"She certainly did mention the circ.u.mstance; but she also argued that it might have been through ignorance of the extent of your rights."
"Come, come, Maud, you must not prevaricate, girl. I _will_ have it. Does she not habitually speak disparagingly of me, in your presence, and _to_ you? _Answer_."
I hung my head.
"Yes or no?"
"Well, perhaps so--yes," I faltered, and burst into tears.
"There, don"t cry; it may well shock you. Did she not, to your knowledge, say the same things in presence of my child Millicent? I know it, I repeat--there is no use in hesitating; and I command you to answer."
Sobbing, I told the truth.
"Now sit still, while I write my reply."
He wrote, with the scowl and smile so painful to witness, as he looked down upon the paper, and then he placed the note before me--
"Read that, my dear."
It began--
"MY DEAR LADY KNOLLYS.--You have favoured me with a note, adding your request to that of Lord Ilbury, that I should permit my ward and my daughter to avail themselves of Lady Mary"s invitation. Being perfectly cognisant of the ill-feeling you have always and unaccountably cherished toward me, and also of the terms in which you have had the delicacy and the conscience to speak of me before and to my child and my ward, I can only express my amazement at the modesty of your request, while peremptorily refusing it. And I shall conscientiously adopt effectual measures to prevent your ever again having an opportunity of endeavouring to destroy my influence and authority over my ward and my child, by direct or insinuated slander.
"Your defamed and injured kinsman,
SILAS RUTHYN."
I was stunned; yet what could I plead against the blow that was to isolate me? I wept aloud, with my hands clasped, looking on the marble face of the old man.
Without seeming to hear, he folded and sealed his note, and then proceeded to answer Lord Ilbury.
When that note was written, he placed it likewise before me, and I read it also through. It simply referred him to Lady Knollys "for an explanation of the unhappy circ.u.mstances which compelled him to decline an invitation which it would have made his niece and his daughter so happy to accept."
"You see, my dear Maud, how frank I am with you," he said, waving the open note, which I had just read, slightly before he folded it. "I think I may ask you to reciprocate my candour."
Dismissed from this interview, I ran to Milly, who burst into tears from sheer disappointment, so we wept and wailed together. But in my grief I think there was more reason.
I sat down to the dismal task of writing to my dear Lady Knollys. I implored her to make her peace with my uncle. I told her how frank he had been with me, and how he had shown me his sad reply to her letter. I told her of the interview to which he had himself invited me with Dr. Bryerly; how little disturbed he was by the accusation--no sign of guilt; quite the contrary, perfect confidence. I implored of her to think the best, and remembering my isolation, to accomplish a reconciliation with Uncle Silas.
"Only think," I wrote, "I only nineteen, and two years of solitude before me. What a separation!" No broken merchant ever signed the schedule of his bankruptcy with a heavier heart than did I this letter.
The griefs of youth are like the wounds of the G.o.ds--there is an ichor which heals the scars from which it flows: and thus Milly and I consoled ourselves, and next day enjoyed our ramble, our talk and readings, with a wonderful resignation to the inevitable.
Milly and I stood in the relation of _Lord Duberly_ to _Doctor Pangloss_. I was to mend her "cackleology," and the occupation amused us both. I think at the bottom of our submission to destiny lurked a hope that Uncle Silas, the inexorable, would relent, or that Cousin Monica, that siren, would win and melt him to her purpose.
Whatever comfort, however, I derived from the absence of Dudley was not to be of very long duration; for one morning, as I was amusing myself alone, with a piece of worsted work, thinking, and just at that moment not unpleasantly, of many things, my cousin Dudley entered the room.
"Back again, like a bad halfpenny, ye see. And how a" ye bin ever since, la.s.s? Purely, I warrant, be your looks. I"m jolly glad to see ye, I am; no cattle going like ye, Maud."
"I think I must ask you to let go my hand, as I can"t continue my work," I said, very stiffly, hoping to chill his enthusiasm a little.
