THIEVING FEAR.
Ramsey Campbell.
For Jeannie and Tony without a grain of gluten.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS.
As usual, Jenny had to suffer the book with me as it crawled into being. Mat and Sharika put up one of my characters in their flat, while another borrowed some elements from Tammy"s and Sam"s. Parts of the first draft were written in Venice (where I fear the hotel room afforded little writing s.p.a.ce), in the Byzantium Apartments in Troulos on the island of Skiathos, at Fantasycon in Nottingham, the Festival of Fantastic Films in Manchester and the H. P. Lovecraft Film Festival in Portland, Oregon. My thanks to Steve and Justin of the Portland White House for their hospitality a what they call a bed and breakfast I"d describe as a small and very splendid hotel a and to Andrew and Linda Migliore of the Festival for much stimulating fun. I also have a special thank you to Huw Lines for the cry.
THIEVING FEAR.
TEN YEARS EARLIER.
"Good night," Ellen called to Hugh, "brilliant teacher."
A boat chugged on the river beyond the cliffs before Hugh said "Night" from the brothers" tent as if he wasn"t sure his cousin Ellen had meant him.
"Good night, famous artist," Ellen called to Rory.
The sound of the engine had dwindled towards the Welsh coast by the time Rory responded "Aren"t we getting too old for this?"
Charlotte wriggled around in her sleeping bag to face Ellen in the dark. "He means camping out," she said loud enough for Rory to hear.
"You mustn"t let our aunt and uncle know you think that even if you do," Ellen called to Rory.
"He won"t. Go on, say good night," urged Hugh.
"I don"t need my little bro to tell me what to do." In a voice more childish than he"d sounded when he was half his sixteen years Rory added "Nighty-night, sweet dreams."
"Don"t let him take away the magic," Charlotte murmured. "He"s only being like boys are."
"Hugh isn"t," Ellen said lower still. "Anyway, good night, equally famous writer."
"And good night, caring person," Charlotte said to Ellen.
If this sounded feeble by comparison, at least it was true. Three short stories in the school magazine and half a dozen chapters of a novel not even printed out from her computer hardly ent.i.tled Charlotte to be judged a writer, even if she might like to earn the name as much as Hugh wanted to teach and Rory, though he would never admit it, to be hailed a painter. "Wake up older," she called.
"And wiser," said Hugh.
"And prettier," Ellen supplied.
"And with all your eyes open."
"How many of those have you got, Rory?"
"Watch it, Hugh, or we"ll be thinking you"ve got an imagination."
"Now, boys," Ellen said, "don"t spoil the summer. Let"s just enjoy our lovely night."
They"d recently finished gazing at the sky while it filled with dark and stars. When Rory pointed out galaxies n.o.body else had noticed, Charlotte had suggested they were ghosts composed of light from the distant past. She might have been happy to continue lying outside on the gra.s.s if the vista of infinity hadn"t made the ground feel infirm, an impression gradually dissipating now that she was snug in her padded coc.o.o.n. At least the tents were as far from the edge of the cliff as the campers had promised Auntie Betty once she"d finished failing to persuade Rory to camp in the back garden. "We"ll look after the girls," Hugh had said in case that helped.
Charlotte was drifting into sleep as these memories grew blurred when Ellen spoke. Her voice was loose with slumber, so that it took Charlotte some moments to guess the word or words: hardly "Pendemon", since that meant as little as a dream; possibly "Pendulum" if not "Depends on . . ." She peered across the narrow s.p.a.ce between the bags and was just able to distinguish that Ellen was facing her with eyes shut tight. Even more indistinctly Ellen protested "Don"t want to see. Won"t look."
"Don"t," Charlotte advised, and might have said it louder if it would rescue Ellen from her dream. Perhaps Ellen was attached to the experience, because with an emphatic wriggle she presented her back to her cousin. "Keep it to yourself, then," Charlotte said and returned to her search for sleep.
Oddly, Ellen"s words left her feeling watched. The brothers had been silent for a while, but the darkness was finding its voices: the croak of a frog on the common, the cry of a midnight bird over the river. A breeze tried the flap of the tent before rattling a clump of gorse. Was Charlotte hearing a frog or a crow? The harsh sound was more prolonged than she would have expected from either. As Ellen stirred uneasily Charlotte took the chance to say "What do you think that is out there?"
Ellen had no view, though she expelled a breath that might have been a wordless plea for her to be left alone. Perhaps Charlotte"s question had come close to rousing her, unless the noise close by on the common had. In a moment the pair of croaks was repeated. Could the speaker be uttering them behind a hand? That would explain their stifled quality, and speaker seemed to be the right word, since she could imagine that the repet.i.tion contained two syllables. It sounded like her name. "All right, Mr Punch," she called. "Let"s have those dreams you were talking about."
