By now other figures were in view, some hurrying toward them from the nearby actors" tents, others at the doors of the far-off Snow Tribe"s tents and not moving at all.
Pressing her cheek to Fafhrd"s, as if in formal grat.i.tude, Vlana whispered rapidly, "Remember my plan for tonight and for all our future rapture. Do not depart a jot from it. Efface yourself."
Fafhrd managed, "Beware ice and snow. Act without thought."
To Vellix, Vlana said more distantly, though with courtesy and kindness, "Thank you, sir, for your concern for me, both in your dreams and your wakings."
From out a fur robe, whose collar topped his ears, Essedinex greeted with gruff humor, "It"s been a hard night on tents." Vlana shrugged.
The women of the troupe gathered around her with anxious questions and she talked with them privately as they walked to the actors" tent and went in through the girls" door-flap.
Vellix frowned after her and pulled at his black moustache.
The male actors stared and shook their heads at the beating the hemicylindrical tent had taken.
Vellix said to Fafhrd with warm friendliness, "I offered you brandy before and now I"d guess you need it. Also, since yestermorning I"ve had a great desire to talk with you."
"Your pardon, but once I sit I will not be able to stay awake for a word, were they wise as owls", nor for even a brandy swig," Fafhrd answered politely, hiding a great yawn, which was only half feigned. "But I thank you."
"It appears I am fated always to ask at the wrong time," Vellix commented with a shrug. "Perhaps at noon? Or midafternoon?" he added swiftly.
"The latter, if it please you," Fafhrd replied and rapidly walked off, taking great strides toward the trading tents. Vellix did not seek to keep up with him.
Fafhrd felt more satisfied than he ever had in his life. The thought that tonight he would forever escape this stupid snow world and its man-chaining women almost made him nostalgic about Cold Corner. Thought-guard! he told himself. Feelings of eerie menace or else his hunger for sleep turned his surroundings spectral, like a childhood scene revisited.
He drained a white porcelain tankard of wine given him by his Mingol friends Zax and Effendrit, let them conduct him to a glossy pallet hidden by piles of other furs, and fell at once into a deep sleep.
After eons of absolute, pillowy darkness, lights came softly on. Fafhrd sat beside Nalgron his father at a stout banquet table crowded with all savory foods smoking hot and all fortified wines in jugs of earthenware, stone, silver, crystal and gold. There were other feasters lining the table, but Fafhrd could make nothing of them except their dark silhouettes and the sleepy sound of their unceasing talk too soft to be understood, like many streams of murmuring water, though with occasional bursts of low laughter, like small waves running up and returning down a gravelly beach. While the dull clash of knife and spoon against plate and each other was like the clank of the pebbles in that surf.
Nalgron was clad and cloaked in ice-bear furs of the whitest with pins and chains and wristlets and rings of purest silver, and there was silver also in his hair, which troubled Fafhrd. In his left hand he held a silver goblet, which at intervals he touched to his lips, but he kept his eating hand under his cloak.
Nalgron was discoursing wisely, tolerantly, almost tenderly of many matters. He directed his gaze here and there around the table, yet spoke so quietly that Fafhrd knew his conversation was directed at his son alone.
Fafhrd also knew he should be listening intently to every word and carefully stowing away each aphorism, for Nalgron was speaking of courage, of honor, of prudence, of thoughtfulness in giving and punctilio in keeping your word, of following your heart, of setting and unswervingly striving toward a high, romantic goal, of self-honesty in all these things but especially in recognizing your aversions and desires, of the need to close your ears to the fears and naggings of women, yet freely forgive them all their jealousies, attempted trammelings, and even extremest wickednesses, since those all sprang from their ungovernable love, for you or another, and of many a different matter most useful to know for a youth on manhood"s verge.
