At least Ender will realize at last that this is the natural order of things, that he might not be as responsible for the destruction of the b.u.g.g.e.rs three thousand years ago as he had always thought. Xenocide must be built into the universe. No mercy, not even for the greatest players in the game.
How could she have ever thought otherwise? Why should intelligent species be immune to the threat of extinction that looms over every species that ever came to be?
It must have been an hour after Jakt left the bridge before Valentine finally turned off her terminal and stood up to go to bed. On a whim, though, she paused before leaving and spoke into the air. "Jane?" she said. "Jane?"
No answer.
There was no reason for her to expect one. It was Miro who wore the jewel in his ear. Miro and Ender both. How many people did she think Jane could monitor at one time? Maybe two was the most she could handle.
Or maybe two thousand. Or two million. What did Valentine know of the limitations of a being who existed as a phantom in the philotic web? Even if Jane heard her, Valentine had no right to expect that she would answer her call.
Valentine stopped in the corridor, directly between Miro"s door and the door to the room she shared with Jakt. The doors were not soundproof. She could hear Jakt"s soft snoring inside their compartment. She also heard another sound. Miro"s breath. He wasn"t sleeping. He might be crying. She hadn"t raised three children without being able to recognize that ragged, heavy breathing.
He"s not my child. I shouldn"t meddle.
She pushed open the door; it was noiseless, but it cast a shaft of light across the bed. Miro"s crying stopped immediately, but he looked at her through swollen eyes.
"What do you want?" he said.
She stepped into the room and sat on the floor beside his bunk, so their faces were only a few inches apart. "You"ve never cried for yourself, have you?" she said.
"A few times."
"But tonight you"re crying for her."
"Myself as much as her."
Valentine leaned closer, put her arm around him, pulled his head onto her shoulder.
"No," he said. But he didn"t pull away. And after a few moments, his arm swung awkwardly around to embrace her. He didn"t cry anymore, but he did let her hold him for a minute or two. Maybe it helped. Valentine had no way of knowing.
Then he was done. He pulled away, rolled onto his back. "I"m sorry," he said.
"You"re welcome," she said. She believed in answering what people meant, not what they said.
"Don"t tell Jakt," he whispered.
"Nothing to tell," she said. "We had a good talk."
She got up and left, closing his door behind her. He was a good boy. She liked the fact that he could admit caring what Jakt thought about him. And what did it matter if his tears tonight had self-pity in them? She had shed a few like that herself. Grief, she reminded herself, is almost always for the mourner"s loss.
Chapter 5
The Lusitania Fleet
Ender says that when the war fleet from Starways Congress reaches us, they plan to destroy this world. Interesting. You don"t fear death? We don"t intend to be here when they arrive.
Qing-jao was no longer the little girl whose hands had bled in secret. Her life had been transformed from the moment she was proved to be G.o.dspoken, and in the ten years since that day she had come to accept the voice of the G.o.ds in her life and the role this gave her in society. She learned to accept the privileges and honors given to her as gifts actually meant for the G.o.ds; as her father taught her, she did not take on airs, but instead grew more humble as the G.o.ds and the people laid ever-heavier burdens on her.
She took her duties seriously, and found joy in them. For the past ten years she had pa.s.sed through a rigorous, exhilarating course of studies. Her body was shaped and trained in the company of other children-- running, swimming, riding, combat-with-swords, combat-with-sticks, combat-with-bones. Along with other children, her memory was filled with languages-- Stark, the common speech of the stars, which was typed into computers; Old Chinese, which was sung in the throat and drawn in beautiful ideograms on rice paper or in fine sand; and New Chinese, which was merely spoken at the mouth and jotted down with a common alphabet on ordinary paper or in dirt. No one was surprised except Qing-jao herself that she learned all these languages much more quickly and easily and thoroughly than any of the other children.
Other teachers came to her alone. This was how she learned sciences and history, mathematics and music. And every week she would go to her father and spend half a day with him, showing him all that she had learned and listening to what he said in response. His praise made her dance all the way back to her room; his mildest rebuke made her spend hours tracing woodgrain lines in her schoolroom, until she felt worthy to return to studying.
