I lost a great amount of blood and lost the strength to fight, I closed my eyes just like that ――――――
In the darkness where I cannot see anything, I am conscious for some reason.
I can properly recall my name, too.
―――――― Where is this place?
―――――― Is this the world after death?
The sensation of my body is vague, and I can see a small flame in a distant place.
―――――― What is it?
It is better than drifting in this darkness so I can only go that way.
It is strange, but I am convinced that I will never wake up if I ever fall asleep.
―――――― No! No! I do not want to disappear yet!
I desperately went towards the flame.
―――――― s.h.i.t, so far!
I almost parted with my consciousness several times, but arrived somehow.
I intuitively felt like I can touch it, and scooped it gently by my hands.
The feelings of the flame flowed into me.
That it is sad because its father died.
And… that it wants to just disappear, too.
I, who eventually died without being needed by anyone, pulled the unidentified flame-like thing before me, and inadvertently declared something grand.
“If that’s the case, then I will protect you. It may be imposible for me to replace your mother, but I can be your father.”
I know it.
I am desperately pursuing something I never acquired before my death.
The flame flickered.
―――――― “I’m glad, thank you,” it said.
It looks like it will disappear any moment now.
“Oi! Get ahold of yourself!”
Before it completely disappeared, the flame moved towards my chest and was absorbed.
“…Eh?”
I let out a doubting voice in the next moment, but I vanished into the darkness as I felt some kind of great power pulling me.
It’s dazzling.
When I opened my eyes slowly, I saw the surprised expression of a man in the prime of his life.
Yes?
The man looked relieved and began talking.
“Oh, you came back to life! I thought it was hopeless since your pulse was weak! I only saved the child, but this is perhaps a small mercy…”
I can hear the words… but I cannot understand the situation.
The man introduced himself as Tim.
I became aware of it later, but it seems like my parents were already dead when he came rushing.
I heard that the mother died while protecting “this body”.
Sixteen years have pa.s.sed since Grandfather saved me.
I can still recall it sometimes.
The flame I absorbed into my chest, does it still have its own consciousness until now?
I have not felt it again ever since that flowing sensation in the darkness.
“Oi, Cathy! Come here for a moment!”
Did the majority of it merged into me after all?
I think I’m a little lonely.
Oops, Grandfather is calling me to the garden.
I kept saying “I” [/ore] in my mind, it might betray my secret.
Alright.
“Yes, Grandfather. I’m coming!”
This body, this is the new life bestowed by that flame.
“I” [/watashi] face towards the garden where Grandfather is waiting.
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