Xenocide

"I see."

"Now you know that I"m foolish."

"On the contrary. I know that you are wise. When you hear a true story, there is a part of you that responds to it regardless of art, regardless of evidence. Let it be clumsily told and you will still love the tale, if you love truth. Let it be the most obvious fabrication and you will still believe whatever truth is in it, because you cannot deny truth no matter how shabbily it is dressed."

"Then how is it that you don"t don"t believe believe The Life of Human The Life of Human?"

"I spoke unclearly. We are using two different meanings of the words truth truth and and belief belief. You believe that the story is true, because you responded to it from that sense of truth deep within you. But that sense of truth does not respond to a story"s factuality-- to whether it literally depicts a real event in the real world. Your inner sense of truth responds to a story"s causality-- to whether it faithfully shows the way the universe functions, the way the G.o.ds work their will among human beings."

Qing-jao thought for only a moment, then nodded her understanding. "So The Life of Human The Life of Human may be universally true, but specifically false." may be universally true, but specifically false."

"Yes," said Han Fei-tzu. "You can read the book and gain great wisdom from it, because it is true. But is that book an accurate representation of the pequeninos themselves? One can hardly believe that that-- a mammaloid species that turns into a tree when it dies? Beautiful as poetry. Ludicrous as science."

"But can you know that that, either, Father?"

"I can"t be sure, no. Nature has done many strange things, and there is a chance that The Life of Human The Life of Human is genuine and true. Thus I neither believe it nor disbelieve it. I hold it in abeyance. I wait. Yet while I"m waiting, I don"t expect Congress to treat Lusitania as if it were populated by the fanciful creatures from is genuine and true. Thus I neither believe it nor disbelieve it. I hold it in abeyance. I wait. Yet while I"m waiting, I don"t expect Congress to treat Lusitania as if it were populated by the fanciful creatures from The Life of Human The Life of Human. For all we know, the pequeninos may be deadly dangerous to us. They are are aliens." aliens."

"Ramen."

"In the story. But raman or varelse, we do not know what they are. The fleet carries the Little Doctor because it might might be necessary to save mankind from unspeakable peril. It is not up to us to decide whether or not it should be used-- Congress will decide. It is not up to us to decide whether it should have been sent-- Congress has sent it. And it is certainly not up to us to decide whether it should exist-- the G.o.ds have decreed that such a thing is possible and be necessary to save mankind from unspeakable peril. It is not up to us to decide whether or not it should be used-- Congress will decide. It is not up to us to decide whether it should have been sent-- Congress has sent it. And it is certainly not up to us to decide whether it should exist-- the G.o.ds have decreed that such a thing is possible and can can exist." exist."

"So Demosthenes was right. The M.D. Device is is with the fleet." with the fleet."

"Yes."

"And the government files that Demosthenes published-- they were genuine."

"Yes.: "But Father-- you joined many others in claiming that they were forgeries."

"Just as the G.o.ds speak only to a chosen few, so the secrets of the rulers must be known only to those who will use the knowledge properly. Demosthenes was giving powerful secrets to people who were not fit to use them wisely, and so for the good of the people those secrets had to be withdrawn. The only way to retrieve a secret, once it is known, is to replace it with a lie; then the knowledge of the truth is once again your secret."

"You"re telling me that Demosthenes is not a liar, and Congress is is."

"I"m telling you that Demosthenes is the enemy of the G.o.ds. A wise ruler would never have sent the Lusitania Fleet without giving it the possibility of responding to any any circ.u.mstance. But Demosthenes has used his knowledge that the Little Doctor is with the fleet in order to try to force Congress to withdraw the fleet. Thus he wishes to take power out of the hands of those whom the G.o.ds have ordained to rule humankind. What would happen to the people if they rejected the rulers given them by the G.o.ds?" circ.u.mstance. But Demosthenes has used his knowledge that the Little Doctor is with the fleet in order to try to force Congress to withdraw the fleet. Thus he wishes to take power out of the hands of those whom the G.o.ds have ordained to rule humankind. What would happen to the people if they rejected the rulers given them by the G.o.ds?"

"Chaos and suffering," said Qing-jao. History was full of times of chaos and suffering, until the G.o.ds sent strong rulers and inst.i.tutions to keep order.

"So Demosthenes told the truth about the Little Doctor. Did you think the enemies of the G.o.ds could never never speak the truth? I wish it were so. It would make them much easier to identify." speak the truth? I wish it were so. It would make them much easier to identify."

"If we can lie in the service of the G.o.ds, what other crimes can we commit?"

"What is a crime?"

"An act that"s against the law."

"What law?"

"I see-- Congress makes the law, so the law is whatever Congress says. But Congress is composed of men and women, who may do good and evil."

