I don"t know who John is, but I felt very bad for Mother. I had never really thought about my own name before. Uncle Teddy and everyone calls me Sonny because it"s short for Sonny Boy, and that"s good enough for me. But it made me wonder how someone could get a name like John. Uncle Teddy was probably named after a teddy bear. Mother was just Mother.
MAY, 1987.
Today was a very special day. It was my seventieth birthday. Uncle Teddy came to visit and I was very excited because I hadn"t seen him in such a long time. We had a big cake and a lot of food and we played checkers for an hour. Then Uncle Teddy took me outside for a walk!
I"ll never forget it as long as I live. I think Mother was not happy about it because she did not want to let me go at first, but Uncle Teddy talked her into it and we went outside surrounded by men in black suits and ties and shoes. Uncle Teddy asked me if I minded if his friends went with us, and of course I didn"t care. They came to my party and they had a right to have fun. In fact, I told them that if they smiled more they might have a nicer time all around, but Uncle Teddy said they were usually very serious people and were happy that way.
It was a sunny day. The wind blew in my face and stung my eyes at first, but it felt good. Uncle Teddy took me all around the yard and into the garden where I smelled the roses and touched the bushes and the vines. I listened to the birds calling and the insects buzzing. I never dreamed they would sound so loud and so near.
I touched the winterberry hollies which were very special to me because I could always see their bright red berries from my window, even during the cold cold winters.
After a short time I caught a chill and had to go inside, and I was weak for the rest of the day. But I didn"t care-I had such fun! I"ll always remember it.
AUGUST, 1996.
One night I entered a storage room through my pa.s.sageway where there were a lot of tools and brooms and rags and buckets and things. I rummaged around in the dark and my hands found a flashlight. I thought this would be a wonderful thing to have so I took it with me hoping that no one would miss it. Now I can sit in bed at night and read and write as long as I like and not have to worry about someone seeing my light.
I have not seen Mother in a very long time. I wondered if she was angry with me even though I didn"t think she knew about my pa.s.sageways or my late-night writing. Mother would have yelled at me if she knew.
I"ve been seeing more and more of Uncle Teddy, so I asked him about Mother today and he said that she went away on a very long trip and I wouldn"t be seeing her for a while.
I asked him how long that might be and he said not long, he said soon we"d all be seeing her and then maybe we"d find out whether we did the right thing, whether the choices we"d made over the years had been the proper ones. He looked very sad when he said this, and then he said, "I think there is such a place, Sonny Boy, a place where we learn why everything is the way it is."
I asked him if Dr. Armbruster had gone with Mother since I hadn"t seen him in so long and I was seeing Dr. Morelande almost every day now, and Uncle Teddy told me yes.
I thought about how lucky Mother was to visit this place, a place where every time you asked a question you got an answer, and I could not blame her if she didn"t want to come back for a while. I told Uncle Teddy so, and he seemed to cheer up. We played cards for the rest of the afternoon.
MAY, 1997.
Today was my eightieth birthday. I have been very sick and I was afraid that I might not be able to have my party, but Dr. Morelande said it was OK so we had cake and games with Uncle Teddy and I had a very nice time even though I had to stay in bed.
It was after my party that I had a scare. I was very weak, and I probably should have just gone to sleep, but being so excited all day and not being allowed to get up, I turned restless after dark, so I decided to take a short walk through my pa.s.sageways.
I followed a path that led to the back of a closet in Uncle Teddy"s room, and I saw some light coming through the darkness so I went up to it. That"s all I was going to do-peek and go away-until I saw Uncle Teddy crying. I"d never seen Uncle Teddy cry before. He was in bed. He had a large, green book on his lap, and every so often he would turn a page and cry some more.
I watched him for a while, waiting for him to be all right, but he didn"t stop crying and I couldn"t stand to watch him any longer, so I did a foolish thing and I entered his room through the closet.
"Sonny Boy," he said, "what are you doing here?"
I thought he might be angry with me so I wanted to say that I saw him crying, and that I only wanted to help him and be a friend, but before I could say anything he said, "So you know about the pa.s.sages," and he didn"t seem to be upset at all.
"Come over here, Sonny," he said.
I went and sat on the edge of his bed. He was looking at a photo alb.u.m. Mother had shown me some photo alb.u.ms years ago, and I thought they were interesting and we had a lot of fun even though I didn"t recognize any of the faces. I don"t ever remember crying over them. But Uncle Teddy"s alb.u.m was different. There were newspaper pictures, and headlines, and articles.
