"No."
"But I can"t stay behind and let you take all the risks."
I decide not to be too quick to crush his brave initiative. Also, I am not in the mood to argue.
"All right," I say. "But if she rips your head off don"t blame me."
He throws the sandwich in the garbage and we grab an elevator.
This time, at the condo tower, I have to speak to the receptionist, but I purposely keep the conversation short and silent. Catching her eye through the gla.s.s, I press her with my fiery will and mouth the words: "Open the door."
A moment later the door swings open.
Suite 1821 is naturally on the eighteenth floor. I do not want to break the lock because I still hope Kalika will know nothing of my visit. With a couple of pins I have brought for just this purpose, I quickly pick the lock. The door creaks open. Seymour stands behind me, the color of a hospital bed sheet.
"It"s more fun to write about this stuff than do it," he says.
"Shh," I say as we step inside and close the door. "Stand on the front balcony and keep a lookout for her white Mercedes."
"What are you going to do?"
"Look for evidence of her state of mind."
Kalika owns, or rents, a two-bedroom corner condo. She has twin balconies and glorious views of the city. The place is elegant, the plush carpeting new, the white paint fresh. Her furnishings are few but tasteful. She seems to prefer traditional to modern, but nothing she has is old-fashioned. There are no magazines in the living room or dining area, yet she has a rather large TV, and I wonder how many channels she subscribes to and what her favorite programs are.
While Seymour stands outside on the balcony, I step into her office, the first bedroom on the right.
She has a desk, a computer, a fax machine. Her drawers are unlocked and I rifle through them. Not entirely surprisingly, I find several maps. Most of them are of California, blow-ups of Big Sur, Mount Shasta, and Lake Tahoe. She has travel books on these areas also. There is also a guidebook on Sedona, which is located in Arizona. In another drawer are more books on these same places, but these are not typical travel guides. They contain personal accounts of the spots. I scan the books-I can read over thirty thousand words a minute with total comprehension. Quite a few of the stories describe how powerful the vibrations are in each place. I am fascinated because Kalika appears to be doing a lot of research on spots that have been New Age retreats for the last couple of decades.
"Do you like these places?" I whisper to myself. "Or do you think the child will be drawn to them?"
I move into my daughter"s bedroom. Her queen-size bed is neatly made, covered with a hand-made quilt from China. In the corner, on top of a chest of drawers, a white silk cloth has been spread, almost as if a small altar has been set up. There are only a few books and a small Shiva Lingam set beside a bra.s.s incense holder in which a stick of musk incense has recently been burned.The lingam is a polished gray phallic-shaped stone with three red marks on it. The shape and the markings are natural to the stone, I know. When I was a child, still a mortal, five thousand years ago, our tiny village had a Shiva Lingam. The rocks are supposed to contain the energy of Lord Shiva himself, Mahakala, who is the spouse of Mother Kali and the supposed destroyer of time at the end of all ages.
Geologists describe lingams as the offspring of meteor crashes. In either case, they are highly magnetic.
Brushing my hand over the stone, I feel its charge.
Kalika has three books beside the lingam: the Bhagavad-Gita: the Upanishads, the Mahanirvana Tantra. The Gita is the gospel according to Krishna, the Upanishads are collected stories of divine knowledge from ancient rishis, and the Mahanirvana Tantra describes Kali in her different avatars, and details her various modes of worship and innovation. All this reading material is entirely spiritual in nature.
But try as I might, I cannot understand what that means. If I should be relieved or frightened. It is an old and regrettable truth that more people have been killed in the name of G.o.d than anything else.
I am picking up her copy of the Gita when Seymour bursts breathlessly into the room. "Her car just drove up," he says. "She wasn"t gone long."
I replace the book in its exact spot. "It will take her a minute to get up here. Come, we have time."
Back out in the hallway, however, standing in front of the elevators, I begin to have doubts. As Seymour starts to push the down b.u.t.ton, I stop him.
"Even in the garage bas.e.m.e.nt," I say, "she might note the elevator going up to the eighteenth 0oor.
She is shrewd-she might consider that more than coincidence." I pause. "Let"s take the stairs."
"I just want to get out of here," Seymour says with emotion.
Halfway down the stairs I stop Seymour. Straining my ears to listen far below, I hear someone climbing up the stairs. The person is in no hurry and it could be anybody. But I don"t like the fact that this person stands in our path, and that I can"t see who it is-each floor is part.i.tioned off. Seymour watches me anxiously.
"What is it?"
"Someone"s coming up the stairs."
"Is it she?" he gasps.
"I can"t tell." I pause. "I think it is a woman. This person has a light step."
"Oh G.o.d."
"Shh. She is far below still. Let"s grab the elevator."
In the elevator, Seymour starts to push the b.u.t.ton for the lobby, but I stop him for the second time and push the b.u.t.ton for the second garage level. Seymour throws a fit.
"Why did you do that?" he asks.
