The youth looked over his shoulder and said, by his manner, not his words: "Don"t you think you could wait a minute, if you tried?"
However, he got the shoe tied at last, and came and took the telegram, glanced over it, then looked up surprised, at Tracy. There was something in his look that bordered upon respect, almost reverence, it seemed to Tracy, although he had been so long without anything of this kind he was not sure that he knew the signs of it.
The boy read the address aloud, with pleased expression in face and voice.
"The Earl of Rossmore! Cracky! Do you know him?"
"Yes."
"Is that so! Does he know you?"
"Well--yes."
"Well, I swear! Will he answer you?"
"I think he will."
"Will he though? Where"ll you have it sent?"
"Oh, nowhere. I"ll call here and get it. When shall I call?"
"Oh, I don"t know--I"ll send it to you. Where shall I send it? Give me your address; I"ll send it to you soon"s it comes."
But Tracy didn"t propose to do this. He had acquired the boy"s admiration and deferential respect, and he wasn"t willing to throw these precious things away, a result sure to follow if he should give the address of that boarding house. So he said again that he would call and get the telegram, and went his way.
He idled along, reflecting. He said to himself, "There is something pleasant about being respected. I have acquired the respect of Mr. Allen and some of those others, and almost the deference of some of them on pure merit, for having thrashed Allen. While their respect and their deference--if it is deference--is pleasant, a deference based upon a sham, a shadow, does really seem pleasanter still. It"s no real merit to be in correspondence with an earl, and yet after all, that boy makes me feel as if there was."
The cablegram was actually gone home! the thought of it gave him an immense uplift. He walked with a lighter tread. His heart was full of happiness. He threw aside all hesitances and confessed to himself that he was glad through and through that he was going to give up this experiment and go back to his home again. His eagerness to get his father"s answer began to grow, now, and it grew with marvelous celerity, after it began. He waited an hour, walking about, putting in his time as well as he could, but interested in nothing that came under his eye, and at last he presented himself at the office again and asked if any answer had come yet. The boy said, "No, no answer yet," then glanced at the clock and added, "I don"t think it"s likely you"ll get one to-day."
"Why not?"
"Well, you see it"s getting pretty late. You can"t always tell where "bouts a man is when he"s on the other side, and you can"t always find him just the minute you want him, and you see it"s getting about six o"clock now, and over there it"s pretty late at night."
"Why yes," said Tracy, "I hadn"t thought of that."
"Yes, pretty late, now, half past ten or eleven. Oh yes, you probably won"t get any answer to-night."
CHAPTER XIV.
So Tracy went home to supper. The odors in that supper room seemed more strenuous and more horrible than ever before, and he was happy in the thought that he was so soon to be free from them again. When the supper was over he hardly knew whether he had eaten any of it or not, and he certainly hadn"t heard any of the conversation. His heart had been dancing all the time, his thoughts had been faraway from these things, and in the visions of his mind the sumptuous appointments of his father"s castle had risen before him without rebuke. Even the plushed flunkey, that walking symbol of a sham inequality, had not been unpleasant to his dreaming view. After the meal Barrow said, "Come with me. I"ll give you a jolly evening."
"Very good. Where are you going?"
"To my club."
"What club is that?"
"Mechanics" Debating Club."
Tracy shuddered, slightly. He didn"t say anything about having visited that place himself. Somehow he didn"t quite relish the memory of that time. The sentiments which had made his former visit there so enjoyable, and filled him with such enthusiasm, had undergone a gradual change, and they had rotted away to such a degree that he couldn"t contemplate another visit there with anything strongly resembling delight. In fact he was a little ashamed to go; he didn"t want to go there and find out by the rude impact of the thought of those people upon his reorganized condition of mind, how sharp the change had been. He would have preferred to stay away. He expected that now he should hear nothing except sentiments which would be a reproach to him in his changed mental att.i.tude, and he rather wished he might be excused. And yet he didn"t quite want to say that, he didn"t want to show how he did feel, or show any disinclination to go, and so he forced himself to go along with Barrow, privately purposing to take an early opportunity to get away.
After the essayist of the evening had read his paper, the chairman announced that the debate would now be upon the subject of the previous meeting, "The American Press." It saddened the backsliding disciple to hear this announcement. It brought up too many reminiscences. He wished he had happened upon some other subject. But the debate began, and he sat still and listened.
In the course of the discussion one of the speakers--a blacksmith named Tompkins--arraigned all monarchs and all lords in the earth for their cold selfishness in retaining their unearned dignities. He said that no monarch and no son of a monarch, no lord and no son of a lord ought to be able to look his fellow man in the face without shame. Shame for consenting to keep his unearned t.i.tles, property, and privileges--at the expense of other people; shame for consenting to remain, on any terms, in dishonourable possession of these things, which represented bygone robberies and wrongs inflicted upon the general people of the nation. He said, "if there were a laid or the son of a lord here, I would like to reason with him, and try to show him how unfair and how selfish his position is. I would try to persuade him to relinquish it, take his place among men on equal terms, earn the bread he eats, and hold of slight value all deference paid him because of artificial position, all reverence not the just due of his own personal merits."
