Yes, the war. The strangeness of the place names, Seoul, Pyongyang, Pusan. And the stupidity of young boys killing other young boys in jungles and rice paddies where light slanted through palm trees and bamboo thickets, light that had crossed the darkness of s.p.a.ce from a distant star to illuminate a scene for painters.
"They"re still fighting?"
"Papa!" Then another idea seemed to occur to his son. "Are you feeling well?"
"You"re going to tell me that the American airplanes dropped a most peculiar bomb on a Korean town with a name as singular as roses. Isn"t this so?"
"Yes-but roses? Anyway, let me tell you about this weapon, Papa! A great advance-the future beckoning! You see what they"ve proved? A particle of matter can be converted into enormous outbursts of energy. This is something we"ve been working on here at the university, splitting uranium atoms."
"Light," he said. "It travels so fast! No time at all, really, from our point of view."
Hans Albert was silent. After a while he said casually, "Is Mama there? Let me speak to her."
The afternoon was quite warm, but Millie insisted he wear his hat anyway. He had the impression if he had argued she would have dragged out m.u.f.fler and gloves too. "Stop at the barber"s on your way," she had ordered. "Your hair is all over the place again!" He descended the narrow street that took him from his house, built during Zwingli"s Protestant Reformation in the sixteenth century, to the violin maker"s shop on Bahnhofstra.s.se in the center of the modern tourist district. Strange, the road that unwound in time from one to the other, he thought, and he too trudging down it. A Mercedes-Benz with German license plates blared at him as he stepped off a curb without looking. A donkey cart clopped by in the opposite direction, its driver wearing a peasant smock that Zwingli might have recognized. There was no such thing as past or future, he saw. It all happened at once in the wonderful, br.i.m.m.i.n.g light. He felt the weight of it, soft as petals on his face and hands.
The shop was cool and dim inside until his eyes adjusted. Sawdust m.u.f.fled his footsteps. His nose filled with the scent of pine and ebony, maple and resin. Unstrung instruments hung on the wall like dreaming angels, waiting to wake and sing. He would not-could not-deny he loved music. He ran his fingers over wood like satin and velvet.
"Stradivari"s design remains the standard of excellence, even today."
He glanced up at the speaker, a pale, stooped young man who carried on his father"s and grandfather"s business of making some of the best violins in Europe.
"That"s my latest copy you"re holding."
The young man took the instrument from his hands, tightened pegs, plucked strings, then took a bow and drew from the instrument a cascade of sound so rich it was like listening to a river of radiance pour down from the sky.
"High C," he said. "Let me hear it."
The young man demonstrated a pure, singing note.
He nodded. "Ah. And it lies easily under the fingers?"
"Very much so," the young man agreed. "But why does that concern you, my friend, expert musician that you are?"
"I have a student with a great deal of talent and a small hand."
The instrument maker glanced quizzically at him. They were, after all, speaking of violins, not pianos.
"And a present might give her the confidence she needs to take the gold."
"I see." The young man laid the violin in its case and closed the lid. "On your account?"
"On my account, thank you."
And if it had not been music, he thought as he was leaving the shop, his gift in his hand, what then? What grand enterprise would have filled his life?
Whatever might have been, surely it would have been sufficient. G.o.d was subtle, but he was not malicious.
One time, when he had been perhaps eleven or twelve, there had been a conversation around the kitchen table in his parents" home in Munich. An early snow sifted down outside, and his mother had pulled heavy velvet curtains across the windows. In his memory, the kitchen was hazy with blue-gray smoke from his uncle"s pipe, like a stage scene painted on gauze.
"Another poor report!" his father said, his hand over his eyes as if the mellow amber glow of the table lamp was too much for him. "I don"t see why you don"t just leave school now and come and join your uncle and me in the factory, instead of wasting your time and my money in the cla.s.sroom." "It was just low marks in history and geography, Hermann!" his mother pointed out. She stood with his father"s bierkrug in her hand, on the way to the cellar to refill it. "It said nothing about other subjects."
