"Very well--we will see about that," he answered, with forced sternness, and leaving the room he went down stairs, feeling much worse than when he went up. Again he seated himself in his large chair and again leaned back his weary head, and closed his heavy eyelids. Sadder was his face than before. As he sat thus, his oldest daughter, in her sixteenth year, came and stood by him. She held a paper in her hand--
"Father,--" he opened his eyes.
"Here"s my quarter bill. It"s twenty dollars. Can"t I have the money to take to school with me in the morning?"
"I"m afraid not," answered Mr. Walcott, half sadly.
"Nearly all the girls will bring in their money tomorrow; and it mortifies me to be behind the others." The daughter spoke fretfully.
Mr. Walcott waved her aside with his hand, and she went off muttering and pouting.
"It is mortifying," spoke up Mrs. Walcott, a little sharply; "and I don"t wonder that Helen feels unpleasantly about it. The bill has to be paid, and I don"t see why it may not be done as well first as last."
To this Mr. Walcott made no answer. The words but added another pressure to this heavy burden under which he was already staggering.
After a silence of some moments, Mrs. Walcott said,
"The coal is all gone."
"Impossible!" Mr. Walcott raised his head, and looked incredulous.
"I laid in sixteen tons."
"I can"t help it, if there were sixty tons instead of sixteen; it"s all gone. The girls had a time of it to-day, to sc.r.a.pe up enough to keep the fire going."
"There"s been a shameful waste somewhere," said Mr. Walcott with strong emphasis, starting up, and moving about the room with a very disturbed manner.
"So you always say, when anything is out," answered Mrs. Walcott rather tartly. "The barrel of flour is gone also; but I suppose you have done your part, with the rest, in using it up."
Mr. Walcott returned to his chair, and again seating himself, leaned back his head and closed his eyes, as at first. How sad, and weary, and hopeless he felt! The burdens of the day had seemed almost too heavy for him; but he had borne up bravely. To gather strength for a renewed struggle with adverse circ.u.mstances, he had come home. Alas!
that the process of exhaustion should still go on. That where only strength could be looked for, no strength was given.
When the tea bell rung, Mr. Walcott made no movement to obey the summons.
"Come to supper," said his wife, coldly.
But he did not stir.
"Ain"t you coming to supper?" she called to him, as she was leaving the room.
"I don"t wish anything this evening. My head aches badly," he answered.
"In the dumps again," muttered Mrs. Walcott to herself. "It"s as much as one"s life is worth to ask for money, or to say that anything is wanted." And she kept on her way to the dining-room.
When she returned, her husband was still sitting where she had left him.
"Shall I bring you a cup of tea?" she asked.
"No; I don"t wish anything."
"What"s the matter, Mr. Walcott? What do you look so troubled about, as if you hadn"t a friend in the world? What have I done to you?"
There was no answer, for there was not a shade of real sympathy in the voice that made the queries--but rather a querulous dissatisfaction. A few moments Mrs. Walcott stood near her husband; but as he did Not seem inclined to answer her questions, she turned off from him, and resumed the employment which had been interrupted by the ringing of the tea bell.
The whole evening pa.s.sed without the occurrence of a single incident that gave a healthful pulsation to the sick heart of Mr. Walcott. No thoughtful kindness was manifested by any member of the family; but, on the contrary, a narrow regard for self, and a looking to him only to supply the means of self-gratification.
No wonder, from the pressure which was on him, that Mr. Walcott felt utterly discouraged. He retired early, and sought to find that relief from mental disquietude, in sleep, which he had vainly hoped for in the bosom of his family. But the whole night pa.s.sed in broken slumber, and disturbing dreams. From the cheerless morning meal, at which he was reminded of the quarter bill that must be paid, of the coal and flour that were out, and of the necessity of supplying Mrs.
Walcott"s empty purse, he went forth to meet the difficulties of another day, faint at heart, and almost hopeless of success. A confident spirit, sustained by home affections, would have carried him through; but, unsupported as he was, the burden was too heavy for him, and he sunk under it. The day that opened so unpropitiously, closed upon him, a ruined man!