But although he knew this much, Fafhrd heard his father only in s.n.a.t.c.hes, for he was so troubled by the gauntness of Nalgron"s cheek and by the leanness of the strong fingers lightly holding the silver goblet and by the silver in his hair, and a faint overlay of blue on his ruddy lips, although Nalgron was most sure and even sprightly in every movement, gesture, and word, that he was compelled to be forever searching the steaming platters and bowls around him for especially succulent portions to spoon or fork onto Nalgron"s wide, silver plate to tempt his appet.i.te.
Whenever he did this, Nalgron would look toward him with a smile and a courteous nod, and with love in his eyes, and then touch his goblet to his lips and return to his discoursings, but never would he uncover his eating hand.
As the banquet progressed, Nalgron began to speak of matters yet more important, but now Fafhrd heard hardly one of the precious words, so greatly agitated was he by his concern for his father"s health. Now the thin skin seemed stretched to bursting on the jutting cheekbone, the bright eyes ever more sunken and dark-ringed, the blue veins more bulgingly a-crawl across the stout tendons of the hand lightly holding the silver goblet-and Fafhrd had begun to suspect that although Nalgron often let the wine touch his lips he drank never a drop.
"Eat, father," Fafhrd pleaded in a low voice taut with concern. "At least drink."
Again the look, the smile, the agreeable nod, the bright eyes warmer still with love, the brief tipping of goblet against unparted lips, the looking away, the tranquil, unattendable discourse resumed.
And now Fafhrd knew fear, for the lights were growing blue and he realized that none of the black, unfeatured fellow-feasters were or had all the while been lifting so much as hand, let alone cup-rim, to mouth, though making an unceasing dull clatter with their cutlery. His concern for his father became an agony and before he rightly knew what he was doing, he had brushed back his father"s cloak and gripped his father"s right arm at forearm and wrist and so shoved his eating hand toward his high-piled plate.
Then Nalgron was not nodding, but thrusting his head at Fafhrd, and not smiling, but grinning in such fashion as to show all his teeth of old ivory hue, whilst his eyes were cold, cold, cold.
The hand and arm that Fafhrd gripped felt like, looked like, were bare brown bone.
Of a sudden shaking violently in all his parts, but chiefly in his arms, Fafhrd recoiled swift as a serpent down the bench.
Then Fafhrd was not shaking, but being shaken by strong hands of flesh on his shoulders, and instead of the dark there was the faintly translucent hide of the Mingols" tent-roof, and in place of his father"s face the sallow-cheeked, black-moustached one, somber yet concerned, of Vellix the Venturer.
Fafhrd stared dazedly, then shook his shoulders and head to bring a quicker-tempoed life back into his body and throw off the gripping hands.
But Vellix had already let go and seated himself on the next pile of furs.
"Your pardon, young warrior," he said gravely. "You appeared to be having a dream no man would care to continue."
His manner and the tone of his voice were like the nightmare-Nalgron"s. Fafhrd pushed up on an elbow, yawned, and with a shuddery grimace shook himself again.
"You"re chilled in body, mind, or both," Vellix said. "So we"ve good excuse for the brandy I promised."
He brought up from beside him two small silver mugs in one hand and in the other a brown jug of brandy which he now uncorked with that forefinger and thumb.
Fafhrd frowned inwardly at the dark tarnish on the mugs and at the thought of what might be crusted or dusted in their bottoms, or perhaps that of one only. With a troubled twinge, he reminded himself that this man was his rival for Vlana"s affections.
"Hold," he said as Vellix prepared to pour. "A silver cup played a nasty role in my dream. Zax!" he called to the Mingol looking out the tent door. "A porcelain mug, if you please!"
"You take the dream as a warning against drinking from silver?" Vellix inquired softly with an ambiguous smile.
"No," Fafhrd answered, "but it instilled an antipathy into my flesh, which still crawls." He wondered a little that the Mingols had so casually let in Vellix to sit beside him. Perhaps the three were old acquaintances from the trading camps. Or perhaps there"d been bribery.
Vellix chuckled and became freer of manner. "Also, I"ve fallen into filthy ways, living without a woman or servant. Effendrit! Make that two porcelain mugs, clean as newly-debarked birch!"
