ENGLAND.
Chaptersix.
ISPENTtwomoredaysattheVillaFranceseandthenflewbacktoLondon;and Alessiacamewithme.
Cenci,crestfallen,wantedhertostay.Hehadn"tyetreturnedtohisoffice, andherdeliverancehadnotrestoredhimtotheman-of-the-worldinthepicture.
Hestillworealookofingrainedanxietyandwa.s.stillmakinghiswaytothe brandyatunusualhours.Thefronthehadraisedforthemediahadevaporated beforetheircarswereoutthroughthegate,andheseemedonthefollowingday incapablylethargic.
"Ican"tunderstandhim,"Ilariasaidimpatiently."You"dthinkhe"dbestriding about,boomingaway,takingcharge.You"dthinkhe"dbehisbossyself.a.gain.
Whyisn"the?"
"He"shadsixterribleweeks."
"Sowhat?They"reover.Timefordancing,you"dthink."Shesketchedagraceful balletgesturewithherarm,goldbraceletsjangling."Tellyouthetruth,Iwas G.o.ddamgladshe"sback,b.u.t.thewayPapagoeson,shemightjustaswellnot be."
"Givehimtime,"Isaidmildly.
"Iwanthimthewayhewas,"shesaid."Tobeaman."
WhenAlessiasaidatdinnerthatshewasgoingtoEnglandinadayortwo, everyone,includingmyself,wasastonished.
"Why?"Ilariasaidforthrightly.
"TostaywithPopsy."
EveryoneexceptmyselfknewwhoPopsywas,andwhyAlessiashouldstaywithher, andItoolearnedafterwards.Popsywasaracehorsewomantrainer,widowed,with whomAlessiausuallylodgedwheninEngland.
"I"munfit,"Alessiasaid."Muscleslikejelly."
"Therearehorseshere,"Cenciprotested.
"Yes,but...Papa,Iwanttogoaway.It"sfantastictobehome,but...Itriedto drivemycaroutofthegatetodayandIwa.s.shaking...Itwa.s.stupid.Imeantto gotothehairdresser"s.Myhairneedscuttingsobadly.ButIjustcouldn"t.I camebacktothehouse,andlookatme,stillcurlingontomyshoulders."She triedtolaugh,butnoonefounditfunny.
"Ifthat"swhatyouwant,"herfathersaidworriedly.
"Yes...I"llgowithAndrew,ifhedoesn"tmind."
Imindedverylittle.Sheseemedrelievedbyherdecision,andthenextday IlariadroveherintheFiattothehairdresser,andboughtthingsforher becauseshecouldn"tfaceshops,andbroughthercheerfullyhome.Alessia returnedwithacurlybobandaslightcaseofthetrembles,andIlariahelped herpack.
OnthateveningItriedtopersuadeCencithathisfamilyshouldstilltake precautions.
"Thefirstransomisstillphysicallyinonesuitcase,anduntilthecarabinieri orthecourts,orwhatever,freeitandallowyoutouseittoreplacesomeof themoneyyouborrowedfromMilan,Ireckonit"sstillatrisk.Whatifthe kidnapperstookyou...orIlaria?Theydon"toftenhitthesamefamilytwice,but thistime...theymight."
Thehorrorwastoomuch.Hehadcrumbledalmosttoofar.
"JustgetIlariatobecareful,"Isaidhastily,havingfailedtodothat myself."Tellhertovaryherlifeabit.Gethertostaywithfriends,invite friendshere.Youyourselfaremuchsaferbecauseofyourchauffeur,but.i.t wouldn"thurttotakethegardeneralongtooforawhile,hehastheshoulders ofanoxandhe"dmakeasplendidbodyguard."
Afteralongpause,andinalowvoice,hesaid,"Ican"tfacethings,you know."
"Yes,Idoknow,"Iagreedgently."Besttostart,though,a.s.soonasyoucan."
Afaintsmile."Professionaladvice?"
"Absolutely."
Hesighed."Ican"tbeartosellthehouseonMikonos...mywifelovedit."