Uncle Teddy was looking at a picture of a man and a woman. The man seemed very serious-looking, and his right hand was raised like an Indian chief"s, but he had on a suit and tie and no headdress. The man"s eyes were closed.
The woman had short black hair with long bangs, and she was looking down.
And then all of a sudden I just about screamed. I knew that woman. I remembered her from... from somewhere.
Uncle Teddy said, "You know her, don"t you? Think, Sonny Boy, think very hard. What do you remember?"
I did think very hard, and then I remembered where I had seen her. She was the beautiful black-haired woman I had seen at Christmastime in the main entrance of the house years ago.
But then there was more. As I looked at the woman in the picture something very strange came into my head. I had a pa.s.sing thought of this same woman in a pretty white gown, with a white veil over her face. It was just a piece of a thought that I could not keep in my mind for very long, but I"ll never forget it. I reached out and touched the picture.
"Always grand," Uncle Teddy said. "She was wearing a very dignified, raspberry-colored suit that day."
But that"s not what I had seen. I had seen the white gown. I had seen something that happened before my room and my house and my pa.s.sageways and Mother and Uncle Teddy. Was there anything before them? Yes, I think there was. It was more than a pa.s.sing thought-it was a memory .
"Was I married, Uncle Teddy?" I asked him.
He smiled. "Yes, you were. You proposed to her by telegram, you know, from Paris."
I thought this was interesting, but nothing more than that. Uncle Teddy started to cry again.
"Please, don"t cry," I said.
He held my hand then. "I"m sorry we couldn"t tell her you were alive. We couldn"t tell your children, not anyone, not even Father because we couldn"t be sure of his reaction. Mother was adamant about that. No one could know. Just Bobby and Mother and myself-and the doctors, of course. Now there"s just me.
"It was for the good of the country. Those were critical times. The eyes of the world were watching us. We could not afford hesitancy. We felt you would have wanted it that way. Do you understand?"
I didn"t, but I nodded anyway to stop Uncle Teddy from crying. He was clutching my arm very hard.
He traced the newspaper picture with his finger. "She was a strong woman, Sonny Boy. You would have been proud of her. I remember her standing right next to Lyndon, solid as a rock, little more than an hour after you were p.r.o.nounced dead."
I was very confused about Uncle Teddy calling me dead, and about what the woman in the picture had to do with any of it, so I closed the book and placed it on the floor. I remembered what Mother used to do to make me feel better, so I thought that maybe the same thing might help Uncle Teddy feel better too.
I pulled his bed covers up to his chin, brushed back his hair, kissed him on the forehead, and turned out his light. "Sleep well, child," I said, and then I went back to my room. I was sure Uncle Teddy would be just fine in the morning. It had always worked for me.
DECEMBER, 2008.
Dr. Morelande is the only one who comes to see me anymore. He says that Uncle Teddy is so busy he can"t find time to stop by. But I don"t think that"s exactly true. I think Uncle Teddy went on vacation with Mother and Dr. Armbruster, and he is having so much fun that he is not coming back at all.
Dr. Morelande has tried very hard to make this a good Christmas, but I am sorry to say I am not very happy. I am tired all of the time, and I can"t even move out of bed. Dr. Morelande asked me if I wanted anything for Christmas, but if I couldn"t have Mother or Uncle Teddy, then there was nothing to ask for.
But then I thought about it and thought about it for a long time, and I remembered the pictures Uncle Teddy had shown me many years ago. I told Dr. Morelande about the green photo alb.u.m in Uncle Teddy"s room and asked him if he could find it for me. A little while later Dr. Morelande returned with the book.
Together we went through the pictures, and when we got to the one Uncle Teddy had shown me, the one with the man and the beautiful dark-haired woman, I made him stop.
"There is something I want for Christmas," I told him. "There is something I want very much."
I decided to tell Dr. Morelande about the pa.s.sageways then. I didn"t think that I would get in trouble. I made him put me in my wheelchair and take me for a walk behind the walls. He argued with me at first, but I refused to be put off.
I told him exactly which path to follow. He wheeled me all the way down to the wall at the main entrance. I looked through the small opening. I was sure that the beautiful dark-haired woman would be standing at the door in her winter coat. I was disappointed that she wasn"t there. I thought that if I waited long enough she would certainly show up-she would come back like the winterberry, bright and strong even in the cold cold winter. There would be snowflakes in her hair, and she would say "Merry Christmas" in her lovely voice. So we waited.
