Burgage Manor, [Thursday], March 22d, 1804.
Although, My ever Dear Augusta, I have hitherto appeared remiss in replying to your kind and affectionate letters; yet I hope you will not attribute my neglect to a want of affection, but rather to a shyness naturally inherent in my Disposition. I will now endeavour as amply as lies in my power to repay your kindness, and for the Future I hope you will consider me not only as _a Brother_ but as your warmest and most affectionate _Friend_, and if ever Circ.u.mstances should require it your _protector_. Recollect, My Dearest Sister, that you are _the nearest relation_ I have in _the world both by the ties of Blood_ and _affection_. If there is anything in which I can serve you, you have only to mention it; Trust to your Brother, and be a.s.sured he will never betray your confidence. When You see my Cousin and future Brother George Leigh, [2] tell him that I already consider him as my Friend, for whoever is beloved by you, my amiable Sister, will always be equally Dear to me.
I arrived here today at 2 o"clock after a fatiguing Journey, I found my Mother perfectly well. She desires to be kindly remembered to you; as she is just now Gone out to an a.s.sembly, I have taken the first opportunity to write to you, I hope she will not return immediately; for if she was to take it into her head to peruse my epistle, there is one part of it which would produce from her a panegyric on _a friend of yours_, not at all agreeable to me, and I fancy, _not particularly delightful to you_. If you see Lord Sidney Osborne [3] I beg you will remember me to him; I fancy he has almost forgot me by this time, for it is rather more than a year Since I had the pleasure of Seeing him.--Also remember me to poor old Murray; [4] tell him we will see that something is to be done for him, for _while I live he shall never be abandoned In his old Age_. Write to me Soon, my Dear Augusta, And do not forget to love me, In the meantime, I remain, more than words can express, your ever sincere, affectionate
Brother and Friend,
BYRON.
P.S. Do not forget to knit the purse you promised me, Adieu my beloved Sister.
[Footnote: 1. The Hon. Augusta Byron, Byron"s half-sister (January, 1783-November, 1851), was the daughter of Captain John Byron by his first wife, Amelia d"Arcy (died 1784), only child of the last Earl of Holderness, Baroness Conyers in her own right, the divorced wife of Francis, Marquis of Carmarthen, subsequently fifth Duke of Leeds. After the return of Captain and Mrs. Byron to London early in 1788, she was brought up by her grandmother, the Countess of Holderness. When the latter died, Augusta Byron divided her time between her half-sister, Lady Mary Osborne, who married, July 16, 1801, Lord Pelham, subsequently (1805) Earl of Chichester; her half-brother George, who succeeded his father as sixth Duke of Leeds in 1799; her cousin, the Earl of Carlisle; and General and Mrs. Harcourt. From their houses her letters during the period 1803-7 are written. In 1807 she married her first cousin, Colonel George Leigh of the Tenth Dragoons, the son of General Charles Leigh, by Frances, daughter of Admiral the Hon. John Byron. By her husband, who was a friend of the Prince Regent and well known in society, she was the mother of seven children. Their home was at Newmarket, till, in April, 1818, they were granted apartments in Flag Court, St. James"s Palace, where she died in November, 1851.
Augusta Byron seems scarcely to have seen her brother between his infancy and 1802. Lady Holderness and Mrs. Byron were not on friendly terms, and it was not till the former"s death that any intimacy was renewed between the brother and sister. Writing on October 18, 1801, to Augusta Byron, Mrs. Byron says, in allusion to the death of Lady Holderness,
"As I wish to bury what is past in _oblivion_, I shall avoid all reflections on a person now no more; my opinion of yourself I have suspended for some years; the time is now arrived when I shall form a very _decided_ one. I take up my pen now, however, to condole with you on the melancholy event that has happened, to offer you every consolation in my power, to a.s.sure you of the inalterable regard and friendship of myself and son. We will be extremely happy if ever we can be of any service to you, now or at any future period. I take it upon me to answer for him; although he knows so little of you, he often mentions you to me in the most affectionate manner, indeed the goodness of his heart and amiable disposition is such that your being his sister, had he never seen you, would be a sufficient claim upon him and ensure you every attention in his power to bestow.
