The one thing that perturbed Alma almost more than anything else, as the dreaded cravings grew, with each siege her mother becoming more brutish and more given to profanity, was where she obtained the drug.
The well-thumbed old doctor"s prescription she had purloined even back in the hotel days, and embargo and legislation were daily making more and more furtive and prohibitive the traffic in narcotics.
Once Alma, mistakenly too, she thought later, had suspected a chauffeur of collusion with her mother and abruptly dismissed him. To Louis" rage.
"What"s the idea," he said out of Carrie"s hearing, of course. "Who"s running this shebang anyway?"
Once after Alma had guarded her well for days, scarcely leaving her side, Carrie laughed sardonically up into her daughter"s face, her eyes as gla.s.sy and without swimming fluid as a doll"s.
"I get it! But wouldn"t you like to know where? Yah!"
And to Alma"s horror she slapped her quite roundly across the cheek.
And then one day, after a long period of quiet, when Carrie had lavished her really great wealth of contrite love upon her daughter and husband, spending on Alma and loading her with gifts of jewelry and finery to somehow express her grateful adoration of her; paying her husband the secret penance of twofold fidelity to his well-being and every whim, Alma, returning from a trip, taken reluctantly, and at her mother"s bidding, down to the bas.e.m.e.nt trunk room, found her gone, a modish black-lace hat and the sable coat missing from the closet.
It was early afternoon, sunlit and pleasantly cold.
The first rush of panic and the impulse to dash after, stayed, she forced herself down into a chair, striving with the utmost difficulty for coherence of procedure.
Where in the half hour of her absence had her mother gone? Matinee?
Impossible! Walking. Hardly probable. Upon inquiry in the kitchen neither of the maids had seen nor heard her depart. Motoring? With a hand that trembled in spite of itself, Alma telephoned the garage. Car and chauffeur were there. Incredible as it seemed, Alma, upon more than one occasion had lately been obliged to remind her mother that she was becoming careless of the old pointedly rosy hand. Manicurist? She telephoned the Bon Ton Beauty Parlor. No! Where, oh G.o.d, where? Which way to begin? That was what troubled her most. To start right, so as not to lose a precious second.
Suddenly, and for no particular reason, Alma began a hurried search through her mother"s dresser-drawers of lovely personal appointments.
A one-inch square of newspaper clipping apparently gouged from the sheet with a hairpin, caught her eye from the top of one of the gold-backed hair-brushes. Dawningly, Alma read.
It described in brief detail the innovation of a newly equipped Narcotic Clinic on the Bowery below Ca.n.a.l Street, provided to medically administer to the pathological cravings of addicts.
Fifteen minutes later Alma emerged from the subway at Ca.n.a.l Street and with three blocks toward her destination ahead, started to run.
At the end of the first block she saw her mother, in the sable coat and the black-lace hat, coming toward her.
Her first impulse was to run faster and yoo-hoo, but she thought better of it and by biting her lips and digging her fingernails, was able to slow down to a casual walk.
Carrie"s fur coat was flaring open and because of the quality of her attire down there where the bilge waters of the city-tide flow and eddy, stares followed her.
Once, to the stoppage of Alma"s heart, she halted and said a brief word to a truckman as he crossed the sidewalk with a bill of lading. He hesitated, laughed and went on.
Then she quickened her pace and went on, but as if with sense of being followed, because constantly as she walked, she jerked a step, to look back, and then again, over her shoulder.
A second time she stopped, this time to address a little nub of a woman without a hat and lugging one-sidedly a stack of men"s basted waistcoats, evidently for homework in some tenement. She looked and muttered her un-understanding of whatever Carrie had to say and shambled on.
Then Mrs. Latz spied her daughter, greeting her without surprise or any particular recognition.
"Thought you could fool me! Heh, Louis? Alma."
"Mama, it"s Alma. It"s all right. Don"t you remember, we had this appointment? Come, dear."
"No, you don"t! That"s a man following. Shh-h-h-h, Louis. I was fooling.
I went up to him (snicker) and I said to him, "Give you five dollars for a doctor"s certificate." That"s all I said to him, or any of them. He"s in a white carnation, Louis. You can find him by the--it"s on his coat lapel. He"s coming! Quick--"
"Mama, there"s no one following. Wait, I"ll call a taxi!"
"No, you don"t! He tried to put me in a taxi, too. No, you don"t!"
"Then the subway, dearest. You"ll sit quietly beside Alma in the subway, won"t you, Carrie. Alma"s so tired."
Suddenly Carrie began to whimper.
"My baby! Don"t let her see me. My baby. What am I good for? I"ve ruined her life. My precious sweetheart"s life. I hit her once--Louis--in the mouth. G.o.d won"t forgive me for that."
"Yes, He will, dear, if you come."
"It bled. Alma, tell him mama lost her doctor"s certificate. That"s all I said to him--give you five dollars for a doctor"s certificate--he had a white carnation--right lapel--stingy! Quick! He"s following!"
"Sweetheart, please, there"s no one coming."
"Don"t tell! Oh, Alma darling--mama"s ruined your life. Her sweetheart baby"s life."
"No, darling, you haven"t. She loves you if you"ll come home with her, dear, to bed, before Louis gets home and--"
"No. No. He mustn"t see. Never this bad--was I, darling--oh--oh--"
"No, mama--never--this bad. That"s why we must hurry."
"Best man that ever lived. Best baby. Ruin. Ruin."
"Mama, you--you"re making Alma tremble so that she can scarcely walk if you drag her back so. There"s no one following, dear. I won"t let any one harm you. Please, sweetheart--a taxicab."
"No. I tell you he"s following. He tried to put me into a taxicab."
"Then mama, listen. Do you hear! Alma wants you to listen. If you don"t--she"ll faint. People are looking. Now I want you to turn square around and look. No, look again. You see now, there"s no one following.
Now, I want you to cross the street over there to the subway. Just with Alma, who loves you. There"s n.o.body following. Just with Alma who loves you."
And then Carrie, whose lace hat was crazily on the back of her head, relaxed enough so that through the enormous maze of the traffic of trucks and the heavier drags of the lower city, she and her daughter could wind their way.
"My baby. My poor Louis," she kept saying. "The worst I"ve ever been.
Oh--Alma--Louis--waiting--before we get there--Louis."
It was in the tightest tangle of the crossing and apparently on this conjuring of her husband, that Carrie jerked suddenly free of Alma"s frailer hold.
"No--no--not home--now. Him. Alma!" And darted back against the breast of the down side of the traffic.
There was scarcely more than the quick rotation of her arm around with the spoke of a truck wheel, so quickly she went down.
It was almost a miracle, her kind of death, because out of all that jam of tonnage, she carried only one bruise, a faint one, near the brow.
And the wonder was that Louis Latz in his grief was so proud.