"Ah, leave the boy alone," Uncle Jakob counseled. "He"s a slow learner, but he"s capable of good things."
"You say so?" his father asked. "Well, I don"t see it."
A small fire chuckled to itself behind the gla.s.s doors of the potbellied stove; it was not yet cold enough in the room to open the doors.
"Sometimes ..." he began hesitantly, not because he was afraid of his father but because he was not sure himself what he wanted to say. "Sometimes I think there"s some great work for me to do."
His father forked up a slice of cold meat and added it to a hunk of dark bread and cheese he had been preparing before the subject of young Albert"s bad marks came up. "Electrical engineering is great work, lad! It"s the future."
"He"s good at mathematics, a natural," Uncle Jakob said thoughtfully. "Too good to be just an engineer, like you and me, Hermann."
"Music is like mathematics, isn"t it?" his mother asked, coming back into the room with a full krug. Foam leaked out from under the pewter lid.
"Then let him be a civil servant!" his father said. "But this schooling is a waste."
"There"s something I have to do," he insisted. "I think there"s a plan to my life. A riddle I have to solve-"
"So good at words, and yet he can"t pa.s.s his composition test!" his father mocked.
His mother smoothed his hair-even as a young boy it had been unruly. "There"s always more than one way, Liebchen."
"I think-"
"Life"s a great game of chance," Uncle Jakob said. He leaned back from the table and relit his pipe. "An uncertain ride on a merry-go-round at the Oktoberfest!"
"But Uncle, that"s like saying G.o.d is a gambler, throwing the dice for our lives-"
"The dice tell me you are no good in school!" his father roared. "I don"t need G.o.d to advise me not to spend more money on a poor scholar!"
His mother pulled him to her, pressing his face against her starched ap.r.o.n. "Don"t worry, Liebchen. I have money for music lessons. My money. Neither G.o.d nor your father shall have any say in how I spend it. I"ll buy you a new violin."
"Come, Papa. You haven"t even tasted your champagne!"
Millie linked her arm through his and drew him through the crowded living room, past the neighbors, the friends from their musical circle, the rabbi and the priest of the local Catholic church deep in a discussion of the world soccer cup, past his sons who were arguing over the Korean bomb.
"This atom they"ve split has unleashed a terrible demon in our world!" Eddie said.
Hans Albert had made the trip unexpectedly from Berlin on the Schnellzug. "You don"t understand. When the governments of the world are aware of the power of the atom, they"ll finally make peace!"
He was not fooled. One more gold medal was hardly cause enough for his oldest son"s visit.
They worried about his health. Strange, for he did not worry about it himself. Rosa, flushed and shining in a new dress, stood by the refreshment table that Mille and the housekeeper had worked all afternoon to set up with Millie"s heirloom silver and best china. The gold medal flamed like a sun on Rosa"s chest. Her parents stood with her, thick-bodied, slow- thinking. They were good people from the farm, not quite sure they understood why all these elegant folk in silk and velvet and glittering rings had come in taxis to kiss their little Rosa on both cheeks and shake her father"s hand. The future unfolded before them like a rose petal uncurling, and they did not have the wit to know it.
"Herr Einstein," Rosa called. "Thank you!"
She blew him a kiss with her fingertips that had so flawlessly reached high C. Then she turned to the young man beside her-a cousin, he knew, a farm lad-and tucked the hand with the gifted fingers in his.
Millie herded him to an armchair from which he could see everybody in the room. He sank into it, feeling for a moment like the apple whose falling to earth had demonstrated gravity. Lisl promptly climbed on his lap, spilling champagne over the new gray trousers Millie had made him wear. His daughter-in-law retrieved the child and took her away to bed; her own cheeks were as rosy from champagne as the child"s were from the summer sun. Across the room, he caught sight of his oldest grandchild, a serious boy, much too old now to sit on a grandparent"s knee. He showed signs of following his uncle into the sciences.
