"And you, too, will be happy?" he timidly asked.
"I? what does it signify if I am happy or unhappy?" she said, shrugging her shoulders disdainfully.
"Don"t say that, Amalia! Happiness is not that madness to which we have given ourselves up these seven years. There is a taste of bitterness in that, which I have noticed for some time and which you will soon perceive. A pure, worthy life, a quiet conscience, and the esteem of honourable persons will give you more pleasure than criminal pa.s.sion.
Besides, you have what I have not; you have an angel with you, a fragrant, beautiful lily that will sweeten your existence."
"Ah, yes, Josefina! Really, so she is to be the one who is to afford me my only pleasant times in the future!"
This was said with such a strange inflexion of voice, so sharp and so strident that Luis shivered.
"What do you mean by that?"
"I mean what I say, that it is fortunate I have Josefina to cheer me."
"But you say it in such a strange way."
The Valencian then gave a curious forced laugh of sinister sound that came from the back of her throat.
Luis looked at her fixedly, getting more and more uneasy.
"But what a fool you are, Luis! How more than foolish! Egotism has so blinded your eyes that you cannot see what is before you. If you were twenty, this innocence might perhaps inspire me with pity, but at your age it only fills me with scorn and derision. To think that three or four insolent remarks on morality and conscience will suffice to make me contentedly accept the humiliation you impose upon me; to suppose that I, whom if you do not know, you ought to know, am going to consent to be cast away like an old rag, that I am to crawl like an enamoured slave at the feet of Fernanda, to serve her as a footstool when she mounts to her couch, is the height of stupidity and nonsense. Why don"t you ask me to be bridesmaid at once?"
The count looked at her with dilated eyes full of anxiety and fear.
"So what I have heard of the tortures you have inflicted on our daughter is true?"
"Quite true! And you do not yet know all. Look here, I am going to tell you all, so that you may not say you are deceived."
Then, in a few incisive words, with a cruel satisfaction revealed in her voice, she put before him the fearful picture of the pain and misery suffered by the unhappy little creature during the last few months. The account was infinitely more shocking than the one Maria, the ironer, had given. The count, pale and overwhelmed, without making the slightest movement, looked the picture of despair. He soon covered his face with his hands, and so listened until the end.
"Oh, how infamous! oh, how infamous!" he groaned to himself.
"Yes, very infamous, but I hope to be more so. Have you heard all these infamies? Then they are nothing compared to what I shall do."
"You shall not do it, you wicked woman!" exclaimed Luis. "I would sooner strangle you with my own hands."
The Valencian rushed to the door.
"If you come a step nearer, I"ll shriek!"
"Oh, infamous, infamous person!" exclaimed the count, again in a deep voice, "and G.o.d allows such monsters upon the earth!"
He took a few steps back and cast himself again upon the sofa. He rested his elbows on his knees, and put his head between his hands.
After some time he raised it saying:
"Well, what do you exact from me?"
Amalia took a step towards him.
"That which you ought to expect, if you have any common sense left. I don"t ask for our connection to continue, because at the pa.s.s we have come to it is not possible; it would be like giving the lie to love, and I have too much pride for that. But I do not want you or this woman to make me a laughing-stock; I am not going to be made a subject of derision to those who know of our connection: and those are all who visit at the house. I demand as the condition of the child being as she was, that you immediately break with Fernanda and think no more of her."
"But, Amalia," he exclaimed, in accents of misery, "you know quite well it is impossible; my wedding is fixed; all Lancia knows it. Fernanda is waiting for me in Madrid; only a few days are wanting----"
"And if only a minute were wanting, this wedding shall not take place.
If you marry Fernanda the child shall pay for the offence in the way you know."
"Oh, I will prevent it. I will tell the authorities. I will ask for the care of the child."
"This is only talking for talking sake, Luis," replied Amalia, calm and smiling. "The authorities of Lancia are under the Quinones. n.o.body would dare say a word against me."
"If I refer the whole matter to Don Pedro."
"He will not believe you, and if he did believe you, instead of impeding my revenge which is also his, he would help me."
A long silence then ensued. The count was plunged in thought with his hand pressed against his brow. Suddenly he rose hastily, and walked up and down the room in an agitated way.
"It cannot be! it cannot be!"
The Valencian followed him with her eyes. At last she said, as she walked to the door:
"Good-bye."
The count retained her with a gesture. "Stop."
Amalia stopped motionless, with her hand on the latch of the door as her piercing glance rested upon him.
The count went on walking for some time without paying any attention to her.
"Very well," he said, in a hoa.r.s.e voice, stopping short, "the marriage shall not take place; you will tell me what I am to do."
His altered face evinced the calmness of despair.
"You will have to write a letter to Fernanda to bade her farewell."
"I will write it."
"Now, at once."
"Now, at once."
Amalia went to the stairs and asked Jacoba for a writing-case. As there was no table there, she put it on the chest of drawers. The count approached and began to write standing. Amalia approached too.
"This is what I want you to write to her."
It was the rough draft of the letter. The count cast his eye over it.
"My good friend Fernanda," it ran, "I wanted you to be away so as to tell you in writing what would be beyond my powers to say to you. I cannot be yours. It is not necessary to give you the reasons because you will guess them. Would that I loved you enough to ignore everything and fly with you! Unfortunately, or fortunately, there are things that weigh on my heart more than love. Pardon me for having deceived you and try to be happy as it is the wish of your best friend.