Another part of her schooling was utterly private. She had seen for herself how Father was so strong that he could postpone his obedience to the G.o.ds. She knew that when the G.o.ds demanded a ritual of purification, the hunger, the need need to obey them was so exquisite it could not be denied. And yet Father somehow denied it-- long enough, at least, that his rituals were always in private. Qing-jao longed for such strength herself, and so she began to discipline herself to delay. When the G.o.ds made her feel her oppressive unworthiness, and her eyes began to search for woodgrain lines or her hands began to feel unbearably filthy, she would wait, trying to concentrate on what was happening at the moment and put off obedience as long as she could. to obey them was so exquisite it could not be denied. And yet Father somehow denied it-- long enough, at least, that his rituals were always in private. Qing-jao longed for such strength herself, and so she began to discipline herself to delay. When the G.o.ds made her feel her oppressive unworthiness, and her eyes began to search for woodgrain lines or her hands began to feel unbearably filthy, she would wait, trying to concentrate on what was happening at the moment and put off obedience as long as she could.
At first it was a triumph if she managed to postpone her purification for a full minute-- and when her resistance broke, the G.o.ds punished her for it by making the ritual more onerous and difficult than usual. But she refused to give up. She was Han Fei-tzu"s daughter, wasn"t she? And in time, over the years, she learned what her father had learned: that one could live with the hunger, contain it, often for hours, like a bright fire encased in a box of translucent jade, a dangerous, terrible fire from the G.o.ds, burning within her heart.
Then, when she was alone, she could open that box and let the fire out, not in a single, terrible eruption, but slowly, gradually, filling her with light as she bowed her head and traced the lines on the floor, or bent over the sacred laver of her holy washings, quietly and methodically rubbing her hands with pumice, lye, and aloe.
Thus she converted the raging voice of the G.o.ds into a private, disciplined worship. Only at rare moments of sudden distress did she lose control and fling herself to the floor in front of a teacher or visitor. She accepted these humiliations as the G.o.ds" way of reminding her that their power over her was absolute, that her usual self-control was only permitted for their amus.e.m.e.nt. She was content with this imperfect discipline. After all, it would be presumptuous of her to equal her father"s perfect self-control. His extraordinary n.o.bility came because the G.o.ds honored him, and so did not require his public humiliation; she had done nothing to earn such honor.
Last of all, her schooling included one day each week helping with the righteous labor of the common people. Righteous labor, of course, was not the work the common people did every day in their offices and factories. Righteous labor meant the backbreaking work of the rice paddies. Every man and woman and child on Path had to perform this labor, bending and stooping in shin-deep water to plant and harvest the rice-- or forfeit citizenship. "This is how we honor our ancestors," Father explained to her when she was little. "We show them that none of us will ever rise above doing their labor." The rice that was grown by righteous labor was considered holy; it was offered in the temples and eaten on holy days; it was placed in small bowls as offerings to the household G.o.ds.
Once, when Qing-jao was twelve, the day was terribly hot and she was eager to finish her work on a research project. "Don"t make me go to the rice paddies today," she said to her teacher. "What I"m doing here is so much more important."
The teacher bowed and went away, but soon Father came into her room. He carried a heavy sword, and she screamed in terror when he raised it over his head. Did he mean to kill her for having spoken so sacrilegiously? But he did not hurt her-- how could she have imagined that he might? Instead the sword came down on her computer terminal. The metal parts twisted; the plastic shattered and flew. The machine was destroyed.
Father did not raise his voice. It was in the faintest whisper that he said, "First the G.o.ds. Second the ancestors. Third the people. Fourth the rulers. Last the self."
It was the clearest expression of the Path. It was the reason this world was settled in the first place. She had forgotten: If she was too busy to perform righteous labor, she was not on the Path.
She would never forget again. And, in time, she learned to love the sun beating down on her back, the water cool and murky around her legs and hands, the stalks of the rice plants like fingers reaching up from the mud to intertwine with her fingers. Covered with muck in the rice paddies, she never felt unclean, because she knew that she was filthy in the service of the G.o.ds.