"ShelovedAlessiatoo.She"dthinkitafairswap."
Helookedatmeforawhile."You"reastrangeyoungman,"hesaid.
"Youmakethingssoclear."Hepaused."Don"tyouevergetmuddledbyemotion?"
"Yes,sometimes,"Isaid."Butwhenithappens...Itrytosortmyselfout.Tosee somelogic."
"Andonceyouseesomelogic,youactonit?"
"Tryto."Ipaused."Yes."
"Itsounds...cold."
Ishookmyhead."Logicdoesn"tstopyoufeeling.Youcanbehavelogically,and itcanhurtlikeh.e.l.l.Oritcancomfortyou.Orreleaseyou.Orallatthesame time."
Afterawhilehesaid,statingafact,"Mostpeopledon"tbehavelogically."
"No,"Isaid.
"Youseemtothinkeveryonecould,iftheywantedto?"
Ishookmyhead."No."Hewaited,soIwentondiffidently,"There"sgenetic memoryagainst.i.t,foronething.Andtobelogicalyouhavetodigupandface yourownhiddenmotivesandemotions,andofcoursethey"rehiddenprinc.i.p.ally becauseyoudon"twanttofacethem.So...um...it"seasiertoletyourbas.e.m.e.nt feelingsruntheupperstories,sotospeak,andtheresultisrage,quarrels, love,jobs,opinions,anorexia,philanthropy...almostanythingyoucanthinkof.
Ijustliketoknowwhat"sgoingondownthere,topickoutwhyItrulywantto dothings,that"sall.ThenIcandothemornot.Whichever."
Helookedatmeconsideringly."Self-a.n.a.lysis...didyoustudyit?"
"No.Livedit.Likeeveryonedoes."
Hesmiledfaintly."Atwhatage?"
"Well...fromthebeginning.Imean,Ican"tremembernotdoingit.Digginginto myowntruemotives.Knowinginone"sheartofhearts.Facingtheshameful things...thediscreditableimpulses...Awful,really."
Hepickeduphisgla.s.sanddranksomebrandy."Diditresultinsainthood?"he said,smiling.
"Er...no.Insin,ofcourse,fromdoingwhatIknewIshouldn"t."
Thesmilegrewonhislipsandstayedthere.Hebegantodescribetomethe houseontheGreekislandthathiswifehadlovedso,andforthefirsttime sinceI"dmethimIsawtheuncertainbeginningsofpeace.
OntheairplaneAlessiasaid,"Wheredoyoulive?"
"InKensington.Neartheoffice."
"PopsytrainsinLambourn."Sheimparteditasifitwereacasualpieceof information.Iwaited,though,andafterawhileshesaid,"Iwanttokeepon seeingyou."
Inodded."Anytime."Igaveheroneofmybusinesscards,whichhadbothoffice andhometelephonenumbers,scribblingmyhomeaddressontheback.
"Youdon"tmind?"
"Ofcoursenot.Delighted."
"Ineed...justfornow...Ineedacrutch."
"Deluxemodelatyourservice."
Herlipscurved.Shewaspretty,Ithought,underallthestrain,herfacea minglingofsmalldelicatebonesandfirmpositivemuscles,smoothonthe surface,tautbelow,finelyshapedunderall.Ihadalwaysbeenattractedby taller,softer,curviergirls,andtherewasnothingaboutAlessiatotrigger theusualeasyurgetothechase.AllthesameIlikedherincreasingly,and wouldhavesoughtheroutifshehadn"taskedmefirst.
Inbitsandpiecesoverthepasttwodaysshehadtoldmemanymoredetailsof hercaptivity,graduallyunburdeningherselfofwhatshe"dsufferedandfeltand worriedover;andI"dencouragedher,notonlybecausesometimesinsuch accountsonegotahelpfulleadtowardscatchingthekidnappers,butalsovery muchforherownsake.Victimtherapy,paragraphone:lethertalkitallout andgetridofit.
AtHeathrowwewentthroughimmigration,baggageclaims,andcustomsinclose proximity,Alessiakeepingneartomenervouslyandtryingtomakeitlook natural.