"Now you"re nearer the truth. We can"t do crimes crimes in the service of Congress, because Congress makes the laws. But if Congress ever became evil, then in obeying them we might also be doing evil. That is a matter of conscience. However, if that happened, Congress would surely lose the mandate of heaven. And in the service of Congress, because Congress makes the laws. But if Congress ever became evil, then in obeying them we might also be doing evil. That is a matter of conscience. However, if that happened, Congress would surely lose the mandate of heaven. And we we, the G.o.dspoken, don"t have to wait and wonder about the mandate of heaven, as others do. If Congress ever loses the mandate of the G.o.ds, we will know at once."

"So you lied for Congress because Congress had the mandate of heaven."

"And therefore I knew that to help them keep their secret was the will of the G.o.ds for the good of the people."

Qing-jao had never thought of Congress in quite this way before. All the history books she had studied showed Congress as the great unifier of humanity, and according to the schoolbooks, all its acts were n.o.ble. Now, though, she understood that some of its actions might not seem seem good. Yet that didn"t necessarily mean that they were good. Yet that didn"t necessarily mean that they were not not good. "I must learn from the G.o.ds, then, whether the will of Congress is also their will," she said. good. "I must learn from the G.o.ds, then, whether the will of Congress is also their will," she said.

"Will you do that?" asked Han Fei-tzu. "Will you obey the will of Congress, even when it might seem wrong, as long as Congress has the mandate of heaven?"

"Are you asking for my oath?"

"I am."

"Then yes, I will obey, as long as they have the mandate of heaven."

"I had to have that oath from you to satisfy the security requirements of Congress," he said. "I couldn"t have given you your task without it." He cleared his throat. "But now I ask you for another oath."

"I"ll give it if I can."

"This oath is from-- it arises from great love. Han Qing-jao, will you serve the G.o.ds in all things, in all ways, throughout your life?"

"Oh, Father, we need no oath for this. Haven"t the G.o.ds chosen me already, and led me with their voice?"

"Nevertheless I ask you for this oath."

"Always, in all things, in all ways, I will serve the G.o.ds."

To her surprise, Father knelt before her and took her hands in his. Tears streamed down his cheeks. "You have lifted from my heart the heaviest burden that was ever laid there."

"How did I do this, Father?"

"Before your mother died, she asked me for my promise. She said that since her entire character was expressed by her devotion to the G.o.ds, the only way I could help you to know her was to teach you also to serve the G.o.ds. All my life I have still been afraid that I might fail, that you might turn away from the G.o.ds. That you might come to hate them. Or that you might not be worthy of their voice."

This struck Qing-jao to the heart. She was always conscious of her deep unworthiness before the G.o.ds, of her filthiness in their sight-- even when they weren"t requiring her to watch or trace woodgrain lines. Only now did she learn what was at stake: her mother"s love for her.

"All my fears are gone now. You are are a perfect daughter, my Qing-jao. You already serve the G.o.ds well. And now, with your oath, I can be sure you"ll continue forever. This will cause great rejoicing in the house in heaven where your mother dwells." a perfect daughter, my Qing-jao. You already serve the G.o.ds well. And now, with your oath, I can be sure you"ll continue forever. This will cause great rejoicing in the house in heaven where your mother dwells."

Will it? In heaven they know my weakness. You, Father, you only see that I have not yet failed the G.o.ds; Mother must know how close I"ve come so many times, how filthy I am whenever the G.o.ds look upon me.

But he seemed so full of joy that she dared not show him how much she dreaded the day when she would prove her unworthiness for all to see. So she embraced him.

Still, she couldn"t help asking him, "Father, do you really think Mother heard me make that oath?"

"I hope so," said Han Fei-tzu. "If she didn"t, the G.o.ds will surely save the echo of it and put it in a seash.e.l.l and let her listen to it whenever she puts it to her ear."

This sort of fanciful storytelling was a game they had played together as children. Qing-jao set aside her dread and quickly came up with an answer. "No, the G.o.ds will save the touch of our embrace and weave it into a shawl, which she can wear around her shoulders when winter comes to heaven." She was relieved, anyway, that Father had not said yes. He only hoped hoped that Mother had heard the oath she made. Perhaps she hadn"t-- band so she wouldn"t be so disappointed when her daughter failed. that Mother had heard the oath she made. Perhaps she hadn"t-- band so she wouldn"t be so disappointed when her daughter failed.

Father kissed her, then stood up. "Now you are ready to hear your task," he said. you are ready to hear your task," he said.

He took her by the hand and led her to his table. She stood beside him when he sat on his chair; she was not much taller, standing, than he was sitting down. Probably she had not yet reached her adult height, but she hoped she wouldn"t grow much more. She didn"t want to become one of those large, hulking women who carried heavy burdens in the fields. Better to be a mouse than a hog, that"s what Mu-pao had told her years ago.