She was turning over when he repeated the utterance. Was Hugh asleep? She would have expected him to second her request if it had been audible in the boys" tent. "Shush now, Rory," she said loud enough to make Ellen shift with a rustle of the fabric of her bag, but he scarcely let her finish before he croaked her name again. If she remonstrated any louder she might waken Ellen. She eased the zip down on her sleeping bag until she was able to slide out and untie the bow that held shut the flap of Betty"s and Albert"s tent. As she ducked through the opening and raised her head she was greeted by her name.
Now she understood why Hugh hadn"t intervened. Rory wasn"t speaking from their tent but somewhere closer to the cliff. The trouble was that he had nowhere to hide on the expanse of turfy common. He must be lurking over the edge, beyond which the black river underlined the Welsh coast that glittered as if a section of the sky had fallen to earth. "I know where you are," she called, impatient with the joke. "Come back before we both catch cold."
In fact the gra.s.s beneath her bare feet seemed no colder than the inside of the sleeping bag had been. Might Rory be sickening for something, though? When he spoke her name again as if he couldn"t think or couldn"t bother thinking of another word, she realised why she"d mistaken his voice for a crow"s before she was quite awake; it kept catching in his throat, perhaps on phlegm. "Give it a rest," she urged. "You don"t want to fall down the cliff."
This put her in mind of the girl who had thrown herself off, unless she"d slipped while running along the edge nearby, above the rocks. According to their uncle"s version of last year"s local newspaper report, she had been bullied at school a at least, she"d told her parents that she couldn"t stand how she was being watched. Charlotte felt as if she were gaining years of maturity to compensate for the ones he seemed happy to give up, because she was striding across the blackened gra.s.s to find him rather than abandoning him to his silly fate. She was almost at the cliff when she faltered, throwing up her arms for balance or from frustration. The clogged voice had named her yet again, but it was at her back.
As she twisted around, the sky seemed to reel like a whirlpool br.i.m.m.i.n.g with stars. How had he managed to sneak past her? The common was deserted all the way to the twin elongated pyramids of the tents, and beyond them for at least a quarter of a mile to a dim hedge bordering a dimmer field. "Throwing your voice now?" she suggested before realising how he could. No wonder it was so harsh and indistinct if he was using a cheap microphone. Of course he must have hidden a receiver somewhere in the gra.s.s.
It was almost at her feet. By the time it finished dragging out her name again she was within inches of it. The voice sounded more congested than ever, so that she wondered if soil had got into the receiver. Her T-shirt rode up her thighs as she crouched, having distinguished a gap in the turf where Rory had cut into it to hide the receiver. She dug her fingers into the overgrown gap and lifted the large square of turf.
More than turf rose to meet her. As she teetered on her heels, Charlotte only just kept hold of the metal object she"d found. She straightened up and did her best to bring it with her, but it was embedded in earth or turf or some more solid item. She stooped to tug at it with both hands, and almost toppled into blackness. She wasn"t holding a receiver. It was the handle of a trapdoor.
She let go as she stumbled backwards, and the trapdoor fell open with a thud. A smell of earth seeped out of the blackness as she tried to see what she"d opened up. The sky seemed to blacken and sag with her concentration, but she could see nothing beyond the square outline without standing over the hole. She planted her feet on either side of a corner opposite the trapdoor and peered down.
The hole was full of blackness. She thought there might be steps, except that the dim slope looked too featureless, more like a heap of earth. She was able to discern two handfuls of pebbles separated by a slightly larger pair of stones some way below ground level, but she was distracted from examining them once she observed that the handle was on top of the supine trapdoor. It had been on the inside, and so the door must have been partly open when she"d groped underneath. As she pondered this she heard her name.
The voice sounded close to falling to bits. She could almost have imagined that it or his breath was catching on the substance of the speaker"s throat. If she meant to retrieve Rory"s device she would have to climb into the hole. She might have left the receiver to rot if the slow thick crumbling voice had given her a chance to think or feel. It was intoning her name without a pause, and growing so loud that she couldn"t understand why it hadn"t roused Ellen or Hugh. The vibration was shifting the earth where the receiver was buried, a few inches lower down the slope than the collection of pebbles. It was even dislodging the earth around the larger pair, which appeared to swell up from the dimness.
