion to the Home Secretary, in which he pointed out the reasons for setting aside the course of the law in the case of this particular political prisoner. With feverish anxiety he ran about London for the next two days, trying to get influential signatures to his pet.i.tion, and to rouse the people in their millions to demand the release of the popular martyr. Alas for the stolid indifference of the British public! The people in their millions sat down to eat and drink, and rose up to play, exactly as if nothing unusual in any way had happened. Most of them had never heard at all of Herr Max, or of "Gold and the Proletariate," and those who had heard understood for the most part that he was a bad lot who was imprisoned for trying nefariously to blow up the Emperor of Rooshia. Crowds of people nightly besieged the doors of the Ambiguities and the Marlborough, to hear the fate of "The Primate of Fiji" and "The Duke of Bermondsey;" but very few among the millions took the trouble to sign their names to Ernest Le Breton"s despairing pet.i.tion. Even the advanced radicals of the market-place, the men who figured largely at Trafalgar Square meetings and Agricultural Labourers"
Unions, feared to damage their reputation for moderation and sobriety by getting themselves mixed up with a continental agitator like this man Schurz that people were talking about. The Irish members expressed a pious horror of the very word dynamite: the working-man leaders hemmed and hawed, and regretted their inability, in their very delicate position, to do anything which might seem like countenancing Russian nihilism. In the end, Ernest sent, in his pet.i.tion with only half a dozen unknown signatures; and the Home Secretary"s private prompter threw it into the waste-paper basket entire, without even taking the trouble to mention its existence to his hara.s.sed and overburdened chief. Just a Marylebone communist refugee in prison! How could a statesman with half the bores and faddists of England on his troubled hands, find time to look at uninfluential pet.i.tions about an insignificant worthless n.o.body like that?
So gentle, n.o.ble-natured, learned Herr Max went to prison and served his year there uncomplainingly, like any other social malefactor; and Society talked about his case with languid interest for nearly a fortnight, and then straightway found a new sensation, and forgot all about him. But there are three hundred and sixty-five days of twenty-four hours each in every year; and for every one of those days Herr Max and Herr Max"s friends never forgot for an hour together that he was in prison.
And at the end of the week Ernest got a letter from Lancaster, enclosing a cheque for eight guineas. That is a vast sum of money, eight guineas: just think of all the bread, and meat, and tea, and clothing one can buy with it for a small family! "My dear Le Breton," the editor wrote--in his own hand, too; a rare honour; for he was a kindly man, and he had learned, much to his surprise, from Arthur Berkeley, that Ernest was angry at his treatment of the Schurzian leader: "My dear Le Breton, I enclose cheque for eight guineas, for your two articles. I hope you didn"t mind the way I was obliged to cut them up in some unessential details, so as to suit the policy of the paper. I kept whatever was really most distinctive as embodying special information in them. You know we are above all things strictly moderate. Please send us another social shortly."
It was a kind letter, undoubtedly a kind and kindly-meant letter: but Ernest flung it from him as though he had been stung by a serpent or a scorpion. Then he handed the cheque to Edie in solemn silence, to see what she would do with it. He merely wanted to try her constancy. For himself, he would have felt like a Judas indeed if he had taken and used their thirty pieces of silver.
Edie looked at the cheque intently and sighed a deep sigh of regret.
How could she do otherwise? They were so very poor, and it was such an immense sum of money! Then she rose quietly without saying a word, and lighted a match from the box on the mantelpiece. She held the cheque firmly between her finger and thumb till it was nearly burnt, end let it drop slowly at last into the empty fireplace.
Ernest rose up and kissed her tenderly. The leaden weight of the thirty pieces of silver was fairly off their united conscience. They had made what reparation they could for the evil of that unhappy, undesigned leader. After all Ernest had wasted the last remnant of his energy on one eventful evening, all for nothing.
As Edie sat looking wistfully at the smouldering fragments of the burnt cheque, Ernest roused her again by saying quietly, "To-day"s Sat.u.r.day. Have we got anything for to-morrow"s dinner, Edie?"
"Nothing," Edie answered, simply. "How much money have you left, Ernest?"
"Sixpence," Ernest said, without needing to consult his empty purse for confirmation--he had counted the pence, as they went, too carefully for that already. "Edie, I"m afraid we must go at last to the poor man"s banker till I can get some more money."
"Oh, Ernest--not--not--not the p.a.w.nbroker!"
"Yes, Edie, the p.a.w.nbroker."
The tears came quickly into Edie"s eyes, but she answered nothing.
They must have food, and there was no other way open before them.