It was indeed the other Mingol who had been standing by the door-Vellix knew them better than Fafhrd did. The Venturer immediately handed over one of the gleaming white mugs. He poured a little of the nose-tickling drink into his own porcelain mug, then a generous gush for Fafhrd, then more for himself-as if to demonstrate that Fafhrd"s drink could not possibly be poisoned or drugged. And Fafhrd, who had been watching closely, could find no fault in the demonstration. They lightly clinked mugs and when Vellix drank deeply, Fafhrd took a large though carefully slow sip. The stuff burned gently.
"It"s my last jug," Vellix said cheerfully. "I"ve traded my whole stock for amber, snow-gems, and other smalls-aye, and my tent and cart too, everything but my two horses and our gear and winter rations."
"I"ve heard your horses are the swiftest and hardiest on the Steppes," Fafhrd remarked.
"That"s too large a claim. Here they rank well, no doubt."
"Here!" Fafhrd said contemptuously.
Vellix eyed him as Nalgron had in all but the last part of the dream. Then he said, "Fafhrd-I may call you that? Call me Vellix. May I make a suggestion? May I give you advice such as I might give a son of mine?"
"Surely," Fafhrd answered, feeling not only uncomfortable now but wary.
"You"re clearly restless and dissatisfied here. So is any sound young man, anywhere, at your age. The wide world calls you. You"ve an itching foot. Yet let me say this: it takes more than wit and prudence-aye, and wisdom, too-to cope with civilization and find any comfort. That requires low cunning, a smirching of yourself as civilization is smirched. You cannot climb to success there as you climb a mountain, no matter how icy and treacherous. The latter demands all your best. The former, much of your worst: a calculated self-evil you have yet to experience, and need not. I was born a renegade. My father was a man of the Eight Cities who rode with the Mingols. I wish now I had stuck to the Steppes myself, cruel as they are, nor harkened to the corrupting call of Lankhmar and the Eastern Lands.
"I know, I know, the folk here are narrow-visioned, custom-bound. But matched with the twisted minds of civilization, they"re straight as pines. With your natural gifts you"ll easily be a chief here-more, in sooth, a chief paramount, weld a dozen clans together, make the Northerners a power for nations to reckon with. Then, if you wish, you can challenge civilization. On your terms, not hers."
Fafhrd"s thoughts and feelings were like choppy water, though he had outwardly become almost preternaturally calm. There was even a current of glee in him, that Vellix rated a youth"s chances with Vlana so high that he would ply him with flattery as well as brandy.
But across all other currents, making the chop sharp and high, was the impression, hard to shake, that the Venturer was not altogether dissimulating, that he did feel like a father toward Fafhrd, that he was truly seeking to save him hurt, that what he said of civilization had an honest core. Of course that might be because Vellix felt so sure of Vlana that he could afford to be kind to a rival. Nevertheless...
Nevertheless, Fafhrd now once again felt more uncomfortable than anything else.
He drained his mug. "Your advice is worth thought, sir-Vellix, I mean. I"ll ponder it."
Refusing another drink with a headshake and smile, he stood up and straightened his clothes.
"I had hoped for a longer chat," Vellix said, not rising.
"I"ve business to attend," Fafhrd answered. "My hearty thanks."
Vellix smiled thoughtfully as he departed.
The concourse of trodden snow winding amongst the traders" tents was racketty with noise and crowdedly a-bustle. While Fafhrd slept, the men of the Ice Tribe and fully half of the Frost Companions had come in and now many of these were gathered around two sunfires-so called for their bigness, heat, and the height of their leaping flames-quaffing steaming mead and laughing and scuffling together. To either side were oases of buying and bargaining, encroached on by the merrymakers or given careful berth according to the rank of those involved in the business doings. Old comrades spotted one another and shouted and sometimes drove through the press to embrace. Food and drink were spilled, challenges made and accepted, or more often laughed down. Skalds sang and roared.