Tracy seemed to be listening to utterances of his own made in talks with his radical friends in England. It was as if some eavesdropping phonograph had treasured up his words and brought them across the Atlantic to accuse him with them in the hour of his defection and retreat. Every word spoken by this stranger seemed to leave a blister on Tracy"s conscience, and by the time the speech was finished he felt that he was all conscience and one blister. This man"s deep compa.s.sion for the enslaved and oppressed millions in Europe who had to bear with the contempt of that small cla.s.s above them, throned upon shining heights whose paths were shut against them, was the very thing he had often uttered himself. The pity in this man"s voice and words was the very twin of the pity that used to reside in his own heart and come from his own lips when he thought of these oppressed peoples.
The homeward tramp was accomplished in brooding silence. It was a silence most grateful to Tracy"s feelings. He wouldn"t have broken it for anything; for he was ashamed of himself all the way through to his spine. He kept saying to himself: "How unanswerable it all is--how absolutely unanswerable! It is basely, degradingly selfish to keep those unearned honors, and--and--oh, hang it, n.o.body but a cur--"
"What an idiotic d.a.m.ned speech that Tompkins made!"
This outburst was from Barrow. It flooded Tracy"s demoralized soul with waters of refreshment. These were the darlingest words the poor vacillating young apostate had ever heard--for they whitewashed his shame for him, and that is a good service to have when you can"t get the best of all verdicts, self-acquittal.
"Come up to my room and smoke a pipe, Tracy."
Tracy had been expecting this invitation, and had had his declination all ready: but he was glad enough to accept, now. Was it possible that a reasonable argument could be made against that man"s desolating speech? He was burning to hear Barrow try it. He knew how to start him, and keep him going: it was to seem to combat his positions--a process effective with most people.
"What is it you object to in Tompkins"s speech, Barrow?"
"Oh, the leaving out of the factor of human nature; requiring another man to do what you wouldn"t do yourself."
"Do you mean--"
"Why here"s what I mean; it"s very simple. Tompkins is a blacksmith; has a family; works for wages; and hard, too--fooling around won"t furnish the bread. Suppose it should turn out that by the death of somebody in England he is suddenly an earl--income, half a million dollars a year. What would he do?"
"Well, I--I suppose he would have to decline to--"
"Man, he would grab it in a second!"
"Do you really think he would?"
"Think?--I don"t think anything about it, I know it."
"Why?"
"Because he"s not a fool."
"So you think that if he were a fool, he--"
"No, I don"t. Fool or no fool, he would grab it. Anybody would. Anybody that"s alive. And I"ve seen dead people that would get up and go for it. I would myself."
"This was balm, this was healing, this was rest and peace and comfort."
"But I thought you were opposed to n.o.bilities."
"Transmissible ones, yes. But that"s nothing. I"m opposed to millionaires, but it would be dangerous to offer me the position."
"You"d take it?"
"I would leave the funeral of my dearest enemy to go and a.s.sume its burdens and responsibilities."
Tracy thought a while, then said: "I don"t know that I quite get the bearings of your position. You say you are opposed to hereditary n.o.bilities, and yet if you had the chance you would--"
"Take one? In a minute I would. And there isn"t a mechanic in that entire club that wouldn"t. There isn"t a lawyer, doctor, editor, author, tinker, loafer, railroad president, saint-land, there isn"t a human being in the United States that wouldn"t jump at the chance!"
"Except me," said Tracy softly.
"Except you!" Barrow could hardly get the words out, his scorn so choked him. And he couldn"t get any further than that form of words; it seemed to dam his flow, utterly. He got up and came and glared upon Tracy in a kind of outraged and unappeasable way, and said again, "Except you!" He walked around him--inspecting him from one point of view and then another, and relieving his soul now and then by exploding that formula at him; "Except you!" Finally he slumped down into his chair with the air of one who gives it up, and said: "He"s straining his viscera and he"s breaking his heart trying to get some low-down job that a good dog wouldn"t have, and yet wants to let on that if he had a chance to scoop an earldom he wouldn"t do it. Tracy, don"t put this kind of a strain on me. Lately I"m not as strong as I was."
"Well, I wasn"t meaning to put--a strain on you, Barrow, I was only meaning to intimate that if an earldom ever does fall in my way--"
"There--I wouldn"t give myself any worry about that, if I was you. And besides, I can settle what you would do. Are you any different from me?"
"Well--no."
"Are you any better than me?"
"O,--er--why, certainly not."
"Are you as good? Come!"