"Iwon"tleaveyou,"Ia.s.suredher,"untilyoumeetPopsy.Don"tworry."
Popsywaslate.WestoodandwaitedwithAlessiaapologizingtwiceeveryfive minutesandmetellinghernotto,andfinally,likeagustofwind,alarge ladyarrivedwithoutstretchedarms.
"Mydarling,"shesaid,envelopingAlessia,"ab.l.o.o.d.ycrunchonthemotorway.
Trainscrawlingpastlikesnails.ThoughtI"dnevergethere."SheheldAlessia awayfromherforaninspection."Youlookmarvellous.Whatanutterlydrear thingtohappen.WhenIheardyouweresafeIbawled,absolutelybawled."
Popsywasforty-fivishandworetrousers,shirt,andpaddedsleevelesswaistcoat innavy,white,andolivegreen.Shehaddisconcertinglygreeneyes,ama.s.sof fluffygrayinghair,andapersonalityaslargeasherframe.
"Popsy..."Alessiabegan.
"Mydarling,whatyouneedisalargesteak.Lookatyourarms...matchsticks.The car"sjustoutside,probablygotsometrafficcopwritingaticket,Ileft.i.ton doubleyellows,socomeon,let"sgo."
"Popsy,thisisAndrewDouglas."
"Who?"Sheseemedtoseemeforthefirsttime."Howdoyoudo."Shethrustout ahand,whichIshook."PopsyTeddington.Gladtoknowyou."
"Andrewtraveledwithme..."
"Great,"Popsysaid."Welldone."Shehadhereyesontheexit,searchingfor trouble.
"CanweaskhimtolunchonSunday?"Alessiasaid.
"What?"Theeyesswiveledmyway,gavemeaquicka.s.sessment,cameupwith a.s.sent."O.K.,darling,anythingyoulike."Tomeshesaid,"GotoLambourn,ask anybody,they"lltellyouwhereIlive."
"Allright,"Isaid.
Alessiasaid"Thankyou"halfunderherbreathandallowedherselftobeswept away,andIreflectedbemusedlyaboutirresistibleforcesinfemaleform.
FromHeathrowIwentstraighttotheoffice,whereFridayafternoonwasdawdling alongasusual.
Theoffice,anondescriptcollectionofground-floorroomsalongeithersideof acentralcorridor,hadbeendesigneddecadesbeforetheeraofopen-plan, half-acrewindows,andKewGardensrampant.Westucktotherabbithutcheswith theirstriplightingbecausetheywerecomparativelycheap;andasmostofus werepartners,notemployees,weeachhadasharpinterestinlowoverheads.
Besides,theofficewasnotwherewemostlyworked.Thewarwentonondistant fronts:headquarterswasfordiscussingstrategyandwritingupreports.
IdumpedmysuitcaseinthehutchIsometimescalledmyownandwanderedalong therow,bothtoannouncemyreturnandseewhowasin.
GerryClaytonwasin,makingacomplicatedconstructioninfoldedpaper.
"h.e.l.lo,"hesaid."Badboy.Tuttut."
GerryClayton,tubby,asthmatic,fifty-threeandbald,hadappointedhimself father-figuretomanywaywardsons.Hisspecialtywasinsurance,anditwashe whohadrecruitedmefromafirmatLloyds,whereI"dbeenawater-treading clerklookingformorepurposeinlife.
"Where"sTwinkletoes?"Isaid."Imayaswellgetthelectureover."
"Twinkletoes,asyousodisrespectfullycallhim,wenttoVenezuelathis morning.ThemanagerofLucaOilwa.s.scooped."
"LucaOil?"Myeyebrowsrose."Afteralltheworkwedidforthem,settingup defenses?"
Gerryshrugged,carefullyknifingasharpcreaseinstiffwhitepaperwithhis thumbnail."Thatworkwasmorethanayearago.Youknowwhatpeopleare.Dead keenonprecautionstostartwith,thenperfunctory,thendeadsloppy.Human nature.Allanyself-respectingdedicatedkidnapperhastodoiswait."
