The Lamplighter

Chapter 5

"What did you call it?" asked Gerty.

"A Samuel; they"re all Samuels."

"What are _Sammles_?" inquired Gerty.

"Why, that"s the name of the child they"re taken for."

"What do you s"pose he"s sittin" on his knee for?"

Willie laughed. "Why, don"t you know?" said he.

"No," said Gerty; "what is he?"

"He"s praying," said Willie.

"Is that what he"s got his eyes turned up for, too?"

"Yes, of course; he looks up to heaven when he prays."

"Up to where?"

"To heaven."

Gerty looked up at the ceiling in the direction in which the eyes were turned, then at the figure. She seemed very much dissatisfied and puzzled.

"Why, Gerty," said Willie, "I shouldn"t think you knew what praying was."

"I don"t," said Gerty; "tell me."

"Don"t you ever pray--pray to G.o.d?"

"No, I don"t.--Who is G.o.d? Where is G.o.d?"

Willie looked inexpressibly shocked at Gerty"s ignorance, and answered reverently, "G.o.d is in heaven, Gerty."

"I don"t know where that is," said Gerty. "I believe I don"t know nothin" about it."

"I shouldn"t think you did," said Willie. "I _believe_ heaven is up in the sky; but my Sunday-school teacher says, "Heaven is anywhere where goodness is," or some such thing," he said.

"Are the stars in heaven?" asked Gerty.

"They look so, don"t they?" said Willie. "They"re in the sky, where I always used to think heaven was."

"I should like to go to heaven," said Gerty.

"Perhaps, if you"re good, you will go some time."

"Can"t any but good folks go?"

"No."

"Then I can"t ever go," said Gerty, mournfully.

"Why not?" asked Willie; "an"t you good."

"Oh no! I"m very bad."

"What a queer child!" said Willie. "What makes you think yourself so very bad?"

"Oh, I _am_," said Gerty, in a very sad tone; "I"m the worst of all. I"m the worst child in the world."

"Who told you so?"

"Everybody. Nan Grant says so, and she says everybody thinks so; I know it too, myself."

"Is Nan Grant the cross old woman you used to live with?"

"Yes. How did you know she was cross?"

"Oh, my mother"s been telling me about her. Well, I want to know if she didn"t send you to school, or teach you anything?"

Gerty shook her head.

"Why, what lots you"ve got to learn! What did you used to do when you lived there?"

"Nothing."

"Never did anything; don"t know anything; my gracious!"

"Yes, I do know one thing," said Gerty. "I know how to toast bread;--your mother taught me;--she let me toast some by the fire."

As she spoke, she thought of her own neglected toast, and turned towards the stove; but she was too late--the toast was made, the supper ready, and True was just putting it on the table.

"Oh, Uncle True," said she, "I meant to get the tea."

"I know it," said True, "but it"s no matter; you can get it to-morrow."

The tears came into Gerty"s eyes; she looked very much disappointed, but said nothing. They all sat down to supper. Willie put the Samuel in the middle of the table for a centre ornament, and told so many funny stories that Gerty laughed heartily, forgot that she did not make the toast herself, forgot her sadness, and showed herself, for once, a merry child. After tea, she sat beside Willie on the great settle, and, in her peculiar way, gave him a description of her life at Nan Grant"s, winding up with a touching account of the death of her kitten.

The two children were in a fair way to become as good friends as True could possibly wish. True sat on the opposite side of the stove, smoking his pipe; his elbows on his knees, his eyes bent on the children, and his ears drinking in all their conversation. He laughed when they laughed; took long whiffs at his pipe when they talked quietly; ceased smoking entirely, letting his pipe rest on his knee, and secretly wiping away a tear, when Gerty recounted her childish griefs. He often heard it afterwards, but never _without crying_.

After Gerty had closed her tale of sorrows, she sat for a moment without speaking, then becoming excited, as her ungoverned and easily roused nature dwelt upon its wrongs, she burst forth in a very different tone, and began uttering the most bitter invectives against Nan Grant. The child"s language expressed unmitigated hatred, and even a hope of future revenge. True looked troubled at hearing her talk so angrily. Since he brought her home he had never witnessed such a display of temper, and had fondly believed that she would always be as quiet and gentle as during her illness and the few weeks subsequent to it. True"s own disposition was so amiable and forgiving, that he could not imagine that anyone, and especially a little child, should long retain feelings of anger and bitterness. Gerty had shown herself so mild and patient since she had been with him, that it had never occurred to him to dread any difficulty in the management of the child. Now, however, as he observed her flashing eyes, and noticed the doubling of her little fist as she menaced Nan with her future wrath, he had an undefined, half-formed presentiment of coming trouble in the control of his little charge. For the moment she ceased, in his eyes, to be the pet and plaything he had hitherto considered her. He saw in her something which needed a check, and felt himself unfit to apply it.

He _was_ totally unfit to cope with a spirit like Gerty"s. It was true he possessed over her one mighty influence--her strong affection for him, which he could not doubt. It was that which made her so submissive and patient in her sickness, so grateful for his care and kindness, so anxious to do something in return. It was that love, illumined by a higher light, which came in time to sanctify it, that gave her, while yet a mere girl, a woman"s courage, a woman"s strength of heart and self-denial. It was that which cheered the old man"s latter years, and shed joy on his dying bed.

Willie tried once or twice to stop the current of her abusive language; but soon desisted, for she did not pay the least attention to him. He could not help smiling at her childish wrath, nor could he resist sympathising with her in a degree. But he was conscious that Gerty was exhibiting a very hot temper, and began to understand what made everybody think her so bad.

After Gerty had railed about Nan a little while, she stopped of her own accord; though an unpleasant look remained on her countenance. It soon pa.s.sed away, however; and when, a little later in the evening, Mrs.

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