Power To Resist

"You can"t keep that barrier up all day." His mother tells me while I shrug and lean on my palms.

"Sure I can. The barrier only holds those who hate me inside. It"s not that hard to keep up a barrier for two people." I inform her with a wink making Zavier roll his eyes, amused with the game I was playing.

"You"re a horrible person." She scoffs earning a sharp look from Zavier.

"At least I know my boundaries." I point out getting two annoyed glances.

"Xenon. You"re too adorable." Zavier cooes, playing this dating thing seriously as I smiled and blew him a kiss only earning his father from slamming against my barrier with his hand.

"Thanks. And that won"t help at all. I promise." I told his father before standing up and stretching my arms. "I smell rogues. You can stay here old man. I can handle a few of them. Plus I trained them." I said, cracking my fists while Zavier pats his mother"s arm and walked down the stairs.

"I"ll help." He offers when I nodded and snapped finger for two guns for him.

"Here. They"re silver infused." I tossed him the guns and watched as the rogues came from the forest, thankfully there was no but the both of us out here. "You got the one on the right?" I ask him, getting ready for the other four that were coming in my direction.

"I"ll get three. You get two." He corrects when I smirked and shrugged.

"Whatever makes you feel better." I chuckle and threw a gust of wind to knock back the incoming a.s.sa.s.sins. Zavier didn"t realize what I had done until I cast an ice spell to freeze and slow down the wolves movements.

One of them sped up to my face while he slammed his fist into the man"s face. I threw a fireball over Zavier"s shoulder before the wolf could bite into his shoulder.

"What the fu-"

I jumped over his body, using his back to launch me towards another wolf that was larger than the last one.

"Pugione." A dagger appeared in my hand before I sliced through the wolf"s neck and threw it away from me, the blood spilling on my body while it rolled away. The taste of iron in my mouth was both refreshing and very disturbing.

It was causing me to slowly want to return to my killer tendencies and I couldn"t return to that.

"Duck!" I reacted immediately, not even thinking while Zavier shot off the gun and killed another wolf that was coming for me. My eyes snapped to Zavier and saw he took care of the other rogue I completely forgot about. "You alright?" He asks me as I stood up and tried wiping the blood off my arms.

"Yeah. I just haven"t killed in front of in a while. Brought back memories that I was trying to forget." I laughed humorlessly, his parents watching from the doorway when I smirked and pulled the shield away from the home. "I hope that you can trust me. I"ve been here for the last two years and protecting the pack, killing rogues and taking care of people that have been in series need of medical care." I told them, not wanting them to hate me but if they did that"s just life.

Either you love me or you hate me.

I can"t control that.

"You don"t seem very well." Zavier points out, walking over to me while I sighed and rubbed my eyes.

"I"m just tired. I didn"t get much sleep the previous night and was very drunk when I took that nap. Just haven"t got enough energy back." I said truthfully as he sighs and wraps his arms around my waist.

"You can get some rest in my room like before. I don"t m-"

"Zavier you have a fiance. I won"t be the other woman." I pushed him away even though everything inside of me was telling me to return to the warmth of his body. "I"ve gotta go. I may have to leave for-"

"I want to come with you." He cuts me off, dead set on his words while I smiled and shook my head.

"No. I won"t be myself and I don"t want you to be involved. Not again at least. I want to keep you away from that man. Also didn"t I just tell you to be with your fiance? I am and will not be the other woman." I remind once again, taking a step back but he grabbed my arm so I couldn"t walk away.

"I am coming." He said again, ignoring everything else while I scoffed and pulled my arm away again.

"W-"

"I"m coming." He cut me off before I could say something me making me narrow my eyes at him in a deadly way.

"Shut it," I said quick enough to shut him up when I stepped in front of him again, grabbing his collar. "If you come, and if you do, then I can not have you thinking everything I do there is going to be who I am. I will act a certain way and so will you. We will h"

He pressed himself onto me, giving me a sweet and soft peck on the lips as my eyes widened and were quick to shove him away from me. His green eyes seemed amused by my reaction when I huffed, slightly irritated but now restless from the kiss I broke apart.

"I"ll be here, love." He purrs like a cat causing me to laugh and push him further away from me.