Finally Dr. Morelande said that if I agreed to go to bed, he would wait for the woman, and bring her directly to me as soon as she arrived. I thought that this would be a good idea since I was so tired.
When she arrives, we will have many things to discuss. I have decided to make her my new friend. I think I will show her my book of writings. I think I will ask her about the white gown to show her that I have not forgotten, and then I"ll ask her about the children Uncle Teddy mentioned. I won"t tell her about the vacation place where everyone has gone without me, and not because I"m being sneaky, but only because I am very lonely and I would like her to stay with me for a while.
HARRY TURTLEDOVE.
Harry Turtledove first came to prominence as a writer of alternate world fantasy with The Misplaced Legion, the first volume in his multibook Videssos series of novels about the experiences of a Roman Legion translated to a world that runs on magic. Since then, he has explored the impact of altered historical events in a variety of works, including Agent of Byzantium, set in medieval times, the acclaimed Guns of the South, in which time travelers manipulate a southern victory in the American Civil War, and the first two volumes of The Great War saga, American Front and Walk in h.e.l.l, which envisions an America in which the United States and the Confederacy support opposing sides in World War I. His ambitious Worldwar series-which includes In the Balance, Tilting the Balance, Striking the Balance, and Upsetting the Balance-projects an alternate World War II in which an alien invasion forges alliances between Axis and Allied opponents. Turtledove has also co-edited the anthology Alternate Generals. His many other works include the short-fiction collection Departures, the comic fantasy The Case of the Toxic Spell Dump, and the linked novels Into the Darkness and Darkness Descending, epic tales of empire building set in a fantasy world where cataclysmic wars are fought with magic.
ISLANDS IN THE SEA.
Harry Turtledove
INTRODUCTION.
Islam exploded out of Arabia in the seventh century. The triumphant armies of the caliphs overthrew the Persian Empire and took Syria, Palestine, Egypt, and North Africa from the East Roman or Byzantine Empire. Muslim forces twice besieged Constantinople, in 67478 and 71718. In our history, the Byzantine capital held and the Byzantine Empire survived as Christianity"s eastern bulwark, holding Islam out of Anatolia and the Balkans for centuries to come and converting the Bulgars and Russians to faith in Christ. But what if the Empire had fallen in the eighth century instead of the fifteenth? The still-pagan folk to the north of Constantinople would have had new choices to make...
A.H. 152 (A.D. 769).
The Bulgar border guards had arrows nocked and ready as the Arab hors.e.m.e.n rode up from the south. Jalal ad-Din as-Stambuli, the leader of the Arab delegation, raised his right hand to show it was empty. "In the name of Allah, the Compa.s.sionate, the Merciful, I and my men come in peace," he called in Arabic. To be sure the guards understood, he repeated himself in Greek.
The precaution paid off. The guards lowered their bows. In Greek much worse than Jalal ad-Din"s, one of them asked, "Why for you come in peace, whitebeard?"
Jalal ad-Din stroked his whiskers. Even without the Bulgar"s mockery, he knew they were white. Not many men who had the right to style themselves as-Stambuli, the Constantinopolitan, still lived. More than fifty years had pa.s.sed since the army of Suleiman and Maslama had taken Constantinople and put an end to the Roman Empire. Then Jalal ad-Din"s beard had not been white. Then he could hardly raise a beard at all.
He spoke in Greek again: "My master the caliph Abd ar-Rahman asked last year if your khan Telerikh would care to learn more of Islam, of submission to the one G.o.d. This past spring Telerikh sent word that he would. We are the emba.s.sy sent to instruct him."
The Bulgar who had talked with him now used his own hissing language, Jalal ad-Din supposed to translate for his comrades. They answered back, some of them anything but happily. Content in their paganism, Jalal ad-Din guessed-content to burn in h.e.l.l forever. He did not wish that fate on anyone, even a Bulgar.
The guard who knew Greek confirmed his thought, saying, "Why for we want your G.o.d? G.o.ds, spirits, ghosts good to us now."
Jalal ad-Din shrugged. "Your khan asked to hear more of Allah and Islam. That is why we are here." He could have said much more, but deliberately spoke in terms a soldier would understand.
