"Well, child, I will," said Miss Roxy. "Your grandfather will be supported, and hold you up, for he"s one of the sort as has the secret of the Lord,--I remember him of old. Why, the day your father and mother was buried he stood up and sung old China, and his face was wonderful to see. He seemed to be standin" with the world under his feet and heaven opening. He"s a master Christian, your grandfather is; and now you jest go and lie down in the little bedroom, and rest you a bit, and by and by, in the cool of the afternoon, I"ll walk along home with you."
Miss Roxy opened the door of a little room, whose white fringy window-curtains were blown inward by breezes from the blue sea, and laid the child down to rest on a clean sweet-smelling bed with as deft and tender care as if she were not a bony, hard-visaged, angular female, in a black mohair frisette.
She stopped a moment wistfully before a little profile head, of a kind which resembles a black shadow on a white ground. "That was. .h.i.tty!" she said.
Mara had often seen in the graveyard a mound inscribed to this young person, and heard traditionally of a young and pretty sister of Miss Roxy who had died very many years before. But the grave was overgrown with blackberry-vines, and gray moss had grown into the crevices of the slab which served for a tombstone, and never before that day had she heard Miss Roxy speak of her. Miss Roxy took down the little black object and handed it to Mara. "You can"t tell much by that, but she was a most beautiful creatur". Well, it"s all best as it is." Mara saw nothing but a little black shadow cast on white paper, yet she was affected by the perception how bright, how beautiful, was the image in the memory of that seemingly stern, commonplace woman, and how of all that in her mind"s eye she saw and remembered, she could find no outward witness but this black block. "So some day my friends will speak of me as a distant shadow," she said, as with a sigh she turned her head on the pillow.
Miss Roxy shut the door gently as she went out, and betrayed the unwonted rush of softer feelings which had come over her only by being more dictatorial and commanding than usual in her treatment of her sister, who was sitting in fidgety curiosity to know what could have been the subject of the private conference.
"I s"pose Mara wanted to get some advice about makin" up her weddin"
things," said Miss Ruey, with a sort of humble quiver, as Miss Roxy began ripping and tearing fiercely at her old straw bonnet, as if she really purposed its utter and immediate demolition.
"No she didn"t, neither," said Miss Roxy, fiercely. "I declare, Ruey, you are silly; your head is always full of weddin"s, weddin"s, weddin"s--nothin" else--from mornin" till night, and night till mornin".
I tell you there"s other things have got to be thought of in this world besides weddin" clothes, and it would be well, if people would think more o" gettin" their weddin" garments ready for the kingdom of heaven.
That"s what Mara"s got to think of; for, mark my words, Ruey, there is no marryin" and givin" in marriage for her in this world."
"Why, bless me, Roxy, now you don"t say so!" said Miss Ruey; "why I knew she was kind o" weakly and ailin", but"--
"Kind o" weakly and ailin"!" said Miss Roxy, taking up Miss Ruey"s words in a tone of high disgust, "I should rather think she was; and more"n that, too: she"s marked for death, and that before long, too. It may be that Moses Pennel"ll never see her again--he never half knew what she was worth--maybe he"ll know when he"s lost her, that"s one comfort!"
"But," said Miss Ruey, "everybody has been a-sayin" what a beautiful color she was a-gettin" in her cheeks."
"Color in her cheeks!" snorted Miss Roxy; "so does a rock-maple get color in September and turn all scarlet, and what for? why, the frost has been at it, and its time is out. That"s what your bright colors stand for. Hain"t you noticed that little gravestone cough, jest the faintest in the world, and it don"t come from a cold, and it hangs on. I tell you you can"t cheat me, she"s goin" jest as Mehitabel went, jest as Sally Ann Smith went, jest as Louisa Pearson went. I could count now on my fingers twenty girls that have gone that way. n.o.body saw "em goin"
till they was gone."
"Well, now, I don"t think the old folks have the least idea on"t," said Miss Ruey. "Only last Sat.u.r.day Mis" Pennel was a-talkin" to me about the sheets and tablecloths she"s got out a-bleachin"; and she said that the weddin" dress was to be made over to Mis" Mosely"s in Portland, "cause Moses he"s so particular about havin" things genteel."
"Well, Master Moses"ll jest have to give up his particular notions,"
said Miss Roxy, "and come down in the dust, like all the rest on us, when the Lord sends an east wind and withers our gourds. Moses Pennel"s one of the sort that expects to drive all before him with the strong arm, and sech has to learn that things ain"t to go as they please in the Lord"s world. Sech always has to come to spots that they can"t get over nor under nor round, to have their own way, but jest has to give right up square."