"Whatever!" I yell out loud, turning away before spinning back around. "I am not your love a.s.shole!" I bark making him laugh and wink at me.

"Think what you want to think, love. See you tonight?" He asks while I walked away. I glanced over my shoulder and grinned over at him.

"See you tonight, Zavier." I waved, disappearing within seconds to repair my torn apart cabin.

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"You cleaned up?" A voice spoke all of a sudden while I sipped on a cup of coffee and watched while Ajax entered the cabin. His eyes seemed a little calmer than the morning before when I leaned against the counter.

I refuse to say a word to this jack a.s.s.

Even though he was d.a.m.n right about his words about this morning. It just hurts to hear them coming from him, from all people why him?

"Um. h.e.l.lo?" He calls again trying to make me speak but I only stared at him, grabbing my coffee once again and sipping on it. "Look. Fay-"

I held my hand up, drinking the rest of the coffee before placing it in the sink and walking past him towards the door.

"Hey! I"m trying to have a serious conversation." He barks at me, following me as I switched into my a.s.sa.s.sins outfit and continued walking away.

"If I was looking to talk, I would have. But I am not in the mood." I told him, waving his words off and walked a little faster. Though he seemed to not understand the word no today.

"Come on. I didn"t mean those words, Faye. C-"

"No. You did mean them. And I am glad you told me that. You want to know why?" I stopped and spun around to him. "You are right. I am not satisfied with this life. You all are wonderful, but there"s this... illusion of me growing up with a mother and a father. Being cared for and loved like a family. Haven"t you ever wished that you could have had that? Wished that you were offered that life plus meeting Alex? Doesn"t a perfect story require a life full of happiness?" I question him while he sighed deeply and raked his hand through his hair.

We stood there for several moments.

Not saying anything to one another when he stood there, staring down at me with thoughts roaming around his mind.

"Are you stupid, Faye?" He asks all of a sudden, hurting my feelings a little bit. "Without going through all those experiences, how could we have grown to appreciate the things we have now? Like I told you yesterday. I"d rather live the life that I have grown up with rather than being raised with my biological parents. Yes, I would have loved to be cared for by a mother and taught by a father. But I"m doing that with my own children, so I am giving that love and attention I never received. Don"t be naive, you are in your mid-twenties. We aren"t teenagers anymore." He scoffs at me as if I was a child, hurting me more than I antic.i.p.ated it too.

His words...

I knew he would-

I knew he felt this way at one point.

Before meeting Alex, he was a hopeless cause and never cared for others. Though he"s always wanted a parental figure and sought that comfort from me as the bigger sister I usually was.

Now here we are.

Fighting and insulting one another about my insecurities and his past concerns.

Hearing him call it dumb and stupid hurt me deeply.

More than I would admit to anyone.

"You"re such an a.s.s." I shook my head, shoving him hard back and turning away from him. My pace was quicker than before while he scoffs again and followed me.

"I"m only telling y-"

"You don"t say that to people! You-You inconsiderate man!" I stutter making him narrow his eyes at me.

"Me? Inconsiderate? Look who"s talking." He comments in a rude when I shook my head and felt my body trembling with pain.

"Are you serious...?" I say in disbelief. "I am the least inconsiderate person I know!" I scream in his face and shoved him hard enough to push him to the ground. "I try so f.u.c.king- No... I"m not going to explain myself to you. Don"t f.u.c.king come near me anymore. I am done with you." I hissed, marching away and disappearing away from where he was.

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"Xenon... Hey, love..." Zavier knelt down to the ground and rested his hand on my shoulder as I flinched back and scooted away from him. "Xenon. It"s me." He a.s.sures while coughed on my own tears and wiped them away.

"How did you find me...?" I ask in a small voice, knowing if I said too much that I would spill everything.

"Well. It wasn"t easy that"s for sure." He jokes, letting out a dry laugh but I didn"t laugh back. I wasn"t in much of a laughing mood. "Anyway, I asked Claire to track you down. I wanted to come alone since I felt that you were not in a mood to have company." Zavier explains when I rubbed my eyes and leaned against the tree behind me.

"What makes you think I want you around?" I say while he shifts to sit beside me. His hand inching over to me.

