You should tell her, Ranny."
"Tell her what?"
"Well--tell her to take Baby out more. Tell her to give her a bath night _and_ morning. Tell her little babies get ill and die if you don"t keep everything about them as clean as clean. Tell her anything you like. But don"t tell her to-night."
"Why not?"
"Because she"s upset."
"What"s upset her?"
"I don"t know. _You"ll_ upset her if you go flying out at her about those old bottles like you did; and if you go calling her bad names. _I_ heard you."
Was it possible? (Why, he hadn"t let it out, or, if he had, it had gone, quite innocently, through the open window.)
"If you"re not as gentle as gentle with her you"ll upset her something awful. You"ve got to be as gentle with her as you are with Baby."
So she thought he wasn"t gentle, did she? She thought he bullied Violet and upset her? Whatever could Violet have been saying about him?
Well--well--he couldn"t tell her that he _had_ been as gentle with her as he was with Baby, and that the gentler he was the more Violet was upset.
He didn"t know that Winky was punishing him in order to punish herself for having given Violet away.
"All right, Winky," he said. "If you think I"m such a brute."
"I don"t think anything of the sort, Ranny. You know I don"t."
She rose with the sleeping child in her arms and carried it to its cot.
He followed her and turned back the blanket for her as she laid Baby down. But it was Winny and not Baby that he looked at.
And he thought, "Little Winky"s grown up."
To be sure, her hair was done differently. He missed the door-knocker plat.
But that was not what he meant. He had only thought of it after she had left him.
It was past ten before Violet came back. He found her in the sitting-room, standing in the light of the gas flame she had just lit.
Her eyes shone; her face was flushed. She panted a little as if (so he thought) she had hurried, being late.
"Well," he said to her, "have you had your little run?"
She stared and flung three words at him.
"I wanted it!"
And still she stared.
"Vi--" he began.
"Well--what"s the matter with you?"
"Nothing"s the matter with _me_. But I"m afraid Baby"s going to be ill."
She stood before him, her breast heaving. She drew her breath in and let it out again in a snort of exasperation.
"What makes you think so?"
"Something Winny said."
"What does she know about it?"
He wanted to say "A jolly sight more than you do," but he stopped himself in time.
He began to talk gently to her.
And Violet was horribly upset.
Wrap it up as tenderly as he might, there was no mistaking the awfulness of the charge he brought against her. He had as good as taxed her with neglecting Baby. She had recourse to subterfuge; she sheltered herself behind lies, laid on one on the top of the other, little silly transparent lies, but such a thundering lot of them that Ranny could say of each that it was jolly thin and of the whole that it was a bit too thick.
That brought her round, and he wondered whether gentleness was the best method for Violet after all. He was disgusted, for he hated subterfuge.
And she might just as well have owned up at once; for in a day or two she was defenseless. The Baby was ill; and the illness was accusation and evidence and proof positive and punishment all rolled into one; Baby"s sufferings being due to the cause that Ransome had a.s.signed. It had been poisoned, suddenly, from milk gone sour in the abominable bottles, and slowly, subtly poisoned from the still more abominable state of its Baby"s Comforter. Ransome and his wife sat up three nights running, and the doctor came twice a day. And every time, except on the last night, when the Baby nearly died, the doctor spoke brutally to Violet. _He_ knew that gentleness was not a bit of good.
CHAPTER XVIII
Still, that was in August, and they could put a good half of it down to the hot weather.
Besides, the Baby got over it. With all its accusing and witnessing, it was, as Ranny said, a forgiving little thing; it had never in its life done anybody any harm. It did not hurt Violet now.
And the hot days pa.s.sed; weeks pa.s.sed; months pa.s.sed, and winter and spring. The Baby had one little attack after another. It marked the pa.s.sage of the months by its calamities; and still these might be put down to the cold weather or the stress of teething. Then, in a temperate week of May, nineteen-six, it did something decisive. It nearly died again of enteritis; and again it was forgiving and got over it.
There could be no doubt that things would have been simpler if it had been cruel enough to die. For the question was: What were they to do now?
Things, Ransome said, had got to be different. They couldn"t go on as they were. The anxiety and the discomfort were intolerable. Still, that he had conceived an end to them, showed that he did not yet utterly despair of Violet. She had been terrified by the behavior of the Baby and by the things, the brutal things, the doctor had said to her, and she had made another effort. Ransome"s trouble was simply that he couldn"t trust her. He said to himself that she had good instincts and good impulses if you could depend on them. But you couldn"t. With all her obstinacy she had no staying-power. He recognized in her a lamentable and inveterate flabbiness.
If he had known all about her he might have formed a larger estimate of her staying-power. But he did not yet know what she was. That bad word that he had once let out through the window had been in Ranny"s simple mind a mere figure of speech, a flowering expletive, flung to the dark, devoid of meaning and of fitness. He did not know what Violet"s impulses and her instincts really were. He did not know that what he called her flabbiness was the inertia in which they stored their strength, nor that in them there remained a vigilant and indestructible soul, biding its time, holding its own against maternity, making more and more for self-protection, for a.s.sertion, for supremacy. He felt her mystery, but he had never known the ultimate secret of this woman who ate at his board and slept in his bed and had borne his child. It was with his eternal innocence that he put it to her, What were they to do now?
And that implacable and inscrutable soul in her was ready for him. It prompted her to say that she couldn"t do more than she did, and that if things were to be different he must get some one else to see to them. He must keep a servant. He should have kept one for her long ago.
Poor Ranny protested that he"d keep twenty servants for her if he could afford it. As it was, a charwoman every week was more than he could manage, and she knew it. And she said, looking at him very straight, that there was one way they could do it. They could do as other people did. In half the houses in the Avenue they let apartments. They must take a lodger.
Violet had thrown out this suggestion more than once lately. And he had put his foot down. Neither he nor Granville, he said, could stand a lodger. A lodger would make Granville too hot by far to hold him.
Now in their stress he owned that there was something in it. He would think it over.