Charlotte peered at them as she gripped the stony edge of the hole in order to descend and took hold of the handle of the trapdoor. She was taking her first step into the dark when she noticed that the stones weren"t just moving but widening. They were eyes, watching her without a hint of a blink. The smaller pebbles were stirring too, poking up to reveal they were fingertips. The discoloured hands were reaching to help her down or drag her into the earth.
As she recoiled the ground seemed to give beneath her. She was terrified that it was spilling into the hole until she realised her bare feet had lost their purchase on the gra.s.s. One skidded over the edge and met a bunch of cold objects that responded by writhing eagerly. She kicked out and flung herself away from the hole, almost sprawling on her back. She was thrusting her hands under the trapdoor to lever it up when the voice repeated her name.
The thud of the trapdoor laid it to rest, but its clogged yet mocking tone suggested she hadn"t escaped. The panic that she"d barely managed to suppress overwhelmed her, and she backed away so fast her ankles knocked together. She no longer knew where the trapdoor was. She had no idea where she was going except backwards until, with a swiftness that s.n.a.t.c.hed all her breath, the common vanished together with the further landscape of fields and distant houses as if earth had closed over her eyes. She had backed off the edge of the cliff.
Its side rushed up past her like a ma.s.s of smoke, and then her feet struck ground, too soon. She was on a ledge close to the top, which meant she had a long way to fall. She staggered against the cliff to rest her face and hands against the clay while she tried to be sure of her balance. The ledge was dismayingly narrow as well as slippery with sand. "Can someone come?" she cried before she had time to wonder who might respond. "Can anyone hear?"
She could a a m.u.f.fled restless sound, and then a louder and more purposeful version. She wasn"t sure it was made by the flap of a tent until Ellen called somewhat sleepily "Was that you, Charlotte? Where are you?"
"Here," Charlotte shouted and turned her shaky head to see. It wasn"t a ledge, it was a path that led straight to the top. As she scrambled upwards, a shape loomed above her. "What on earth are you doing down there?" Ellen said. "Were you sleepwalking?"
Charlotte didn"t answer until her cousin took her hand and helped her over the edge. The common stretched as blank as innocence to the tents. She murmured her thanks and stayed close to Ellen while they padded across the gra.s.s. She could see no sign of a hidden trapdoor in the area where she remembered it to have been, and how could none of her cousins have been disturbed by a voice as loud as the one she"d seemed to hear? "I must have been," she decided and instantly felt better.
This appeared to be Hugh"s cue to call "Where are they? Which way did they go?"
"Listen to it," Ellen said with an affectionate laugh. "It"s a good job we didn"t have to rely on the boys, isn"t it, Charlotte?"
"What"s wrong?" Rory demanded. "We were asleep. I was down the house."
"Charlotte"s been walking in her sleep." Ellen led her into the tent and waited while she wriggled into her sleeping bag. "Let"s get you snug so you can"t wander off again," she said, zipping the bag up tight. For a moment, until she controlled herself, Charlotte found the tent and the bag and Ellen"s concern almost as oppressive as the notion of climbing down into the dark.
ONE.
"Shall we walk along the beach for some more exercise?" Ellen said.
They were at the end of the road that led from Thurstaston to the cliff. Above the Welsh coast the sky was padded with white clouds that kept displaying and repacking the sun. As sunlight outdistanced a ma.s.s of shadow that raced across the common alongside the road, the gra.s.s seemed to breathe the light in. A child cried out beyond the th.o.r.n.y hedge that had just turned more luminously green, and it wasn"t until a man shouted "Shemp" that Charlotte realised the child had been startled by a dog. By then Hugh had told Ellen "Good idea before we have to drive."
Ellen raised her almost invisible eyebrows and then narrowed her bluish eyes and pressed her full lips together as if searching for a way to render her round face less plump. "You"re supposed to say I don"t need any exercise, Hugh."
His long face tried on an apologetic smile as he pa.s.sed a hand over his cropped scalp before patting his prominent stomach. "I meant I did. You need to keep fit in my job."
Rory shook his head, wagging his black ponytail. His face was even longer than his brother"s and bonier as well, which emphasised his large sharp nose. His habitual wry but weary grin, so faint it was close to secretive, scarcely wavered as he said "Say what you see or you"ll never be a writer."
"I"m not one," Hugh said as though he"d failed to grasp that Rory wasn"t addressing him. "You"re the artistic lot. I"m Supermarket Man."
"That"s art if you do it right," Rory said. "Everything is."
"You"re just as important as the rest of us, Hugh." Perhaps in a bid to heighten his tentative smile, Ellen added "More than I can be just now."
"You"ve been crucial to people who needed it," Charlotte a.s.sured her. "So are we having our last walk on the beach?"