Ah, Augusta, need I a.s.sure you that you will ever be dear to me as the Daughter of the man I tenderly loved, as the sister of my beloved, my darling Boy, and I take G.o.d to witness you _once_ was dear to me on your own account, and may be so _again_. I still recollect with a degree of horror the many _sleepless_ nights, and days of _agony_, I have pa.s.sed by your bedside drowned in tears, while you lay insensible and at the gates of death. Your recovery certainly was wonderful, and thank G.o.d I did my duty. These days you cannot remember, but I never will forget them ... Your brother is at Harrow School, and, if you wish to see him, I have now no desire to keep you asunder."
From 1802 till Byron"s death, Augusta took in him the interest of an elder sister. Writing to Hanson (June 17, 1804), she says--
"Pray write me a line and mention all you hear of my dear Brother: he was a most delightful correspondent while he remained in Nottinghamshire: but I can"t obtain a single line from Harrow. I was much struck with his _general improvement_; it was beyond the expectations raised by what you had told me, and his letters gave me the most excellent opinion of both his _Head_ and _Heart_."
In this tone the letters are continued (see extracts p. 39; p. 45, note 1; and p. 97 [Letter 48], [Foot]note 1 [further down]).
From the end of 1805, with some interruptions, and less regularity, the correspondence between brother and sister was maintained to the end of Byron"s life. To Augusta, then Mrs. Leigh, Byron sent a presentation copy of "Childe Harold", with the inscription:
"To Augusta, my dearest sister, and my best friend, who has ever loved me much better than I deserved, this volume is presented by her father"s son and most affectionate brother."
She was the G.o.d-mother of Byron"s daughter Augusta Ada, born December 10, 1815. In January, 1816, when Lady Byron was still with her husband, she writes of and to Mrs. Leigh:
"In this at least, I _am_ "truth itself," when I say that, whatever the situation may be, there is no one whose society is dearer to me, or can contribute more to my happiness."
Lady Byron left Byron on January 15, 1816. Writing to Mrs. Leigh from Kirby Mallory, she speaks of her as her "best comforter," notices her absolute unselfishness, and says that Augusta"s presence in Byron"s house in Piccadilly is her "great comfort" (Lady Byron"s letters to Mrs.
Leigh, January 16 and January 23, 1816, quoted in the "Quarterly Review"
for October, 1869, p. 414). Through Mrs. Leigh pa.s.sed many communications between Byron and Lady Byron after the separation. To her, Byron, in 1816 and 1817, wrote the two sets of "Stanzas to Augusta," the "Epistle to Augusta," and the Journal of his journey through the Alps, "which contains all the germs of "Manfred" (letter to Murray, August, 1817). She was in his thoughts on the Rhine, and in the third canto of "Childe Harold":--
"But one thing want these banks of Rhine, Thy gentle hand to clasp in mine."
To her he was writing a letter at Missolonghi (February 23, 1824), which he did not live to finish, "My dearest Augusta, I received a few days ago your and Lady Byron"s report of Ada"s health." He carried with him everywhere the pocket Bible which she had given him. "I have a Bible,"
he told Dr. Kennedy ("Conversations"), "which my sister gave me, who is an excellent woman, and I read it very often." His last articulate words were "My sister--my child."
Several volumes of Mrs. Leigh"s commonplace books are in existence, filled with extracts mostly on religious topics. She was, wrote the late Earl Stanhope, in a letter quoted in the "Quarterly Review" (October, 1869, p. 421), "very fond" of talking about Byron.
"She was," he continues, "extremely unprepossessing in her person and appearance--more like a nun than anything, and never can have had the least pretension to beauty. I thought her shy and sensitive to a fault in her mind and character."
Frances, Lady Sh.e.l.ley, who died in January, 1873, and was intimately acquainted with Byron and his contemporaries, speaks of her as a "Dowdy-Goody."
"I have seen," she writes
(see "Quarterly Review", October, 1869, p. 421, quoting from a letter signed E. M. U., which appeared in the "Times" for September II, 1869),
"a great deal of Mrs. Leigh (Augusta), having pa.s.sed some days with her and Colonel Leigh, for my husband"s shooting near Newmarket, when Lord Byron was in the house, and, as she told me, was writing "The Corsair", to my great astonishment, for it was a wretched small house, full of her ill-trained children, who were always running up and down stairs, and going into "uncle"s" bedroom, where he remained all the morning."]
[Footnote 2: See preceding note.]