"Anything to pleasure ye, Maud, "tain"t in my heart to refuse ye nout. I a"bin to Wolverhampton, la.s.s--jolly row there--and run over to Leamington; a"most broke my neck, faith, wi" a borrowed horse arter the dogs; ye would na care, Maud, if I broke my neck, would ye? Well, "appen, jest a little,"
he good-naturedly supplied, as I was silent.
"Little over a week since I left here, by George; and to me it"s half the almanac like; can ye guess the reason, Maud?"
"Have you seen your sister, Milly, or your father, since your return?" I asked coldly.
"_They"ll_ keep, Maud, never mind "em; it be you I want to see--it be you I wor thinkin" on a" the time. I tell ye, la.s.s, I"m all"ays a thinkin" on ye."
"I think you ought to go and see your father; you have been away, you say, some time. I don"t think it is respectful," I said, a little sharply.
"If ye bid me go I"d a"most go, but I could na quite; there"s nout on earth I would na do for you, Maud, excep" leaving you."
"And that," I said, with a petulant flush, "is the only thing on earth I would ask you to do."
"Blessed if you baint a blushin", Maud," he drawled, with an odious grin.
His stupidity was proof against everything.
"It is _too_ bad!" I muttered, with an indignant little pat of my foot and mimic stamp.
"Well, you la.s.ses be queer cattle; ye"re angry wi" me now, cos ye think I got into mischief--ye do, Maud; ye know"t, ye buxsom little fool, down there at Wolverhampton; and jest for that ye"re ready to turn me off again the minute I come back; "tisn"t fair."
"I don"t _understand_ you, sir; and I _beg_ that you"ll leave me."
"Now, didn"t I tell ye about leavin" ye, Maud? "tis the only thing I can"t compa.s.s for yer sake. I"m jest a child in yere hands, I am, ye know. I can lick a big fellah to pot as limp as a rag, by George!"--(his oaths were not really so mild)--"ye see summat o" that t"other day. Well, don"t be vexed, Maud; "twas all along o" you; ye know, I wor a bit jealous, "appen; but anyhow I can do it; and look at me here, jest a child, I say, in yer hands."
"I wish you"d go away. Have you nothing to do, and no one to see? Why _can"t_ you leave me alone, sir?"
""Cos I can"t, Maud, that"s jest why; and I wonder, Maud, how can you be so ill-natured, when you see me like this; how can ye?"
"I wish Milly would come," said I peevishly, looking toward the door.
"Well, I"ll tell you how it is, Maud. I may as well have it out. I like you better than any la.s.s that ever I saw, a deal; you"re nicer by chalks; there"s none like ye--there isn"t; and I wish you"d have me. I ha"n"t much tin--father"s run through a deal, he"s pretty well up a tree, ye know; but though I baint so rich as some folk, I"m a better man, "appen; and if ye"d take a tidy lad, that likes ye awful, and "id die for your sake, why here he is."
"What can you mean, sir?" I exclaimed, rising in indignant bewilderment.
"I mean, Maud, if ye"ll marry me, you"ll never ha" cause to complain; I"ll never let ye want for nout, nor gi"e ye a wry word."
"Actually a proposal!" I e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed, like a person speaking in a dream.
I stood with my hand on the back of a chair, staring at Dudley; and looking, I dare say, as stupefied as I felt.
"There"s a good la.s.s, ye would na deny me," said the odious creature, with one knee on the seat of the chair behind which I was standing, and attempting to place his arm lovingly round my neck.
This effectually roused me, and starting back, I stamped upon the ground with actual fury.
"What has there ever been, sir, in my conduct, words, or looks, to warrant this unparalleled audacity? But that you are as stupid as you are impertinent, brutal, and ugly, you must, long ago, sir, have seen how I dislike you. How dare you, sir? Don"t presume to obstruct me; I"m going to my uncle."