He himself died eighteen months afterwards. His acquaintances never dreamt of connecting his death with his wife"s, and the connection, if it existed, would have been difficult to trace. Still, if little David could have put his experiences at this time into words, they might have thrown some light on an event which was certainly a surprise to the small world which took an interest in Sandy Grieve.
There was a certain sound which remained all through his life firmly fixed in David"s memory, and which he never thought of without a sense of desolation, a shiver of sick dismay, such as belonged to no other a.s.sociation whatever. It was the sound of a long sigh, brought up, as it seemed, from the very depths of being, and often, often repeated. The thought of it brought with it a vision of a small bare room at night, with two iron bedsteads, one for Louie, one for himself and his father; a bit of smouldering fire in a tiny grate, and beside it a man"s figure bowed over the warmth, thrown out dark against the distempered wall, and sitting on there hour after hour; of a child, wakened intermittently by the light, and tormented by the recurrent sound, till it had once more burrowed into the bed-clothes deep enough to shut out everything but sleep. All these memories belonged to the time immediately following on Louise"s suicide. Probably, during the interval between his wife"s death and his own, Sandy suffered severely from the effects of strong nervous shock, coupled with a certain growth of religious melancholy, the conditions for which are rarely wanting in the true Calvinist blood. Owing to the privations and exposure of his early manhood, too, it is possible that he was never in reality the strong man he looked. At any rate, his fight for his life when it came was a singularly weak one. The second winter after Louise"s death was bitterly cold; he was overworked, and often without sleep. One bleak east-wind day struck home. He took to his bed with a chill, which turned to peritonitis; the system showed no power of resistance, and he died.
On the day but one before he died, when the mortal pain was gone, but death was absolutely certain, he sent post-haste for his brother Reuben. Reuben he believed was married to a decent woman, and to Reuben he meant to commend his children.
Reuben arrived, looking more bewildered and stupid than ever, pure countryman that he was, in this London which he had never seen.
Sandy looked at him with a deep inward dissatisfaction. But what could he do? His marriage had cut him off from his old friends, and since its wreck he had had no energy wherewith to make new ones.
"I"ve never seen your wife, Reuben," he said, when they had talked awhile.
Reuben was silent a minute, apparently collecting his thoughts.
"Naw," he said at last; "naw. She sent yo her luve, and she hopes iv it"s the Lord"s will to tak yo, that it ull foind yo prepared."
He said it like a lesson. A sort of nervous tremor and shrinking overspread Sandy"s face. He had suffered so much through religion during the last few months, that in this final moment of humanity the soul had taken refuge in numbness--apathy. Let G.o.d decide. He could think it out no more; and in this utter feebleness his terror of h.e.l.l--the ineradicable deposit of childhood and inheritance--had pa.s.sed away. He gathered his forces for the few human and practical things which remained to him to do.
"Did she get on comfortable with father?" he asked, fixing Reuben with his eyes, which had the penetration of death.
Reuben looked discomposed, and cleared his throat once or twice.
"Wal, it warn"t what yo may call just coomfortable atween "em. Naw, I"ll not say it wor."
"What was wrong?" demanded Sandy.
Reuben fidgeted.
"Wal," he said at last, throwing up his head in desperation, "I spose a woman likes her house to hersel when she"s fust married. He wor childish like, an mighty trooblesome times. An she"s allus stirrin, and rootin, is Hannah. Udder foak mus look aloive too."
The conflict in Reuben"s mind between his innate truthfulness and his desire to excuse his wife was curious to see. Sandy had a vision of his father sitting in his dotage by his own hearth, and ministered to by a daughter-in-law who grudged him his years and his infirmities, as he had grudged his wife all the troublesome incidents of her long decay. But it only affected him now as it bore upon what was still living in him, the one feeling which still survived amid the wreck made by circ.u.mstance and disease.
"Will she be kind to _them?_" he said sharply, which a motion of the head towards the children, first towards David, who sat drooping on his father"s bed, where for some ten or twelve hours now he had remained glued, refusing to touch either breakfast or dinner, and then towards Louie, who was on the floor by the fire, with her rag dolls, which she was dressing up with smiles and chatter in a strange variety of finery. "If not, she shan"t have "em. There"s time yet."