"Well, Roxy," said Miss Ruey, "how does the poor little thing take it?
Has she got reconciled?"
"Reconciled! Ruey, how you do ask questions!" said Miss Roxy, fiercely pulling a bandanna silk handkerchief out of her pocket, with which she wiped her eyes in a defiant manner. "Reconciled! It"s easy enough to talk, Ruey, but how would you like it, when everything was goin" smooth and playin" into your hands, and all the world smooth and shiny, to be took short up? I guess you wouldn"t be reconciled. That"s what I guess."
"Dear me, Roxy, who said I should?" said Miss Ruey. "I wa"n"t blamin"
the poor child, not a grain."
"Well, who said you was, Ruey?" answered Miss Roxy, in the same high key.
"You needn"t take my head off," said Aunt Ruey, roused as much as her adipose, comfortable nature could be. "You"ve been a-talkin" at me ever since you came in from the sink-room, as if I was to blame; and snappin"
at me as if I hadn"t a right to ask civil questions; and I won"t stan"
it," said Miss Ruey. "And while I"m about it, I"ll say that you always have snubbed me and contradicted and ordered me round. I won"t bear it no longer."
"Come, Ruey, don"t make a fool of yourself at your time of life," said Miss Roxy. "Things is bad enough in this world without two lone sisters and church-members turnin" agin each other. You must take me as I am, Ruey; my bark"s worse than my bite, as you know."
Miss Ruey sank back pacified into her usual state of pillowy dependence; it was so much easier to be good-natured than to contend. As for Miss Roxy, if you have ever carefully examined a chestnut-burr, you will remember that, hard as it is to handle, no plush of downiest texture can exceed the satin smoothness of the fibres which line its heart. There are a cla.s.s of people in New England who betray the uprising of the softer feelings of our nature only by an increase of outward asperity--a sort of bashfulness and shyness leaves them no power of expression for these unwonted guests of the heart--they hurry them into inner chambers and slam the doors upon them, as if they were vexed at their appearance.
Now if poor Miss Roxy had been like you, my dear young lady--if her soul had been encased in a round, rosy, and comely body, and looked out of tender blue eyes shaded by golden hair, probably the grief and love she felt would have shown themselves only in bursts of feeling most graceful to see, and engaging the sympathy of all; but this same soul, imprisoned in a dry, angular body, stiff and old, and looking out under beetling eyebrows, over withered high cheek-bones, could only utter itself by a pa.s.sionate tempest--unlovely utterance of a lovely impulse--dear only to Him who sees with a Father"s heart the real beauty of spirits. It is our firm faith that bright solemn angels in celestial watchings were frequent guests in the homely room of the two sisters, and that pa.s.sing by all accidents of age and poverty, withered skins, bony features, and grotesque movements and shabby clothing, they saw more real beauty there than in many a scented boudoir where seeming angels smile in lace and satin.
"Ruey," said Miss Roxy, in a more composed voice, while her hard, bony hands still trembled with excitement, "this "ere"s been on my mind a good while. I hain"t said nothin" to n.o.body, but I"ve seen it a-comin".
I always thought that child wa"n"t for a long life. Lives is run in different lengths, and n.o.body can say what"s the matter with some folks, only that their thread"s run out; there"s more on one spool and less on another. I thought, when we laid Hitty in the grave, that I shouldn"t never set my heart on nothin" else--but we can"t jest say we will or we won"t. Ef we are to be sorely afflicted at any time, the Lord lets us set our hearts before we know it. This "ere"s a great affliction to me, Ruey, but I must jest shoulder my cross and go through with it. I"m goin" down to-night to tell the old folks, and to make arrangements so that the poor little lamb may have the care she needs. She"s been a-keepin" up so long, "cause she dreaded to let "em know, but this "ere has got to be looked right in the face, and I hope there"ll be grace given to do it."
CHAPTER x.x.xVII
THE VICTORY
Meanwhile Mara had been lying in the pa.s.sive calm of fatigue and exhaustion, her eyes fixed on the window, where, as the white curtain drew inward, she could catch glimpses of the bay. Gradually her eyelids fell, and she dropped into that kind of half-waking doze, when the outer senses are at rest, and the mind is all the more calm and clear for their repose. In such hours a spiritual clairvoyance often seems to lift for a while the whole stifling cloud that lies like a confusing mist over the problem of life, and the soul has sudden glimpses of things unutterable which lie beyond. Then the narrow straits, that look so full of rocks and quicksands, widen into a broad, clear pa.s.sage, and one after another, rosy with a celestial dawn, and ringing silver bells of gladness, the isles of the blessed lift themselves up on the horizon, and the soul is flooded with an atmosphere of light and joy. As the burden of Christian fell off at the cross and was lost in the sepulchre, so in these hours of celestial vision the whole weight of life"s anguish is lifted, and pa.s.ses away like a dream; and the soul, seeing the boundless ocean of Divine love, wherein all human hopes and joys and sorrows lie so tenderly upholden, comes and casts the one little drop of its personal will and personal existence with gladness into that Fatherly depth. Henceforth, with it, G.o.d and Saviour is no more word of mine and thine, for in that hour the child of earth feels himself heir of all things: "All things are yours, and ye are Christ"s, and Christ is G.o.d"s."