Finally, at the age of sixteen, her schooling was finished. She had only to prove herself in a grown woman"s task-- one that was difficult and important enough that it could be entrusted only to one who was G.o.dspoken.
She came before the great Han Fei-tzu in his room. Like hers, it was a large open s.p.a.ce; like hers, the sleeping accommodation was simple, a mat on the floor; like hers, the room was dominated by a table with a computer terminal on it. She had never entered her father"s room without seeing something floating in the display above the terminal-- diagrams, threedimensional models, realtime simulations, words. Most commonly words. Letters or ideographs floating in the air on simulated pages, moving back and forward, side to side as Father needed to compare them.
In Qing-jao"s room, all the rest of the s.p.a.ce was empty. Since Father did not trace woodgrain lines, he had no need for that much austerity. Even so, his tastes were simple. One rug-- only rarely one that had much decoration to it. One low table, with one sculpture standing on it. Walls bare except for one painting. And because the room was so large, each one of these things seemed almost lost, like the faint voice of someone crying out from very far away.
The message of this room to visitors was clear: Han Fei-tzu chose simplicity. One of each thing was enough for a pure soul.
The message to Qing-jao, however, was quite different. For she knew what no one outside the household realized: The rug, the table, the sculpture, and the painting were changed every day. And never in her life had she recognized any one of them. So the lesson she learned was this: A pure soul must never grow attached to any one thing. A pure soul must expose himself to new things every day.
Because this was a formal occasion, she did not come and stand behind him as he worked, studying what appeared in his display, trying to guess what he was doing. This time she came to the middle of the room and knelt on the plain rug, which was today the color of a robin"s egg, with a small stain in one corner. She kept her eyes down, not even studying the stain, until Father got up from his chair and came to stand before her.
"Han Qing-jao," he said. "Let me see the sunrise of my daughter"s face."
She lifted her head, looked at him, and smiled.
He smiled back. "What I will set before you is not an easy task, even for an experienced adult," said Father.
Qing-jao bowed her head. She had expected that Father would set a hard challenge for her, and she was ready to do his will.
"Look at me, my Qing-jao," said Father.
She lifted her head, looked into his eyes.
"This is not going to be a school a.s.signment. This is a task from the real world. A task that Starways Congress has given me, on which the fate of nations and peoples and worlds may rest."
Qing-jao had been tense already, but now Father was frightening her. "Then you must give this task to someone who can be trusted with it, not to an untried child."
"You haven"t been a child in years, Qing-jao. Are you ready to hear your task?"
"Yes, Father."
"What do you know about the Lusitania Fleet?"
"Do you want me to tell you everything everything I know about it?" I know about it?"
"I want you to tell me all that you think matters matters."
So-- this was a kind of test, to see how well she could distill the important from the unimportant in her knowledge about a particular subject.
"The fleet was sent to subdue a rebellious colony on Lusitania, where laws concerning noninterference in the only known alien species had been defiantly broken."
Was that enough? No-- Father was still waiting.
"There was controversy, right from the start," she said. "Essays attributed to a person called Demosthenes stirred up trouble."
"What trouble, in particular?"
"To colony worlds, Demosthenes gave warning that the Lusitania Fleet was a dangerous precedent-- it would be only a matter of time before Starways Congress used force to compel their their obedience, too. To Catholic worlds and Catholic minorities everywhere, Demosthenes charged that Congress was trying to punish the Bishop of Lusitania for sending missionaries to the pequeninos to save their souls from h.e.l.l. To scientists, Demosthenes sent warning that the principle of independent research was at stake-- a whole world was under military attack because it dared to prefer the judgment of the scientists on the scene to the judgment of bureaucrats many light-years away. And to everyone, Demosthenes made claims that the Lusitania Fleet carried the Molecular Disruption Device. Of course that is an obvious lie, but some believed it." obedience, too. To Catholic worlds and Catholic minorities everywhere, Demosthenes charged that Congress was trying to punish the Bishop of Lusitania for sending missionaries to the pequeninos to save their souls from h.e.l.l. To scientists, Demosthenes sent warning that the principle of independent research was at stake-- a whole world was under military attack because it dared to prefer the judgment of the scientists on the scene to the judgment of bureaucrats many light-years away. And to everyone, Demosthenes made claims that the Lusitania Fleet carried the Molecular Disruption Device. Of course that is an obvious lie, but some believed it."
