Chapter 4
“Are you sure you really want to go in?” Walking and probing secretly through the dark cinema hallway, Wei Cai asked Li Jia De who is behind him with a wry smile.
“We’ve already bought the tickets. What are we going to do with these if we didn’t use them?” Li Jia De seemed to feel strange about Wei Cai’s question.
“Come la. You stand over here and people will still treat it as collecting your tickets.”
He easily pulled him inside.
But Li Jia De immediately understood why Wei Cai said that—— the movie hall has not much people, yet the few dozens of people inside are all sweet and happy snuggling couples. Seeing the two men coming in together, all of their eyes are wide open, watching them with a strange look.
Two adult men watching a movie together is indeed a bit silly—— Wei Cai laughed bitterly in his heart——especially going together to watch such literary film is even more weird.
Originally the plan was to watch a blockbuster movie. But when they reached the cinema, they found out that they have to wait for the next showtime. In desperation, they bought the admission tickets but who would have known that this situation will be so embarra.s.sing.
However, Li Jia De did not mind a bit and he was also quite happy. He tilted his head, smiled and asked Wei Cai, “How many movies have you treated me till now?”
He counted in his heart for a while and said “It seems to be the seventh movie. You still owe me three more. Don’t forget it.”
Wei Cai revealed a helpless smile, “To have you, Lawyer Li, keeping an eye, who can deny it?”
Yang Dong Lai was finally sentenced an indefinite period, rather than what he had said; a death penalty. Thus, Li Jia De naturally put on a creditor’s face, always staring behind his back clamouring to treat him every week.
Wei Cai sighed in his heart.
At the procuratorate, he is also considered as enjoying success at young age. But precisely because of that, it made him have no close friends at all in his unit.
Almost the same level of section chiefs who mostly are forty-year-old-and-above married men, with the still-single him had no common topic.
The subordinates are always polite when they see him, yet he does not feel any affectionate feeling. Most of them and himself maintained a superficial distance——
Although he is glad that he got career achievements, however he is a little disappointed of his relationship with his co-workers.
After playing with Li Jia De, Wei Cai just deeply realized how boring his previous two-line life was.
Previously on his rest days, he normally would chose to stay at home reading a book, listening to music, or at most, asked former university friends out for dinner or something. But his cla.s.smates are usually busy people and this kind of opportunities are said to be rare.
People are probably anxious to get married because of this—— because of the thought of having someone to play with, the idea of getting married seem to disappear a bit. Wei Cai could not help but think this way.
Looking at Li Jia De at his side—— the focused look on his face staring at the screen. Bright eyes shone in the darkness.
How can such a person want to spend time together with him?
Wei Cai knew his self-character a bit unsociable. He honestly cannot understand why a person who has a wide circle of friends like Li Jia De like to stick with people who are nothing special, spending precious rest days with him.
Not like those men of same age accompanying their girlfriends.
So strange ah.
Realizing Wei Cai sight on him, Li Jia De turned his head.
“What happened?” Eyes full of concern.
Wei Cai quickly shook his head, “Nothing.” If Li Jia De found out that Wei Cai was thinking about such strange matters, Li Jia De will surely laugh to death. After several months of interactions, he considered as being able to understand the promising spots of Li Jia De’s character——
Maybe it is family reasons. Although Li Jia De is a lawyer, he is not the general kind of selfish and cold people in this industry.
After finished watching the movie, Li Jia De cut to the chase and suggested to Wei Cai, “Let’s go to the Jade Garden to eat.” —— After watching the movie then went to eat; this still-a-bit-weird routine had become their weekend agendas so Wei Cai didn’t considered much and agreed.
They arrived at the Jade Garden and found a secluded spot to sit. Li Jia De ordered some dishes while having a casual chat with Wei Cai—— different topics which let Wei Cai almost spurted out the food while laughing.
