The omelette was finished, and the Doctor and Jim Connolly had come in.
"The stars are out," the Doctor said. "After supper we"ll walk a bit."
Jean was never to forget that walk with her father. It was her last long walk with him before he went to France, her last intimate talk.
It was very cold, and he took her arm, the snow crunched under their feet.
Faintly the chimes of the old College came up to them. "Nine o"clock,"
said the Doctor. "Think of all the years I"ve heard the chimes, I have lived over half a century--and my father before me heard them--and they rang in my grandfather"s time. Perhaps they will ring in the ears of my grandchildren, Jean."
They had stopped to listen, but now they went on. "Do you know what they used to say to me when I was a little boy?
"The Lord watch Between thee and--me--""
"My mother and I used to repeat it together at nine o"clock, and when I brought your mother here for our honeymoon--that first night we, too, stood and listened to the chimes--and I told her what they said.
"Men drift away from these things," he continued, with something of an effort. "I have drifted too far. But, Jean, will you always remember this, that when I am at my best, I come back to the things my mother taught her boy? If anything should happen, you will remember?"
[Ill.u.s.tration: "If anything should happen, you will remember?"]
She clung to his arm. She had no words. Never again was she to hear the chimes without that poignant memory of her father begging her to remember the best--.
"I have been thinking," he said, out of a long silence, "of you and Derry. I--I want you to marry him, dear, before I go."
"Before you go--Daddy--"
"Yes. Emily says I have no right to stand in the way of your happiness. And I have no right. And some day, perhaps, oh, my little Jean, my grandchildren may hear the chimes--"
White and still, she stood with her face upturned to the stars. "Life is so wonderful, Daddy."
And this time she said it out of a woman"s knowledge of what life was to mean.
They went in, to find that the Connollys had retired. Jean slept in a great feather-bed. And all the night the chimes in the College tower struck the hours--
In the morning, Jean went over to the church with Mrs. Connolly. It was Sat.u.r.day, and things must be made ready for the services the next day. Jean had been taught as a child to kneel reverently while Mrs.
Connolly prayed. To sit quietly in a pew while her good friend did the little offices of the altar.
Jean had always loved to sit there, to wonder about the rows of candles and the crucifix, to wonder about the Sacred Heart, and St. Agnes with the lamb, and St. Anthony who found things when you lost them, and St.
Francis in the brown frock with the rope about his waist, and why Mrs.
Connolly never touched any of the sacred vessels with bare hands.
But most of all she had wondered about that benignant figure in the pale blue garments who stood in a niche, with a light burning at her feet, and with a baby in her arms.
_Mary_--
Faintly as she gazed upon it on this winter morning, Jean began to perceive the meaning of that figure. Of late many women had said to her, "Was my son born for this, to be torn from my arms--to be butchered?"
Well, Mary"s son had been torn from her arms--butchered--her little son who had lain in a manger and whom she had loved as much as any less-worshipped mother,--and he had told the world what he thought of sin and injustice and cruelty, and the world had hated him because he had set himself against these things--and they had killed him, and from his death had come the regeneration of mankind.
And now, other men, following him, were setting themselves against injustice and cruelty, and they were being killed for it. But perhaps their sacrifices, too, would be for the salvation of the world. Oh, if only it might be for the world"s salvation!
She walked quite soberly beside Mrs. Connolly back to the house. She took her knitting to the kitchen. Mrs. Connolly was knitting socks.
"I don"t mind the fighting as much as I do the chance of their taking cold. And I"m afraid they won"t have the sense to change their socks when they are wet. I have sent them pairs and pairs--but they"ll never know enough to change--
"It is funny how a mother worries about a thing like that," she continued. "I suppose it is because you"ve always worried about their taking cold, and you"ve never had to worry much about their being killed. I always used to put them to bed with hot drinks and hot baths, and a lot of blankets, and I keep thinking that there won"t be anybody to put them to bed."
Jean knitted a long row, and then she spoke. "Mrs. Connolly, I"m going to be married, before Daddy leaves for France."
"I am happy to hear that, my dear."
"I didn"t know it until last night--Daddy wasn"t willing. I--I feel as if it couldn"t be really true--that I am going to be married, Mrs.
Connolly."
There was a tremble of her lip and clasping of her little hands.
Mary Connolly laid down her work. "I guess you miss your mother, blessed lamb. I remember when she was married. I was young, too, but I felt a lot older with my two babies, and Jim and I were so glad the Doctor had found a wife. He needed one, if ever a man did--for he liked his gay good time."
"Daddy?" said Jean, incredulously. It is hard for youth to visualize the adolescence of its elders. Dr. McKenzie"s daughter beheld in him none of the elements of a Lothario. He was beyond the pale of romance!
He was fifty, which settled at once all matters of sentiment!
"Indeed, he was gay, my dear, and he had broken half the hearts in the county, and then your mother came for a visit. She didn"t look in the least like you, except that she was small and slender. Her hair was dark and her eyes. You have your father"s eyes and hair.
"But she was so pretty and so loving--and you never saw such a honeymoon. They were married in the spring, and the orchards were in bloom, and your father filled her room with apple blossoms, and the first day when Jim drove them up from the station, your father carried her in his arms over the threshold and up into that room, and when she came down, she said, "Mary Connolly, isn"t life--wonderful?""
"Did she say that, Mrs. Connolly, really? Daddy always teases me when I go into raptures. He says that I think everything is wonderful from a sunset to a chocolate soda."
"Well, she did, too. Her husband was the most wonderful man, and her baby was the most wonderful baby--and her house was the most wonderful house. You make me think of her in every way. But you won"t have apple blossoms for your honeymoon, my dear."
"No. But, oh, Mrs. Connolly--it won"t make any real difference."
"Not a bit. And if you"ll come up here, Jim and I will promise not to be in the way. Your mother said we were never in the way. And I"ll serve your meals in front of the sitting-room fire. They used to have theirs out of doors. But you"ll be just as much alone, with me and Jim eating in the kitchen."
It was very easy after that to tell Mrs. Connolly all about it. About Derry, and how he had fallen in love with her when he had thought she was just the girl in the Toy Shop. But there were things which she did not tell, of the shabby old gentleman and of the shadow which had darkened Derry"s life.
Then when she had finished, Mary Connolly asked the thing which everybody asked--"Why isn"t he fighting?"
Jean flushed. "He--he made a promise to his mother."
"I"d never make my boys promise a thing like that. And if I did, I"d hope they"d break it."
"Break it?" tensely.
"Of course. Their honor"s bigger than anything I could ever ask them.
And they know it."
"Then you think that Derry ought to break his promise?"
"I do, indeed, my dear."