The tumult irked Fafhrd, who wanted quiet in which to disentangle Vellix from Nalgron in his feelings, and banish his vague doubts of Vlana, and unsmirch civilization. He walked as a troubled dreamer, frowning yet unmindful of elbowings and other shoves.
Then all at once he was tinglingly alert, for he glimpsed angling toward him through the crowd Hor and Harrax, and he read the purpose in their eyes. Letting an eddy in the crush spin him around, he noted Hrey, one other of Hringorl"s creatures, close behind him.
The purpose of the three was clear. Under guise of comradely scuffling, they would give him a vicious beating or worse.
In his moody concern with Vellix, he had forgotten his more certain enemy and rival, the brutally direct yet cunning Hringorl.
Then the three were upon him. In a frozen instant he noted that Hor bore a small bludgeon and that Harrax" fists were overly large, as if they gripped stone or metal to heavy their blows.
He lunged backward, as if he meant to dodge between that couple and Hrey; then as suddenly reversed course and with a shocking bellow raced toward the sunfire ahead. Heads turned at his yell and a startled few dodged from his way. But the Ice Tribesmen and Frost Companions had time to take in what was happening: a tall youth pursued by three huskies. This promised sport. They sprang to either side of the sunfire to block his pa.s.sage past it. Fafhrd veered first to left, then to right. Jeering, they bunched more closely.
Holding his breath and throwing up an arm to guard his eyes, Fafhrd leaped straight through the flames. They lifted his fur cloak from his back and blew it high. He felt the stab of heat on hand and neck.
He came out with his furs a-smolder, blue flames running up his hair. There was more crowd ahead except for a swept, carpeted, and canopied s.p.a.ce between two tents, where chiefs and priests sat intently around a low table where a merchant weighed gold dust in a pair of scales.
He heard b.u.mp and yell behind, someone cried, "Run, coward," another, "A fight, a fight"; he saw Mara"s face ahead, red and excited.
Then the future chief paramount of Northland-for so he happened at that instant to think of himself-half sprang, half dived a-flame across the canopied table, unavoidably tumbling the merchant and two chiefs, banging aside the scales, and knocking the gold dust to the winds before he landed with a steaming zizzle in the great, soft s...o...b..nk beyond.
He swiftly rolled over twice to make sure all his fires were quenched, then scrambled to his feet and ran like a deer into the woods, followed by gusts of curses and gales of laughter.
Fifty big trees later he stopped abruptly in the snowy gloom and held his breath while he listened. Through the soft pounding of his blood, there came not the faintest sound of pursuit. Ruefully he combed with his fingers his stinking, diminished hair and sketchily brushed his now patchy, equally fire-stinking furs.
Then he waited for his breath to quiet and his awareness to expand. It was during this pause that he made a disconcerting discovery. For the first time in his life the forest, which had always been his retreat, his continent-spanning tent, his great private needle-roofed room, seemed hostile to him, as if the very trees and the cold-fleshed, warm-boweled mother-earth in which they were rooted knew of his apostasy, his spurning, jilting and intended divorce of his native land.
It was not the unusual silence, nor the sinister and suspicious quality of the faint sounds he at last began to hear: scratch on bark of small claw, pitter of tiny paw-steps, hoot of a distant owl antic.i.p.ating night. Those were effects, or at most concomitants. It was something unnamable, intangible, yet profound, like the frown of a G.o.d. Or G.o.ddess.
He was greatly depressed. At the same time he had never known his heart feel as hard.
When at last he set out again, it was as silently as might be, and not with his unusual relaxed and wide-open awareness, but rather the naked-nerved sensitivity and bent-bow readiness of a scout in enemy territory.