"The child is asleep," said Miss Roxy, as she stole on tiptoe into the room when their noon meal was prepared. A plate and knife had been laid for her, and they had placed for her a tumbler of quaint old engraved gla.s.s, reputed to have been brought over from foreign parts, and which had been given to Miss Roxy as her share in the effects of the mysterious Mr. Swadkins. Tea also was served in some egg-like India china cups, which saw the light only on the most high and festive occasions.
"Hadn"t you better wake her?" said Miss Ruey; "a cup of hot tea would do her so much good."
Miss Ruey could conceive of few sorrows or ailments which would not be materially better for a cup of hot tea. If not the very elixir of life, it was indeed the next thing to it.
"Well," said Miss Roxy, after laying her hand for a moment with great gentleness on that of the sleeping girl, "she don"t wake easy, and she"s tired; and she seems to be enjoying it so. The Bible says, "He giveth his beloved sleep," and I won"t interfere. I"ve seen more good come of sleep than most things in my nursin" experience," said Miss Roxy, and she shut the door gently, and the two sisters sat down to their noontide meal.
"How long the child does sleep!" said Miss Ruey as the old clock struck four.
"It was too much for her, this walk down here," said Aunt Roxy. "She"s been doin" too much for a long time. I"m a-goin" to put an end to that.
Well, n.o.body needn"t say Mara hain"t got resolution. I never see a little thing have more. She always did have, when she was the leastest little thing. She was always quiet and white and still, but she did whatever she sot out to."
At this moment, to their surprise, the door opened, and Mara came in, and both sisters were struck with a change that had pa.s.sed over her. It was more than the result of mere physical repose. Not only had every sign of weariness and bodily languor vanished, but there was about her an air of solemn serenity and high repose that made her seem, as Miss Ruey afterwards said, "like an angel jest walked out of the big Bible."
"Why, dear child, how you have slept, and how bright and rested you look," said Miss Ruey.
"I am rested," said Mara; "oh how much! And happy," she added, laying her little hand on Miss Roxy"s shoulder. "I thank you, dear friend, for all your kindness to me. I am sorry I made you feel so sadly; but now you mustn"t feel so any more, for all is well--yes, all is well. I see now that it is so. I have pa.s.sed beyond sorrow--yes, forever."
Soft-hearted Miss Ruey here broke into audible sobbing, hiding her face in her hands, and looking like a tumbled heap of old faded calico in a state of convulsion.
"Dear Aunt Ruey, you mustn"t," said Mara, with a voice of gentle authority. "We mustn"t any of us feel so any more. There is no harm done, no real evil is coming, only a good which we do not understand. I am perfectly satisfied--perfectly at rest now. I was foolish and weak to feel as I did this morning, but I shall not feel so any more. I shall comfort you all. Is it anything so dreadful for me to go to heaven? How little while it will be before you all come to me! Oh, how little--little while!"
"I told you, Mara, that you"d be supported in the Lord"s time," said Miss Roxy, who watched her with an air of grave and solemn attention.
"First and last, folks allers is supported; but sometimes there is a long wrestlin". The Lord"s give you the victory early."
"Victory!" said the girl, speaking as in a deep muse, and with a mysterious brightness in her eyes; "yes, that is the word--it _is_ a victory--no other word expresses it. Come, Aunt Roxy, we will go home. I am not afraid now to tell grandpapa and grandmamma. G.o.d will care for them; He will wipe away all tears."
"Well, though, you mus"n"t think of goin" till you"ve had a cup of tea,"
said Aunt Ruey, wiping her eyes. "I"ve kep" the tea-pot hot by the fire, and you must eat a little somethin", for it"s long past dinner-time."
"Is it?" said Mara. "I had no idea I had slept so long--how thoughtful and kind you are!"
"I do wish I could only do more for you," said Miss Ruey. "I don"t seem to get reconciled no ways; it seems dreffle hard--dreffle; but I"m glad you _can_ feel so;" and the good old soul proceeded to press upon the child not only the tea, which she drank with feverish relish, but every h.o.a.rded dainty which their limited housekeeping commanded.