"Mysterious thing," said Clark to me, when we were alone.
"_I_ don"t understand it," I said.
"Who are the two nurses?"
"Oh, highly recommended people of my own."
"At any rate, my dream about you comes true, Jeffson. It is clear that Peters is out of the running now."
I shrugged.
"I now formally invite you to join the expedition," said Clark: "do you consent?"
I shrugged again.
"Well, if that means consent," he said, "let me remind you that you have only eight days, and all the world to do in them."
This conversation occurred in the dining-room of Peters" house: and as we pa.s.sed through the door, I saw Clodagh gliding down the pa.s.sage outside--rapidly--away from us.
Not a word I said to her that day about Clark"s invitation. Yet I asked myself repeatedly: Did she not know of it? Had she not _listened_, and heard?
However that was, about midnight, to my great surprise, Peters opened his eyes, and smiled. By noon the next day, his fine vitality, which so fitted him for an Arctic expedition, had re-a.s.serted itself. He was then leaning on an elbow, talking to Wilson, and except his pallor, and strong stomach-pains, there was now hardly a trace of his late approach to death. For the pains I prescribed some quarter-grain tablets of sulphate of morphia, and went away.
Now, David Wilson and I never greatly loved each other, and that very day he brought about a painful situation as between Peters and me, by telling Peters that I had taken his place in the expedition. Peters, a touchy fellow, at once dictated a letter of protest to Clark; and Clark sent Peters" letter to me, marked with a big note of interrogation in blue pencil.
Now, all Peters" preparations were made, mine not; and he had six days in which to recover himself. I therefore wrote to Clark, saying that the changed circ.u.mstances of course annulled my acceptance of his offer, though I had already incurred the inconvenience of negotiating with a _loc.u.m tenens_.
This decided it: Peters was to go, I stay. The fifth day before the departure dawned. It was a Friday, the 15th June. Peters was now in an arm-chair. He was cheerful, but with a fevered pulse, and still the stomach-pains. I was giving him three quarter-grains of morphia a day.
That Friday night, at 11 P.M., I visited him, and found Clodagh there, talking to him. Peters was smoking a cigar.
"Ah," Clodagh said, "I was waiting for you, Adam. I didn"t know whether I was to inject anything to-night. Is it Yes or No?"
"What do you think, Peters?" I said: "any more pains?"
"Well, perhaps you had better give us another quarter," he answered: "there"s still some trouble in the tummy off and on."
"A quarter-grain, then, Clodagh, "I said.
As she opened the syringe-box, she remarked with a pout:
"Our patient has been naughty! He has taken some more atropine."
I became angry at once.
"Peters," I cried, "you know you have no right to be doing things like that without consulting me! Do that once more, and I swear I have nothing further to do with you!"
"Rubbish," said Peters: "why all this unnecessary heat? It was a mere flea-bite. I felt that I needed it."
"He injected it with his own hand..." remarked Clodagh.
She was now standing at the mantel-piece, having lifted the syringe-box from the night-table, taken from its velvet lining both the syringe and the vial containing the morphia tablets, and gone to the mantel-piece to melt one of the tablets in a little of the distilled water there. Her back was turned upon us, and she was a long time. I was standing; Peters in his arm-chair, smoking. Clodagh then began to talk about a Charity Bazaar which she had visited that afternoon.
She was long, she was long. The crazy thought pa.s.sed through some dim region of my soul: "Why is she so _long_?"
"Ah, that was a pain!" went Peters: "never mind the bazaar, aunt--think of the morphia."
Suddenly an irresistible impulse seized me--to rush upon her, to dash syringe, tabloids, gla.s.s, and all, from her hands. I _must_ have obeyed it--I was on the tip-top point of obeying--my body already leant p.r.o.ne: but at that instant a voice at the opened door behind me said:
"Well, how is everything?"
It was Wilson, the electrician, who stood there. With lightning swiftness I remembered an under-look of mistrust which I had once seen on his face. Oh, well, I would not, and could not!--she was my love--I stood like marble...
Clodagh went to meet Wilson with frank right hand, in the left being the fragile gla.s.s containing the injection. My eyes were fastened on her face: it was full of rea.s.surance, of free innocence. I said to myself: "I must surely be mad!"
An ordinary chat began, while Clodagh turned up Peters" sleeve, and, kneeling there, injected his fore-arm. As she rose, laughing at something said by Wilson, the drug-gla.s.s dropped from her hand, and her heel, by an apparent accident, trod on it. She put the syringe among a number of others on the mantel-piece.
"Your friend has been naughty, Mr. Wilson," she said again with that same pout: "he has been taking more atropine."
"Not really?" said Wilson.
"Let me alone, the whole of you," answered Peters: "I ain"t a child."
These were the last intelligible words he ever spoke. He died shortly before 1 A.M. He had been poisoned by a powerful dose of atropine.
From that moment to the moment when the _Boreal_ bore me down the Thames, all the world was a mere tumbling nightmare to me, of which hardly any detail remains in my memory. Only I remember the inquest, and how I was called upon to prove that Peters had himself injected himself with atropine. This was corroborated by Wilson, and by Clodagh: and the verdict was in accordance.
And in all that chaotic hurry of preparation, three other things only, but those with clear distinctness now, I remember.
The first--and chief--is that tempest of words which I heard at Kensington from that big-mouthed Mackay on the Sunday night. What was it that led me, busy as I was, to that chapel that night? Well, perhaps I know.
There I sat, and heard him: and most strangely have those words of his peroration planted themselves in my brain, when, rising to a pa.s.sion of prophecy, he shouted: "And as in the one case, transgression was followed by catastrophe swift and universal, so, in the other, I warn the entire race to look out thenceforth for nothing from G.o.d but a lowering sky, and thundery weather."
And this second thing I remember: that on reaching home, I walked into my disordered library (for I had had to hunt out some books), where I met my housekeeper in the act of rearranging things. She had apparently lifted an old Bible by the front cover to fling it on the table, for as I threw myself into a chair my eye fell upon the open print near the beginning. The print was very large, and a shaded lamp cast a light upon it. I had been hearing Mackay"s wild comparison of the Pole with the tree of Eden, and that no doubt was the reason why such a start convulsed me: for my listless eyes had chanced to rest upon some words.
"The woman gave me of the tree, and I did eat...."
And a third thing I remember in all that turmoil of doubt and flurry: that as the ship moved down with the afternoon tide a telegram was put into my hand; it was a last word from Clodagh; and she said only this:
"Be first--for Me."
The _Boreal_ left St. Katherine"s Docks in beautiful weather on the afternoon of the 19th June, full of good hope, bound for the Pole.
All about the docks was one region of heads stretched far in innumerable vagueness, and down the river to Woolwich a continuous dull roar and murmur of bees droned from both banks to cheer our departure.
The expedition was partly a national affair, subvented by Government: and if ever ship was well-found it was the _Boreal_. She had a frame tougher far than any battle-ship"s, capable of ramming some ten yards of drift-ice; and she was stuffed with sufficient pemmican, codroe, fish-meal, and so on, to last us not less than six years.