"Indeed, I--the fact is you take me so suddenly--"
"Suddenly? What is there sudden about it? It isn"t a difficult question is it? Or doubtful? Just measure us on the only fair lines--the lines of merit--and of course you"ll admit that a journeyman chairmaker that earns his twenty dollars a week, and has had the good and genuine culture of contact with men, and care, and hardship, and failure, and success, and downs and ups and ups and downs, is just a trifle the superior of a young fellow like you, who doesn"t know how to do anything that"s valuable, can"t earn his living in any secure and steady way, hasn"t had any experience of life and its seriousness, hasn"t any culture but the artificial culture of books, which adorns but doesn"t really educate- come! if I wouldn"t scorn an earldom, what the devil right have you to do it!"
Tracy dissembled his joy, though he wanted to thank the chair-maker for that last remark. Presently a thought struck him, and he spoke up briskly and said: "But look here, I really can"t quite get the hang of your notions--your, principles, if they are principles. You are inconsistent. You are opposed to aristocracies, yet you"d take an earldom if you could. Am I to understand that you don"t blame an earl for being and remaining an earl?"
"I certainly don"t."
"And you wouldn"t blame Tompkins, or yourself, or me, or anybody, for accepting an earldom if it was offered?"
"Indeed I wouldn"t."
"Well, then, who would you blame?"
"The whole nation--any bulk and ma.s.s of population anywhere, in any country, that will put up with the infamy, the outrage, the insult of a hereditary aristocracy which they can"t enter--and on absolutely free and equal terms."
"Come, aren"t you beclouding yourself with distinctions that are not differences?"
"Indeed I am not. I am entirely clear-headed about this thing. If I could extirpate an aristocratic system by declining its honors, then I should be a rascal to accept them. And if enough of the ma.s.s would join me to make the extirpation possible, then I should be a rascal to do otherwise than help in the attempt."
"I believe I understand--yes, I think I get the idea. You have no blame for the lucky few who naturally decline to vacate the pleasant nest they were born into, you only despise the all-powerful and stupid ma.s.s of the nation for allowing the nest to exist."
"That"s it, that"s it! You can get a simple thing through your head if you work at it long enough."
"Thanks."
"Don"t mention it. And I"ll give you some sound advice: when you go back; if you find your nation up and ready to abolish that h.o.a.ry affront, lend a hand; but if that isn"t the state of things and you get a chance at an earldom, don"t you be a fool--you take it."
Tracy responded with earnestness and enthusiasm: "As I live, I"ll do it!"
Barrow laughed.
"I never saw such a fellow. I begin to think you"ve got a good deal of imagination. With you, the idlest-fancy freezes into a reality at a breath. Why, you looked, then, as if it wouldn"t astonish you if you did tumble into an earldom."
Tracy blushed. Barrow added: "Earldom! Oh, yes, take it, if it offers; but meantime we"ll go on looking around, in a modest way, and if you get a chance to superintend a sausage-stuffer at six or eight dollars a week, you just trade off the earldom for a last year"s almanac and stick to the sausage-stuffing,"
CHAPTER XV.
Tracy went to bed happy once more, at rest in his mind once more. He had started out on a high emprise--that was to his credit, he argued; he had fought the best fight he could, considering the odds against him--that was to his credit; he had been defeated--certainly there was nothing discreditable in that. Being defeated, he had a right to retire with the honors of war and go back without prejudice to the position in the world"s society to which he had been born. Why not? even the rabid republican chair-maker would do that. Yes, his conscience was comfortable once more.
He woke refreshed, happy, and eager for his cablegram. He had been born an aristocrat, he had been a democrat for a time, he was now an aristocrat again. He marveled to find that this final change was not merely intellectual, it had invaded his feeling; and he also marveled to note that this feeling seemed a good deal less artificial than any he had entertained in his system for a long time. He could also have noted, if he had thought of it, that his bearing had stiffened, over night, and that his chin had lifted itself a shade. Arrived in the bas.e.m.e.nt, he was about to enter the breakfast room when he saw old Marsh in the dim light of a corner of the hall, beckoning him with his finger to approach. The blood welled slowly up in Tracy"s cheek, and he said with a grade of injured dignity almost ducal: "Is that for me?"
"Yes."
"What is the purpose of it?"
"I want to speak to you--in private."
"This spot is private enough for me."
Marsh was surprised; and not particularly pleased. He approached and said: "Oh, in public, then, if you prefer. Though it hasn"t been my way."
The boarders gathered to the spot, interested.
"Speak out," said Tracy. "What is it you want?"
"Well, haven"t you--er--forgot something?"
"I? I"m not aware of it."
"Oh, you"re not? Now you stop and think, a minute."
"I refuse to stop and think. It doesn"t interest me. If it interests you, speak out."
"Well, then," said Marsh, raising his voice to a slightly angry pitch, "You forgot to pay your board yesterday--if you"re bound to have it public."