Rory"s shrug might have been intended to dislodge her wistfulness. He turned fast along the path that skirted a caravan park. An a.s.sortment of steps up which several large dogs and their less energetic owners were scrambling led to the beach, where the tide had pulled the river back from the cliffs. Halfway down Ellen glanced around at Charlotte, then hurried after the brothers, her slightly more than shoulder-length blonde hair swaying as if to deny she"d had a question for her cousin. They were all on the beach by the time she murmured "I shouldn"t think anyone"s had time to look at my little novel."
"Not so little," Hugh protested.
"Not so novel either," Rory said.
"You"ve been reading it, then," Ellen said like a gentle rebuke.
"Some of it," he said and glanced away from the unfurling of a swathe of windblown sand. "I liked the bit where you had some old character muttering silently. Good trick if you can bring it off."
"I thought it was pretty original," Hugh said. "The whole book, I mean."
"You"ve never heard of anybody having nightmares that turned real before."
"Not old folk giving them to people who mistreat them." Hugh bit his lip before asking Ellen "It couldn"t give you any problems if someone you didn"t want to hear about it heard about it, could it?"
"Gosh, that"s a mouthful. Who would they be?"
"They couldn"t say at the industrial tribunal you"d been making stories up about old people being treated badly, could they?"
"It would have to be published first, Hugh. I"m sure they"ll see I was telling the truth."
"You haven"t said what you thought of it yet," Rory told Charlotte.
She"d kept feeling that the conversation was about to converge on her. "To be honest, Ellen a"
"That"s what I want you to be. I absolutely do."
"I think it needs some work."
"You"re saying you can publish it if she works on it?" Hugh enthused. "That"s great news, isn"t it, Ellen?"
"I don"t know if she"s quite saying that," Ellen said and gazed at an approaching rush of sunlight that snagged on clumps of sedge.
"I"d have to see your revisions before I could be too definite. I"ll email you when I"m back at my desk."
"That"s still great news, isn"t it?" Hugh insisted. "You won"t be paying her anything on account yet then, Charlotte."
"No contract for the first book till it"s publishable, that"s the directive that came round last month."
"Even for family?" Perhaps sensing that he"d gone too far, Hugh made haste to add "I was only wondering if you were hard up, Ellen. You could have my thousand and pay me back whenever you can."
"You can have mine too by all means," Charlotte said.
"It wouldn"t buy her much in London," Rory seemed to feel he should rea.s.sure Ellen. "Hardly worth getting the train for."
Charlotte thought that was a remark too far. "I didn"t come for the will," she said, "I came for the funeral."
"Then you"re no better than the rest of us. You can stick my handout in the bank as well, Ellen. I"d rather still have Albert and Betty, and I don"t need it for the stuff I"m playing at."
"You"re all too generous. You treat yourselves and don"t worry about me. I"ll make do if I have to."
Charlotte refrained from pointing out to Rory that she"d spoken at the funeral a Albert"s, who had died less than four months after his wife. Some of his colleagues had reminisced about working with him at the library to which he"d donated his collection of old books, and a bearded guitarist rendered a twenty-first-century folk song about giving oneself back to the earth. Other librarians read favourite pa.s.sages of Albert"s from The Pickwick Papers and Three Men in a Boat, earning muted amus.e.m.e.nt that sounded dutiful, and then it had been Charlotte"s turn. She"d kept panicking while she rehea.r.s.ed the eulogy in the shower or on the roof terrace above her flat, but as she climbed into the pulpit she"d seen that she just needed to talk to her cousins. She reminded them of the word games their uncle had relished inventing, the one where you had to say an even longer sentence than the previous player, and the game of adding words to a sentence spoken backwards, and the conversations made up of words in reverse, when Betty had vacillated between tears of frustration and of helpless mirth . . . "Rebmemer, rebmemer," Charlotte had finished, prompting mostly puzzled looks and a few guarded smiles from her uncle"s friends and token laughter from her cousins. The all-purpose priest had brought the proceedings to an end with a Cherokee homily, and as curtains closed off the exhibition of the coffin while speakers emitted one of Albert"s favourite Beatles ditties, the congregation had vacated the unadorned chapel to accommodate the next shift of mourners. Charlotte and her cousins had to represent the family outside the crematorium, since their various parents were either abroad or estranged from Albert since he"d closed into himself after his wife"s death. Charlotte had felt uncomfortably presumptuous, especially since the rest of the occasion was so lacking in ritual. "We all came, that"s what matters," she belatedly said.
"It"s like we"ve never been away," Hugh said. "Nothing"s changed along here except us."