Let us look in, for a few moments, upon Mr. Freeman, the friend and neighbour of Mr. Walcott. He, also, had come home; weary, dispirited, and almost sick. The trials of the day had been unusually severe; and when he looked anxiously forward to scan the future, not even a gleam of light was seen along the black horizon.
As he stepped across the threshold of his dwelling, a pang shot through his heart; for the thought came, "How slight the present hold upon all these comforts!" Not for himself, but for his wife and children, was the pain.
"Father"s come!" cried a glad little voice on the stairs, the moment his foot-fall, sounded in the pa.s.sage; then quick, pattering feet were heard--and then a tiny form was springing into his arms. Before reaching the sitting-room above, Alice, the oldest daughter, was by his side, her arm drawn fondly within his, and her loving eyes lifted to his face.
"Are you not late, dear?" It was the gentle voice of Mrs. Freeman.
Mr. Freeman could not trust himself to answer. He was too deeply troubled in spirit to a.s.sume at the moment a cheerful tone, and he had no wish to sadden the hearts that loved him, by letting the depression from which he was suffering, become too clearly apparent.
But the eyes of Mrs. Freeman saw quickly below the surface.
"Are you not well, Robert?" she inquired, tenderly, as she drew his large arm-chair towards the centre of the room.
"A little headache," he answered, with slight evasion.
Scarcely was Mr. Freeman seated, ere a pair of little hands were busy with each foot, removing gaiter and shoe, and supplying their place with a soft slipper. There was not one in the household who did not feel happier for his return, nor one who did not seek to render him some kind office.
It was impossible under such a burst of heart-sunshine, for the spirit of Mr. Freeman long to remain shrouded. Almost imperceptibly to himself, gloomy thoughts gave place to more cheerful ones, and by the time tea was ready, he had half forgotten the fears which had so haunted him through the day. But they could not be held back altogether, and their existence was marked, during the evening, by an unusual silence and abstraction of mind. This was observed by Mrs. Freeman, who, more than half suspecting the cause, kept back from her husband the knowledge of certain matters about which she had intended to speak with him--for she feared they would add to his mental disquietude. During the evening, she gleaned from something he said, the real cause of his changed aspect. At once her thoughts commenced running in a new channel. By a few leading remarks, she drew her husband into conversation on the subject of home expenses, and the propriety of restriction at various points. Many things were mutually p.r.o.nounced superfluous, and easily to be dispensed with; and before sleep fell soothingly on the heavy eyelids of Mr. Freeman that night, an entire change in their style of living had been determined upon--a change that would reduce their expenses at least one-half.
"I see light ahead," were the hopeful words of Mr. Freeman, as he resigned himself to slumber.
With renewed strength of mind and body, and a confident spirit, he went forth on the next day--a day that he had looked forward to with fear and trembling. And it was only through this renewed strength and confident spirit, that he was able to overcome the difficulties that loomed up, mountain high, before him. Weak despondency would have ruined all. Home had proved his tower of strength--his walled city. It had been to him as the shadow of a great rock in a weary land. Strengthened for the conflict, he had gone forth again into the world, and conquered in the struggle.
"I see light ahead" gave place to "The morning breaketh."
LOVE"S FAIRY RING.
WHILE t.i.tans war with social Jove, My own sweet wife and I We make Elysium in our love, And let the world go by!
Oh! never hearts beat half so light With crowned Queen or King!
Oh! never world was half so bright As is our fairy ring, Dear love!
Our hallowed fairy ring.
Our world of empire is not large, But priceless wealth it holds; A little heaven links marge to marge, But what rich realms it folds!
And clasping all from outer strife Sits love with folded wing, A-brood o"er dearer life in life, Within our fairy ring, Dear love!
Our hallowed fairy ring.
Thou leanest thy true heart on mine, And bravely bearest up!
Aye mingling love"s most precious wine In life"s most bitter cup!
And evermore the circling hours New gifts of glory bring; We live and love like happy flowers All in our fairy ring, Dear love!