"How effective were these essays?" asked Father.
"I don"t know."
"They were very effective," said Father. "Fifteen years ago, the earliest essays to the colonies were so effective that they almost caused revolution."
A near-rebellion in the colonies? Fifteen years ago? Qing-jao knew of only one such event, but she had never realized it had anything to do with Demosthenes" essays. She blushed. "That was the time of the Colony Charter-- your first great treaty."
"The treaty was not mine," said Han Fei-tzu. "The treaty belonged equally to Congress and the colonies. Because of it a terrible conflict was avoided. And the Lusitania Fleet continues on its great mission."
"You wrote every word of the treaty, Father."
"In doing so I only found expression for the wishes and desires already in the hearts of the people on both sides of the issue. I was a clerk."
Qing-jao bowed her head. She knew the truth, and so did everyone else. It had been the beginning of Han Fei-tzu"s greatness, for he not only wrote the treaty but also persuaded both sides to accept it almost without revision. Ever after that, Han Fei-tzu had been one of the most trusted advisers to Congress; messages arrived daily from the greatest men and women of every world. If he chose to call himself a clerk in that great undertaking, that was only because he was a man of great modesty. Qing-jao also knew that Mother was already dying as he accomplished all this work. That was the kind of man her father was, for he neglected neither his wife nor his duty. He could not save Mother"s life, but he could save the lives that might have been lost in war.
"Qing-jao, why do you say that it is an obvious lie that the fleet is carrying the M.D. Device?"
"Because-- because that would be monstrous. It would be like Ender the Xenocide, destroying an entire world. So much power has no right or reason to exist in the universe."
"Who taught you this?"
"Decency taught me this," said Qing-jao. "The G.o.ds made the stars and all the planets-- who is man to unmake them?"
"But the G.o.ds also made the laws of nature that make it possible to destroy them-- who is man to refuse to receive what the G.o.ds have given?"
Qing-jao was stunned to silence. She had never heard Father speak in apparent defense of any aspect of war-- he loathed war in any form.
"I ask you again-- who taught you that so much power has no right or reason to exist in the universe?"
"It"s my own idea."
"But that sentence is an exact quotation."
"Yes. From Demosthenes. But if I believe an idea, it becomes my own. You taught me that."
"You must be careful that you understand all the consequences of an idea before you believe it."
"The Little Doctor must never be used on Lusitania, and therefore it should not have been sent."
Han Fei-tzu nodded gravely. "How do you know it must never be used?"
"Because it would destroy the pequeninos, a young and beautiful people who are eager to fulfill their potential as a sentient species."
"Another quotation."
"Father, have you read The Life of Human The Life of Human?"
"I have."
"Then how can you doubt that the pequeninos must be preserved?"
"I said I had read The Life of Human The Life of Human. I didn"t say that I believed it."
"You don"t don"t believe it?" believe it?"
"I neither believe it nor disbelieve it. The book first appeared after after the ansible on Lusitania had been destroyed. Therefore it is probable that the book did not originate there, and if it didn"t originate there then it"s fiction. That seems particularly likely because it"s signed "Speaker for the Dead," which is the same name signed to the ansible on Lusitania had been destroyed. Therefore it is probable that the book did not originate there, and if it didn"t originate there then it"s fiction. That seems particularly likely because it"s signed "Speaker for the Dead," which is the same name signed to The The Hive Queen Hive Queen and the Hegemon and the Hegemon, which are thousands of years old. Someone was obviously trying to capitalize on the reverence people feel toward those ancient works."
"I believe The Life of Human The Life of Human is true." is true."
"That"s your privilege, Qing-jao. But why why do you believe it?" do you believe it?"
Because it sounded true when she read it. Could she say that to Father? Yes, she could say anything. "Because when I read it I felt that it must must be true." be true."