Both of them chattered until the topic of the movie they watched today came up. Li Jia De suddenly said “Cai Cai, if you were that today’s male lead, will you be the same like him; because of love, don’t care about anything else?”
The original movie they"ve seen today has a bit strange t.i.tle—— a forty-year-old man, has high position, but fell in love with his son’s finance. He was burned by the hot flames of love for this women that he gave up on his career, family, and even killed his own son. In the end, the woman was using him from the start. At the movie ending, the man died in despair—— a brutal love story.
Wei Cai, being asked this question, hesitated, startled for a while then shook his head “Should not be like that ba.”
“But if you really loved her?” Li Jia De refused to give up and continued to ask.
“Really really love ah?” Wei Cai was a little shillyshally jabbing the steak in front.
Thinking for a long time, his answer let Li Jia De to shake his sides “You really think such thing really exists in the world?”
“How is it not? Just now, the movie was just it.” Li Jia De seemed quite persistent on this issue.
“Please——” Wei Cai laughed, “That’s just a movie.”
Putting down the fork, his voice has gotten more solemn: “Can’t help it. Those in our profession, because had seen too much of the reversal between fate of the day—— who dares to believe in love?”
Suddenly with a little sentiment, he said “Do you remember—— during Yang Dong Lai’s sentence, his wife didn’t come. I heard they’re getting a divorce.”
He laughed bitterly, “At his annual meeting prior to his arrest, I saw his wife was lovey-dovey towards him. He’s also in high and vigorous spirit—— But you look at the sentencing, his hair was all white——still just over forty years old…….”
“Love——” He shook his head, not continuing.
Li Jia De looked at him and said “I didn’t expect that you were so pessimistic ah?”
Wei Cai sighed, “This isn’t pessimism, it’s only the reality.”
“But you can’t deny that there are really people who will do anything for love—— as long as you love, you would do anything.”
Due to the little girl tone Li Jia De had used, Wei Cai said “Yes ah. As long as there is love, anything is possible—— I also like to murder, have ten wives——”
Wei Cai exposed a wry smile for his ironic tone. He returned to his positive tone and said “If that’s really the case, I think you and I will have lose our jobs——
A murderer can say he likes to kill. A rapist can also say he likes that woman. Also, there is limit to not being prejudice to others. After all, people are living in reality ah”
The atmosphere suddenly cooled down. Stunned for a while due to remarks he said, Li Jia De forced a laugh “Well, you’re quite realistic—— it seems that counting on you to do anything for love is unlikely.”
Wei Cai was puzzled by Li Jia De grief-stricken look as if he had lost his parents,laughed: “These days—— Who cannot be without who…… I"m afraid even if I dig out the heart and liver, others will feel it’s too dirty. Who will need me so desperately ah——”
Li Jia De moved his mouth. He seemed to want to say something but in the end, he swallowed it in and did not said it.
He felt today’s atmosphere is a bit strange… Wei Cai secretly grimaced to himself.He started to eat the food in front of him.
Even with something like this; often have small disputes in some small issues, the two friends’ relationship still have a stable development—— In a blink of an eye, the annual vacation in May is almost here.
“During the holiday, where do you want to go and play ah?” The telephone pa.s.sed Li Jia De’s elated voice.
Wei Cai thought for a while and said “I’ve to work overtime on the 3rd so I can’t go to faraway places—— I’ve heard there are fireworks on the 1st night. I want to see them”
“Fireworks ah—— It looks like my house can see them quite clearly. Why don’t we find a place in the afternoon on the 1st to play and at night, we eat dinner at my house and see the fireworks?” Li Jia De suggested on the other end of the line.
“To your house ah?” Wei Cai suddenly realized the two of them are already friends for a period of time and he hadn’t gone to Li Jia De’s house yet, could not help to have a little interest, “Okay.”
“Then I’ll come pick you up on the 1st in the afternoon.”
Settling the holiday arrangements, Wei Cai felt his mood suddenly getting better—— a bit hoping for the 1st of May to arrive soon.
