"Good Lord!" he cried. "What"s this? It oughtn"t to be allowed." And he pitched the papers at the wastepaper basket under the sideboard.
"I"ll thank you," said Georgina, "not to throw away our _Votes for Women_. We subscribe to that."
"Eh?" cried Sir Isaac.
"We"re subscribers. Snagsby, just give us those papers." (A difficult moment for Snagsby.) He picked up the papers and looked at Sir Isaac.
"Put "em down there," said Sir Isaac, waving to the sideboard and then in an ensuing silence handed two letters of no importance to his mother-in-law. His face was pale and he was breathless. Snagsby with an obvious tactfulness retired.
Sir Isaac watched the door close.
His remark pointedly ignored Georgina.
"What you been thinking about, Elly," he asked, "subscribing to _that_ thing?"
"I wanted to read it."
"But you don"t hold with all that Rubbish----"
"_Rubbish!_" said Georgina, helping herself to marmalade.
"Well, rot then, if you like," said Sir Isaac, unamiably and panting.
With that as Snagsby afterwards put it--for the battle raged so fiercely as to go on even when he presently returned to the room--"the fat was in the fire." The Harman breakfast-table was caught up into the Great Controversy with heat and fury like a tree that is overtaken by a forest fire. It burnt for weeks, and smouldered still when the first white heats had abated. I will not record the arguments of either side, they were abominably bad and you have heard them all time after time; I do not think that whatever side you have taken in this matter you would find much to please you in Sir Isaac"s goadings or Georgina"s repartees.
Sir Isaac would ask if women were prepared to go as soldiers and Georgina would enquire how many years of service he had done or horrify her mother by manifest allusion to the agonies and dangers of maternity,--things like that. It gave a new interest to breakfast for Snagsby; and the peculiarly lady-like qualities of Mrs. Sawbridge, a gift for silent, pallid stiffness, a disposition, tactful but unsuccessful, to "change the subject," an air of being about to leave the room in disdain, had never shone with such baleful splendour. Our interest here is rather with the effect of these remarkable disputes, which echoed in Sir Isaac"s private talk long after Georgina had gone again, upon Lady Harman. He could not leave this topic of feminine emanc.i.p.ation alone, once it had been set going, and though Ellen would always preface her remarks by, "Of course Georgina goes too far," he worried her slowly into a series of definite insurgent positions. Sir Isaac"s attacks on Georgina certainly brought out a good deal of absurdity in her positions, and Georgina at times left Sir Isaac without a leg to stand on, and the net result of their disputes as of most human controversies was not conviction for the hearer but release. Her mind escaped between them, and went exploring for itself through the great gaps they had made in the simple obedient a.s.sumptions of her girlhood.
That question originally put in Paradise, "Why shouldn"t we?" came into her mind and stayed there. It is a question that marks a definite stage in the departure from innocence. Things that had seemed opaque and immutable appeared translucent and questionable. She began to read more and more in order to learn things and get a light upon things, and less and less to pa.s.s the time. Ideas came to her that seemed at first strange altogether and then grotesquely justifiable and then crept to a sort of acceptance by familiarity. And a disturbing intermittent sense of a general responsibility increased and increased in her.
You will understand this sense of responsibility which was growing up in Lady Harman"s mind if you have felt it yourself, but if you have not then you may find it a little difficult to understand. You see it comes, when it comes at all, out of a phase of disillusionment. All children, I suppose, begin by taking for granted the rightness of things in general, the soundness of accepted standards, and many people are at least so happy that they never really grow out of this a.s.sumption. They go to the grave with an unbroken confidence that somewhere behind all the immediate injustices and disorders of life, behind the antics of politics, the rigidities of inst.i.tutions, the pressure of custom and the vagaries of law, there is wisdom and purpose and adequate provision, they never lose that faith in the human household they acquired amongst the directed securities of home. But for more of us and more there comes a dissolution of these a.s.surances; there comes illumination as the day comes into a candle-lit uncurtained room. The warm lights that once rounded off our world so completely are betrayed for what they are, smoky and guttering candles. Beyond what once seemed a casket of dutiful security is now a limitless and indifferent universe. Ours is the wisdom or there is no wisdom; ours is the decision or there is no decision.
That burthen is upon each of us in the measure of our capacity. The talent has been given us and we may not bury it.