They rose together and went quietly into the bedroom. There they gathered together the few little trinkets and other things that might be of use to them, and Ernest took down his hat from the stand to go out with them to the p.a.w.nbroker"s.
As he turned out he was met energetically on the landing by a stout barricade from good Mrs. Halliss. "No, sir, not you, sir,"
the landlady said firmly, trying to take the parcel from him as he went towards the door. "I beg your pardon, sir, for "avin" over"eard what wasn"t meant for me to "ear, no doubt, but I couldn"t "elp it, sir, and John an" me can"t allow nothink of this sort, we can"t.
We"re used to this sort o" things, sir, John and me is; but you and the dear lady isn"t used to "em, sir, and didn"t nought to be neither, and John an" me can"t allow it, not anyhow."
Ernest turned scarlet with shame, but could say nothing. Edie only whispered softly, "Dear, dear Mrs. Halliss, we"re so sorry, but we can"t help it."
""Elp it, ma"am," said Mrs. Halliss, herself almost crying, "nor there ain"t no reason why you should try to "elp it neither. As I says to John, "John," says I, "there ain"t no "arm in it, noways,"
says I, "but I can"t stand by," says I, "and see them two poor dear young creechurs," meanin" no offence, ma"am, "a-p.a.w.ning of their own jewelry and things to go and pay for their Sunday"s dinner."
And John, "e says, says "e, "Quite right, Martha," says "e; "don"t let "em, my dear," says "e. "The Lord has prospered us a bit in our "umble way, Martha," says "e, "and we ain"t got no cause to want, we ain"t; and if the dear lady and the good gentleman wouldn"t take it as a liberty," says "e, "it "ud be better they should just borrer a pound or two for a week from us," says "e, beggin" your pardon, ma"am, for "intin" of it, "than that there Mr. Le Breting, as ain"t accustomed to such places nohow, should go a-makin"
acquaintance, for the fust time of his life, as you may say, with the inside of a p.a.w.nbroker"s shop," says "e. "John," says I, "it"s my belief the lady and gentleman "ud be insulted," says I, "though they ARE the sweetest una.s.soomin"est young gentlefolk I ever did see," says I, "if we were to go as tin" them to accept the loan of money from the likes of you and me, John, as is no better, by the side of them, nor old servants, in the manner o" speakin"."
"Insulted," says "e; "not a bit of it, they needn"t, Martha,"
says "e, "for I knows the ways of the aristocracy," says "e, "and I knows as there"s many a gentleman as owns "is own "osses and "is own "ounds as isn"t afraid to borrer a pound or so from "is own coachman, or even from "is own groom--not but what to borrer from a groom is lowerin"," says "e, "in a tempory emergency. Mind you, Martha," says "e, "a tempory emergency is a thing as may "appen to landed gentlefolks any day," says "e. "It"s like a "ole in your coat made by a tear," says "e; "a haccident as may "appen to-morrer to the Prince of Wales "isself upon the "untin" field," "e says.
"Well, then, John," says I, "I"ll just go an" speak to "em about it, this very minnit," says I, and if I might make so bold, ma"am, without seemin" too presumptious, I should be very glad if you"d kindly allow me, ma"am, to lend Mr. Le Breting a few suvverins till "e gets "is next remittances, ma"am."
Edie looked at Ernest, and Ernest looked at Edie and the landlady; and then they all three burst out crying together without further apology. Perhaps it was the old Adam left in Ernest a little; but though he could stand kindness from Dr. Greatrex or from Mr.
Lancaster stoically enough, he couldn"t watch the humble devotion of those two honest-hearted simple old servants without a mingled thrill of shame and tenderness. "Mrs. Halliss," he said, catching up the landlady"s hard red hand gratefully in his own, "you are too good and too kind, and too considerate for us altogether. I feel we have done nothing to deserve such great kindness from you. But I really don"t think it would be right of us to borrow from you when we don"t even know how long it may be before we"re able to return your money or whether we shall ever be able to return it at all.
We"re so much obliged to you, so very very much obliged to you, dear Mrs. Halliss, but I think we ought as a matter of duty to p.a.w.n these few little things rather than run into debt which we"ve no fair prospect at present of ever redeeming."
"HAS you please, sir," Mrs. Halliss said gently, wiping her eyes with her snow-white ap.r.o.n, for she saw at once that Ernest really meant what he said. "Not that John an" me would think of it for a minnit, sir, so long as you wouldn"t mind our takin" the liberty; but any"ow, sir, we can"t allow you to go out yourself and go to the p.a.w.nbroker"s. It ain"t no fit place for the likes of you, sir, a p.a.w.nbroker"s ain"t, in all that low company; and I don"t suppose you"d rightly know "ow much to hask on the articles, neither.