But the grey hue was already on his cheek, his feet were already cold. The nurse in the far corner of the room, looking up as he spoke, gave him mentally "an hour or two."
Reuben flushed and sat bolt upright, his gnarled and wrinkled hands trembling on his knees.
"She _shall_ be kind to "em," he said with energy. "Gie "em to us, Sandy. Yo wouldna send your childer to strangers?"
The clannish instinct in Sandy responded. Besides, in spite of his last a.s.sertion, he knew very well there was nothing else to be done.
"There"s money," he said slowly. "She"ll not need to stint them of anything. This is a poor place," for at the word "money" he noticed that Reuben"s eyes travelled with an awakening shrewdness over the barely furnished room; "but it was the debts first, and then I had to put by for the children. None of the shop-folk or the fellows at the club ever came here. We lived as we liked. There"s an insurance, and there"s some savings, and there"s some commission money owing from the firm, and there"s a bit investment Mr. Gurney (naming the head partner) helped me into last year. There"s altogether about six hundred pound. You"ll get the interest of it for the children; it"ll go into Gurneys", and they"ll give five per cent. for it. Mr. Gurney"s been very kind. He came here yesterday, and he"s got it all. You go to him."
He stopped for weakness. Reuben"s eyes were round. Six hundred pounds! Who"d have thought it of Sandy?--after that bad lot of a wife, and he not thirty!
"An what d" yo want Davy to be, Sandy?"
"You must settle," said the father, with a long sigh. "Depends on him what he turns to. If he wants to farm, he can learn with you, and put in his money when he sees an opening. For the bit farms in our part there"d be enough. But I"m feeart"(the old Derbyshire word slipped out unawares)"he"ll not stay in the country. He"s too sharp, and you mustn"t force him. If you see he"s not the farming sort, when he"s thirteen or fourteen or so, take Mr. Gurney"s advice, and bind him to a trade. Mr. Gurney"ll pay the premiums for him and he can have the balance of the money--for I"ve left him to manage it all, for himself and Louie too--when he"s fit to set up for himself.--You and Hannah"ll deal honest wi "em?"
The question was unexpected, and as he put it with a startling energy the dying man raised himself on his elbow, and looked sharply at his brother.
"D" yo think I"d cheat yo, or your childer, Sandy?" cried Reuben, flushing and p.r.i.c.ked to the heart.
Sandy sank back again, his sudden qualm appeased. "No," he said, his thoughts returning painfully to his son. "I"m feeart he"ll not stay wi you. He"s cleverer than I ever was, and I was the cleverest of us all."
The words had in them a whole epic of human fate. Under the p.r.i.c.k of them Reuben found a tongue, not now for his wife, but for himself.
"It"s not cliverness as ull help yo now, Sandy, wi your Maaker! and yo feeace t" feeace wi "un!" he cried. "It"s nowt but satisfacshun by t" blood o" Jesus!"
Sandy made no answer, unless, indeed, the poor heart within made its last cry of agony to heaven at the words. The sinews of the spiritual as well as the physical man were all spent and useless.
"Davy," he called presently. The child, who had been sitting motionless during this talk watching his father, slid along the bed with alacrity, and tucking his little legs and feet well away from Sandy"s long frame, put his head down on the pillow. His father turned his eyes to him, and with a solemn, lingering gaze took in the childish face, the thick, tumbled hair, the expression, so piteous, yet so intelligent. Then he put up his own large hand, and took both the boy"s into its cold and feeble grasp. His eyelids fell, and the breathing changed. The nurse hurriedly rose, lifted up Louie from her toys, and put her on the bed beside him. The child, disturbed in her play and frightened by she knew not what, set up a sudden cry. A tremor seemed to pa.s.s through the shut lids at the sound, a slight compression of pain appeared in the grey lips. It was Sandy Grieve"s last sign of life.
Reuben Grieve remembered well the letter he had written to his wife, with infinite difficulty, from beside his brother"s dead body. He told her that he was bringing the children back with him.
The poor bairns had got n.o.body in the world to look to but their uncle and aunt. And they would not cost Hannah a penny. For Mr.
Gurney would pay thirty pounds a year for their keep and bringing up.
