"I propose to defend my rights, sir," murmured Uncle Silas, very grim. "I"m not without an opinion, though you are."
You seem to think, sir, that I have a pleasure in annoying you; you are quite wrong. I hate annoying anyone--const.i.tutionally--I _hate_ it; but don"t you see, sir, the position I"m placed in? I wish I could please everyone, and do my duty."
Uncle Silas bowed and smiled.
"I"ve brought with me the Scotch steward from Tolkingden, _your_ estate, Miss, and if you let us we will visit the spot and make a note of what we observe, that is, a.s.suming that you admit waste, and merely question our law."
"If you please, sir, you and your Scotchman shall do _no such thing_; and, bearing in mind that I neither deny nor admit anything, you will please further never more to present yourself, under any pretext whatsoever, either in this house or on the grounds of Bartram-Haugh, during my lifetime."
Uncle Silas rose up with the same gla.s.sy smile and scowl, in token that the interview was ended.
"Good-bye, sir," said Doctor Bryerly, with a sad and thoughtful air, and hesitating for a moment, he said to me, "Do you think, Miss, you could afford me a word in the hall?"
"Not a word, sir," snarled Uncle Silas, with a white flash from his eyes.
There was a pause.
"Sit where you are, Maud."
Another pause.
"If you have anything to say to my ward, sir, you will please to say it _here_."
Doctor Bryerly"s dark and homely face was turned on me with an expression of unspeakable compa.s.sion.
"I was going to say, that if you think of any way in which I can be of the least service, Miss, I"m ready to act, that"s all; mind, _any_ way."
He hesitated, looking at me with the same expression as if he had something more to say; but he only repeated--
"That"s all, Miss."
"Won"t you shake hands, Doctor Bryerly, before you go?" I said, eagerly approaching him.
Without a smile, with the same sad anxiety in his face, with his mind, as it seemed to me, on something else, and irresolute whether to speak it or be silent, he took my fingers in a very cold hand, and holding it so, and slowly shaking it, his grave and troubled glance unconsciously rested on Uncle Silas"s face, while in a sad tone and absent way he said--
"Good-bye, Miss."
From before that sad gaze my uncle averted his strange eyes quickly, and looked, oddly, to the window.
In a moment more Doctor Bryerly let my hand go with a sigh, and with an abrupt little nod to me, he left the room; and I heard that dismallest of sounds, the retreating footsteps of a true friend, _lost_.
"Lead us not into temptation; if we pray so, we must not mock the eternal Majesty of Heaven by walking into temptation of our own accord."
This oracular sentence was not uttered by my uncle until Doctor Bryerly had been gone at least five minutes.
"I"ve forbid him my house, Maud--first, because his perfectly unconscious insolence tries my patience nearly beyond endurance; and again, because I have heard unfavourable reports of him. On the question of right which he disputes, I am perfectly informed. I am your tenant, my dear niece; when I am gone you will learn how _scrupulous_ I have been; you will see how, under the pressure of the most agonising pecuniary difficulties, the terrific penalty of a misspent youth, I have been careful never by a hair"s breadth to transgress the strict line of my legal privileges; alike, as your tenant, Maud, and as your guardian; how, amid frightful agitations, I have kept myself, by the miraculous strength and grace vouchsafed me--_pure_.
"The world," he resumed after a short pause, "has no faith in any man"s conversion; it never forgets what he was, it never believes him anything better, it is an inexorable and stupid judge. What I was I will describe in blacker terms, and with more heartfelt detestation, than my traducers--a reckless prodigal, a G.o.dless profligate. Such I was; what I am, I am. If I had no hope beyond this world, of all men most miserable; but with that hope, a sinner saved."
Then he waxed eloquent and mystical. I think his Swedenborgian studies had crossed his notions of religion with strange lights. I never could follow him quite in these excursions into the region of symbolism. I only recollect that he talked of the deluge and the waters of Mara, and said, "I am washed--I am sprinkled," and then, pausing, bathed his thin temples and forehead with eau de Cologne; a process which was, perhaps, suggested by his imagery of sprinkling and so forth.
Thus refreshed, he sighed and smiled, and pa.s.sed to the subject of Doctor Bryerly.
"Of Doctor Bryerly, I know that he is sly, that he loves money, was born poor, and makes nothing by his profession. But he possesses many thousand pounds, under my poor brother"s will, of _your money_; and he has glided with, of course a modest "nolo episcopari," into the acting trusteeship, with all its mult.i.tudinous opportunities, of your immense property. That is not doing so badly for a visionary Swedenborgian. Such a man _must_ prosper. But if he expected to make money of me, he is disappointed.
Money, however, he will make of his trusteeship, as you will see. It is a dangerous resolution. But if he will seek the life of Dives, the worst I wish him is to find the death of Lazarus. But whether, like Lazarus, he be borne of angels into Abraham"s bosom, or, like the rich man, only dies and is buried, and _the rest_, neither living nor dying do I desire his company."
Uncle Silas here seemed suddenly overtaken by exhaustion. He leaned back with a ghastly look, and his lean features glistened with the dew of faintness. I screamed for Wyat. But he soon recovered sufficiently to smile his odd smile, and with it and his frown, nodded and waved me away.
CHAPTER XLVIII
_QUESTION AND ANSWER_
My uncle, after all, was not ill that day, after the strange fashion of his malady, be it what it might. Old Wyat repeated in her sour laconic way that there was "nothing to speak of amiss with him." But there remained with me a sense of pain and fear. Doctor Bryerly, notwithstanding my uncle"s sarcastic reflections, remained, in my estimation, a true and wise friend.
I had all my life been accustomed to rely upon others, and here, haunted by many unavowed and ill-defined alarms and doubts, the disappearance of an active and able friend caused my heart to sink.
Still there remained my dear Cousin Monica, and my pleasant and trusted friend, Lord Ilbury; and in less than a week arrived an invitation from Lady Mary to the Grange, for me and Milly, to meet Lady Knollys. It was accompanied, she told me, by a note from Lord Ilbury to my uncle, supporting her request; and in the afternoon I received a message to attend my uncle in his room.
"An invitation from Lady Mary Carysbroke for you and Milly to meet Monica Knollys; have you received it?" asked my uncle, so soon as I was seated.
Answered in the affirmative, he continued--
"Now, Maud Ruthyn, I expect the truth from you; I have been frank, so shall you. Have you ever heard me spoken ill of by Lady Knollys?"
I was quite taken aback.
I felt my cheeks flushing. I was returning his fierce cold gaze with a stupid stare, and remained dumb.
"Yes, Maud, you _have_."
I looked down in silence.
"I _know_ it; but it is right you should answer; have you or have you not?"
I had to clear my voice twice or thrice. There was a kind of spasm in my throat.
"I am trying to recollect," I said at last.
"_Do_ recollect," he replied imperiously.
There was a little interval of silence. I would have given the world to be, on any conditions, anywhere else in the world.
"Surely, Maud, you don"t wish to deceive your guardian? Come, the question is a plain one, and I know the truth already. I ask you again--have you ever heard me spoken ill of by Lady Knollys?"
"Lady Knollys," I said, half articulately," speaks very freely, and often half in jest; but," I continued, observing something menacing in his face, "I have heard her express disapprobation of some things you have done."
"Come, Maud," he continued, in a stern, though still a low key, "did she not insinuate that charge--then, I suppose, in a state of incubation, the other day presented here full-fledged, with beak and claws, by that scheming apothecary--the statement that I was defrauding you by cutting down timber upon the grounds?"