Father brought a starmap up into the display. She recognized the area immediately. It centered on the Lusitania star system, though the scale was too small for individual planets to be visible. "Lusitania is in the center," she said.

Father nodded. He typed a few more commands. "Now watch this," he said. "Not the display, my fingers. This, plus your voice identification, is the pa.s.sword that will allow you to access the information you"ll need."

She watched him type: 4Gang. She recognized the reference at once. Her mother"s ancestor-of-the-heart had been Jiang-qing, the widow of the first Communist Emperor, Mao Ze-dong. When Jiang-qing and her allies were driven from power, the Conspiracy of Cowards vilified them under the name "Gang of Four." Qing-jao"s mother had been a true daughter-of-the-heart to that great martyred woman of the past. And now Qing-jao would be able to do further honor to her mother"s ancestor-of-the-heart every time she typed the access code. It was a gracious thing for her father to arrange.

In the display there appeared many green dots. She quickly counted, almost without thinking: there were nineteen of them, cl.u.s.tered at some distance from Lusitania, but surrounding it in most directions.

"Is that the Lusitania Fleet?"

"Those were their positions five months ago." He typed again. The green dots all disappeared. "And those are their positions today."

She looked for them. She couldn"t find a green dot anywhere. Yet Father clearly expected her to see something something. "Are they already at Lusitania?"

"The ships are where you see them," said Father. "Five months ago the fleet disappeared."

"Where did it go?"

"No one knows."

"Was it a mutiny?"

"No one knows."

"The whole whole fleet?" fleet?"

"Every ship."

"When you say they disappeared, what do you mean?"

Father glanced at her with a smile. "Well done, Qing-jao. You"ve asked the right question. No one saw them-- they were all in deep s.p.a.ce. So they didn"t physically physically disappear. As far as we know, they may be moving along, still on course. They only disappeared in the sense that we lost all contact with them. " disappear. As far as we know, they may be moving along, still on course. They only disappeared in the sense that we lost all contact with them. "

"The ansibles?"

"Silent. All within the same three-minute period. No transmissions were interrupted. One would end, and then the next one-- never came."

"Every ship"s connection with every planetside ansible everywhere everywhere? That"s impossible. Even an explosion-- if there could be one so large-- but it couldn"t be a single event, anyway, because they were so widely distributed around Lusitania. "

"Well, it could could be, Qing-jao. If you can imagine an event so cataclysmic-- it could be that Lusitania"s star became a supernova. It would be decades before we saw the flash even on the closest worlds. The trouble is that it would be the most unlikely supernova in history. Not be, Qing-jao. If you can imagine an event so cataclysmic-- it could be that Lusitania"s star became a supernova. It would be decades before we saw the flash even on the closest worlds. The trouble is that it would be the most unlikely supernova in history. Not impossible impossible, but unlikely."

"And there would have been some advance indications. Some changes in the star"s condition. Didn"t the ships" instruments detect something?"

"No. That"s why we don"t think it was any known astronomical phenomenon. Scientists can"t think of anything to explain it. So we"ve tried investigating it as sabotage. We"ve searched for penetrations of the ansible computers. We"ve raked over all the personnel files from every ship, searching for some possible conspiracy among the shipboard crews. There"s been cryptoa.n.a.lysis of every communication by every ship, searching for some kind of messages among conspirators. The military and the government have a.n.a.lyzed everything they can think of to a.n.a.lyze. The police on every planet have conducted inquiries-- we"ve checked the background on every every ansible operator." ansible operator."

"Even though no messages are being sent, are the ansibles still connected?"

"What do you think?"

Qing-jao blushed. "Of course they would be, even if an M.D. Device had been used against the fleet, because the ansibles are linked by fragments of subatomic particles. They"d still be there even if the whole starship were blown to dust."

"Don"t be embarra.s.sed, Qing-jao. The wise are not wise because they make no mistakes. They are wise because they correct their mistakes as soon as they recognize them."

However, Qing-jao was blushing now for another reason. The hot blood was pounding in her head because it had only now dawned on her what Father"s a.s.signment for her was going to be. But that was impossible. He couldn"t give to her her a task that thousands of wiser, older people had already failed at. a task that thousands of wiser, older people had already failed at.

"Father," she whispered. "What is my task?" She still hoped that it was some minor problem involved with the disappearance of the fleet. But she knew that her hope was in vain even before he spoke.

"You must discover every possible explanation for the disappearance of the fleet," he said, "and calculate the likelihood of each one. Starways Congress must be able to tell how this happened and how to make sure it will never happen again."