With what care and labour his clumsy fingers had penned that last sentence so that Hannah might read it plain!
Afterwards he brought the children home. As he drove his light cart up the rough and lonely road to Needham Farm, Louie cried with the cold and the dark, and Davy, with his hands tucked between his knees, grew ever more and more silent, his restless little head turning perpetually from side to side, as though he were trying to discover something of the strange, new world to which he had been brought, through the gloom of the February evening.
Then at the sound of wheels outside in the lane, the back door of the farm was opened, and a dark figure stood on the threshold.
"Yo"re late," Reuben heard. It was Hannah"s piercing voice that spoke. "Bring "em into t"back kitchen, an let "em take their shoes off afore they coom ony further."
By which Reuben knew that it had been scrubbing-day, and that her flagstones were more in Hannah"s mind than the guests he had brought her. He obeyed, and then the barefooted trio entered the front kitchen together. Hannah came forward and looked at the children--at David white and blinking--at the four-year-old Louie, bundled up in an old shawl, which dragged on the ground behind her, and staring wildly round her at the old low-roofed kitchen with the terror of the trapped bird.
"Hannah, they"re varra cold," said Reuben--"ha yo got summat hot?"
"Theer"ll be supper bime-by," Hannah replied with decision. "I"ve naw time scrubbin-days to be foolin about wi things out o" hours.
I"ve n.o.bbut just got straight and cleaned mysel. They can sit down and warm theirsels. I conno say they feature ony of _yor_ belongins, Reuben." And she went to put Louie on the settle by the fire. But as the tall woman in black approached her, the child hit out madly with her small fists and burst into a loud howl of crying.
"Get away, nasty woman! _Nasty_ woman--ugly woman! Take me away--I want my daddy,--I want my daddy." And she threw herself kicking on the floor, while, to Hannah"s exasperation, a piece of crumbling bun she had been holding tight in her sticky little hand escaped and littered all the new-washed stones.
"Tak yor niece oop, Reuben, an mak her behave"--the mistress of the house commanded angrily. "She"ll want a stick takken to her, soon, _I_ can see."
Reuben obeyed so far as he could, but Louie"s shrieks only ceased when, by the combined efforts of husband and wife, she had been put to bed, so exhausted with rage, excitement, and the journey, that sleep mercifully took possession of her just after she had performed the crowning feat of knocking the tea and bread and b.u.t.ter Reuben brought her out of her uncle"s hand and all over the room.
Meanwhile, David sat perfectly still in a chair against the wall, beside the old clock, and stared about him; at the hams and bunches of dried herbs hanging from the ceiling; at the chiffonnier, with its red baize doors under a bra.s.s trellis-work; at the high wooden settle, the framed funeral cards, and the two or three coloured prints, now brown with age, which Reuben had hung up twenty years before, to celebrate his marriage. Hannah was propitiated by the boy"s silence, and as she got supper ready she once or twice noticed his fine black eyes and his curly hair.
"Yo can coom an get yor supper," she said to him, more graciously than she had spoken yet. "It"s a mussy yo doant goo skrikin like your sister."
"Thank you, ma"am," said the little fellow, with a townsman"s politeness, hardly understanding, however, a word of her north-country dialect--" I"m not hungry.--You"ve got a picture of General Washington there, ma"am;" and, raising a small hand trembling with nervousness and fatigue, he pointed to one of the prints opposite.
"Wal, I niver," said Hannah, with a stare of astonishment. "Yo"re a quare lot--the two o" yer."
One thing more Reuben remembered with some vividness in connection with the children"s arrival. When they were both at last asleep--Louie in an unused room at the back, on an old wooden bedstead, which stood solitary in a wilderness of bare boards; David in a sort of cupboard off the landing, which got most of its light and air from a wooden trellis-work, overlooking the staircase--Hannah said abruptly to her husband, as they two were going to bed, "When ull Mr. Gurney pay that money?"
"Twice a year--so his clerk towd me--Christmas an Midsummer. Praps we shan"t want to use it aw, Hannah; praps we might save soom on it for t" childer. Their keep, iv yo feed em on parritch, is n.o.bbut a fleabite, an they"n got a good stock o" cloos, Sandy"s nurse towd me."