Hans Albert, still glowering from the argument with his brother, came to sit in the chair beside him.
"Grand theories are in the air now," Hans Albert said. "Wonderful ideas about extending the Poincare theory of dynamics to include gravitation. But some fools oppose the work."
"Ah. Who invents this?"
"Papa, physicists don"t invent. They"re not engineers. They propose theories and test them.
Anyway, the ideas come from some Americans, Dyson and Feynman. And from our Heisenberg too, of course."
"Light," he said, gazing at the warm play of candlelight on silver.
Hans Albert nodded impatiently. "Of course! The role of light, following an innate curve made by matter, that"s in the theory. And s.p.a.ce and time too, threaded together and warped by matter. The equations describing this reduce to Newton"s familiar prescriptions in the limit of essentially flat geometries. That"s what"s so exciting. I wish I could make you understand! You see- "
"How heavy it is."
"What is?" His son frowned at the interruption.
"Each ray as subtle as a rose petal," he said dreamily, "bending down to the earth."
"Something like that," the younger man said carefully.
"And everywhere it bends. If we go far enough away, does the light streaming out from the stars seem to curve?"
"Well, I don"t-"
"Even to the end of things? Mustn"t light bend then, at least?"
Hans Albert stared at him. "No disrespect, Papa, but you"re certainly not a physicist!"
When Millie"s back was turned, he slipped out of the crowded room.
The balcony was dark and empty, and the air rising off the lake was fresh. Overhead, a huge tapestry of stars blazed, a panoply of light streaking outward to the far horizons of the universe.
It was a time to see not just backwards but forwards too. Someday, he thought, man would follow the elusive light of the stars, sailing out into the far reaches of s.p.a.ce. Hans Albert could have told him how this would be done, but he already knew the truth of it in his heart.
He had the sense again tonight of endings, of a wave that had travelled so far finally curving on a distant sh.o.r.e. So be it. He was ready for it; there were few things to regret. All in all, it had been a good life.
Rosa had reached her C.
And yet-and yet.
The book Eddie had left for him was wrong in one respect. The sharks who s.n.a.t.c.hed away the victory were not external. They swam in the dark waters of the soul. The trick was not to let them.
He gazed up into the sky at the great gorgeous light.
The Last Article
HARRY TURTLEDOVE.
Non-violence is the first article of my faith. It is also the last article of my creed.
-MOHANDAS GANDHI.
The one means that wins the easiest victory over reason: terror and force.
-ADOLF HITLER, Mein Kampf
The tank rumbled down the Rajpath, past the ruins of the Memorial Arch, toward the India Gate. The gateway arch was still standing, although it had taken a couple of sh.e.l.l hits in the fighting before New Delhi fell. The Union Jack fluttered above it.
British troops lined both sides of the Rajpath, watching silently as the tank rolled past them.
Their khaki uniforms were filthy and torn; many wore bandages. They had the weary, past-caring stares of beaten men, though the Army of India had fought until flesh and munitions gave out.
The India Gate drew near. A military band, smartened up for the occasion, began to play as the tank went past. The bagpipes sounded thin and lost in the hot, humid air.
A single man stood waiting in the shadow of the Gate. Field Marshal Walther Model leaned down into the cupola of the Panzer IV. "No one can match the British at ceremonies of this sort,"
he said to his aide.
Major Dieter Lasch laughed, a bit unkindly. "They"ve had enough practice, sir," he answered, raising his voice to be heard over the flatulent roar of the tank"s engine.
"What is that tune?" the field marshal asked. "Does it have a meaning?"
"It"s called "The World Turned Upside Down," " said Lasch, who had been involved with his British opposite number in planning the formal surrender. "Lord Cornwallis"s army musicians played it when he yielded to the Americans at Yorktown."
"Ah, the Americans." Model was for a moment so lost in his own thoughts that his monocle threatened to slip from his right eye. He screwed it back in. The single lens was the only thing he shared with the cliched image of a high German officer. He was no lean, hawk-faced Prussian.