Translator: MysticRain
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The emotion shown in the eyes of the man in the portrait was ice-cold, the corner of his stiffened mouth curled into a strange arc like a smile yet not a smile, as if he was mocking.
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"Don"t look at me like that," said Li Yu, staggered as he walked to the portrait, he stood silently for a moment, then suddenly raised his hand to covered the eyes of the man in the portrait, and muttered, "A Mu……don"t be like this, it was you who lied to me first……I just took it seriously."
He couldn"t stop the corner of the mouth that was still fully curled with malice, what responded to Li Yu was silent. As if he had been burned, Li Yu pulled back his hand.
That was right, this wasn"t Zhao Mu, it won"t listen to what you said.
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The next day, Li Yu took the old photo of the ancient town to the photo studio.
He was in a little panic, he insisted on enlarging a very small photograph to the size of half of a person"s height, forcing the owner of the photo studio to directly shook his head, "Brother, it"s really impossible, enlarging it that big will make the photo become blurry."
Li Yu"s eyes were bloodshot, he said in a hoa.r.s.e voice: "I just wanted to keep a piece of memory……can you reproduce it for me……I"ll give you money. How much is it?"
Li Yu said then fished out money from his pocket, but the boss grabbed him by the arm and secretly wiped his sweat, "It"s not about the money…..I also don"t understand you, youngster, you guys at that time all said it doesn"t matter, but when the reproduction came out you then all dislike it being blurry, it"s troublesome to death……*Sigh*, I didn"t mean you are such a person, brother, I"m just afraid you will regret it!”
The boss spoke sincerely, he patted Li Yu on the shoulders and blinked his two small eyes so fast that it squeezed together, but Li Yu stared blankly and shook his head slowly.
"Help me……" He said in a low voice, "Boss, I will pay first, I will not dislike it."
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Li Yu stubbornly wanted to enlarge it, the reproduction of the photo that came out was indeed blurry, the boss mumbled to himself, "I already said it will not be clear……" but he still took the money and said, "Would you like to buy a photo frame? With that, the photo will not be damaged easily."
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The photo frame naturally was bought.
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Li Yu hugged the photo home as if he was hugging a treasure, he put the photo of the deceased in the cabinet and placed the reproduced on the bedside.
"I can then see you when I open my eyes." His lip curled as he gently touched the photo frame, "You, smiling at me."
The young man in the photo didn"t speak, his brows and eyes were curved.
Li Yu also smiled and lay back in bed, "Good night, A Mu."
Actually, now it still wasn"t yet time to go to bed, it was dawn, the sun was hung high, but Li Yu wanted to sleep, he felt he should go to sleep, he should go see Zhao Mu.
Maybe he will dream of hugging Zhao Mu, maybe he will dream of them going on a date, maybe he will dream of them kissing, maybe they will make love, maybe…….Zhao Mu will press him down, fiercely kiss every inch of him with his red lips and tongues, his mouth gently, and softly says what seems to be sincere love words.
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But in reality, he didn"t dreamed about any of those beautiful things.
What did he dreamed about?
The only thing he dreamt about was of the same scene as yesterday, he stood in front of the window and Zhao Mu stood outside the window, between them was an invisible cold barrier.
He was here, while Zhao Mu was on the other side.
He was outside of the grave, while Zhao Mu was in the grave.
Li Yu then understood what is called "so close, yet worlds apart", his Adam"s apple rolled a little, Zhao Mu stiffened tapping on the gla.s.s, he hesitated and didn"t dared to open the window.
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What if he woke up?
It was a beautiful but unattainable illusion…….
Some people were afraid of drowned in a dream and not waking up, but Li Yu wanted to stay in the dream.
This was a very monotonous dream, simple, tedious, dry and dull that seemed to go on forever, but Li Yu was so happy that his nose was stuffy.
He prayed secretly in his heart, praying that he would sleep forever and not wake up——Perhaps wait until one day when his body died, he could completely stay in this dream.
He was willing to believe in the immortality of the soul.
A dream that had only two people, and endless "I love you".
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But in the end, he still woke up from the dream.
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Li Yu stared blankly with his eyes opened.
He looked at the dark ceiling, watched the second-hand of the clock going around and around, then looked at Zhao Mu in the photo.
There was no sound of tapping at the window.
There was nothing outside the window.
Li Yu began to cry again, tears slipped down the corners of his eyes and hitted the pillow, leaving behind a dark imprint. He then raised his arm to covered his eyes and faintly said in a soft voice, "Zhao Mu, you stupid b.a.s.t.a.r.d, you have made me a useless wretch and a crybaby."
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It was like when he started to scold that instigator, at the same time his tear then stopped falling.
He was only deceiving himself, that was all.
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While he was staring blankly, there seemed to be a cold hand on his arm, Li Yu only stayed silent, that hand touched his face and carefully stroked it.
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A dream? Reality?
Li Yu already doesn"t wanted to find out.
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"Let me take you away……" The movement of that hand was very gentle, gliding across Li Yu"s face, neck and collarbone, he heard Zhao Mu chuckle, but he felt an inexplicable sadness.
"A Yu, I can"t do this alone……" The beautiful young man gently stroked Li Yu"s Adam apple, as if he was teasing a cat who was not so obedient, "If you like someone else, what am I going to do?"
A drop of liquid carried the smell of blood fell on Li Yu"s face, Li Yu shivered, Zhao Mu forcibly pressed him down.
"I can"t live without you, A Yu is good like this, if someone covets after you, I can"t control myself from killing him……." He a.s.sumed a child-like innocent look, smiling as he uttered words that don"t connect. The rim of his eyes were filled with blood-tears and his tone gradually became dangerous, "How about pull out their internal organs alive? Can"t let that person off too lightly."
He was a madman, after he died, he also became a mentally-illed ghost, and driven mad by love.
"I won"t." Li Yu said softly, "I love you."
"How long can you love me?" Zhao Mu said in a mocking tone, his eyes were filled with unwillingness, "Ten years? Twenty years? You are supposed to be mine, you are mine!!!"
Time was good medicine, no matter how deep the wound, it can be healed, Zhao Mu was aware of this.
So maybe there will be a day like that, the name Zhao Mu will represent only half an hour of light sentiment and that was all.
Perhaps there will be a day like that when Li Yu spoke of this name, he will not even wrinkle his brows, the scab has fell off his heart, leaving only a shallow trace.
There will be a day like that……
Li Yu will forget him.
The thought made Zhao Mu almost cried out in panic.
Li Yu looked handsome like that, he was gentle like that, there will probably be someone ten thousand times better than him to dote on him and love him, maybe Li Yu will be happier.
Li Yu will no longer have to work as a porter, no longer have to cook and no longer be demanded to make love countless of times by him.
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How cruel.
Zhao Mu couldn"t help his jealousy, the intense jealousy had distorted his beautiful face——He doesn"t want Li Yu to heal, he couldn"t.
"That is how selfish I am." He laughed maniacally and said, "I can"t let you go!!!! I can"t!!!"
He wanted to tear open that wound on Li Yu"s chest, watched his heart beating rhythmically and wanted to let Li Yu"s warm blood soak him.
That feeling must be sad, but also exciting.
He suddenly grabbed Li Yu by the neck and exerted his strength.
"You are mine!!!" Zhao Mu roared hysterically, "Why should I die!!! I love you!!! How long can you love me?!?! I love you!!!"
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