And it was well for him that he did so, since otherwise he might not have dodged the nearly soundless fall of an icicle, sharp, heavy, and long as a siege-catapult"s missile, nor the down-clubbing of a huge snow-weighted dead branch that broke with a single thunderous crack, nor the venomous dart of a snow-adder"s head from its unaccustomed white coil in the open, nor the sidewise slash of the narrow, cruel claws of a snow-leopard that seemed almost to materialize a-spring in the frigid air and that vanished as strangely when Fafhrd slipped aside from its first attack and faced it with dirk drawn. Nor might he have spotted in time the up-whipping, slip-knotted snare, set against all custom in this home-area of the forest and big enough to strangle not a hare but a bear.
He wondered where Mor was and what she might be muttering or chanting. Had his mistake been simply to dream of Nalgron? Despite yesterday"s curse-and others before it-and last night"s naked threats, he had never truly and wholly imagined his mother seeking to kill him. But now the hair on his neck was lifted in apprehension and horror, the watchful glare in his eyes was febrile and wild, while a little blood dripped unheeded from the cut in his cheek where the great icicle down-dropping had grazed it.
So intent had he become on spying dangers that it was with a little surprise that he found himself standing in the glade where he and Mara had embraced only yesterday, his feet on the short trail leading to the home tents. He relaxed a little then, sheathing his dirk and pressing a handful of snow to his bleeding cheek-but he relaxed only a little, with the result that he was aware of one coming to meet him before he consciously heard footsteps.
So silently and completely did he then melt into the snowy background that Mara was three paces away before she saw him.
"They hurt you," she exclaimed.
"No," he answered curtly, still intent on dangers in the forest.
"But the red snow on your cheek. There was a fight?"
"Only a nick got in the woods. I outran "em."
Her look of concern faded. "First time I saw you run from a quarrel."
"I had no mind to take on three or more," he said flatly.
"Why do you look behind? They"re trailing you?"
"No."
Her expression hardened. "The elders are outraged. The younger men call you scareling. My brothers among them. I didn"t know what to say."
"Your brothers!" Fafhrd exclaimed. "Let the stinking Snow Clan call me what they will. I care not."
Mara planted her fists on her hips. "You"ve grown very free with your insults of late. I"ll not have my family berated, do you hear? Nor myself insulted, now that I think of it." She was breathing hard. "Last night you went back to that shriveled old wh.o.r.e of a dancer. You were in her tent for hours."
"I was not!" Fafhrd denied, thinking An hour and a half at most. An hour and a half at most. The bickering was warming his blood and quelling his supernatural dread. The bickering was warming his blood and quelling his supernatural dread.
"You lie! The story"s all around the camp. Any other girl would have set her brothers on you ere this."
Fafhrd came back to his schemy self almost with a jerk. On this eve of all eves he must not risk needless trouble-the chance of being crippled, it might even be, or dead.
Tactics, man, tactics, he told himself as he moved eagerly toward Mara, exclaiming in hurt, honeyed tones, "Mara, my queen, how can you believe such of me, who love you more than-" he told himself as he moved eagerly toward Mara, exclaiming in hurt, honeyed tones, "Mara, my queen, how can you believe such of me, who love you more than-"
"Keep off me, liar and cheat!"
"And you carrying my son," he persisted, still trying to embrace her. "How does the bonny babe?"
"Spits at his father. Keep off me, I say."
"But I yearn to touch your ticklesome skin, than which there is no other balm for me this side of h.e.l.l, oh most beauteous made more beautiful by motherhood."
"Go to h.e.l.l, then. And stop these sickening pretenses. Your acting wouldn"t deceive a drunken she-scullion. Hamfatter!"
Stung to his blood, which instantly grew hot, Fafhrd retorted, "And what of your own lies? Yesterday you boasted of how you"d cow and control my mother. Instanter you went sniveling to tell her you were with child by me."
"Only after I knew you l.u.s.ted after the actress. And was it anything but the complete truth? Oh, you twister!"
Fafhrd stood back and folded his arms. He p.r.o.nounced, "Wife of mine must be true to me, must trust me, must ask me first before she acts, must comport herself like the mate of a chief paramount to-be. It appears to me that in all of these you fall short."