John, "e ain"t afeard of goin"; an" "e says, "e insists upon it as "e"s to go, for "e don"t think, sir, for the honour of the "ouse, "e says, sir, as a lodger of ours ought to be seen a-goin" to the p.a.w.nbroker"s. Just you give them things right over to John, sir, and "e"ll get you a better price on "em by a long way nor they"d ever think of giving a gentleman like you, sir."
Ernest fought off the question in a half-hearted fashion for a little while, but Mrs. Halliss insisted upon it, and after a short time Ernest gave way, for to say the truth he had very vague ideas himself as to how he ought to proceed in a p.a.w.nbroking expedition.
Mrs. Halliss ran down the kitchen stairs quickly, for fear he should change his mind as soon as her back was turned, and called out gaily to her husband in the first delight of her unexpected triumph.
"John," she cried, "--drat that man, where is "e? John, dear, you just putt your "at on, and purtend to run round the corner a bit to Aston"s the p.a.w.nbroker"s. The Lord have mercy upon me for the stories I"ve been a-tellin" of "em, but I couldn"t bear to see them two pore things a-p.a.w.nin" their little bits of jewelry and sich, and Mr. Le Breting, too, "im as ain"t fit to go knockin" together with underbred folks like p.a.w.nbrokers. So I told "im as you"d take "em round and p.a.w.n "em for "im yourself; not as I don"t suppose you"ve never p.a.w.ned nothink in your "ole life, John, leastways not since ever you an" me kep" company, for afore that I suppose you was purty much like other young men is, John, for all you shakes your "ead at it now so innocent like. But you just run round, there"s a dear, and make as if you was goin" to the p.a.w.nbroker"s, and then you come straight "ome again unbeknown to "em. I ain"t a goin" to let them two pore dears go p.a.w.nin" their things for a dinner nohow. You take them two suvverins out of your box, John, and putt away these "ere little things for the present time till the pore souls is able to pay us, and if they never don"t, small matter neither. Now you go fast, John, there"s a dear, and come back, and mind you give them two suvverins to Mr. Le Breting as natural like as ever you"re able."
"p.a.w.n "em," John said in a pitying voice, "no indeed, it ain"t come to that yet, I should "ope, that they need go a-p.a.w.nin" their effects while we"ve got a suvverin or two laid by in our box, Martha. Not as anybody need be ashamed of p.a.w.nin" on occasions, for that matter,--I don"t say as a reg"lar thing, but now an" then on occasions, as you may call it; for even in the best dookal families, I"ve "eard tell they DO sometimes "ave to p.a.w.n the dimonds, so that p.a.w.nin" ain"t in the runnin" noways, bless you, as respects gentility. Not as I"d like to go into a p.a.w.nshop myself, Martha, as I"ve always been brought up respectable; but when you send for Mr. Hattenborough to your own ressydence and say quite commandin"
like, ""Er Grace "ud be obleeged if you"d wait upon "er in Belgrave Square to hinspeck "er dimonds as I want to raise the wind on "em,"
why, that"s quite another matter nat"rally."
When honest John came back in a few minutes and handed the two sovereigns over to Ernest, he did it with such an unblushing face as might have won him applause on any stage for its perfect naturalness. "Lor" bless your "eart, sir," he said in answer to Ernest"s shamefaced thanks, touching the place where his hat ought to be mechanically, "it ain"t nothing, sir, that ain"t. If it weren"t for the dookal families of England, sir, it"s my belief the p.a.w.nbrokin" business wouldn"t be worth mentioning in the manner o"
speakin"."
That evening, Ernest paced up and down the little parlour rather moodily for half an hour with three words ringing perpetually in his dizzy ears-the "Never, never, never," he had used so short a tune since about the "Morning Intelligence." He must get money somehow for Dot and Edie! he must get money somehow to pay good Mrs. Halliss for their board and lodging! There was only one way possible.
Fight against it as he would, in the end he must come back to that inevitable conclusion. At last he sat down with a gloomy face at the centre table, and pulled out a sheet of blank foolscap.
"What are you going to do, Ernest?" Edie asked him.
Ernest groaned. "I"m writing a social for the "Morning Intelligence,"
Edie," he answered bitterly.
"Oh, Ernest!" Edie said with a face of horror and surprise. "Not after the shameful way they"ve treated poor Max Schurz!"
