With one last s.n.a.t.c.h, one last contemptuous wag of her body, Miss Quick grasped my twin"s clean white shirt, and yanked it off.
She threw the shirt in the air. As it fell, so did his pants As his pants fell, unbelted, so did the theater. An avalanche of shock soared to bang the rafters and roll over us in echoes a thundering hilarity.
The curtain fell.
We sat, covered with unseen rubble. Drained of blood, buried in one upheaval after another, degraded and autopsied and, minus eulogy, tossed into a ma.s.s grave, we men took a minute to stare at that dropped curtain, behind which hid the pickpocket and her victims, behind which a man quickly hoisted his trousers up his spindly legs.
A burst of applause, a prolonged tide on a dark sh.o.r.e. Miss Quick did not appear to bow. She did not need to. She was standing behind the curtain. I could feel her there, no smile, no expression. Standing, coldly estimating the caliber of the applause, comparing it to the metered remembrances of other nights.
I jumped up in an absolute rage. I had, after all, failed myself. When I should have ducked, I bobbed; when I should have backed off, I ran in. What an a.s.s!
"What a fine show!" said my wife as we milled through the departing audience.
"Fine!" I cried.
"Didn"t you like it?"
"All except the pickpocket. Obvious act, overdone, no subtlety," I said, lighting a cigarette.
"She was a whiz!"
"This way." I steered my wife toward the stage door.
"Of course," said my wife blandly, "that man, the one who looks like you, he was a plant. They call them shills, don"t they? Paid by the management to pretend to be part of the audience?"
"No man would take money for a spectacle like that," I said. "No, he was just some b.o.o.b who didn"t know how to be careful."
"What are we doing back here?"
Blinking around, we found we were backstage.
Perhaps I wished to stride up to my twin, shouting, "Half-baked ox! Insulter of all men! Play a flute: you dance. Tickle your chin: you jump like a puppet! Jerk!"
The truth was, of course, I must see my twin close-up, confront the traitor and see where his true flesh differed from mine. After all, wouldn"t I have done better in his place?!
The backstage was lit in blooms and isolated flushes, now bright, now dark, where the other magicians stood chatting. And there, there was Miss Quick!
And there, smiling, was my twin!
"You did fine, Charlie," said Miss Quick.
My twin"s name was Charlie. Stupid name.
Charlie patted Miss Quick"s cheek. "You did fine, ma"am!"
G.o.d, it was true! A shill, a confederate. Paid what? Five, ten dollars for letting his shirt be torn oft, letting his pants drop with his pride? What a turncoat, traitor!
I stood, glaring.
He glanced up.
Perhaps he saw me.
Perhaps some bit of my rage and impacted sorrow reached him.
He held my gaze for only a moment, his mouth wide, as if he had just seen an old school chum. But, not remembering my name, could not call out, so let the moment pa.s.s.
He saw my rage. His face paled. His smile died. He glanced quickly away. He did not look up again, but stood pretending to listen to Miss Quick, who was laughing and talking with the other magicians.
I stared at him and stared again. Sweat oiled his face. My hate melted. My temper cooled. I saw his profile clearly, his chin, eyes, nose, hairline; I memorized it all. Then I heard someone say: "It was a fine show!"
My wife, moving forward, shook the hand of the pickpocketing beast.
On the street, I said, "Well, I"m satisfied."
"About what?" asked my wife.
"He doesn"t look like me at all. Chin"s too sharp. Nose is smaller. Lower lip isn"t full enough. Too much eyebrow. Onstage, far oft, had me going. But close up, no, no. It was the crew cut and horn-rims fooled us. Anyone could have horn-rims and a crew cut."
"Yes," my wife agreed, "anyone."
As she climbed into our car, I could not help but admire her long, lovely legs.
Driving off, I thought I glimpsed that familiar face in the pa.s.sing crowd. The face, however, was watching me. I wasn"t sure. Resemblances, I now knew, are superficial.
The face vanished in the crowd.
"I"ll never forget," said my wife, "when his pants-fell!" I drove very fast, then drove very slow, all the way home.
DORIAN IN EXCELSUS.
Good evening. Welcome. I see you have my invitation in your hands. Decided to be brave, did you? Fine. Here we are Grab onto this."
The tall, handsome stranger with the heavenly eyes and the impossibly blond hair handed me a winegla.s.s.
"Clean your palate," he said.
I took the gla.s.s and read the label on the bottle he held in his left hand. Bordeaux, it read. St. Emilion.
"Go on," said my host. "It"s not poison. May I sit? And might you drink?"
"I might," I sipped, shut my eyes, and smiled. "You"re a connoisseur. This is the best I"ve had in years. But why this wine and why the invitation? What am I doing here at Gray"s Anatomy Bar and Grill?"