--7
And as we reckon up the disturbing influences that were stirring Lady Harman out of that life of acquiescences to which women are perhaps even more naturally disposed than men, we may pick out the conversation of Susan Burnet as something a little apart from the others, as something with a peculiar barbed pointedness of its own that was yet in other respects very representative of a mult.i.tude of nudges and nips and p.r.i.c.ks and indications that life was giving Lady Harman"s awaking mind.
Susan Burnet was a woman who came to renovate and generally do up the Putney curtains and furniture and loose covers every spring; she was Mrs. Crumble"s discovery, she was st.u.r.dy and short and she had open blue eyes and an engaging simplicity of manner that attracted Lady Harman from the outset. She was stuck away in one of the spare bedrooms and there she was available for any one, so long, she explained, as they didn"t fl.u.s.ter her when she was cutting out, with a flow of conversation that not even a mouth full of pins seemed to interrupt. And Lady Harman would go and watch Susan Burnet by the hour together and think what an enviably independent young woman she was, and listen with interest and something between horror and admiration to the various impressions of life she had gathered during a hardy and adventurous career.
Their early conversations were about Susan Burnet"s business and the general condition of things in that world of upholsterers" young women in which Susan had lived until she perceived the possibilities of a "connexion," and set up for herself. And the condition of things in that world, as Susan described it, brought home to Lady Harman just how sheltered and limited her own upbringing had been. "It isn"t right,"
said Susan, "the way they send girls out with fellers into empty houses.
Naturally the men get persecuting them. They don"t seem hardly able to help it, some of them, and I will say this for them, that a lot of the girls go more than half way with them, leading them on. Still there"s a sort of man won"t leave you alone. One I used to be sent out with and a married man too he was, Oh!--he used to give me a time. Why I"ve bit his hands before now, bit hard, before he"d leave go of me. It"s my opinion the married men are worse than the single. Bolder they are. I pushed him over a scuttle once and he hit his head against a bookcase. I was fair frightened of him. "You little devil," he says; "I"ll be even with you yet...." Oh! I"ve been called worse things than that.... Of course a respectable girl gets through with it, but it"s trying and to some it"s a sort of temptation...."
"I should have thought," reflected Lady Harman, "you could have told someone."
"It"s queer," said Susan; "but it never seemed to me the sort of thing a girl ought to go telling. It"s a kind of private thing. And besides, it isn"t exactly easy to tell.... I suppose the Firm didn"t want to be worried by complaints and disputes about that sort of thing. And it isn"t always easy to say just which of the two is to blame."
"But how old are the girls they send out?" asked Lady Harman.
"Some"s as young as seventeen or eighteen. It all depends on the sort of work that"s wanted to be done...."
"Of course a lot of them have to marry...."
This lurid little picture of vivid happenings in unoccupied houses and particularly of the prim, industrious, capable Susan Burnet, biting aggressive wrists, stuck in Lady Harman"s imagination. She seemed to be looking into hitherto unsuspected pits of simple and violent living just beneath her feet. Susan told some upholsteress love tales, real love tales, with a warmth and honesty of pa.s.sion in them that seemed at once dreadful and fine to Lady Harman"s underfed imagination. Under encouragement Susan expanded the picture, beyond these mere glimpses of workshop and piece-work and furtive l.u.s.t. It appeared that she was practically the head of her family; there was a mother who had specialized in ill-health, a sister of defective ability who stayed at home, a brother in South Africa who was very good and sent home money, and three younger sisters growing up. And father,--she evaded the subject of father at first. Then presently Lady Harman had some glimpses of an earlier phase in Susan Burnet"s life "before any of us were earning money." Father appeared as a kindly, ineffectual, insolvent figure struggling to conduct a baker"s and confectioner"s business in Walthamstow, mother was already specializing, there were various brothers and sisters being born and dying. "How many were there of you altogether?" asked Lady Harman.
"Thirteen there was. Father always used to laugh and say he"d had a fair baker"s dozen. There was Luke to begin with----"
Susan began to count on her fingers and recite braces of scriptural names.
She could only make up her tale to twelve. She became perplexed. Then she remembered. "Of course!" she cried: "there was Nicodemus. He was still-born. I _always_ forget Nicodemus, poor little chap! But he came--was it sixth or seventh?--seventh after Anna."