Ernest groaned again. "There"s nothing else to be done, Edie," he said, looking up at her despondently. "I must earn money somehow to keep the house going."
It is the business of the truthful historian to narrate facts, not to palliate or extenuate the conduct of the various actors. Whether Ernest did right or wrong, at least he did it; he wrote a playful social for Monday"s "Morning Intelligence," and carried it into the office on Sunday afternoon himself, because there was no postal delivery in the London district.
That night, he lay awake once more for hours together, tossing and turning, and reflecting bitterly on his own baseness and his final moral downfall. Herbert was right, after all. The environment was beginning to conquer. He could hold out no longer. Herr Max was in prison; the world was profoundly indifferent; he himself had fallen away like Peter; and there was nothing left for him now but to look about and find himself a dishonourable grave.
And Dot? And Edie? What was to become of them after? Ah me, for the pity of it when a man cannot even crawl quietly into a corner and die in peace like a dog, without being tortured by fears and terrors beforehand as to what will come to those he loves far better than life when he himself is quietly dead and buried out of the turmoil!
CHAPTER XXIX.
A MAN AND A MAID.
IF Ernest and Edie had permitted it, Ronald Le Breton would have gone at once, after his coming of age, to club income and expenditure with his brother"s household. But, as Edie justly remarked, when he proposed it, such a course would pretty nearly have amounted to clubbing HIS income with THEIR expenditure; and even in their last extreme of poverty that was an injustice which neither she nor her husband could possibly permit. Ronald needed all his little fortune for his own simple wants, and though they themselves starved, they couldn"t bear to deprive him of the small luxuries which had grown into absolute necessaries for one so feeble and weak. Indeed, ill as Ernest himself now was, he had never outgrown the fixed habit of regarding Ronald as the invalid of the family; and to have taken anything, though in the direst straits, from him, would have seemed like robbing the helpless poor of their bare necessities.
So Ronald was fain at last to take lodgings for himself with a neighbour of good Mrs. Halliss"s, and only to share in Ernest"s troubles to the small extent of an occasional loan, which Edie would have repaid to time if she had to go without their own poor little dinner for the sake of the repayment.
Meanwhile, Ronald had another interest on hand which to his enthusiastic nature seemed directly imposed upon him by the finger of Providence--to provide a home and occupation for poor Selah, whom Herbert had cast aside as a legacy to him. As soon as he had got settled down to his own new mode of life in the Holloway lodgings, he began to look about for a fit place for the homeless girl--a place, he thought to himself, which must combine several special advantages; plenty of work--she wanted that to take her mind off brooding; good, honest, upright people; and above all, no religion. Ronald recognised that last undoubted requirement as of absolutely paramount importance. "She"ll stand any amount of talk or anything else from me," he said to himself often, "because she knows I"m really in earnest; but she wouldn"t stand it for a moment from those well-meaning, undiscriminating, religious busy-bodies, who are so awfully anxious about other people"s souls, though they never seem for a single minute to consider in any way other people"s feelings." After a little careful hunting among his various acquaintances, however, he found at last a place that would exactly suit Selah at a stationer"s in Netting Hill; and there he put her--with full confidence that Selah would do the work entrusted to her well and ably, if not from conscientiousness, at least from personal pride, "which, after all," Roland soliloquised dreamily, "is as good a subst.i.tute for the genuine article as one can reasonably expect to find in poor fallen human nature."
"I wish, Mr. Le Breton," Selah said, quite timidly for her (maidenly reserve, it must be admitted, was not one of Selah Briggs"s strong points), "that I wasn"t going to be quite so far from you as Notting Hill. If I could see you sometimes, you know, I should feel that it might keep me more straight--keep me away from the river in future, I mean. I can"t stand most people"s preaching, but somehow, your preaching seems to do me more good than harm, really, which is just the exact opposite way, it seems to me, from everybody else"s."
Ronald smiled sedately. "I"m glad you want to see me sometimes,"
he said, with a touch of something very like gallantry in his tone that was wholly unusual with him. "I shall walk over every now and then, and look you up at your lodgings over yonder; and besides, you can come on Sundays to dear Edie"s, and I shall be able to meet you there once a fortnight or thereabouts. But I"m not going to let you call me Mr. Le Breton any longer; it isn"t friendly: and, what"s more, it isn"t Christian. Why should there be these artificial barriers between soul and soul, eh, Selah? I shall call you Selah in future: it seems more genuine and heartfelt, and unenc.u.mbered with needless conventions, than your misters and misses. After all, why should we keep up such idle formalities between brethren and fellow-workers?"