""Margaret," I said, "ask no questions. Put on your bonnet, give me the boy, and let us away."
"I could not take my eyes off the door, and she was walking to it to look out when I barred the way with my arm.
""What have you seen?" she cried; and then, as I only pointed to her bonnet, she turned to you, and you said, "Was it the black dog, father?"
"Gavin, then she knew; and I stood helpless and watched my wife grow old. In that moment she lost the sprightliness I loved the more because I had none of it myself, and the bloom went from her face never to return.
""He has come back," she said.
"I told her what I had seen, and while I spoke she put on her bonnet, and I exulted, thinking--and then she took off her bonnet, and I knew she would not go away with me.
""Margaret," I cried, "I am that bairn"s father."
""Adam"s my man," she said, and at that I gave her a look for which G.o.d might have struck me dead. But instead of blaming me she put her arms round my neck.
"After that we said very little. We sat at opposite sides of the fire, waiting for him, and you played on the floor. The harvesters trooped by, and there was a fiddle; and when it stopped, long stillness, and then a step. It was not Adam. You fell asleep, and we could hear nothing but the sea. There was a harvest moon.
"Once a dog ran past the door, and we both rose. Margaret pressed her hands on her breast. Sometimes she looked furtively at me, and I knew her thoughts. To me it was only misery that had come, but to her it was shame, so that when you woke and climbed into her lap she shivered at your touch. I could not look at her after that, for there was a horror of me growing in her face.
"Ten o"clock struck, and then again there was no sound but the sea pouring itself out on the beach. It was long after this, when to me there was still no other sound, that Margaret screamed, and you hid behind her. Then I heard it.
""Gavin," Margaret said to me, "be a good man all your life."
"It was louder now, and then it stopped. Above the wash of the sea we heard another sound--a sharp tap, tap. You said, "I know what sound that is; it"s a man knocking the ashes out of his pipe against his boot."
"Then the dog pushed the door off the latch, and Adam lurched in. He was not drunk, but he brought the smell of drink into the room with him. He was grinning like one bringing rare news, and before she could shrink back or I could strike him he had Margaret in his arms.
""Lord, la.s.s," he said, with many jovial oaths, "to think I"m back again! There, she"s swounded. What folks be women, to be sure."
""We thought you were dead, Adam," she said, coming to.
""Bless your blue eyes," he answered gleefully; "often I says to myself, "Meggy will be thinking I"m with the fishes," and then I chuckles."
""Where have you been all this time?" I demanded sternly.
""Gavin," he said effusively, "your hand. And don"t look so feared, man; I bear no malice for what you"ve done. I heard all about it at the Cross Anchors."
""Where have you been these five years and a half?" I repeated.
""Where have I no been, lad?" he replied.
""At Harvie," I said.
""Right you are," said he good-naturedly. "Meggie, I had no intention of leaving you that day, though I was yawning myself to death in Harvie; but I sees a whaler, and I thinks, "That"s a tidy boat, and I"m a tidy man, and if they"ll take me and the dog, off we go.""
""You never wrote to me," Margaret said.
""I meant to send you some sc.r.a.pes," he answered, "but it wasna till I changed ships that I had the chance, and then I minds, "Meggy kens I"m no hand with the pen." But I swear I often thought of you, la.s.s; and look you here, that"s better than letters, and so is this and every penny of it is yours."
"He flung two bags of gold upon the table, and the c.h.i.n.k brought you out from behind your mother.
""Hallo!" Adam cried.
""He is mine," I said. "Gavin, come here." But Margaret held you back.
""Here"s a go," Adam muttered, and scratched his head. Then he slapped his thigh. "Gavin," he said, in his friendliest way, "we"ll toss for him."
"He pulled the knife that is now in my desk from his pocket, spat on it, and flung it up. "Dry, the kid"s ours, Meggy," he explained; "wet, he goes to Gavin." I clinched my fist to----But what was the use? He caught the knife, and showed it to me.
""Dry," he said triumphantly; "so he is ours, Meggy. Kiddy, catch the knife. It is yours; and, mind, you have changed dads. And now that we have settled that, Gavin, there"s my hand again."
"I went away and left them, and I never saw Margaret again until the day you brought her to Thrums. But I saw you once, a few days after Adam came back. I was in the school-house, packing my books, and you were playing on the waste ground. I asked you how your mother was, and you said, "She"s fleid to come to the door till you gang awa, and my father"s buying a boat."
""I"m your father," I said; but you answered confidently:
""You"re no a living man. You"re just a man I dreamed about; and I promised my mother no to dream about you again."
""I am your father," I repeated.
""My father"s awa buying a fishing-boat," you insisted; "and when I speir at my mother whaur my first father is, she says I"m havering."
""Gavin Ogilvy is your name," I said. "No," you answered, "I have a new name. My mother telled me my name is aye to be Gavin Dishart now.
She telled me, too, to fling awa this knife my father gave me, and I"ve flung it awa a lot o" times, but I aye pick it up again."
""Give it to me," I said, with the wicked thoughts of a fool in my head.
"That is how your knife came into my possession. I left Harvie that night in the carrier"s cart, but I had not the heart to return to college. Accident brought me here, and I thought it a fitting place in which to bury myself from Margaret."
Chapter Thirty-Seven.
SECOND JOURNEY OF THE DOMINIE TO THRUMS DURING THE TWENTY-FOUR HOURS.
Here was a nauseous draught for me. Having finished my tale, I turned to Gavin for sympathy; and, behold, he had been listening for the cannon instead of to my final words. So, like an old woman at her hearth, we warm our hands at our sorrows and drop in f.a.ggots, and each thinks his own fire a sun, in presence of which all other fires should go out. I was soured to see Gavin prove this, and then I could have laughed without mirth, for had not my bitterness proved it too?
"And now," I said, rising, "whether Margaret is to hold up her head henceforth lies no longer with me, but with you."
It was not to that he replied.
"You have suffered long, Mr. Ogilvy," he said. "Father," he added, wringing my hand. I called him son; but it was only an exchange of musty words that we had found too late. A father is a poor estate to come into at two and twenty.
"I should have been told of this," he said.
"Your mother did right, sir," I answered slowly, but he shook his head.