"I"m different. I"d like to think I give you some kind of peace." He notes when I rolled my eyes and moved away from his hand.

"Yeah. Different in a special way." I said more like an insult as he smirks and shrugs.

"I am special to you." He nods, taking it as a compliment. Completely not hearing the sarcasm in my voice and stood up. "Wait. I"m gonna shift." He says while I snapped my eyes up at him, a little surprised by his words.

"Shift? Why is someone coming?" I ask, growing alert and sitting up straighter.

"No. I just want to. Don"t worry I"ll only be a few seconds at most." Zavier a.s.sures me with a satisfied smile, patting my head and walking around a tree. I blinked back my surprise, not sure whether I felt better or weirded out to have him around since he had a fiance.

The decisions he was making now...

It makes me wonder who this other woman was.

Not that I was jealous...

It felt wrong being close to someone"s future husband, knowing that you wanted something more than friends.

All I knew was it was a bad idea for me to get close to him once again.

What was I even thinking?

Getting close to him could result in bad things but something inside me had been drawing to him. I couldn"t put my finger to it, but everything and anything I want to do... I want to do it with him.

Jesus.

He was going to be the cause of my downfall.

I felt a wet nose nudge my hand when I looked up at the large black wolf that hovered over me. Those green eyes full of life while he sat down and laid half his body on top of me making me huff and pat his head.

"You know I"m not a pillow." I point out as he put more of his weight on me to just contradict my words causing me to laugh a little. "Alright. I can be your pillow as long as you are my blanket." I compromise, seeing him sprawl his body as much as he could.

My hand went through his fur coat, never being this close to a wolf unless I was killing it. Surprisingly, his fur was so soft that it felt like water was pa.s.sing through my fingers. The cold weather giving it the extra softness that I knew most wolves didn"t have.

My nails softly dug into the back of his ear, knowing animals in general love being scratched there. It seems like I was right about my accusation since he leaned into my hand making me smile to myself and lean against the tree I was sitting against.

It felt nice to just sit back and relax without the contact watch of others. Even though I felt like there were a.s.sa.s.sins or Jerson out there, silently watching me from afar.

For the first time in a long time, I didn"t care at all.

It felt peaceful to sit here, without the worries of the world, with Zavier. Especially in his wolf form, I felt more raw emotion for what feelings I had for him.

I know he was just trying to be a good person and be there for someone who had once meant a lot to him. But our time was over and I needed to understand that and get over him once and for all.

At a time, I actually believed we were mates which was crazy since he"d never shown those kinds of feelings for Faye. Yeah, he got me to take out that one time but that was it.

He was more involved with Xenon and whether or not he felt something for both of us.

The last day he saw Faye at the school involving the princ.i.p.al. I could tell he didn"t care as much as he did for Xenon.

And that"s what truly set me off at the time. I was hurt, knowing that I wasn"t anything to him other than someone in the community rather than either a teacher or a killer.

Seeing that he was keeping things from me that day. I took control of the situation which only ended horribly.

He got injured and placed in a coma while I was cast out of society and made a villain. Though it didn"t surprise me that I was a villain, I just hated the fact that I harmed someone that had been there for me for so long.

Even though he had some attraction to Xenon. He was still there for me and that meant a lot to me, but now that I look back on it. It was probably something to do with the fact that I wasn"t killing him and keeping him safe from a.s.sa.s.sins.

We both owed each other for saving one another.

But I was pretty sure he doesn"t remember what happened at Terra"s den of vampires.

He doesn"t remember my anger bursting in flames and killing anyone inside.

He doesn"t remember Faye saving him from the burning building.

He doesn"t remember the pain I felt when seeing him hooked up to the machines that kept him alive.

He doesn"t remember his parents nearly killing me due to what I had caused.

He doesn"t remember Alex harvesting her powers during the two weeks he"d been in a coma.

There were so many things he didn"t know, but it was better off with him not knowing and him being happy with everything then him knowing and being distraught about everything.

I zoned back into what I was doing, still rubbing his ear while his eyes were closed and silently resting making me sigh out loud.

"What am I going to do...?" I ask myself out loud when closing my eyes and pulling my hood over my face to catch some sleep. Trusting we would wake up if we heard something coming.