"But Father," said Qing-jao, "I"m only sixteen. Aren"t there many others who are wiser than I am?"

"Perhaps they"re all too wise to attept the task," he said. "But you are young enough not to fancy yourself wise. You"re young enough to think of impossible things and discover why they might be possible. Above all, G.o.ds speak to you with extraordinary clarity, my brilliant child, my Gloriously Bright."

That was what she was afraid of-- that Father expected her to succeed because of the favor of the G.o.ds. He didn"t understand how unworthy the G.o.ds found her, how little they liked her.

And there was another problem. "What if I succeed? What if I find out where the Lusitania Fleet is, and restore communications? Wouldn"t it then be my fault if the fleet destroyed Lusitania?"

"It"s good that your first thought is compa.s.sion for the people of Lusitania. I a.s.sure you that Starways Congress has promised not to use the M.D. Device unless it proves absolutely unavoidable, and that is so unlikely that I can"t believe it would happen. Even if it did, though, it"s Congress that must decide. As my ancestor-of-the-heart said, "Though the wise man"s punishments may be light, this is not due to his compa.s.sion; though his penalties may be severe, this is not because he is cruel; he simply follows the custom appropriate to the time. Circ.u.mstances change according to the age, and ways of dealing with them change with the circ.u.mstances." You may be sure that Starways Congress will deal with Lusitania, not according to kindness or cruelty, but according to what is necessary for the good of all humanity. That is why we serve the rulers: because they serve the people, who serve the ancestors, who serve the G.o.ds."

"Father, I was unworthy even to think otherwise," said Qing-jao. She felt her filthiness now, instead of just knowing it in her mind. She needed to wash her hands. She needed to trace a line. But she contained it. She would wait.

Whatever I do, she thought, there will be a terrible consequence. If I fail, then Father will lose honor before Congress and therefore before all the world of Path. That would prove to many that Father isn"t worthy to be chosen G.o.d of Path when he dies.

Yet if I succeed, the result might be xenocide. Even though the choice belongs to Congress, I would still know that I made such a thing possible. The responsibility would be partly mine. No matter what I do, I will be covered with failure and smeared with unworthiness.

Then Father spoke to her as if the G.o.ds had shown him her heart. "Yes, you were unworthy," he said, "and you continue to be unworthy in your thoughts even now."

Qing-jao blushed and bowed her head, ashamed, not that her thoughts had been so plainly visible to her father, but that she had had such disobedient thoughts at all.

Father touched her shoulder gently with his hand. "But I believe the G.o.ds will make you worthy," said Father. "Starways Congress has the mandate of heaven, but you are also chosen to walk your own path. You can succeed in this great work. Will you try?"

"I will try." I will also fail, but that will surprise no one, least of all the G.o.ds, who know my unworthiness.

"All the pertinent archives have been opened up to your searching, when you speak your name and type the pa.s.sword. If you need help, let me know."

She left Father"s room with dignity, and forced herself to walk slowly up the stairs to her room. Only when she was inside with the door closed did she throw herself to her knees and creep along the floor. She traced woodgrain lines until she could hardly see. Her unworthiness was so great that even then she didn"t quite feel clean; she went to the lavatory and scrubbed her hands until she knew the G.o.ds were satisfied. Twice the servants tried to interrupt her with meals or messages-- she cared little which-- but when they saw that she was communing with the G.o.ds they bowed and quietly slipped away.

It was not the washing of her hands, though, that finally made her clean. It was the moment when she drove the last vestige of uncertainty from her heart. Starways Congress had the mandate of heaven. She must purge herself of all doubt. Whatever they meant to do with the Lusitania Fleet, it was surely the will of the G.o.ds that it be accomplished. Therefore it was her duty to help them accomplish it. And if she was in fact doing the will of the G.o.ds, then they would open a way for her to solve the problem that had been set before her. Anytime she thought otherwise, anytime the words of Demosthenes returned to her mind, she would have to blot them out by remembering that she she would obey the rulers who have the mandate of heaven. would obey the rulers who have the mandate of heaven.

By the time her mind was calm, her palms were raw and dotted with blood seeping up from the layers of living skin that were now so close to the surface. This is how my understanding of the truth arises, she told herself. If I wash away enough of my mortality, then the truth of the G.o.ds will seep upward into the light.

She was clean at last. The hour was late and her eyes were tired. Nevertheless, she sat down before her terminal and began the work. "Show me summaries of all the research that has been conducted so far on the disappearance of the Lusitania Fleet," she said, "starting with the most recent." Almost at once words started appearing in the air above her terminal, page upon page lined up like soldiers marching to the front. She would read one, then scroll it out of the way, only to have the page behind it move to the front for her to read it. Seven hours she read until she could read no more; then she fell asleep before the terminal.