……….
Heading out from the beach, Wei Cai got onto Li Jia De’s car—— on a festive day, all sorts of entertainment centers are full.
They finally chose to go to the sauna—— After washing, there is this kind of physically and psychologically relaxing feeling.
“The moon is round today ah——” Looking out through the transparent roof of the place, the blue sky had a round and bright-colored moon. The scenery was very beautiful and fascinating.
The car zoomed across the elevated track. Within a second, Li Jia De’s apartment building was seen located near the Bund.1
Although there had been psychological preparations, when Wei Cai stepped into Li Jia De’s top floor penthouse apartment, he still sighed at this luxury.
“You are such a big profiteer, is it Tong Zhan Party?”
“Hey——” Taking out the champagne from the ice bucket, Li Jia De heard him and quickly protested “You, not only don’t praise my design and for having good taste, but to actually say I’m a profiteer—— You’re too much!”
Sitting on the leather chair, Wei Cai suspiciously looked at Li Jia De, “Aren’t you a profiteer to earn this house?”
Unlike Li Jia De, he obviously started working earlier yet he is still staying in the dormitory.
“That’s because I have the ability.” While arranging the dishes, Li Jia De babble chatted with Wei Cai.
“Okay, we can eat.” After bringing out the last dish from the kitchen, Li Jia De announced, clapping his hands.
Wei Cai stood up from the couch. Looking at the exquisite dishes on the table, he was somewhat surprised and asked. “Yo—— Quite luxurious. You did all of these?”
“How is it possible?” Li Jia De laughed, “It’s take-out from a restaurant, I just heated it up.”
“Oh——” Wei Cai prolonged his sound, “I have thought a playboy like you certainly can’t do housework.”
Li Jia De angrily asked “I kindly invite you for dinner and I still have to get scolded by you. Why are you——”
Wei Cai ignored him and stretched out his chopsticks “Oh, this shrimp look good to eat——” Putting the shrimp in his mouth, he also made a look that shows it’s good to eat.
Li Jia De felt helpless against him. Only left with option to sit down, he also used the chopstick and took the shrimp. He peeled the shrimp and said: “When I just got to know you, I felt you’re quite serious. But as the time pa.s.ses, I feel you’re actually very interesting——”
“Isn"t that good?” Wei Cai laughed, “If facing a friend is the same as facing the boss, the face would go numb”
‘Anyway, regardless of the strict you or the relaxed you, I feel both are good.” Li Jia De suddenly said.
Wei Cai’s heart jumped when Li Jia De said that. He hurriedly adjusted back to the indifferent att.i.tude and said, “You eat your food la—— stop being nauseating.”
Li Jia De smiled and let him changed the subject.
They ate while chatting and slowly getting full——
Suddenly, cheers and sound of bursting fireworks in the sky rang out.
“It must have started!” Wei Cai, a little excited, stood up and walked out to the terrace.
Sure enough—— He saw magnificent fireworks blossoming across from the opposite riverbank ground to the sky, flying high to the heavens then one after another, falling into the river. The magnificent scenery was breath-taking.
“I"ve never seen fireworks from a place so close!” Feeling Li Jia De walk to his side, Wei Cai said excitedly.
Li Jia De lived in the high-rise building built next to the riverside. He lived on the top floor and due to the height, looking at the fireworks at the other side is the same like looking at it in front of your eyes causing one to have an unknown excitement.
Li Jia De was apparently affected by Wei Cai’s rare excitement and his mood also got excited, “This year’s fireworks are stunning ah!”
Standing next to Wei Cai, both of them quietly enjoyed the brilliant JiangHua below the moon. The tightened heart, which was always had in the reality, seemed to have relaxed.
In the long silence, the air only has the sound of fireworks bursting.
“It really is a beautiful scenery and a beautiful person that can let one get drunk ah——” Suddenly, Li Jia De blurted out a sentence, breaking the silence. Wei Cai had heard it but was a little confused, “What beauty? Where ah?”