My host sat and filled his own gla.s.s. "I am doing a favor to myself. This is a great night, perhaps for both of us. Greater than Christmas or Halloween." His lizard tongue darted into his wine to vanish back into his contentment. "We celebrate my being honored, at last becoming-"
He exhaled it all out: "Becoming," he said, "a friend to Dorian! Dorian"s friend. Me!"
"Ah." I laughed. "That explains the name of this place, then? Does Dorian own Gray"s Anatomy?"
"More! Inspires and rules over it. And deservedly so."
"You make it sound as if being a friend to Dorian is the most important thing in the world."
"No! In life! In all of life." He rocked back and forth, drunk not from the wine but from some inner joy. "Guess."
"At what?"
"How old I am!"
"You look to be twenty-nine at the most."
"Twenty-nine. What a lovely sound. Not thirty, forty, or fifty, but-"
I said, "I hope you"re not going to ask what sign I was born under. I usually leave when people ask that. I was born on the cusp, August, 1920." I pretended to half rise. He pressed a gentle hand to my lapel.
"No, no, dear boy-you don"t understand. Look here. And here." He touched under his eyes and then around his neck. "Look for wrinkles."
"But you have none," I said.
"How observant. None. And that is why I have become this very night a fresh, new, stunningly handsome friend to Dorian."
"I still don"t see the connection."
"Look at the backs of my hands." He showed his wrists. "No liver spots. I am not turning to rust. I repeat the question, how old am I?"
I swirled the wine in my gla.s.s and studied his reflection in the swirl.
"Sixty?" I guessed. "Seventy?"
"Good G.o.d!" He fell back in his chair, astonished. "How did you know?"
"Word a.s.sociation. You"ve been rattling on about Dorian. I know my Oscar Wilde, I know my Dorian Gray, which means you, sir, have a portrait of yourself stashed in an attic aging while you yourself, drinking old wine, stay young."
"No, no." The handsome stranger leaned forward. "Not stayed young. Became young. I was old, very old, and it took a year, but the clock went back and after a year of playing at it, I achieved what I set out for."
"Twenty-nine was your target?"
"How clever you are!"
"And once you became twenty-nine you were fully elected as-"
"A Friend to Dorian! Bulls-eye! But there is no portrait, no attic, no staying young. It"s becoming young again"s the ticket."
"I"m still puzzled!"
"Child of my heart, you might possibly be another Friend. Come along. Before the greatest revelation, let me show you the far end of the room and some doors."
He seized my hand. "Bring your wine. You"ll need it!" He hustled me along through the tables in a swiftly filling room of mostly middle-aged and some fairly young men, and a few smoke-exhaling ladies. I jogged along, staring back at the EXIT as if my future life were there.
Before us stood a golden door.
"And behind the door?" I asked.
"What always lies behind any golden door?" my host responded. "Touch."
I reached out to print the door with my thumb.
"What do you feel?" my host inquired.
"Youngness, youth, beauty." I touched again. "All the springtimes that ever were or ever will be."
"Jeez, the man"s a poet. Push."
We pushed and the golden door swung soundlessly wide.
"Is this where Dorian is?"
"No, no, only his students, his disciples, his almost Friends. Feast your eyes."
I did as I was told and saw, at the longest bar in the world, a line of men, a lineage of young men, reflecting and re-reflecting each other as in a fabled mirror maze, that illusion seen where mirrors face each other and you find yourself repeated to infinity, large, small, very small, smallest, GONE! The young men were all staring down the long bar at us and then, as if unable to pull their gaze away, at themselves. You could almost hear their cries of appreciation. And with each cry, they grew younger and younger and more splendid and more beautiful...
I gazed upon a tapestry of beauty, a golden phalanx freshly out of the Elysian fields and hills. The gates of mythology swung wide and Apollo and his demi-Apollos glided forth, each more beautiful than the last.
I must have gasped. I heard my host inhale as if he drank my wine.
"Yes, aren"t they," he said.
"Come," whispered my new friend. "Run the gauntlet. Don"t linger; you may find tiger-tears on your sleeve and blood rising. Now."
And he glided, he undulated, me along on his soundless tuxedo slippers, his fingers a pale touch on my elbow, his breath a flower scent too near. I heard myself say: "It"s been written that H. G. Wells attracted women with his breath, which smelled of honey. Then I learned that such breath comes with illness."
"How clever. Do I smell of hospitals and medicines?"
"I didn"t mean-"
"Quickly. You"re rare meat in the zoo. Hup, two, three!"
"Hold on," I said, breathless not from walking fast but from perceiving quickly. "This man, and the next, and the one after that-"
"Yes?!"
"My G.o.d," I said, "they"re almost all the same, look-alikes!"
"Bull"s-eye, half true! And the next and the next after that, as far behind as we have gone, as far ahead as we might go. All twenty-nine years old, all golden tan, all six feet tall, white of teeth, bright of eye. Each different but beautiful, like me!"