"Telerikh want, Telerikh get," the guard agreed. He spoke again with his countrymen, at length pointed at two of them. "This Iskur. This Omurtag. They take you to Pliska, to where Telerikh is. Iskur, him know Greek a little, not so good like me."
"Know little your tongue too," Iskur said in halting Arabic, which surprised Jalal ad-Din and, evidently, the Bulgar who had been doing all the talking till now. The prospective guide glanced at the sun, which was a couple of hours from setting. "We ride," he declared, and started off with no more fanfare than that. The Bulgar called Omurtag followed.
So, more slowly, did Jalal ad-Din and his companions. By the time Iskur called a halt in deepening twilight, the mountains that made the northern horizon jagged were visibly closer.
"Those little ponies the Bulgars ride are ugly as mules, but they go and go and go," said Da"ud ibn Zubayr, who was a veteran of many skirmishes on the border between the caliph"s land and Bulgaria. He stroked the mane of his elegant, Arab-bred mare.
"Sadly, my old bones do not." Jalal ad-Din groaned with relief as he slid off his own horse, a soft-gaited gelding. Once he had delighted in fiery stallions, but he knew that if he took a fall now he would shatter like gla.s.s.
The Bulgars stalked into the brush to hunt. Da"ud bent to the laborious business of getting a fire going. The other two Arabs, Malik ibn Anas and Salman al-Tabari, stood guard, one with a bow, the other with a spear. Iskur and Omurtag emerged into firelight carrying partridges and rabbits. Jalal ad-Din took hard unleavened bread from a saddlebag: no feast tonight, he thought, but not the worst of fare either.
Iskur also had a skin of wine. He offered it to the Arabs, grinned when they declined. "More for me, Omurtag," he said. The two Bulgars drank the skin dry, and soon lay snoring by the fire.
Da"ud ibn Zubayr scowled at them. "The only use they have for wits is losing them," he sneered. "How can such folk ever come to acknowledge Allah and his Prophet?"
"We Arabs were wine-bibbers too, before Muhammad forbad it to us," Jalal ad-Din said. "My worry is that the Bulgars" pa.s.sion for such drink will make khan Telerikh less inclined to accept our faith."
Da"ud dipped his head to the older man. "Truly it is just that you lead us, sir. Like a falcon, you keep your eye ever on our quarry."
"Like a falcon, I sleep in the evening," Jalal ad-Din said, yawning. "And like an old falcon, I need more sleep than I once did."
"Your years have brought you wisdom." Da"ud ibn Zubayr hesitated, as if wondering whether to go on. Finally he plunged: "Is it true, sir, that you once met a man who had known the Prophet?"
"It is true," Jalal ad-Din said proudly. "It was at Antioch, when Suleiman"s army was marching to fight the Greeks at Constantinople. The grandfather of the innkeeper with whom I was quartered lived with him still: he was a Medinan, far older then than I am now, for he had soldiered with Khalid ibn al-Walid when the city fell to us. And before that, as a youth, he accompanied Muhammad when the Prophet returned in triumph from Medina to Mecca."
"Allahu akbar,"Da"ud breathed: "G.o.d is great. I am further honored to be in your presence. Tell me, did-did the old man grant you an hadith, any tradition, of the Prophet that you might pa.s.s on to me for the sake of my enlightenment?"
"Yes," Jalal ad-Din said. "I recall it as if it were yesterday, just as the old man did when speaking of the journey to the Holy City. Abu Bakr, who was not yet caliph, of course, for Muhammad was still alive, started beating a man for letting a camel get loose. The Prophet began to smile, and said, "See what this pilgrim is doing." Abu Bakr was abashed, though the Prophet did not actually tell him to stop."
Da"ud bowed low. "I am in your debt." He repeated the story several times; Jalal ad-Din nodded to show him he had learned it perfectly. In the time-honored way, Da"ud went on, "I have this hadith from Jalal ad-Din as-Stambuli, who had it from-what was the old man"s name, sir?"
"He was called Abd al-Qadir."
"-who had it from Abd al-Qadir, who had it from the Prophet. Think of it-only two men between Muhammad and me." Da"ud bowed again.
Jalal ad-Din returned the bow, then embarra.s.sed himself by yawning once more. "Your pardon, I pray. Truly I must sleep."
"Sleep, then, and Allah keep you safe till the morning comes."
Jalal ad-Din rolled himself in his blanket. "And you, son of Zubayr."