He turned his head and looked at Li Jia De, puzzled—— dreamy moonlight sprinkled on their bodies, the brilliant fireworks in the sky dyed on Wei Cai’s precise facial features—— the atmosphere of the small terrace was like a beautiful scenery in art films.
Unable to resist this dreamlike atmosphere, even Li Jia De’s eyes became a little drunk. Gently placing his hand on Wei Cai’s shoulder, his head moved closer. Very lightly on his lips, he carefully imprinted a kiss.
“My beauty——” he smiled. His gentle eyes even caused one’s heart to tremble.
Wei Cai was scared senseless. Being aware that his lips were moist, he just stared at Li Jia De; totally unaware of how to react.
Unexpectedly to have such a courage—— he did not realize at his age and ident.i.ty…… what does this really mean?
Feeling so chaotic in his heart, Wei Cai just stood there blankly, fireworks reflected on his face——awe and sadness.
“I love you.” Clearly and concisely expressing his feelings, Li Jia De looked into Wei Cai’s eyes, apparently waiting for his answer.
“Can’t we just be friends?” After quite a while, Wei Cai forced out a reply.
The ardour did not fade in Li Jia De’s eyes, “But I like you… love you… really… I cannot lie to myself anymore.”
Holding Wei Cai in his embrace, his voice was full of beautiful expectations, “We’re so happy together…… we get along with each other so well… if we’re really a couple, we’ll be very happy.”
Yet Wei Cai did not respond to him. He broke away with force, backed away a few steps, his voice is also fl.u.s.tered, “No, no…… can’t. You must be confused—— we’re both men—— what together——we’ll be someone else’s laughing joke…… What together! What a joke……Joke……”
He staggered as he climbed down the stairs. Quickly walking towards the door, he looked back at Li Jia De who was at loss, “I still have something on…you…you think carefully again——come find me when you have it figured out——”
Opening the door, he suddenly thought of something. He looked back at Li Jia De and said “If you still insist, then don’t bother to come.” Having finished saying those, he left in panic.
He was rejected……
Even though he was prepared, Li Jia De still felt depressed to death. He sat down at the table, his distressed face in his hands—— he could feel Wei Cai has feelings for him, but his deep-rooted moral values would not allow him to accept his feelings—— Li Jia De had wanted to bet that he is more important than those things……
But…
In the end, he lost
——
Letting out a sigh, Li Jia De then realized that the fireworks had stopped since who knows when—— the lonely moon shone on the river, n.o.body can see the brilliance here a few minutes ago……
Running staggeringly on the riverbank, Wei Cai’s heart was in a chaotic mess.
Not that he didn’t know—— but his longing for the happiness of both of them being together caused him to stay attached and refusing to leave——in the end, resulted in out-of-control situation like this.
Will not be allowed —— will not be allowed——
The strong voice in his heart was shouting.
His prospect, future, career, family—— if he accepts, it means there will be incoming destruction.
Not that he had never seen before….
In the Authorities, also have such abnormal love which brought to light by rumours——that person was initially treated as a youngster who is cultured to be the future director but was kicked out of the prominent position, unexpectedly transferred to a lower position in such a baffled place.
The lovers could not bear the pressure and casually looked for women to marry. Later after his resignation, he disappeared—— this is the fate of the so-called taboo love……
Cannot be me. I will not allow it to be me.
Only people who abide the community can survive, then can breathe a little sigh of relief.
To go against the public values, then...certainly will be crushed.
He himself is no longer at the age desperate for love anymore—— having seen too many feelings burned after bad precedents, Wei Cai did not dare to talk about sacrificing for love, this kind of child talk anymore.
Feelings are an extravagant thing…… admitting that he cannot afford to have the burden of his love not being recognized by the community, Wei Cai secretly made up his mind——
They cannot meet again.