She gave some glimpses of her father and then there was a collapse of which she fought shy. Lady Harman was too delicate to press her to talk of that.
But one day in the afternoon Susan"s tongue ran.
She was telling how first she went to work before she was twelve.
"But I thought the board schools----" said Lady Harman.
"I had to go before the committee," said Susan. "I had to go before the committee and ask to be let go to work. There they was, sitting round a table in a great big room, and they was as kind as anything, one old gentleman with a great white beard, he was as kind as could be. "Don"t you be frightened, my dear," he says. "You tell us why you want to go out working." "Well," I says, "_somebody"s_ got to earn something," and that made them laugh in a sort of fatherly way, and after that there wasn"t any difficulty. You see it was after Father"s Inquest, and everybody was disposed to be kind to us. "Pity they can"t all go instead of this educational Tommy Rot," the old gentleman says. "You learn to work, my dear"--and I did...."
She paused.
"Father"s inquest?" said Lady Harman.
Susan seemed to brace herself to the occasion. "Father," she said, "was drowned. I know--I hadn"t told you that before. He was drowned in the Lea. It"s always been a distress and humiliation to us there had to be an Inquest. And they threw out things.... It"s why we moved to Haggerston. It"s the worst that ever happened to us in all our lives.
Far worse. Worse than having the things sold or the children with scarlet fever and having to burn everything.... I don"t like to talk about it. I can"t help it but I don"t....
"I don"t know why I talk to you as I do, Lady Harman, but I don"t seem to mind talking to you. I don"t suppose I"ve opened my mouth to anyone about it, not for years--except to one dear friend I"ve got--her who persuaded me to be a church member. But what I"ve always said and what I will always say is this, that I don"t believe any evil of Father, I don"t believe, I won"t ever believe he took his life. I won"t even believe he was in drink. I don"t know how he got in the river, but I"m certain it wasn"t so. He was a weak man, was Father, I"ve never denied he was a weak man. But a harder working man than he was never lived. He worried, anyone would have worried seeing the worries he had. The shop wasn"t paying as it was; often we never tasted meat for weeks together, and then there came one of these Internationals, giving overweight and underselling...."
"One of these Internationals?"
"Yes, I don"t suppose you"ve ever heard of them. They"re in the poorer neighbourhoods chiefly. They sell teas and things mostly now but they began as bakers" shops and what they did was to come into a place and undersell until all the old shops were ruined and shut up. That was what they tried to do and Father hadn"t no more chance amongst them than a mouse in a trap.... It was just like being run over. All the trade that stayed with us after a bit was Bad Debts. You can"t blame people I suppose for going where they get more and pay less, and it wasn"t till we"d all gone right away to Haggerston that they altered things and put the prices up again. Of course Father lost heart and all that. He didn"t know what to do, he"d sunk all he had in the shop; he just sat and moped about. Really,--he was pitiful. He wasn"t able to sleep; he used to get up at nights and go about downstairs. Mother says she found him once sweeping out the bakehouse at two o"clock in the morning. He got it into his head that getting up like that would help him. But I don"t believe and I won"t believe he wouldn"t have seen it through if he could. Not to my dying day will I believe that...."
Lady Harman reflected. "But couldn"t he have got work again--as a baker?"
"It"s hard after you"ve had a shop. You see all the younger men"ve come on. They know the new ways. And a man who"s had a shop and failed, he"s lost heart. And these stores setting up make everything drivinger. They do things a different way. They make it harder for everyone."
Both Lady Harman and Susan Burnet reflected in silence for a few seconds upon the International Stores. The sewing woman was the first to speak.
"Things like that," she said, "didn"t ought to be. One shop didn"t ought to be allowed to set out to ruin another. It isn"t fair trading, it"s a sort of murder. It oughtn"t to be allowed. How was father to know?..."
"There"s got to be compet.i.tion," said Lady Harman.
"I don"t call that compet.i.tion," said Susan Burnet.
"But,--I suppose they give people cheaper bread."
"They do for a time. Then when they"ve killed you they do what they like.... Luke--he"s one of those who"ll say anything--well, he used to say it was a regular Monopoly. But it"s hard on people who"ve set out to live honest and respectable and bring up a family plain and decent to be pushed out of the way like that."
"I suppose it is," said Lady Harman.