"It is the last thing she"ll expect us to do, if she thinks we know where her car is parked."
"But for all we know she"s still in her car."
"Relax, Seymour. I knew what I"m doing."
I hope. When the elevator whooshes open, I am tensed for an attack. But none comes. We appear to be alone in the underground garage. Signaling for Seymour to remain where he is, I step lightly into the garage and stretch my sensitive senses to their limits. There is no sign of Kalika. I signal to Seymour to join me.
"Let"s just get our car and get out of here," I whisper in his ear.
He nods vigorously. "I am not cut out for this c.r.a.p."
8.
I call Dr. Seter in San Francis...o...b..t end up speaking to James, who acts happy to hear my voice.
Perhaps it is not an act, but he does want to know if I am ready to show them my scripture. I tell him I have something even more important to show him. After making an appointment to see him and his father at the Hilton, after the lecture, I book a flight for San Francisco. As the plane lifts off the ground, Seymour nods to the manila envelope in my hand.
"What"s that?" he asks.
"Newspaper clippings. Proof."
"I won"t ask."
"You"ll see soon enough."
We do not attend the lecture because I have a slight fear that Kalika will be there. We are waiting in the lounge area of the Hilton when Dr. Seter returns to the hotel. The elderly doctor looks fatigued from his travels and lecture, but James is as bright faced as ever. I introduce Seymour as an old friend and they take seats across from us. Dr. Seter orders a scotch and James a c.o.ke. Seymour munches on the pretzels and sips cranberry juice.
I have nothing to eat or drink, not even a few drops of blood. I fear there may soon be enough blood flying to satisfy my most perverse thirsts. I wonder if Kalika still kills her victims, how many she hunts a night.
Dr. Seter studies me with tired eyes. For the first time I listen to his heart beat in his chest. He has clogged arteries, cardiac arrhythmia. He must know-I sense he is experiencing a tightness in his chest even now. Yet he smiles warmly before he begins to speak. He is a charming man.
"James tells me you have something exciting to show us," he says.
I stare at both of them for a moment.
"I know where the Dark Mother is," I say. "I need your help to kill her."
This gets their attention. Dr. Seter takes a moment to catch his breath. James glances at him anxiously, but I don"t know if his anxiety is concern for his father"s health or concern for the confrontation. Finally the doctor manages to speak.
"How do you know about the Dark Mother?" he asks. "You said your scripture did not speak of a particular danger to the child."
"It speaks of her in general terms," I say. "And I know this young woman." I open the manila envelope I have brought with me. "I have chronicled her behavior. But perhaps you have as well. She"s been in the papers lately."
First I give them clips from the Los Angeles Times of the series of brutal murders that were committed last December. Crazy Eddie Fender and his gang of nasty vampires were responsible for these crimes, but the murders are of such a bizarre nature-heads torn off, bodies drained of their blood-that I feel they strengthen my case. Next I show them clippings of the major shoot-out the police had with a gang of terrorists in downtown L.A.: three helicopters downed and dozens of police killed by a tiny but invincible force. Of course, I was responsible for those deaths. The police and FBI had the bad judgment to chase after me and Joel for our vampire blood.
I show them clippings of the Nevada nuclear explosion, and finally give them articles on Eric Hawkins, who was kidnapped from the park while playing basketball with friends. He was not found until weeks later, his throat scissored open by what appeared to be sharp fingernails. Yes, the words of the city coroner have made it all the way into the article, and they are surprisingly accurate. Naturally, it is only this last death Kalika was responsible for but now is not the time to reveal that Dr. Seter and his son study the clippings for several minutes and then the doctor frowns at me.
"I don"t see what this has to do with the Dark Mother," he says.
His voice is without conviction. I suspect that either he or James has been collecting similar clippings. The possibility strengthens my position and I decide to hold nothing back. I lean forward slightly as I speak and my tone is deadly serious.
"The Dark Mother is vampiric in nature," I say. "The original serial murders in L.A. all bear a vampiric stamp. This is when the Dark Mother moved into the Los Angeles area. Notice the dates of the murders, how they cease right after the terrorist shoot-out with the police. Yet these terrorists have never been found, never been identified. The media says it"s because they escaped, but the real reason is that these terrorists never existed. In fact, the only one the police ever spoke about definitively was a young woman who was able to move extremely fast.""We have read about her," James says, glancing at his father.
"Then there is the nuclear explosion in the Nevada desert," I continue. "Once again the media and the government drew a connection to terrorists, but here, too, they failed to identify the terrorists. Because there weren"t any. For a brief time the Dark Mother was a prisoner of the military camp where the explosion occurred. But even with all their guns, all their tanks and soldiers, they couldn"t contain her and she broke free and destroyed them. She went underground after that, yet she didn"t leave the Los Angeles area. Note the description of Eric Hawkins"s supposed kidnapper and compare it to the descriptions the police gave of the young woman who helped mess up downtown L.A. You will see they match. That"s because all these events originate with one young woman who is not really a human being at all." I pause.