Hewasunconcernedaboutthepersonalfateoftheabductedmanager.He frequentlysaidthatifeveryonetookfortresslikeprecautionsandnevergot themselves-inhisword-scooped,we"dallbeoutofajob.Onegoodkidnappingin acorporationencouragedtwentyotherstocallusintoadvisethemhowtoavoid asimilarembarra.s.sment;andasheregularlypointedout,the how-not-to-get-scoopedbusinesswasourbreadandb.u.t.terandalsosomeofthe jam.
Gerryinvertedhisapparentlywrinkledheapofwhitepaperanditfell miraculouslyintotheshapeofac.o.c.katoo.Whennotadvisingantikidnap insurancepoliciestoLibertyMarketclientshesoldorigamipatternstoa magazine,butnoonegrudgedhispaper-foldingintheoffice.Hismindseemedto coastalongwhilehecreasedandtucked,andwouldcomeupoftenasiffrom nowherewithhighlyproductivebusinessideas.
LibertyMarketasafirmconsistedatthattimeofthirty-onepartnersandfive secretarialemployees.Ofthepartners,allbutGerryandmyselfwereex-S.A.S., ex-police,orexsomethingultrasecretingovernmentdepartments.Therewereno particularrulesaboutwhodidwhichjob,thoughifpossibleeveryonewas allowedtheirpreferences.Someoptedforthelecturetourfulltime,giving seminars,pointingoutdangers;allthehow-to-stay-freebit.Somesanktheir teethgratefullyintotheterroristcircuit;others,likemyself,feltmore usefulagainstthesimplycriminal.Everyoneinbetweentimeswrotetheirown reports,studiedeveryoneelse"s,mannedtheofficeswitchboardyearroundand polisheduptheirtechniquesofcoercivebargaining.
Wehadachairman(thefirm"sfounder)forourMondaymorning state-of-the-nationmeetings,aco-ordinatorwhokepttrackofeveryone"s whereabouts,andanadjuster-Twinkletoes-towhompartnersaddressedall complaints.Iftheircomplaintscoveredthebehaviorofanyotherpartner, Twinkletoespa.s.sedthecommentson.Ifenoughpartnersdisapprovedofone partner"sactions,Twinkletoesdeliveredthecensure.Iwasn"tallthatsorry he"dgonetoVenezuela.
Thisapparentlyshapelesscompanyschemeworkedinahighlyorganizedway, thanksmostlytotheingraineddisciplineoftheex-soldiers.Theywerelean, hard,proud,andquiteamazinglycunning,mostofthempreferringtodealwith theactionoftheafter-kidnapaffairs.Theywereinadditionalmostparanoid aboutsecrecy,asalsotheex-spieswere,whichtobeginwithI"dfound oppressivebuthadsoongrowntorespect.
Itwastheex-policemenwhodidmostofthelecturing,notonlyadvisingon defensesb.u.t.tellingpotentialkidnaptargetswhattodoandlookforifthey weretaken,sothattheircaptorscouldbeinturncaptured.
Manyofusknewanextralikephotography,languages,weaponry,andelectronics, andeveryonecoulduseawordprocessor,becausenoonelikedtherattleof typewritersalldaylong.Noonewasaroundtheofficelongenoughforserious feudstodevelop,andtheco-ordinatorhadaknackofkeepingincompatibles apart.Allinallitwasacontentedshipwhicheveryoneworkedinfrompersonal commitment,and,thankstothekidnappers,businesswashealthy.
Ifinishedmyjourneyalongtherowofhutches,saidafewh.e.l.los,sawIwas penciledinwithaquestionmarkforSundaymidnightontheswitchboardroster, andcameatlengthtothebigroomacrossthefarend,theonlyroomwith windowstothestreet.Itjustaboutseatedthewholestrengthifwewereever theretogether,butonthatafternoontheonlypersoninitwasTonyVine.
""Lo"hesaid."Hearyoumadeaneffingb.a.l.l.sofitinBologna."
"Yeah."