[Footnote 3: Francis, fifth Duke of Leeds, married, October 14, 1788, as his second wife, Miss Catherine Anguish, by whom he had two children: the eldest, a son, Sydney G.o.dolphin Osborne, was born December 16, 1789.]
[Footnote 4: Joe Murray had been for many years in the employment of William, fifth Lord Byron. At his master"s death, in 1798, he was taken into the service of the Duke of Leeds.
"I saw poor Joseph Murray the other night," writes Augusta Byron to Hanson (June 17, 1804), "who wishes me particularly to apply to Col.
Leigh, to get him into some City Charity which the Prince of Wales is at the head of.
I cannot understand what he means, nor can any body else, and therefore, as he said he was advised by you, I think it better to apply to you on the subject. I"m sure Col. Leigh would be happy to oblige him; but in general he dislikes _asking favours_ of the _Prince_, and this present moment is a bad one to chuse for the purpose, as H.R.H. is so much taken up with _public affairs_. I am very anxious about poor Joseph, and would almost do anything to serve him. I fear he is too old and infirm to go to service again."
Three years later (March 19, 1807), Augusta Byron writes again to Hanson:--
"I have just had a pitiful note from poor old Murray, telling me of his dismissal from the d.u.c.h.ess of Leeds; but he says he does not leave her till June. I therefore hope something may in the mean time be done for him. He requests me to write word of it to my Brother. I shall certainly comply with his wishes, and send _two lines_ on that subject to Southwell, where I conclude he is."
Byron made Murray an allowance of 20 a year (see Letter 83), took him, as soon as he could, into his service, and was careful, as he promises, to provide that he should not be "abandoned in his old age." His affection for Murray is marked by the postscript to the letter to Mrs.
Byron of June 22, 1809 (see also "Life", pp. 74, 121); as also by his draft will of 1811, in which he leaves Murray 50 a year for life.
8.--To the Hon. Augusta Byron.
[63, Portland Place, London.]
Southwell, March 26th, 1804.
I received your affectionate letter, my ever Dear Sister, yesterday and I now hasten to comply with your injunction by answering it as soon as possible. Not, my Dear Girl, that it can be in the least irksome to me to write to you, on the Contrary it will always prove my Greatest pleasure, but I am sorry that I am afraid my correspondence will not prove the most entertaining, for I have nothing that I can relate to you, except my affection for you, which I can never sufficiently express, therefore I should tire you, before I had half satisfied myself. Ah, How unhappy I have hitherto been in being so long separated from so amiable a Sister! but fortune has now sufficiently atoned by discovering to me a relation whom I love, a Friend in whom I can confide. In both these lights, my Dear Augusta, I shall ever look upon you, and I hope you will never find your Brother unworthy of your affection and Friendship.
I am as you may imagine a little dull here; not being on terms of intimacy with Lord Grey [1] I avoid Newstead, and my resources of amus.e.m.e.nt are Books, and writing to my Augusta, which, wherever I am, will always const.i.tute my Greatest pleasure. I am not reconciled to Lord Grey, _and I never will_. He was once my _Greatest Friend_, my reasons for ceasing that Friendship are such as I cannot explain, not even to you, my Dear Sister, (although were they to be made known to any body, you would be the first,) but they will ever remain hidden in my own breast.
They are Good ones, however, for although I am _violent_ I am not _capricious_ in my _attachments_. My mother disapproves of my quarrelling with him, but if she knew the cause (which she never will know,) She would reproach me no more. He Has forfeited all _t.i.tle to my esteem_, but I hold him in too much _contempt_ ever _to hate him_.
My mother desires to be kindly remembered to you. I shall soon be in town to resume my studies at Harrow; I will certainly call upon you in my way up. Present my respects to Mrs. Harcourt; [2] I am Glad to hear that I am in her Good Graces for I shall always esteem her on account of her behaviour to you, my Dear Girl. Pray tell me If you see Lord S.
Osborne, and how he is; what little I know of him I like very much and If we were better acquainted I doubt not I should like him still better. Do not forget to tell me how Murray is. As to your Future prospects, my Dear Girl, _may they be happy_! I am sure you deserve Happiness and if _you_ do not meet with it I shall begin to think it is "a bad world we live in." Write to me soon. I am impatient to hear from you. G.o.d bless you, My amiable Augusta, I remain,
Your ever affectionate Brother and Friend,