"I know her name. I know where she lives. She may know I know this, I"m not sure. She won"t remain where she is long. If you want to destroy her, you"ll have to strike at her tonight. And don"t look so shocked. I know you"ve prepared for a long time to do exactly this."
Dr. Seter is so taken aback by my words he can"t speak. James takes up his role. "How do you know these things?" he asks. "You didn"t read about them in an ancient scripture."
"I had a friend in the FBI who leaked parts of this information to me. He came to me originally because his agency was researching the Suzama material. This friend is now deceased-he died in the Nevada explosion. But before he died he gave me enough clues to locate and speak to the Dark Mother."
They both almost fall off their chairs. "You have seen her?" Dr. Seter exclaims.
"I have, too," Seymour says on cue. "We both spoke to her at the end of the Santa Monica Pier three months ago. She almost killed us both, but in the end decided to let us go."
"Why would she let you go if you"re a danger to her?" Dr. Seter asks.
"She obviously doesn"t think we are a danger to her," I say. "Or else she thinks we may eventually lead her to the child. That"s why she agreed to meet us, to quiz us about the Suzama material."
"We still need to see your scripture," Dr. Seter says.
"You can"t," I say. "She destroyed it this afternoon. Furthermore, she might be on the verge of destroying your copy, along with the rest of you." I pause. "She was at your lecture last night."
James"s voice is harsh. "Why didn"t you tell us?"
"I didn"t know," I say honestly. "I only found out today when she called me at home to tell me."
"Why would she call you?" Dr. Seter asks.
"I told you. I think she stays in touch because we-Seymour and I-might possibly lead her to the child. Plus you do not know her the way we do. To you she is just a name. To us she is a witch, who calls to taunt us, to let us know we live in her shadow."
Dr. Seter regards me critically. "What is her name? Do you know?"
"If I tell you, will you believe me?" I ask.
"Not necessarily," Dr. Seter says. "But I will at least give more credence to your wild story."
"Her name is Kalika, Kali Ma. This dark age of Kali Yuga is named after her."
Clearly Kalika is mentioned in Suzama"s scripture. Their suddenly shocked expressions confirm this fact. Yet the information fills me with dismay. Is there no hope for my daughter? I know I am here to solicit aid in killing her but a part of me still longs to discover that I have made a terrible mistake, that all the horrors Kalika has committed since she drew her first breath are nothing more than misunderstandings. But it is not to be and I know it. Either my daughter dies or we do, and then also the child who can save the whole world. Dr. Seter is again having trouble catching his breath.
"Can this be true?" he whispers to himself.
"It is true," Seymour says. "I have seen with my own eyes what she can do. She is stronger than two dozen men combined, as fast as lightning. She is already stalking your group. You don"t have much time."
James stares at Seymour. "How do you know Alisa?"
Seymour shrugs. "We"re old friends."
James turns to me. "Neither of you has ever given us a last name. We have no way to check your background. We still don"t know if you"re with the government or not.""The names we have given you are false," I say. "So what is the point in giving you a false last name? Surely you can understand our reasons for secrecy. We can talk all night and into the next morning. There is only one way of convincing you that we have found the Dark Mother, and that is to bring you to her. But when you do meet her, you have to be ready to kill her or else to be killed by her. It is that simple. You lose nothing by trusting me enough to check her out. Once again, that is if you have all your forces standing at full readiness."
Dr. Seter scoffs. "We don"t have any forces."
"You are a poor liar, doctor," I say. "The FBI knows about your training exercises and your automatic weapons. They didn"t interfere with you because there were agents, like my friend, who knew about the Suzama material and understood what you were preparing for. But those agents are dead now.
Kalika killed them. As a result your group is threatened from all sides, politically and spiritually. You might even think I"m a threat, that I"ve been sent here by the Black Mother to lure you into a trap. Actually, there may be a particle of truth in that. I am not working for her, but if you do choose to confront her you may be wiped out. Seymour is not exaggerating her strength. But at least if you hit first you stand a chance. If you go after her you must hold back nothing. Yet you must first explain to your people what the real nature of the risk is. Tell them that several dozen police and marines couldn"t stop her."
Dr. Seter is shaking his head. "This is all happening too fast. We can"t do anything tonight. It"s out of the question."
I don"t want to push him, to fry his brain, or even to confuse his mind. I want the decision to be his because I suspect I am not exaggerating when I say many of his people may die. So I a.s.suage my conscience. Yet I cannot let him stall. I feel he is close to agreeing with me. I have told him much that only he would know is true. It doesn"t matter to me that I have lied to him a lot as well.
"You knew when the time came there would be no time for hesitation," I say gently. "She is down in Los Angeles, right now, in a condo with a wonderful view of the city. We were in her place this afternoon."
"She told you where she lives?" James asks.
"No. She made a mistake when she called me. That is all I can say. Seymour and I were then able to figure out where she lives."
"You traced her call?" James persists.